Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Mine are .. well I don't know. I had a few too many to keep track of today. Spaghetti is my downfall apparently. And I was so hungry and in a hurry from school that I didn't measure. Bad me.. Bad bad me. I'd smack my own hand, but .. eh.
It wasn't too much over. Just have to fine tune and regulate myself. Of course, since It's that time of the month, so of course I'm craving carbs and sweets and.. I need my SP app back. I did so much better when I could look at my totals at any given time of the day. It was easier to track too, since I usually keep the laptop upstairs. Course, I thought that would leave me an opportunity to burn more calories running up to track things.. ehhhh.. FINE TUNING! At least I got lots of walking in today. Still not all in one chunk, but 4 rounds of .5 miles each. Trying to push myself to walk a little faster than normal. Baby steps.. but I am growing.
On a different note, we started rehearsals for Grease tonight at my school, and I'm pretty sure that I'll be put through my paces with that. Not performing, but keeping up with all the noise that goes on to make sure the actors have what they need, where they need, and when they need it. It's my first gig as a stage manager. Well, assistant stage manager... S'gonna be fun. The rest of my life's gonna be fun, what am I talking about.
Short. Sweet. Simple. Goodnight world. Tomorrow is another day.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
This week was VICTORIOUS!! I feel accomplished. I feel proud. Even though I went over on my calories twice this week, I know where I went wrong. I know what I have to change. I know what I have to give up, and I'm honestly surprised that it was as easy as it was. This next week is going to be a challenge in and of itself, thanks to mother nature. I am thinking I need to sit down and write myself a solid plan of action BEFORE the cravings/temptations/irritation set in, that way I'll preemptively be my own cheerleader.
My roomies are even walking with me now, and that's fantastic! It helps keep me motivated. We're all eating better, and I am grateful that they're helping me out in the small ways. I didn't change overnight, I don't expect them to. But these babysteps are getting bigger and bolder, and it's Empowering! Even if my one roomie giggled hysterically when she saw me measuring out portions for dinner. She'll come around. LOL!
I decided to splurge tonight and I bought a Diet Mt Dew. MD was always my fave soda BEFORE. Anyway, long story short; I came, I saw, I bought. I hated. It was cloyingly sweet. I took three sips and promptly gave it away. So goodbye, Mt Dew. I shall never again take you back. Don't call me, I'll call you ..
I got a new phone the other day. As I was re-downloading some apps, I tried to get the SP app again, and found that it's no longer free. I was disappointed. I however, did find the spartacus workout app that I was looking for and you can bet I snapped that one up.
I'm wondering how good I will keep all this new found knowledge and routines once school starts next week. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't concerned. I need to probably make a battle plan for that too. And invest in a little lunch cooler so I can avoid the cafeteria/starbucks area. I've a soft spot for the Sobe Melon drink.
This weekend I am going to not slack off, and actually get some more Strength training in. I think I might actually break down and get a white board and tack it to the back of my door. I also need a little notebook to track things in whilst on campus, or maybe I'll just spring for the 3.99 and get my wonderful app back. Haha.
Hmm. Sleep now I think.
Tuesday, January 08, 2013
I love that the Biggest Loser is back on. LOVE it. I think watching this show over the years has helped to shape the person I'm becoming. I also think that Bob's words tonight will reverberate in my head whenever I feel tempted. Tempted to quit. Tempted to give up. Tempted to eat what I shouldn't. Bob Harper looked at Mike and said that he wanted him to remember how much his worked out sucked, and how hard it was. The man was clearly in lots of pain, discomfort and completely worn out. I mean this was plainly and irrevocably clear. Then Bob went on to say, that one day it wouldn't be so hard.
Of course that's paraphrasing, and there's more to it, but I cannot remember it word for word. I also know that this is the same thing we all deal with, we all say we realize, we all know. Tonight, though, it hit me waaay deep. Like a sucker punch to the part of my soul that was still being lazy. I feel more in complete power of my own well being than I ever have before. It's amazing how someone's words to someone else can impact you so greatly.
So today, on a tuesday;
I feel empowered.
I feel like I'm not a victim OF food anymore.
I feel like I have gained a firmer foot hold on this path that I'm walking.
I feel like I can do this.
I also lost 1.3 pounds when I weighed myself yesterday. Cheers!
Friday, January 04, 2013
I know this isn't the month this usually pops up, but I am so grateful that I have people in my life that care. Not just about me, but FOR me, and help me on this journey of mine. Even in the smallest of ways, they.. you.. are helping me. Encouraging words, understanding, those not so gentle pushes when I don't feel like logging on my food tracker, or even getting up off the couch.
2013 is my year. I'm tired of taking a backseat to other things, other people. It's my own fault, but for once, I'm going to put my foot down for myself. I need to buy some erase-able markers so I can write things to myself on my mirror. My bestest friend in the whole world used to do that, and I'm so doing it.
I've been doing really well on staying within my allotted calorie range. Concentrating on adding more fruits and veggies more than calories though. I'm not going to allow myself to be hungry, but I'm also making a conscious effort to avoid "snacky" foods. Which are small maintainable goals. I'm trying not to overwhelm myself, which may be what my problem has always been. I'm just not able to sustain that whole "All in" mentality. There's just something about me that reverts back to comforting myself with food if I get the slightest bit emotional. No more.
Not as motivated with the exercising, other than playing with the kiddos. This too will come in time. Rome wasn't built in a day, so there's no reason to think that I can hit the ground running and keep up that pace. I am more aware of this than ever, and I'm not going to let the fact that I can't do this, or that, get in my way. No one ever did anything perfect the first time. Second time.. or sometimes third or fourth. Changing your lifestyle is like learning to play an instrument, youhave to learn the basics first, and then keep practicing. Well, I'm slowing down to learn what I need to learn, and practice what I need to practice and do it right.
Monday, December 17, 2012
Again, here I am saying I'm back and ready to make the changes I need to make. If I follow my track records, then this should be the time! It took me several attempts to quit smoking, so I am going to again begin the road to a new, healthier me.
I am going to set simple goals. I think I focused to heavily on a goal weight, or a goal number. This time, I will focus more on entering healthier things into my life. The rest will get here when it gets here. It seems to me that I was trying to build a house without a foundation. That never works. It helped that I took a couple good classes this semester, and am considering taking a yoga class through my school. We'll see. I think I'm still too self conscious.
I'm going to make a goal chart for myself, starting small. I will make it a goal to eat 2 servings of fruit and 2 servings of vegetables a day. And at least ten minutes of exercise each day. These seem like perfect goals for me. That's my starting point. I have a month until school resumes, which will be the perfect opportunity to reset my schedule and my eating habits. I will get into the habit of having fresh snacks available, and avoiding bagged, processed and junk food snacks. I'm still doing pretty good with staying away from soda. But not so much the sparkling grape juice. Ha.
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