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One bad, not so very great evening/night...

Friday, July 30, 2010

Well, yesterday was horrific, and I didn't handle it great, but I held myself accountable for it. My daughter has only 2 bottom teeth, but she has 4 (FOUR!!!) starting to cut through, 2 more on the bottom and her 2 front teeth on top. And she let me know it. Oh, boy....did she let me know it. Her daddy was working until 10 yesterday and headed to his friend's house after work. She went to bed at 8, but was up every half hour until about 11:30. I did everything I could to help her out with the pain and soothing, but nothing worked. I think she was finally too exhausted at 11:30 and couldn't stay awake anymore.

I ate pasta with spaghetti sauce and cottage cheese last night. I had too much. I didn't go SO overboard that I would really hurt my weight loss and have a gain this week, but I may have a pound or 2 less lost in the end of the week. I still went to the gym at 5:30 for spinning, though I only did spinning for half an hour, then went home. I really had to push myself to get through it. I had DH get up with Kaylee at 6:30 while I would try to get a bit more sleep (he doesn't work until 5 p.m. so he can nap all day if he wants while I work at 8), but unfortunately he had her playing in the living room right outside the bedroom. Not conducive to good sleeping. Oh, well!

I have my 3rd official 5K tomorrow (5th overall). I am excited but nervous since I have taken most of the last 2 weeks off from running to rest my foot. I have still been exercising, but focusing more on spinning and ST. I doubt I will have a PR (which as of now is 32:00) but I am okay with that! We are also going to the county fair tomorrow (can you SAY greasy fried food...hellOOOOOOOOO cheese curds). I basically asked my family NOT to eat cheese curds in front of me for those are my weakness.

Also, I am going out tomorrow night in my beautiful sexy blue dress (I'm sorry, did I mention it is a size 10????) and I am buying the gold bracelets and gold heels for it today. I made myself the DD since I don't want to be drinking my calories, so I SHOULD have a good day!

I will make sure to have pictures, I absolutely MUST have pictures! I am so bad about getting them, but I will have that camera ready (especially since this is the first fair that my daughter will be going to).

I am excited to have a good day today, even if all I will be doing is walking. I know I did spinning today, but it really was not that much of a workout it seemed! Oh well!

Ciao ~ Erin

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BRENDY_28 7/31/2010 6:44AM

    good luck on your 5K and have fun on your night out :D

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MOVINITMORE 7/30/2010 3:00PM

    I remember those days of the teething, a friend of mine baby is teething know also she loves ICE right know just real real tiny.

As hard as you work out that food is not going to make that much of a difference.

I know you will rock that 5k tomorrow your time for the last one was emoticon. Have fun & enjoy that fair what temptation I love that food there but it's been a while since I was at one.
I can't wait to see the pictures a size 10 emoticon you have so much to be proud of !!! emoticon

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MADEMCHE 7/30/2010 11:36AM

    32 min PR, wow! You are doing awesome! AND 3rd 5K is tomorrow that is so inspiring! Can't wait to see the photos of you in the size 10 blue dress, I am sure you look AMAZING! You never know about tomorrow, could be a great one, hang in there I am sure you are going to do fantastic.

Good luck tomorrow!

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SROUS1340 7/30/2010 11:33AM

    Have a great day today, and on your evening out. I fell off track this week too, and I'm glad to be back in the saddle.
Have fun at the fair-funnel cakes are my weakness, DH and I split one.

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As of today....

Monday, July 26, 2010

As of today I am 175 pounds (down 105 pounds from this time last year, 110 pounds total AFTER having Kaylee, 131 pounds predelivery).

As of today, I am running up to 5 miles without stopping and feel like I can go on forever (if my legs would only let me).

As of today, I easily carry my 1-year-old toddler on my arm for as long as she wants, and she is now 25 pounds.

As of today, I am in a size 10-12 (depending on brand/dress).

As of today, I am so happy with my gorgeous daughter, and actually feeling psyched with how I feel and look. I have never felt so alive and vibrant!!!

As of today, I have only (yes, ONLY) 20-40 pounds to lose, not a whole other person!! And it no longer scares me.

As of today, I am a gym rat who doesn't feel 100% if I haven't been there or at least had a run.

As of today, nothing tastes as good as being thin feels. I am not perfect, I still have cravings, but I will NOT let them own my life. I will not let them take me over anymore.

As of today, I now use exercise and running to release any stress I have, and I talk about my emotions and problems with my husband (and my fellow Sparkies). I am now focusing on channeling my energy in a way that will ensure my positive well being and to be as healthy as possible without using "vices" to stifle my issues/stress/depression.

As of today, I am planning on going out to a club on Saturday night in a size-10 dress with heels that will make me laugh with my friends with confidence and make me cry with happiness when I look in the mirror.

As of today, I look forward to being in social situations, joining leagues, seeing my friends, coworkers, and especially family get-togethers since most of them haven't seen me since I was 280 pounds. The compliments and looks of shocks I get are worth it!

I will review these last 2 blog entries whenever I feel down about my journey, and be grateful for how I am feeling as of today, instead of this time last year.

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MADDEELOU 7/27/2010 9:37PM

    Way to go! You rock!

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RLHOTAN 7/27/2010 6:40AM

    Erin, you are doing AWESOME!!! You should be so proud of your accomplishments!

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BLEIGH711 7/26/2010 3:50PM

    This is amazing! Good for you and thanks for sharing. You are a true inspiration.

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SCRAPPYLADYV 7/26/2010 1:54PM

    You have come so far in one short year!!
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YASMINSHORTER 7/26/2010 1:22PM

    You're an inspiration erinbear x

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SANDELIO10 7/26/2010 1:19PM

    WOW! Congratulations!

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CECE0330 7/26/2010 1:18PM

    Wow! What a difference a year makes, huh? Keep up the great work!

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This time last year....

Monday, July 26, 2010

This time last year I was 280 pounds.

This time last year I could not walk more than 30 feet without being seriously short of breath.

This time last year I could not hold my 10-pound baby without my arms going numb within 10 minutes.

This time last year I was in a size 24.

This time last year I was so happy about having my baby, yet so miserable about how I felt/looked.

This time last year I was scared about how much weight I had to lose.

This time last year I hated the idea of going to the gym.

This time last year food was more important than me.

This time last year I was reluctant to let go of my last "crutch" that I used to deal with stress - comfort/emotional eating. Before, I had other addictions that sufficed including smoking and gambling. I have not smoked since October 2, 2006. I have not gambled since February 26, 2004.

This time last year the idea of wearing a dress with heels would make me laugh and cry. Out of shame, mostly.

This time last year I avoided being in social situations completely, especially family get-togethers.

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RLHOTAN 7/27/2010 6:43AM

    You are a new person. You know where you have been and where you have to get to. You have made incredible strides to a new you and you should be so proud of where you are now. The past is history...a learning experience. You know now how to NOT get back there!

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-POOKIE- 7/26/2010 1:12PM

    emoticon You should be so proud of achieving so much for yourself.

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Went dress shopping (yes, for THOSE dresses) and here are the pictures :o}

Friday, July 16, 2010

Last evening, my husband was curious about the dresses I tried on, so we went, and apparently he LOVED all of them! The first is the one I bought for my daughter's first birthday (I included a picture of her, too), and the second two are the ones I bought for $50 total!!! Gotta love clearance racks at Penney's :o}

This is the "Daughter's first birthday" dress :o} It has pockets!!!

Here is my daughter, Kaylee, after a bunch of McDonald's cake! (I only had a bite-sized piece, and that was extremely tough for me!).

This dress is SOOOO prettier IRL than in this picture. It has a gold tone over black and would look GREAT with gold heels!

Okay, this is the dress that "blew me away" ~ according to my husband. It is a size 10 (YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS) and it is GORGEOUS! Again, gold heels or blue heels would go great with it!!! Oh, and he told me to do these poses, so please don't hold them against me...I am SO not America's Next Top Model material :o}

Kinda shows the tummy, but hubby thought it was a fun picture!

So there you have it, me in dresses!

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NAMASTE26 7/17/2010 9:02PM

    The dresses are awesome! Congrats on getting them (and in such a small size!) and happy birthday to your cutie pie!

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BESTSUSIEYET 7/16/2010 6:35PM

    What fun!!! Enjoy!! You're looking GREAT!

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HIKERLEE29 7/16/2010 5:22PM

    You look great!! I really like the blue one, of course blue is my fav color though. Your daughter is cute too!!!
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SCRAPPYLADYV 7/16/2010 4:58PM

    You look great!! And the best thing is your hubby's response!! Have fun wearing your beautiful new dresses!!

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EPIPHANYANGEL 7/16/2010 4:47PM

    emoticonYou look amazing.

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RUNNER4LIFE08 7/16/2010 2:11PM

    Adorable dresses and great finds!!! I love first birthday cake pics.... too precious!

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BLEIGH711 7/16/2010 12:38PM

    Love the new dresses. You look fantastic! Have fun.

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MIDMICH36 7/16/2010 11:29AM

    Kaylee is so cute, and you look GREAT!

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    You look great in your new dresses.

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BURGHGIRL 7/16/2010 10:37AM

    Congrats on the new dresses!!!! You look fab!

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ILIKECACTI 7/16/2010 10:04AM

    They are fabulous! You are fabulous!!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 7/16/2010 10:02AM

    You look great!

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MADEMCHE 7/16/2010 9:57AM

    You look great, and so very happy! Way to go!

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SROUS1340 7/16/2010 9:43AM

    Fabuloso!!! emoticon

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FAYESFOTO 7/16/2010 9:37AM

  Nice shots!!

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July Goals!! (and wow, 3 blogs in 1 day? I must be out of my mind)...

Thursday, July 15, 2010


~ Track what I eat every day and strive to stay within my points for Weight Watchers every day, or use activity points if needed (this is a repeat from last month, but so VERY important for me, especially as I am running more and more).

~ Focus on less fat, less meat, more veggies, fruits, and whole grains! (Again, a repeat, but even more important again!!)

~ Continue drinking at least 8 glasses of water, more on days I run.

~ Try a new recipe every week to shake it up! I really need to be doing this as I am gettin more and more bored with my meals...

~ Run 4-5 days a week and stay on track with the Half Marathon training, completing approximately 88 miles of running this month.

~ On 1 to 2 of the off day for running, do crosstraining with spinning or elliptical depending on how you feel

~ ST 3 days a week, either via Cycle and Scult (Mondays and Wednesdays) or through Nautilus equipment.

~ Work in some form of core strengthening/abs work 3-4 days a week.

~ Take 1-2 FULL days off from working out so as to avoid overtraining/injuries.

~ Lose 10 pounds (again, seems high, but this is always my goal every month and I am already down 7 pounds today, July 15, 2010).

~ Run a 10K on July 17 and a 5K on July 31.

~ Pay off 1 or 2 credit cards.

~ Get my hair done with color and cut (hasn't been done since March).
~ Buy a new outfit.
~ Buy new shoes (already did this a few days ago, but it was during July!!).
~ Buy myself a book to read.

That should do it!!

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MOVINITMORE 7/16/2010 8:16AM

    Wow...Great goals. I love the 88 miles I should track that way. You always inspire me to do more.
Thanks for sharing !!

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SUNNY2010 7/16/2010 1:05AM

    Good job setting your goals!
Enjoy your journey!

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MADEMCHE 7/15/2010 8:08PM

    Great goals! Have a great rest of the month!

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SROUS1340 7/15/2010 5:16PM

    Good job!

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ILIKECACTI 7/15/2010 4:57PM

    Good luck!!

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