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Friday, January 06, 2012

I have 50 minutes of crosstraining on my schedule today, and was planning on doing the elliptical this morning, but because I was up late Sparking (so totally worth it), I decided to do my bootcamp DVD instead after Kaylee goes to my mom's. That will be perfect, since I will be alone and working out will be much better than having a few hours of worrying about binge eating. There is a Sparker who has a binge-free streak going (SLIMKATIE) and she is someone who I really have a lot in common with, and I definitely look up to. So, today I am 14 days binge-free, and for me that is HUGE!! I want to keep that streak going!

Kaylee's appointment yesterday went great. The lymph node is definitely enlarged, but in the presence of any worrisome symptoms (less energy, losing weight, etc) and because the node is soft and mobile (hard nodes that can't be moved are much more worrisome), she told me that there is nothing to worry about, and to just keep an eye on her symptoms if she develops any or to come back in if the node gets bigger AND harder. I felt reassured. She did tell me that if I want a second opinion, she can refer Kaylee to an ear, nose, and throat specialist at any time. But I told her that for now that is not needed, that she definitely reassured me.

So that stress is relieved!!!

Last night, I went to bed binge-free, and only 20 or so calories over my limit (which I don't worry about going over by up to 300 since my "limit" is set for losing 2 pounds a week, and I am going by my body signals more than anything). Some days I am just hungrier than others, but yesterday I just wanted to eat for the sake of eating.

I have another day with my little girl, and instead of dreading the day (because I tend to eat bad when I have her home alone...because I use it as an excuse/rationalizing), I am excited. I have a lot of plans for us today, but if any of those plans fall through, not a problem.

I also decided not to weigh myself until Monday (I have been weighing myself every other day). The scale has been reflecting I am guessing a lot of my sodium intake, and of course it isn't going to move much from day to day. I need to back away and give it time!

Well, onto another day of Sparking, being healthy, and being consistent :o}

  
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REDBIRDFLY 1/7/2012 5:26PM

    I liked you're addressing the binge eating. I don't do that anymore, but I know when I did, quit a few times I would make myself throw it all up and that was disgusting...Sometimes I just couldn't stop eating something and before I realized it I ate 1,000 calories of cookies or whatever and just couldn't leave it in my stomach. I'm so glad I've got that under control with planning all my food ahead of time on my tracker. Thank God for Spark People ...like you!! Thanks! emoticon

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LAUREN129 1/7/2012 4:01PM

  I totally know what you mean about eating more when you are home with kiddos. I am struggling with that myself during the days that I am home with my son. I just tend to snack more it seems. I am going to work on that for this coming week!

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JILLIANPRNCSS 1/7/2012 7:09AM

    I have a hard time with binging too. This year I choose to focus on healthy eating instead of trying not to binge. I tend to binge more when I have only had a small meal so I tell myself I have not had enough calories today so it is ok. That way I am full and happy and don't need the extra food. Congrats on 14 days.

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MICHSTATE 1/6/2012 7:16PM

    Awesome job!!!!
I am assuming you read Katie's blog, Runs for Cookies? I love her blog!!!!!:-)

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BRANDI.FEY 1/6/2012 5:41PM

    14 days binge free! emoticon

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APIRLRAIN888 1/6/2012 12:18PM

    Awesome!!!!!!!

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SEATTLESIMS 1/6/2012 12:07PM

    glad your daughter's appointment went well, and hopefully everything will clear up quickly.
Great job on teh binge free! and looking forward to positive quality time instead of worrying about binging.. relax and enjoy the moment and let that worry go!


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SUKOTO 1/6/2012 10:21AM

    Excellent work. Congrats on the binge-free streak. I know how hard it can be so 14 day is amazing. I'm only on day 4. haha.
I'm glad to hear that Kaylee is doing better. While I can't relate to having a sick child, I can imagine how terrible I'd feel if one of my boys were sick.
Keep up the GREAT work! I'm right here along side you.

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RED_WRITINGHOOD 1/6/2012 9:58AM

    You are doing awesome! Way to go!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 1/6/2012 9:10AM

    Good for YOU! Your attitude will take you a long way! emoticon

My daughter's name is Kali (she's 26), pronounced the same way! I have always wished I had spelled it Kaylee's way because everyone pronounces her name with a "soft" A at first and she always has to correct them! She likes it the way it is, though, so that's good!

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What Sparkpeople Means To Me

Thursday, January 05, 2012

Sparkpeople has been many things for me. It has been a place for support, for airing out things that sometimes I just can't say to anyone in my "real" life, for motivation, for inspiration. It has been a place that I can come to and feel, for the most part, that I am not being judged for who I am. Because on SP I am more myself than I sometimes can be in my personal life. I don't feel like people will regard me as crazy, delusional, stupid, lazy, fat, pompous, etc. etc.

This place has been a safe haven for me. Like right now, I am here typing this blog because half an hour ago I started feeling "binge-y" (I don't know if that is a word, but oh well). The usual things happened that would normally set off me feeling this way. You know, the structured day being thrown out the window with daycare calling me at 10 a.m. to pick up Kaylee because the daycare lady is sick (strep throat), which meant that I couldn't walk the dog (just impossible with an unruly 2-year-old and a dog who tries to be alpha dog). I also couldn't work, my plans for my meals were changed up, and things like this throw me off my stride.

I was sitting at about 1300 calories for the day when I had a clementine while reading my book and halfways paying attention to my little girl (great parenting right there, ya'll). I then had another. And another. Then, I remembered the half tube of mini M&M's I had in my purse. Hey, only about 80 calories! THEN, I dug out the little chocolate chip granola bar also in my purse (there was a Health Trip thing going on at the mall and I capitalized on their free offerings). Shared that with Kaylee so HEY that was only 70 calories!

I then started thinking that I would have some leftovers from dinner (cheeseburger casserole). Yeah, that stuff is packed full of calories. I could watch Revenge while nom noming my way through that.

And then I stopped. I stopped right where I was standing when I started having those thoughts.

I then put my little girl to bed since it was bedtime for her, got dressed for bed myself, brushed my teeth, and here I am.

My safe haven.

The above story? Somehow I feel more "safe" writing every "sordid" detail about it here, while I feel like I would be judged if I said it out loud.

Because I am safe here. I have my supporters here, my cheerleaders, those who have inspired the CRAP out of me, those I look up to, those I am here to "listen" to, and those who are struggling like I have struggled so many times...and I want to help them too.

SP is a big family to me. I have gotten to know so many of you on here, and I feel sad when I don't see someone anymore and wonder....and I feel absolute joy when I see successes, accomplishments, race reports, weigh-ins, non-scale victories, new babies, new marriages, and you wanna know something? I love reading about struggles too. I mean, when life happens, and instead of giving up, instead of throwing in the towel, the strugglers come on here, pour their hearts out, and show up for battle, knowing that they will overcome.

I feel so blessed to see everyone's journey...to be a part of that, on the sidelines. That is what SP has done for me. I feel because of this great website, and the people who belong to this site, I have blossomed into someone who enjoys being healthy, enjoys being active, and enjoys being a success rather than wallowing in her failures.

It has been a long journey, but I know that I am on the right path, thanks to Sparkpeople.

I am now off to read other blogs, about ups and downs, and feeds, and comments, and more because the more I Spark, the happier and more grounded I feel.

Bye bye, binge. Hello Sparkpeople!!!

  
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MEADSBAY 1/6/2012 8:52PM

    Yup!
All that and more.
So many of us have 'been there- done that'.
We would never presume to judge.
I'm coming up on my 3rd sparkaversary
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WISHICOULDFLY 1/6/2012 7:36PM

    Oh. My. God. You nailed it. I was thinking about what is it that is so supportive about SP and you explained it beautifully. emoticon It really IS wonderful to have a place to go where everyone understands you, supports you and makes no judgements.

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LILMISSRED79 1/6/2012 6:52PM

    This is such a beautiful blog, and I relate to it wholeheartedly! I would never go up to someone and announce my weight/size to them, but on SP I talk about it openly without another thought. So proud of you for stopping that binge in its tracks and Sparking instead!

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RUSTBUCKET1 1/6/2012 6:48PM

    Great blog. Very honest and we've all been there.

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TEENY_BIKINI 1/6/2012 6:19PM

    Awesome! You are so amazing!!

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ONE*BUSY*MOM 1/6/2012 3:40PM

    What a great blog! It's so true -- I feel I can be more honest here than in my real life, because people are less judgmental. In fact, even though I want to "Spread the Spark", I'm reluctant to tell anyone I know in my real life about SP because I don't want to have them read my blogs or follow my progress. Terrible, I know!

Congrats on averting the binge. So inspirational!

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RUNNER4LIFE08 1/6/2012 2:57PM

    emoticon post! I agree, Spark People is wonderful and I am glad that I am on this website. It does feel like a safe haven.

Way to go for working through a binge. emoticon

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LORIBURKS1 1/6/2012 12:57PM

    This is incredible blog - you have summed up so many of the same things I love about SP. What did people do without the internet? Congrats on avoiding the binge!

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MOM2MXKE 1/6/2012 12:50PM

    GREAT JOB!! Right before bed is a hard time for me too! I try to be strong but some days I give in. I had 4 Oatmeal iced cookies last night and didn't even look at the Cals! WOOPS I was pmsing. BUT I did Zumba my booty off so I wasn't feeling guilty. I am happy that you have found your safe place (;

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BECKY_LYNN84 1/6/2012 11:16AM

    LOVE LOVE LOVE this blog!!!! :) emoticon emoticon

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PINKBEANBOO 1/6/2012 10:33AM

    Another lesson I need to take from you! You stopped a binge. That is AWESOME!
Without Sparkpeople I would have given up after a couple of weeks (like I always did before). But with this site & the blogs & threads where people share their challenges & set backs & how they keep going - is what has kept me going for almost 2 yrs.
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PS: Forgot to mention that I genuinly do care about my Sparkfriends & what is going on in their lives. I also am more "real" about myself here than in my real life. I don't feel like I have to be so careful as to what I say.
So again, emoticon

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BAREFOOT-LISA 1/6/2012 10:16AM

    Great post. I know exactly how you feel. My at home life would be arranging an intervention if I was as obsessive at home as I am here, so it is very much a safe place!

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MISSBEX24 1/6/2012 10:06AM

    I love this blog too!!! I understand exactly what you mean about SP!

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-POOKIE- 1/6/2012 9:44AM

    I love this blog, I love your honesty and the fact your honesty "saved you".

I also love SparkPeople.

I have contact with so many amazing people and online friendships can be so valuable when you really need somebody who understands YOU... which can be hard to find in real life sometimes.

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MENHALLS 1/6/2012 9:41AM

    I use my blog to stop a binge too! Such an inspiring post and so honest. That's what I love the most about SP, it is incredibly honest. There's no pretense, no false smiles, just raw emotion, real feelings.

There has to be a place we can go to tell our own truth & am I thankful that SP is that place.

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LOOKINGTOBEFIT 1/6/2012 9:32AM

    Great blog!! I can also do a great bing when I get started emoticon Good for you for stopping it mid-stride emoticon We can beat this thing, right??

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DUSTYGIRL25 1/6/2012 2:01AM

    Oh Erin, You are such a sweetheart! You are also so right. We all share so much together. The love, the pain, the ups & downs.
We do have a lot in common because I think we all go through the same things and can relate to each other's stories. It seems like blogging is so very helpful to so many of us. Falling off our goal line happens quite often but some how, with lots of encouragement we manage to get back on track and keep going.
Yes, SparkPeople and our groups of friends are a safe haven for us, and right now I'm feeling pretty good!
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APIRLRAIN888 1/5/2012 11:47PM

    Lol I used to eat lunch while SPing

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 1/5/2012 11:40PM

    Wow! That is a GREAT BLOG! I am so glad I came here and read it before I go to bed! I would say more but I have to go!

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MICHSTATE 1/5/2012 11:34PM

    WooHoo!!!! Awesome!!!:-)

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LIVENLOVELIFE 1/5/2012 10:47PM

    Loved this blog Erin! Awesome job on stopping the binge too!! Your blogs have been so positive and uplifting! You are definitely on the right path and great things are ahead for you!

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My Alarm Clock Knows Me Better Than I Know Myself

Thursday, January 05, 2012

I had a great day yesterday. I put in 2.25 miles of running (felt to good to stop at 2 miles, but didn't want to overdo it. I put in 2 miles of walking also. I had a pretty decent day at work, even though it seemed to drag on, yet go by fast. Weird day. DH had to work until midnight, so my little girl and I had a night together. We had an interesting dinner of leftover spaghetti and Dora Spaghettios :o} I have been splitting meals with her lately, that keeps my portions in check! An hour or so later, I felt that we should go out, us girls, and have ourselves a treat. Since it has been unseasonably warm here (40 yesterday and supposed to be 50!!! today, usually -20 degrees here around this time of year!!!), I thought it would be appropriate to get Kaylee's favorite treat, an ice cream cone. I tracked my treat (small hot fudge sundae) before we even left to make sure I had the room in my calories for that. I did, so off we went, and she was SO excited, I believe she said "Yum!! Ice cream cone!!!" about a million times on the way there ;o}

Here is a picture of her with the cone:



Isn't my little girl just the cutest??? I love her so much :o}

BTW, thank you for all the comments on my cutting down blog. I didn't say anything about the situation to DH, but I did make sure that I told him that I appreciate him, and then when he said this morning that he was 1 pound down in weight, I gave him a hug and told him I am proud of him. He looked a bit surprised and a lot pleased, so I know I did the right thing and this is a great step in our marriage. This is also something he has never done to me, so he has nothing to work on there!

Today is the doctor appointment with my little girl, and I am sure it will all be fine and only needing reassurance, but it will be good to get that second opinion (the first opinion was by a new doctor, not her pediatrician).

Oh, and my alarm clock was set to go off at 4:20 this morning. I know it was supposed to be my rest day, but I figured I could make TOMORROW my rest day and put in my 50 minutes of crosstraining and get it out of the way. Well, there happened to be a glitch in my phone this morning where when the alarm went off there was only the vibrating and no music, which is what I listen for (it's the Super Mario theme). But, when I woke up at 7 (with over 8 hours of sleep) I definitely felt rested and couldn't be mad or upset. I may do some bootcamp this evening (trying it out), but otherwise I will just walk the dog.

Here's to another great day!!

  
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DUSTYGIRL25 1/5/2012 9:49PM

    emoticon Good for You!

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RUNNINGPFUHL 1/5/2012 8:53PM

    great job!! :)

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MOM2MXKE 1/5/2012 4:58PM

    Great work on the running yesterday !! (:

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JULIEEG81 1/5/2012 2:01PM

    your daughter is adorable!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 1/5/2012 1:22PM

    Great job on moving forward with your "Cutting down" goal. And your daughter IS super cute!

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APIRLRAIN888 1/5/2012 12:00PM

    Lol she is cute and woohoo

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COCOMAC7 1/5/2012 11:18AM

    Kaylee is the cutest! I love to do "date nights" with my son when it's just the two of us too. So fun for both of us.

Way to get some rest - I should have taken a rest day yesterday cause my legs are dead today and I have hockey tonight. Not sure how I'll make it thru it! LOL

Tomorrow I rest!

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-POOKIE- 1/5/2012 11:16AM

    She is adorable!

And Im glad you are working on your thoughts from yesterday x

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MNGIRLIE 1/5/2012 11:09AM

    Your little girl is such a doll. Looks like she really enjoyed the ice cream. :) Glad you got the extra rest. You must have needed it.

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SLEEPYDEAN 1/5/2012 10:32AM

    She reallllly is the cutest! How fun to have special time with just the two of you.

I hope you get some answers at her doctor this time.

Sleep is something I am going to work on in the coming weeks. I've been getting about 6 hours a night and I know it is catching up to me.

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RED_WRITINGHOOD 1/5/2012 9:51AM

    Sometime your body just needs that extra rest! I don't know how you do 4:30 though, I think it would kill me!

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Cutting Down

Wednesday, January 04, 2012

This is something that I have noticed I have done in the past, but nothing too much that has now become more apparent to me.

I cut down my husband.

I diminish his efforts, I correct him on everything that he does wrong (even things that really don't need correction but just aren't up to my standards). I question his parenting more than I should. I make fun of him.

And this needs to stop.

He never says anything about this. He is such a good-natured guy, and he loves to joke around, but there is a difference between "teasing" him and just really poking at his self-esteem and confidence.

I know he has a great level of self-esteem but underneath it all he most likely has some insecurities and I am sure I have hit on some of them.

I feel that I nag at him for stupid things, mainly how much time he spends with his friends and his brother, which completely conflicts with my saying that one of the many things I love about him is the fact that he has kept and nurtured his relationships with his friends as that is something I have not done myself. I know he is an extrovert and needs that contact with people.

As for diminishing, I diminish his accomplishments while highlighting his failures. I don't do this in an overt fashion where it is obvious, but it is enough that I am now seeing it, where it really does take me a long time sometimes to see something bad about myself (shocking right???). Maybe not bad so much as something I am doing wrong, or that is not nice.

So, from here on out, I will think about what I am saying and let the small things go, praise him more for what he does, be appreciative of how much he does for me, and just be grateful I have someone so wonderful in my life.

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Moving on to my progress so far. I have been on track 100% with my eating and exercising. I have been getting my water in, I have been training, I have been just so pumped up!!! I have been sparking a ton, which has been a bit harder to do since everyone is just SO FREAKING ACTIVE RIGHT NOW!!! Wow, I think my spark is brighter because of all the motivation you all have! It is rubbing off on me :o}

The gym has been great. My running is getting better. My legs and lungs are still adjusting to the running, but I may be pushing my pace a bit just to get the run done with so I can go back to bed emoticon

I have a rest day tomorrow, but I will still probably go to the gym to get some walking in on the treadmill (just extra since it is supposed to be in the 50s!!!! tomorrow and I will also walk outside). I want to keep my streak going at the gym too.

On another note, I think both DH and I have been a bit stressed recently. Kaylee had a fever on Sunday again with no other symptoms and the enlarged lymph node in the back of neck is swelling even bigger (it has been enlarged to about 6 mm the last 6 months). I called the pediatrician's nurse to see what I should do (this is her fourth time having a fever without otherwise being sick in the last month). She wants to see Kaylee, and so we have an appointment tomorrow. I am sure it will all be okay, but I just wish this stupid lymph node would go away, and I wish the fevers would stop! (the fevers are 101 to 102 degrees usually).

Anyhoo!!! On to another fabulous day (40+ degrees today....WHAT IS THIS???? I live in a tundra of COLD, and I am being thrown for a loop here!!!!).

  
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TARABEAR 1/6/2012 10:11PM

    ohmygosh, I do this to my husband too. He is a wonderful husband and father which makes me wonder if it is my own insecurities talking. Interestingly, I don't think I ever did it before we became parents. Good luck! I'm working on it, too.

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MARYBETH_OHIO 1/5/2012 12:54AM

    You know your husband is your best friend in the world at least mine is to me but I have caught myself jumping him for no reason maybe because I do not feel well and I feel really bad about it, this doesn't happen often.. Sometimes we over look how special they really are and for you to see that then that is a gift in itself.
And girl you take a day off because you deserve it you look awesome spend time with that beautiful little girl and your hubby..
And you are complaining about 40 degrees come to Ohio and sit in 20 degree weather lol..
Anyway
Huggles

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PINKBEANBOO 1/4/2012 5:20PM

    Holy cow, you just made me realize I nag at my husband for his non stop talking & texting - but his outgoing personality is one of the things I love about him. I need to stop nagging about that!

I could tell you had your Spark back because you've been all over lately. emoticon

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FOXY13445 1/4/2012 4:42PM

    I think u ended up with all the nice weather MA was having!! it is absolutely FRIGID here now!!! emoticon That's what I feel like all the time now, so sad

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MNGIRLIE 1/4/2012 1:37PM

    I think it's hard to acknowledge your reaction with your husband, but it's important that you're aware of it before he commented on it. I'm much the same though. My fiance takes it all in stride and humors me when I get cranky, but I really have found that his mood is lifted when I stay positive.

Great job sticking on track! Hoping things get resolved with your daughter. Sounds scary and it's no wonder you two have been stressed out.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 1/4/2012 12:48PM

    I do this too, I think it's very common. It is really great that you are aware and desire to change it. I think that's the first step.

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APIRLRAIN888 1/4/2012 12:30PM

    Arent self discoveries amazing
Part of my journey to love me is to notice little things like that

Keep good, change bad....and acceptance

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COCOMAC7 1/4/2012 11:29AM

    Good for you for noticing without being told what you were doing. I must admit that my previous relationship (my ex husband) and I were horrible with that sort of stuff. He only did nice things if he thought I would reciprocate and so I got in the same habit. It's a horrible way to be together - always "keeping score" as it were.

Now I'm with a man who treats me so much better - we both enjoy doing nice things for each other just to make the other person happy. Yes there are times I have to let him know I'm feeling underappreciated (as I'm sure he feels the same way sometimes) but there is more give and take and we both gush about each other when the other isn't around.

Now that you see this behaviour you can work on ways to change it.

So glad you are streaking your way thru 2012! Hope Kaylee is feeling better soon - It's SOOOOO stressful when a kidlet is sick.

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RUNNINGPFUHL 1/4/2012 11:19AM

    He might not realize it bothers him, but I'm sure he'll appreciate and love you more when he is being built up!

What a great thing! Affirming your spouse!

We women, we get all kinds of support from other women, mothers, even our spouses. But men do not have a support system. Just their family. So it's important that home be a safeguard for them.

I read a great book a few years ago called For Women Only it was based off another book called Love and Respect.

The premise is that mens needs are based off of respect. The need respect most of all, more than love.

I'm sorry to hear about your kiddo being sick. :( Hope you get answers and rest and that she feels better soon.

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MOM2MXKE 1/4/2012 11:18AM

    Don't feel alone on the picking at your husband. I believe a lot of people are guilty of doing this to their spouse. I did this with my ex husband, however he did things to be as well. I have learned a lot from my first marriage and am NOTHING like the person I was back then. I believe that the fact that you see this and are aware of this mistake you will be successful at correcting it and he will notice and appriciate it I am sure. (;
AWESOME Job at staying on track! (: Keep the streak up(:

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GABRIELLEVA 1/4/2012 10:54AM

    I find myself doing the same thing in my relationship sometimes. This is a great reminder to stay focused on all the wonderful things about my husband and our life together. And, great job staying on track with the eating and exercise. You can do it!

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January 2012 pictures and measurements

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

These are my new "before" pictures as I believe this is stage 2 of my journey. My first stage was losing weight and going from 286 pounds to 160 pounds.

Stage 2? Losing weight and going from 182 (yes, I gained 22 pounds) to the unknown. The lowest weight I recorded was 158 and that was after the stomach flu so it is hard to count that.

With this in mind, I took these pictures, as I really wish I had taken a before picture like this when I was at this weight:



And here are my new ones:





My new measurements with last measurements being taken from December 2010:
Weight: 176.4 (today)/160.6 (December 2010)
Chest (above boobs): 36.5 inches/36 (gained 0.5 inches)
Chest (below boobs): 37.5 inches
Natural Waist: 35.5 inches
Waist at belly button: 40 inches/37 inches (gained 3 inches)
Hips: 41 inches/38.5 (gained 2.5 inches)
Right Thigh: 24.5 inches/21.5 (gained 3 inches)
Right Upper Arm: 13.5 inches/12 inches (gained 1.5 inches)

I am not at all surprised by the inches gained, as I can see this when I look at my pictures, and also what I see in the mirror when I am NOT in clothes. I am not discouraged; in fact, I am psyched!!!!

I plan on doing progress pictures near the first of every month until the end of the year. I can't wait to see my progress!!

  
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THENEWKAT 1/4/2012 2:58PM

    That is a good Idea! I have been working on my weight for a year. So I hope you don't mind but I think I will also take some pics. You look great your accomplishment is astounding. I believe if you fall off it is ok as long as you dust yourself off and get going again. Great Job!

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BLK2010 1/4/2012 10:58AM

    emoticon You will get back down to the numbers you want....and most importantly, emoticon on all the weight you have lost!

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DUSTYGIRL25 1/4/2012 1:35AM

    Good for You Erin. You know it won't be to tough to get back on track! A couple of good runs and your there. Love your pics! Thanks so much for aharing them ( I wish I would have taken some good before of myself also. )
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HLTHYRNRMOM 1/3/2012 10:15PM

    You got this! Psyched for you too! I think I need to do pics too, thanks for the idea!

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SUKOTO 1/3/2012 10:08PM

    What a great attitude you have! Give'em hell! emoticon

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TJDOESLIFE 1/3/2012 9:49PM

    You are incredible. You are courageous. You are brave. You are beautiful!!! Muah!
Love you girl!!!
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APIRLRAIN888 1/3/2012 8:32PM

    Wow!! Yeah you can do this

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THEHONESTME 1/3/2012 6:51PM

    You can do it, Erin!! I know you already know I'm in the same boat (thanks for your encouraging words on my blog). Part 2 - here we come!!! :)

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PINKBEANBOO 1/3/2012 3:03PM

    I was thinking about doing pictures for the beginning of 2012, too. I should do this - thanks!

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ELISELOVE1 1/3/2012 2:47PM

    emoticonTHOSE POUNDS ARE COMEING OFF FOR GOOD.

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MOM2MXKE 1/3/2012 2:04PM

    I am TOTALLY with you!! (; Last December I was in a size 10 and was down to in the
160's. I gained love weight this last year but I am like you I am not discouraged at all just pumped to get to goal. I know that WE can do this!! (: Happy your back on track! (:

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SUGIRL06 1/3/2012 1:37PM

    I love having progress shots to compare to! I even do them in the same exact outfit each time (for me, its a yellow striped bikini). You will do great this year!
~Ang

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MNGIRLIE 1/3/2012 1:34PM

    You've got this!

I love your renewed sense of Spark! I just took my measurements and progress photos as well. I'm fixing to get a blog going with them too.


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REDBIRDFLY 1/3/2012 1:17PM

    Okay...I'm all in with you!! Ill post pics tomorrow. I've lost 14 lbs so far. I'm at 160 need to be 125, I'm 5'5" & 55 yrs old.....LETS DO THIS!!! i'LL BE WATCHING YOU...hEEhEE...ROBIN emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RUNNINGPFUHL 1/3/2012 1:12PM

    awesome!! you can do it!! great job so far!

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FITTINGIN130 1/3/2012 1:02PM

    Excellent post. I'm also excited to see your progress throughout the year. I'm impressed with and inspired by your honesty about the gain you experienced. And I love LOVE LOVE that you didn't make excuses or disparaging remarks - it is what it is, and 2012 is a year for new goals and achieving them.

Way to go Erin! You are amazing.

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SLEEPYDEAN 1/3/2012 12:57PM

    I'm excited see you meet your goals. You've already got the tools to make things happen and you've definitely got the drive.

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