A Relaxing Mini-Vacay

Monday, February 21, 2011

I can't tell you how nice it has been to have a few days off. I've been doing whatever I want and its so nice. I cleaned my apartment and all my blankets, went out with friends a couple times and had my pamper day at a spa. The spa day was good. Best facial I ever had, Mani wasn't the best but the hair treatment was great. The best three things about my time off are my new phone (I'm in love with it), I've been reading a lot and I haven't thought about work for more than a half an hour. I needed a break from work so bad, its really stressful. I may have to look for a different job if we don't have funding which could happen. I'm worried about that now. Not really ready to leave MT but it may happen sooner than I thought. Anyway not thinking about that today...going to finish my book, get to the gym and do some laundry. Can't wait until my next vacation!

  

awesome dinner& other

Thursday, February 17, 2011

I poached some orange roughy with wine, mushrooms, onions, garlic and chicken both. So great and low cal. Also steamed broccoli sprouts and rice. I read somewhere that you should eat fish or seafood twice a week. That seems like a lot but I'm trying to have as many lean proteins as possible.
I feel more inclined to work out and eat healthy but am still pretty sporadic about everything. I'm working on changing that. Don't really know why that is...
Well tomorrow is the big day...facial, mani and hair treatment. So excited its finally here. Going out to dinner with a friend as well. Saturday night I'm meeting some friends for wine and snacks. Weekly three is going ok, just haven't done any SP videos. I don't like those for some reason. Other than that I plan on cleaning a lot and getting to the gym whenever possible. Mostly just enjoying time off...

  

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MT-MOONCHASER 2/17/2011 9:54PM

Boy, you almost make fish look edible. Report Inappropriate Comment

Weekly Three (week of Feb 14)

Monday, February 14, 2011

I don't have to work this weekend!! Even better I have Wed-Monday off! So excited! I'll have a lot more time to complete the things I want and can't wait for my Friday pampering session. Here's what I'm thinking for the week:

1. Do the first week of the Diabetes challenge. (set goals--done, do 3 SP workout videos and at least 10 minutes cardio three times this week and log calories 3 times).
2. Relax!!! Listen to calming music, read and most importantly don't think about work!!
3. Keep up the water intake. 8 glasses per day.
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Didn't do so well last week because I've been working so much. When I'm not working, I just want to do nothing! I'm so looking forward to having some time off. I cannot tell you! Thinking of making crab cakes tonight with 2 veggie sides. Yum-o! Have a great Monday!

  

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CARRIEMT 2/14/2011 5:37PM

Glad you're going to get pampered! I missed you this weekend- no one wanted to go play in the great outdoors with me except a super muddy stinky dog. I know you would have been game :) Report Inappropriate Comment

ATHENECA 2/14/2011 1:19PM

I can SO relate! I used to work ridiculous amounts of OT at a stressful, sit down job, and I MEAN sit down. We were actively discouraged from getting up and walking around, even to stretch a bit. I never felt like exercising or cooking when I was home. No more of that for me! Report Inappropriate Comment

A Frank Conversation with a Male Friend

Saturday, February 12, 2011

It all started while I was talking to one of my guy friends because I have a crush on this guy. I was explaining that I don't have skillz per say and he was giving me pointers. The conversation led into how I don't think guys like me because I'm different (fat.)

He said 'well, your attractive but you do things that make you not.' I didn't really know what he was talking about...he said I'm not confident so I think that's what he meant... I think he was basically agreeing with my feeling that I'm not attractive to the other sex because I'm heavy but didn't really want to say that.

He talked a lot about how I'm only 28 and can change things. While that's true, I don't think that people really understand how hard it is to change. For me, it's about changing all the behaviors I've ever learned since childhood and keeping with them constantly, becoming a different person. I'm not making excuses and it will be done but he acts like it some quick fix and it isn't.

I understand societal expectations but it makes me angry. I pointed out to him that there are many pretty girls who are ugly inside but guys are with them anyway. He alluded to the fact that these girls aren't necessarily 'relationship material' but didn't deny that physical appearance plays a huge role.

I just know that I could be wonderful for someone like they could be wonderful for me and just because I'm larger than the average woman shouldn't mean I'm out of the running. I'm SICK of not dating men because 'I'm not their type' and not getting a chance because of my weight. Maybe that should be a motivation to change but it kinda makes me want to rebel and whine about how it isn't fair.

I don't have to have a man in my life, but sometimes it sure would be nice.

  

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GPASWTP 2/22/2011 1:18PM

One of my best guy friends told me that guys "appreciate women who want to be the best that they can be." I'm overweight, and I knew that he was talking about being physically fit/thinner. "Taking the time to exercise says a lot about a person." It was hard to hear because I believed that I was a prize to be won and not something to be just looked over... I feel your pain, but that emotion can also feed your desire to succeed. Just hang in there... It will get better and I hope that a real man (not a boy who just sees the physical) comes along as sees the true, beautiful YOU. Report Inappropriate Comment

CARRIEMT 2/13/2011 8:51PM

Sorry you had an argument with a crush, specifically that argument. Our town is not awesome for dating. Report Inappropriate Comment

MT-MOONCHASER 2/13/2011 7:26PM

It could be that he wasn't talking so much about your weight as about your level of confidence in yourself, at least as far as your weight and interpersonal relationships go. It may be that you have assumed something that he didn't mean. Maybe you should have another conservation with him exploring just what he meant. Of course, it could get very uncomfortable, but it may be well worth it. And I would guess that if your weight comes up, it won't be anywhere near the top of the list. Good luck! Have a Happy Valentine's Day ! ! Report Inappropriate Comment

Nourishment without Food

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

I've been reading this book:

and have recommended it before and will do so again. I think there is a lot to learn from it. There is a chapter on Nourishment here are some gems:

-'To nourish means to comfort, to cherish, support; a dictionary adds 'to supply with matter necessary for growth'.
-'On a physical level, food is nourishment; and on an emotional level, food is nourishment.'
-'If you use food or any other tangible substance--alcohol, cigarettes, drugs--as your main source of psychic 'nourishment' you can never get full'
-'Every time you reach for food when you're not hungry, you are getting a signal of need.'

This really rang true for me. I think it's figuring out what you NEED. So, the book talks about making a list of the things that provide you with Nourishment that aren't food. Here goes:

Talking to a friend, or making an new one
Paying off bills
House plants that don't die on me
Making lists (duh)
Becoming a better cook
Finding out new things about myself
Trusting my instincts
Not eating when I'm not hungry
Doing my weekly Three
Going to the gym
Drinking water
Making positive choices about health
Taking an art class
Learning new things, in general
Getting my hair cut, facial, mani or pedi
Meditating
Yoga
Going to a sporting event
Buying new shoes, DVDs, cookbooks, clothes, candles
Getting flowers for myself
Finishing a crossword
Laughing
Doing a 5k or another new fitness task
Walking during work
Coloring
Finishing a puzzle
Hiking
Logging on to SP to blog or even get a goodie
Making a difference in someones day
Getting a card or package from home
Reading magazines or books

It's kind of hard for me to believe I came up with so many! As a side note, since I've been working so much, I'm taking three days off next week and getting a mani, facial and deep conditioning treatment for my hair. I CANNOT WAIT! Nourishment I so desperately need.

  

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_RAMONA 2/9/2011 2:09PM

GREAT list, Erin! Just like I believe everyone needs a DONE list, I thik this is also an important list. I'm off to make my own! {{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}} Ramona Report Inappropriate Comment

MTNGRL 2/9/2011 1:30PM

Great post, Thank you! Report Inappropriate Comment

CARRIEMT 2/9/2011 11:47AM

Great list! You should post your list in the kitchen, you'll have fun distractions every day :) I hope you have a wonderful time with your mani, facial and conditioning. Report Inappropriate Comment