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Motivation

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

It's like every day I find a bit more motivation around me. Yesterday, it was my Weight Watchers weigh-in.

I didn't deprive myself, but I did have a very light lunch (grapes and apple), and had a bagel for breakfast (hey, it was free from Planet Fitness). I do know that those bagels are about 300 calories, but it was a nice treat for me. I sure do love my carbs!!!

I went to the weigh-in knowing that it wouldn't be pretty, but it would be a nice starting point going forward. I was right. I weighed in at 179.2 pounds. I didn't feel bummed. Instead, I felt a renewed sense of purpose. Especially since my friend, who just got back from Vegas last week, actually lost weight and got back to her goal weight as a Lifetime member. I had a pang of jealousy, but then I felt pride, because I know she must have worked so hard to lose that bit of weight that she has been trying to lose for a while now.

The program has changed again at WW, and I am thinking of going with SP and WW tracking, seeing the difference in the two. I get 28 points in WW (instead of the 29 before), and I am supposed to have between 1300-1650 calories on SP. Like I have said before, since I am consistently working out, I will have closer to 1600 calories on the days I do work out, and closer to 1300 on the days I don't. I will also make my hunger a priority, so if I feel legitimately hungry, I will eat more, as long as it is healthy, focusing on fruits/veggies for those extra calories.

I had lower calories yesterday, actually only hitting 1100 because of the lighter lunch, and I had my dinner at 6:30. I had about a 500-calorie dinner, and I just didn't have room for more calories, and I went to bed at 8:30 since I had to get up at 4:15 to go to the gym. I could have stuffed some more calories in, but since the day before I had 2000 calories I figured it was a nice balance for the 2 days.

I weighed myself this morning, and it was up to 174.4, but again I am still happy with that (2 days ago it was 173.6). I am feeling a bit bloated, so I am going to try flushing my body with some extra water (about 100 ounces). I am weighing myself every 2 days, but as long as I stay on track and I either maintain my next weight or lose, I will drop it down to every 3 days. I eventually want to work it out to once a week, as long as I stay on track. I want the accountability, but I don't want to obsess.

This morning it was a bit tough getting up at 4:15, but I knew my workout would be longer so I did it. I started out doing 30 minutes of full body strength training, then 15 minutes of stretching, then I ran a bit harder for 2 miles (more race pace, did it in 19:20), and then I walked for 2 miles. In the middle of my walk, the song "Lose Yourself" by Eminem came on. Geez, I couldn't walk during THAT song, so I bumped it up and ran for that song. I felt great :o} I am feeling a BIT sore, but nothing that can't be stretched or massaged out.

Well, I have plans to finish out my Christmas shopping today and wrapping, plus some overtime (my mom is watching Kaylee). I plan on chicken for dinner, not sure how I am going to make it, but I may make a stir-fry (with less salt).

I have SO many reasons to stay motivated right now, and I need to keep my focus sharp on them. Oh, one other reason? My lovely DH filmed me the other day w/o me knowing. The jerk. I can see the extra weight in my face, and I am NOT liking that. But, it's all good knowing I am DOING something about it.

Well, off to face another day :o}

  
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GRACEISENUF 12/15/2011 9:49PM

    Sounds like you have a plan and are sticking to it! Yeah YOU!

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COCOMAC7 12/14/2011 12:02PM

    A lady with a plan! That's a great way to get going again. I have been weighing myself daily and posting them and it's VERY motivating to me right now. I don't obsess but I do re-think what I'm putting into my mouth :)

I'm glad you have found some motivation and by the way GOOD FOR YOU for getting up so early to hit the gym! That's awesome!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 12/14/2011 12:01PM

    You get up WAY too early! LOL I hope your hump day goes well and you have lots of fun surprises come your way today! emoticon

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MISSBEX24 12/14/2011 8:50AM

    Sounds like a great plan, and awesome motivation!! I'm glad to hear that you're finding it all over the place. :)

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Not overdoing, not underdoing, but DOING.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Well, I'm on day 4 now of my "reboot." 4th day in a row now of going to the gym :o}

Yesterday, I ran 2 miles (without stopping to walk) on the treadmill and then walked 2 miles just in case I couldn't walk the dog (which I did for 1 mile).

It's interesting....I have been staying at the upper range of calories (about 1500-1600) and only doing what I have on my training calendar for my workouts (which right now are minimal since it is the beginning, i.e. 2 miles running, 30 minutes crosstraining, strength training and stretching), and when I did my Monday weigh in, I was down 7 pounds from Saturday!!!! Holy smokes. I am going to continue weighing in on Mondays, once a week.

Yesterday I ended up eating 2000 calories by choice. I ate only when I was hungry, and had a ton of veggies. I had the most protein I have ever had since I started tracking my food, at almost 100 grams! Sweet! I did have a treat of baked scoops and salsa before bedtime with a handful of M&M's, and I feel no guilt about it.

The only thing I wish I could have done differently yesterday was go to bed at a decent time. My DH and I stayed up way to late together, and I went to bed at midnight knowing that I had to be up at 4:45 for the gym. Not nearly enough sleep. I did figure that I could have an hour or so of sleep once I got back from the gym this morning; alas, it was not to be as the moment I got in the house, I could hear my little girl saying "Help! Help!" (her way of saying she is up and wants out of her crib).

I am going to do my monthly weigh-in today at WW at 5 p.m. It's not going to be pretty as last month it was 173.6 and today I do not plan on limiting my food intake or fluid intake for the weigh-in. I just can't do the whole "starving myself for over 8 hours" thing anymore.

Oh, so this morning my training called for 30 minutes of cross training, so I did just that on the elliptical, followed by 2 miles of walking on the treadmill (again in case I choose not to walk outside, but I probably will anyway).

I am feeling pretty good, not deprived, not depressed, and also not being a super overachiever, which is a nice change. My body is a bit sore, but in a good way, not like it feels after a super crazy workout.

Oh, and my bronchitis is a bit worse this morning, so I will definitely plan on an earlier bedtime!!

  
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SHINJU39 12/13/2011 2:32PM

    Sounds like it is all dropping into place - and well done not starving yourself for your WW weigh-in

Have a great day

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MICHSTATE 12/13/2011 10:43AM

    Keep it up!!!! Don't worry about the WI for WW!!!!

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LINDSAYHENNIGAN 12/13/2011 10:24AM

    Sounds like a perfect groove to be in. KEep it up.


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CRYSBROWN1 12/13/2011 9:23AM

    Saw your status update too - wooohoo on the emoticon!

Maybe you are onto the secret that works best for you, eating the right amount of food & doing the right amount of exercise - tough lesson sometimes but obviously the benefits are well worth it!

Keep up the good work!!

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Reboot

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Wow, gone 1 week and I feel like I have been gone forever. I have been out of action with bronchitis, and of course I eventually used being sick as code for eating like crap. Eating like crap + no working because lungs are shot = serious weight gain.

Yesterday I felt better, and I also felt much better mentally. Not working out really did a number on me for my depression and binge eating.

First, I made plans, because plans always makes me feel more in control, more in charge of my life. I plotted out my training for the 10K I am running in February, followed by the training for the half marathon in May, followed by the training for the marathon in October. The training is mapped out perfectly where I have 1 to 2 weeks between each training plan, in case my body needs a rest from running.

I also have other plans, including losing 20-ish pounds before March when I go on vacation to Florida (March 2-5). And I also want to lose another 10-15 pounds for the half marathon in May. It's going to be tough but doable. Honestly, I just want to be back to 160 pounds. I felt SO good at that weight, and 2 days ago I weighed 181 pounds. It doesn't sound like a TON of gained weight, but I swear I feel every pound. And I see every pound. When I weighed 260+ pounds, I could lose 20 and swear I didn't see/feel a difference. Now, I gain 1 pound and it feels like 10.

Yesterday went great, I am trying to do a more intuitive eating (as another blogger I read puts it). I am eating when I am hungry, dropped down the portions, and tracking as I go. I also went to the new gym I signed up at (Planet Fitness) and ran for 2 miles. It was funny because I have the membership where I can bring a guest for free whenever I want as long as I am there with them. So, I brought my husband. He gets on the treadmill next to me, and promptly puts it up to 6 miles per hour. He then says to me, lets see who drops first from running. Okay, I can't turn down a challenge. So, I jumped mine up to 6.5 (because I have to prove myself, you know??). He was out at minute 3 emoticon I kept going, because it felt SOOOO good to be running again, and I felt really good at that pace! My legs felt so fresh.

But then my lungs let me know they weren't ready for this yet, so I dropped down to a walk for a bit until my lungs calmed down (they were on fire). I then ran at 6.2 for a while, then 6.0 until I reached 1.9 miles, then I walked the rest. I was really happy afterwards :o}

My plan for today is to do the same as yesterday with my eating (I've actually been splitting meals with my little girl), and then I am going to the gym after my little girl's nap to do a stretching and strength training (going by Hal Higdon's training plan). I have a vow that I am going to train the BEST way, the HEALTHIEST way this time. I am going to be running 4 days a week, spending 1 day cross training (cycling or elliptical), and doing strength training 2 days a week. Eventually, I'll up that to 3 days a week, but this is a big step for me since I really suck at ST on my own. Before, I got in some upper body ST by doing the Spin and Sculpt class at the gym, but my membership expires on the 31st (because I joined Planet Fitness) and PF doesn't have spinning.

I definitely have a renewed focus on myself, and although I am not 100% better (health-wise), I no longer will make excuses.

So, 170s? Here I come, and 160s? I'll see you before you know it.

  
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ANMRUNNER 12/13/2011 9:26AM

    Good for you Erin!! Keep up the hard work!! You're worth it!

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JILLIANPRNCSS 12/12/2011 6:25AM

    That is great that you are not letting it get you down. It is so hard over the holidays.

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DUSTYGIRL25 12/11/2011 8:45PM

    You have some great plans. emoticon emoticon

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SHERRYJVP 12/11/2011 6:10PM

    you have some great and specific goals. and sound very determined. Congratualtions on a wonderful plan.

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NITELITE72 12/11/2011 3:41PM

    So glad you are feeling better. I can understand the need to "plan"...I think if I planned more I would do better. It was great that you took hubby to the gym with you. I know you will accomplish your goals...I believe in you!! emoticon

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MICHSTATE 12/11/2011 3:14PM

    You can totally do this Erin!!!!!!

I just want to let you know that I joined WW on Oct. 4th at 181 pounds, and my scale this morning said 161!!!!!!:-)
And most of that was just in the past month when I challenged myself to stay on track for a week and on Tuesday, I will have been on track for 1 month except for Thanksgiving Day!!!! I have lost about 10 pounds in the past month!!!

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SHINJU39 12/11/2011 1:33PM

    Glad to hear you are feeling better - had a blah week myself and no excuse of being ill.

I wish I could get my hubbie to go to the gym.

take care and have a great day

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Hunger

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I had another banner day yesterday, but wow it sure could have gone in the other direction (namely a binge).

I started out the day super motivated and knowing exactly what I wanted to do at the gym. I hopped on the elliptical machine, set the program for 60 minutes, and for the weight loss setting. After finishing that, I hopped onto the treadmill and ran for 8 minutes followed by walking for 7 minutes, getting in 1.25 miles. It was an easy run/walk, and I did it mainly because with the cold weather (anything under 30 is cold to me), I have been only walking the dog once a day. I wanted to make it up before the day started.

In all, I burned about 900 calories with my walking/running and elliptical, or at least that is what SP and the machines said.

And I felt it.

My weight was up, but I knew it was from retention. My body is fickle sometimes. I will have workouts where afterwards I will weigh 4 pounds less, then I'll have some (same workout) where I stay the same weight or even gain. I know that part of it is hydration. I made sure I was really hydrated for my workout yesterday, and I am sure that made a difference.

The first part of the day, I felt just fine. I ate my breakfast, my snack, then my lunch, and then it was in the afternoon that it started happening. Hunger. I just was so hungry, like my belly was rumbling, begging me for food. I tried drinking more water, ignoring it for half an hour, etc. but that all didn't work, so I had my afternoon snack. Still didn't work, so I had my evening snack that I always set aside for just in case I am hungry later on.

Still hungry.

I waited it out, went to Weight Watchers, felt uninspired. For some reason, this meeting was just BORING, and the people, about 30 of them, refused to participate, just sat there while the leader asked open-ended questions and was left hanging, so me and one other girl would finally help out and answer. The thing is, this leader is new and in training, so his flow of speaking and motivating speech isn't where it WILL be when he is done training. I know he'll be great, he just needs to gain confidence, and I can imagine that being left hanging like that didn't help. He looked like he was floundering and I just felt bad for him.

Anyway, I got home, and had my dinner, I upped the portion of my corn and mashed potatoes by half a serving and pushed my calories to just over my range, which I was good with considering the activity I put in yesterday. So, this morning I went over my weekly nutrition, which I am sharing with you below:



Please disregard the first day on this chart. This was an "I snacked all day so the calories most likely totaled over 3000 calories and therefore I stopped tracking" day. Thanksgiving day is the first day I started tracking fully again.

First things first. Sodium. I am not worried about that right now. I have been chugging a lot of water to counteract it, and I don't have any health issues that would have me needing to focus on it. Sure, I'd like to work on this at some point, but not this early in the game.

Second, I did a great job on my calories, fat, carbs, and protein (sure, the protein is on the lower part of the range, but I am not a huge meat eater right now, so I am happy with that).

Calcium sucks, I need to push that, even though I do take a calcium supplement and have been for a while.

Potassium...I have always sucked at this. I do eat 1-2 bananas a day, but I need to find other sources that aren't bananas.

And fiber. This is why I take Benefiber. I just don't get in much fiber. This next weekI will make sure I get in fiber. I believe that is my next step.

It's just I don't want to be working on too many things at one time, because that can be overwhelming for me.

I'll have to scour my fridge and cupboards to see what fiber-rich foods I have and start incorporating them.

  
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RAINEMARIE214 11/30/2011 11:39AM

    I am the same with sodium and fiber. I go over on sodium frequently and when I drink enough water its not a big deal - when I am not drinking enough water, I can feel myself retaining definitely because of my sodium. I also dont get enough fiber in. I even take a fiber supplement but that doesnt even help!!

I never thought to track potassium, but I am going to add that in now! I hate bananas, so I am pretty sure I am definitely not getting enough potassium! Yikes!

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NMK1980 11/30/2011 9:01AM

    My food chart looks much the same.. and I always suck at potassium, too! LOL I just bought Coconut Water at Walmart (there are different flavors) and they have about 550mg per 8oz serving. I heard the taste may leave something to be desired, but I don't know first hand yet. Its only 8oz so I can manage.. I really want to make my goals daily. Potassium-shmotassium! LOL

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When Life Hands You Lemons.....

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

My day yesterday was a study in frustration.

The day started out nice enough. I went to the gym and not only put in a good workout with spinning, but followed it up with the abs and stretch class, which is a class I avoid like the plague because I hate core exercises. I just do. I hope some day I will come to love them but until then I really have to talk myself into going to it.

I went home and weighed myself, which I am doing daily until I have been on the right track for 1 week, and after I will move to 3 times a week, then 2 times a week, then down to 1 time a week if I feel comfortable.

Anyway, I was down a chunk, which is always a welcome sight :o} I knew it most likely had to do with water loss and to look at the bigger picture of it, so it was good to have that perspective (basically I didn't want to fall to pieces if the next day it is up a bit, because it can just be water retention, and I have to remember that only I know what truly caused it, or if it was out of my hands).

I had a nice morning until an email came from my boss asking all of us to put in an hour of overtime every day this week, starting that very day. Well, hell. Don't get me wrong, I do love the job security that this overtime implies, but I am already wishing I had an extra 3 hours a day to get crap done. I mean, my entire morning from 5:30-7 is spent at the gym. 7-7:45 is spent with my little girl who is presumably up for the day. Then she goes to daycare, and I start my work at 8. So I can trim my lunch hour down by half an hour, but that leaves another half hour to cover. Today, that means I have to work when I get home from WW. Tomorrow, I have to put the half hour in after Kaylee goes to bed at 9. Ditto on Friday (DH works until midnight). Thursday I can work until 5:30. But yeah, a bit of an inconvenience when you are super busy and just don't have much time to give. Doable though.

Then, at 1:00 I realized the heat wasn't turning on. I had my furnace give me a lot of trouble last winter, so I knew the steps to take to make sure it wasn't something simple. Still didn't work. I called the local heat and cooling company. Yeah, we are on a first name basis. So, they tell me that they will show up some time between 5-9. Geez, I am hoping closer to 5 since I would like some HEAT please.

Then, I was vacuuming and a fuse blew. I didn't have any of those lovely fuses on hand and of course my DH let my DD play with the only flashlight we have, and of course she hid it.

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It's like some days my life is a parody!

I was making a hamburger casserole for dinner (basically made with ground beef, chopped onion, sloppy joe mix, vegetable soup, tomato soup, diced tomatoes, and rigatoni). It's a nice comfort food, but is also super great for leftovers. I get probably 5-6 lunches out of the batch.

I ended up having double the serving, which put me at about 1480 calories for the day, instead of the 1200 I was aiming for.

And I was totally cool with that.

Why?

Because I am learning that when life is throwing curveballs my way, I can't deal with my frustration by eating away my emotions. That being said, an extra helping of comfort food when I can afford the calories, and I worked out hard that same day? Yeah, definitely warranted.

I was up a bit this morning, but knowing the sodium packed into my dinner last night I am not surprised. I am really only writing down my weight week by week instead of daily, so I am not worried. I am still down a pound from last week's weight.

Oh, and the furnace? Turns out when they replaced the furnace in 2005, they didn't replace the chimney, which has now rusted out, and the pressure gauge basically stopped the furnace from running because there was a blockage in the chimney. Nice. So, they got it working by (get this) banging on the chimney.

They will be replacing the chimney on Wednesday for a "measly" $700. Lovely. But, it has to be done. It is just too dangerous having obstructions in a rusted out chimney. Especially now that it is pretty much wintertime.

Onward and upward, Sparkfriends! I am still doing a great job of putting myself first when it matters :o}

  
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TJDOESLIFE 11/29/2011 9:47PM

    You are number one love!!!! Number 1!!!!!!!!!!
Muah!!!!! XOXO!!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 11/29/2011 12:40PM

    You are dealing with the curveballs very well. sorry to hear about them though!

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MICHSTATE 11/29/2011 9:44AM

    I had a similar day yesterday!!!! My 1 year old was vomiting, I was trying to clean up the mess in his crib, when he started vomiting more, my 3 year wanted his diaper changed...I felt like I was being pulled in all different directions!!!!
I hope we both have better days today!!!:-)


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RUNNER4LIFE08 11/29/2011 9:16AM

    I love how you put a positive spin on your day. Hope your day today is a great one!

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FITTINGIN130 11/29/2011 9:14AM

    Shouldn't they have to cover the expense of the chimney? Regardless, it sounds like despite the curveballs, you're knockin' home runs out of the park. You got this girl.

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BETTERJULIA 11/29/2011 8:33AM

    The joys of living in the tundra. I hope your overtime goes by quickly and you still have time for the things you want to do!

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