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May's Goals (love NEW months!!)

Sunday, May 01, 2011

I will be doing a separate week list, but thought since it is May Day, and it is snowing; therefore, I am inside, I would put together goals for this month!


emoticon Stay in the calorie ranges set by my tracker. Right now, it is to stay between 1200-1550.
emoticon Eat my last meal of the day by 7 most days. This is to help with my GERD symptoms and also to help avoid late night snacking.
emoticon Drink 80+ ounces of water most days.
emoticon Work on my nutrients. Figure in more potassium, work on cutting sodium, up my fiber, and up my calcium.
emoticon Plan my days/weeks out for meal planning and batch cooking for my lunches. I have been doing that so far, and it has helped me tremendously.

emoticon Work on training for the half marathon on May 21 while not hurting myself.
emoticon Run as much as I can pain-free.
emoticon Work on ST as becoming stronger can only HELP me.
emoticon Work on other forms of cardio besides running. Jump rope, jumping jacks, elliptical, spinning, etc. Play tennis!!!
emoticon I would like to work on a personal goal of doing consecutive push-ups. I can do 8 now. I would like to get to 25 by the end of the month.

Weight: I would like to strive to reach 155 at the end of this month. That would be 7 pounds based on today's weight. It can be done, but I would be happy with 158 (4 pounds).

Body fat percentage: I would like to lower my %. Right now, it is 25%. I would like to reach 23%.

My biggest goal, though, is to enjoy this. To have fun with it. To be happy conquering my goals and be the warrior I am without compromising my emotional well being.

And above all else, to remember once again that I am human, I will not be perfect, but that progress is what is important.

Happy May Day!

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RAVENSONG37 5/3/2011 12:15PM

    I've GOT to follow your lead on this inspire me so Erin!! Love you!

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RUNNER4LIFE08 5/2/2011 2:32PM

    Great goals.... you can do it!!!

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ANMRUNNER 5/2/2011 2:29PM

    Do you have an iPhone? There is an app for the 100 PushUp challenge that is awesome. If not, I think there's a website you can go to that has the same info, just less condensed. There is an initial fitness challenge then you start your program based on that. I started with 8 pushups in a row and I'm now to 17 in a row in 2 weeks! (:

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MARTY728 5/1/2011 10:18PM

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MADDEELOU 5/1/2011 8:12PM

    Great goals, Erin. You have such a great, healthy, positive attitude.

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WANT2BEFIT10 5/1/2011 12:34PM

    LOVE your goals! Here's to an awesome MAY!

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Recap on my week's goals....

Sunday, May 01, 2011

Nutrition: This will be for all days this week:
1. Stay within 1200-1550 calories. emoticon
2. Work on being in ranges for most of the things I track, including sodium, potassium, carbs, protein, fiber, fat, etc. emoticon
3. Drink 80+ ounces of water minimum, but strive for 100+. This could use improvement as I didn't REALLY track how much water I drank. I did drink more than usual as I grabbed a water instead of pop each time, and kept my pop drinking to a minimum (1/2 to 1 can a day).

For nutrition, I am super happy with how I did. I didn't binge, I stayed mostly in my ranges (potassium was under most days and sodium was over a few days). I stayed in my calorie range all days but one, and on that day I was only over 30 calories. WINNING!

1. Spin and Sculpt class (50 minutes). emoticon
2. Spring clean the backyard that is full of dog poop (Nasty). emoticon

1. Run 1 mile. emoticon
2. Do half an hour of ST minimum. emoticon

1. If 1 mile was pain-free, run 2 miles. My hamstring was hurting this morning, so skipped the gym completely to rest it. Walked about 9 miles instead.
2. Elliptical for half an hour on lower setting. Ditto.

1. If 2 miles worked out fine, run 3 miles. Still rested.
2. ST for half hour minimum. Did some ST, about 15 minutes. Partial emoticon

Friday: Rest. I didn't rest. I ran 2 miles today w/o pain! WINNING!

1. Run 5 miles if the previous 3 runs went great. I ended up walking a lot today with the plans for running tomorrow.
2. ST for 45 minutes. Nope.

Sunday: Rest. I am going to the gym later today to run for at least 3 miles and maybe do the elliptical according to how I feel. Plan also on ST including lunges, dead lifts, squats, push-ups, and crunches.

All days: Walk dog at least once, but if a nice day, twice at least. emoticon

Overall, very happy with how I approached fitness this week. I didn't push too hard, and wasn't lazy either.

1. Keep busy. emoticon
2. Remember that I am not perfect and don't have to do everything on the list if something comes up, but that I want to strive to do better this week. emoticon
3. Clean when opportunities come up. emoticon
4. Be outside when weather permits, because being outside invigorates me! That goes for running, too :o} emoticon
5. Take time for myself and read, watch a favorite show (without eating while I am watching OR reading), take a long shower, shave, paint my toenails, and hey, my fingernails while I am at it. emoticon some of it :o}
6. Be productive at work. The harder I work, the more I make, and I want to be paying extra on a certain bill. emoticon

Have fun! That's what I really need to do... emoticon

Overall great week, and I am down about 4 pounds this week because of it. Shed some water weight and getting close to my WW goal weight of 160 (was 162 this morning). Next up will be working on my next goal of 155 pounds once I hit 160!

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HHI0901 5/1/2011 11:21AM

    If you want some fast-setting polish, I recommend Seche Vite (I think) top coat - I put it on after base and 2 layers OPI color, and it dries SO fast - I can go to sleep right after and wake up without sheet marks!

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    Good Job!!

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Really putting myself out there...

Saturday, April 30, 2011

As I have mentioned before in another blog, I am running the half marathon in Fargo for a charity (Lutheran Social Services). I created an event on FB and invited everyone on my friend's list to hopefully raise some money towards the $250 minimum.

I put in there the reason I am running for this charity, the fact that they helped me overcome my addiction to gambling. I would say 80% of the people in my friend's list did not know about my addiction.

I feel so vulnerable right now...I am hoping I did the right thing.

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IMSMILEY88 5/1/2011 3:12PM

    Congrats on overcoming your addiction! And it is wonderful that you are raising money for the organization who helped you. What a great way to give back!

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BETTERJULIA 5/1/2011 12:02AM

    YOu are an amazing person to have the strength to overcome that and to share that with others - there are so many things that we as a society seem to think if we don't talk about it and pretend it's not real it doesn't exist which only makes it ten times harder for those going through it. Thank you for putting yourself out there. You ROCK!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 4/30/2011 10:34PM

    I would not worry about sharing... your real friends will commend you for your honesty and success in getting through it. any addiction is a day-today struggle but you're proving that it can be done :)

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CANNIE50 4/30/2011 9:07PM

    As a veteran of several addictions, and as a person who just posted a very vulnerable type blog today on SP, I can relate! Here is my vote: I vote our shame stays with our addiction. When we put the active addiction behind us, the shame stays there. You never know, someone who sees your FB post may be struggling to overcome the same sort of compulsion and you may be the light they need to see. Have a great 1/2 marathon! You will be 13.1 miles stronger afterwards than you are right now, and you sound strong to begin with so you will really be a force to be reckoned with. emoticon

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FREDDYB29 4/30/2011 8:18PM

    Don't worry. its a great thing you overcame an addiction. You did it in a healthy way in my opinion. It's okay to be vulnerable its what makes us human. We are all here to help.

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LKEITHO 4/30/2011 8:12PM

    Good for you for being open and for supporting the group that helped you!

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KATHIERAE 4/30/2011 6:54PM

    There will always be those who judge, but know that what you did IS good. You may never know how many others you've helped... Congrats on beating your addiction, and good luck on your race!!! emoticon

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SARAHJG33 4/30/2011 6:27PM

    There's nothing wrong with sharing things about yourself and the fact that you overcame it is wonderful!

Have a great run!!!! emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 4/30/2011 5:56PM

    When we overcome we share our victory and in turn many lives are changed.


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RUNNER12COM 4/30/2011 5:44PM

    You are an example of success in so many different forms, what's not to celebrate? Congrats to you and well done on giving back!

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JILLIANPRNCSS 4/30/2011 5:44PM

    Think of how much closer you will be with those friends now they know more about you. Send me a sparksmail and I will add you as a friend on FB.

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HHI0901 4/30/2011 5:26PM

    That's fantastic!! There's no better way to pay them back for what they did for you. I'm sure you won't be judged on sharing this - congrats on overcoming that tough time in your life and good luck with your race! :)

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SHERRYJVP 4/30/2011 5:18PM

    I think that is wonderful for you to do..and I think it is best that your friends they can not accidentally lead you back into your addiction. should be proud of how far you have come. Good for you.

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MUMMAMICHELLE 4/30/2011 5:14PM

    It's hard to be vulnerable to others judgements but hopefully you putting it out there will help someone else who feels isolated with their own problems. Great job having that strength!!

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FLYINGB16 4/30/2011 5:03PM

    I believe you did the right thing. You are running this race for your health and giving back to the church that helped you through a dark time. You may never know it but you could have just shined a light on a problem shared by others you know. Removing the secrecy removes the shame and allows us to heal. Now they know where they can go to get help AND you will have inspired it.

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DUSTYGIRL25 4/30/2011 4:58PM

    We all have things in our past that we aren't proud of. You're no different than anyone else. emoticon

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LUV4CHOCOLATE 4/30/2011 4:52PM

    It think it is great that you are putting yourself out there! Good luck on your half.

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SWEETNEENI 4/30/2011 4:46PM

    Nobody is perfect. I am so proud of you!

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COLD_GOLD 4/30/2011 4:26PM

    good for you! I totally support you. Thank you for trusting the SP community with your personal stuff. Hugs! e

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ANNE7X7 4/30/2011 4:23PM

    I think you will be surprised by people's response! Sometimes putting ourselves out there is the way to grow. People are kinder than we think!

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When your day turns south quickly......

Friday, April 29, 2011

I want to preface this blog to say that I love my daughter and do cherish every minute I spend with her....

My day started out fantastic. I got in a 2-mile run (which is big for me right now). I also got in a short bit on the elliptical before I felt my hammy tighten up. I got home, took a shower, got my daughter ready, and walked her to daycare. Planned my meals for the day when I got home: Banana cut up on plain oatmeal with reduced fat PB mixed in (1 TBSP), 2 packets of Splenda with fiber, and 1/2 cup of skim milk for breakfast; leftover cheesy broccoli rice chicken casserole for lunch, grapes and an apple for snacks, and a New York strip steak for dinner with corn.

Work went fine. I felt distracted, but who doesn't on a Friday? Especially when, despite the 25-mph gusting winds, it is gorgeous and sunny out. Walked my dog for 1 mile on my break, tanned on my lunch (and yes, tanning is a horrible horrible thing to do, I know), ate my lunch while watching Vampire Diaries on DVR (so love that show), and went back to work.

So....this is when my day starts...sucking. CustomAire (a local heating/furnace repair place) was to come out to do routine maintenace on our air conditioner today between 3-6. You know how that wait. So, he calls at 4 and says he is on his way. This place is 3 blocks away from our house. He arrives at...4:45!!!! WTF??? And this the guy who didn't do the job right the last time he was here and I had to have someone else come out. So. I am off work at 5. At 5:15 he is still working out there, so I decided to make my dinner. My dinner is done at about 5:30 (the steak and corn). I have it on the counter ready for me to eat when he comes in. He talks about what he did, what I need to watch out for, and had me signing the papers. He then sees my dinner, and starts talking about how he would love to grill but he can't because his apartment doesn't have a balcony, and proceeds to spend the next 15 minutes on this topic. I am subtlely trying to hint to this guy that food is getting cold, and that isn't a cheap steak!! GRRRRR.

He finally leaves at 6:00 on the dot. Mind you, as I said before, my dinner was done at 5:30. I try to shake off my grumpiness while eating dinner and watching Dancing With the Stars. Kind of worked. My daughter went with my mom after daycare, and I had to pick her up at 7:30 to go grocery shopping. I knew that this grocery shopping would be rough on the wallet because we had run out of a lot of essentials, and I have a lot of new recipes I need to try out. We are going to be saving money in the long run, but tell my frugal husband that.

Okay. Picking up my daughter, I can tell right away that she is deep in her terrible two-ness. Super cranky. No problem, she loves the store (and daddy works there, AND she gets a cookie!). I put her in the car, she freaks out for seemingly no reason, and cries all the way to the store. Then, she sees a kid being pushed out in a shopping cart that has a car the kid can "drive". It is her favorite cart to ride in. She freaks. We then pass this cart and I obviously can't use it but know that there is another one inside. She obviously doesn't. She then proceeds to beat the crap out of me by pummeling my chest with her fists and kicking my stomach with her feet. She has NEVER done this before. I almost drop her because I am shocked. We get into the store, and I put her in the same kind of cart, but she is still screaming because she wanted the OTHER one. *sigh*

I go to the ATM and withdraw money. She is still screaming. Nerves are getting shot.

Then, we run into DH, who is working. He tries to console me, saying she didn't mean it (about kicking and punching me) and that she loves me. I know that. I am NOT an idiot. I am just frazzled from the turn of events of the day and it's hard to explain that to him. I then get the groceries while she starts screaming every time I stop the cart. Which I obviously have to do in order to shop. Geez. Try telling that to a 22-month-old who doesn't verbally communicate yet...

Finally done shopping. The bill is $144, which is our highest grocery bill EVER. But, I know I didn't get anything we didn't need for the next month. We will be using everything. I felt good about it. Then, we get out to the car and DH helps by trying to get her into the car while I load the groceries. She freaks the entire time, mad because she wanted to run around the crazy busy parking lot.

She proceeds to cry all the way to the gas station. I get out, planning on using my check card to pump gas so I don't have to get Kaylee out of the car. Realize my check card is NOT in my wallet. SH!T. I left it in the ATM. Nice. The third time I have done that in the last 3 months. Ridiculous. (yes, I did call to cancel the card once I got home).

I notice the wind is now gusting regularly at about 30 MPH easy. And, it started raining, which is actually painful when the wind is that brutal and sideways. I put in $20 and knew I could run in quick and pay since I was the only customer, lock the car and start it up with the starter. Before anyone says anything, I know what I did, and I weighed taking her out into that crazy painful weather versus being alone for 1 minute, but always in my sight (the pump is about 10 feet literally from the door).

I get back to the car, and she is screaming on the top of her lungs because I left her alone. Okay, now my nerves are exploding, I am developing a crazy headache, and I am feeling like a horrible mother now.

I went home, got her ready for bed and put her to bed (it was DEFINITELY her bedtime). She, of course, cried. This really freaked me out, all this crying, because really this is NOT like her. Especially at bedtime. She is cutting her last molar, but she has had worse...

So, put all the groceries away, planned the meals for me this weekend, and am now typing this as I pray the Excedrin Migraine kicks in soon. I will be going to bed right after.

I knew I had to type this out or I would turn to food. Because I really want comfort right now. Instead, I will go to bed because I, too, am tired and cranky and I know that's best for me.

I have had 5 full days of being so on track, and I can't mess up right now. I need to continue making the right choices as I have been doing. I did go over 30 calories today, but considering the circumstances of today I am so happy with that...

Man, this got long. I think I just needed to get it ALL out there. I feel better...

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MADDEELOU 5/1/2011 7:41PM

    emoticon Hope your weekend was better. There are days when Ben drives me insane and he is ten! Hang in there.

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BETTERJULIA 5/1/2011 12:01AM

    emoticonBeing a momma can be sooooo tough! I'm so proud of you for coming here and sharing with us instead of turning to food! That is awesome! I hope that you had a great Saturday - minus any crying baby girl!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 4/30/2011 10:45PM

    WOWOWOWOW I'm not even a mother yet but I did work at a daycare during college and these are the moments I wish we could drug kiddies... but I know you're a better mother than that!

Good job turning to spark instead of food!

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CANNIE50 4/30/2011 9:20PM

    I have been a mom for a veeeeerrrrryyyy long time. Leaving a child in a carseat when you are taking care of errands that take seconds is simply practical. You are working so hard and doing such a good job - don't make a hard job even harder by second guessing yourself. Trust your instincts, honey. People will always have opinions and criticisms. Here is my stock response to them: "good point" and then I just continue about my business. I am impressed you handled a hard day so well. Tired two year olds are a force to be reckoned with. Hang in there!

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DUSTYGIRL25 4/30/2011 2:01PM

    Wow! When you have a bad day you really have one. Really, I would have had a hard time getting through all that. My hat is off to you! I hope that your tomorrow, (or today now) is soooo much better. You are doing so good with you SP program of getting healthy, but I guess now and then we just have those days that you want to just forget about.
Take care and things will get better.

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MARTY728 4/30/2011 10:54AM

    Hope you fell better and know that as parents we all go throught this and as children, we probably did it to our parents. emoticon

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MRS.CARLY 4/30/2011 10:50AM

    Are those terrible twos almost over?

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POOKAQUEEN 4/30/2011 9:50AM

    I think all parents have had those days and I really feel your pain. It sounds to me like you've really handled it well. I hope today is going better for you.

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TRIP2HAPPINESS 4/30/2011 9:36AM

    I think you did AWESOME Erin! You didn't turn to food for comfort when you could have. I'm sending positive vibes your way in hopes you have a better day today! :)

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TINARETTER 4/30/2011 9:35AM

    Boy I can relate to all of that when my oldest daughter was little. I recogonize all the emotions you've gone through. I think you are doing fantastic. You knew what needed to be done and did it. I would have floundered after the AC guy. But you went through everything else AND planned your meals and typed a blog with a headache. You are amazing.Don't give up.

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RAVENSONG37 4/30/2011 8:19AM

    Wow...sweetheart...I feel for you! Hopefully this is one of a few terrible, horrible, no-good, very-bad days for you! SUPER HUGS!

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THEHONESTME 4/30/2011 7:56AM

    Ah, I remember those kind of days -- no fun! I hope you both got a good night's sleep! emoticon

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PINKBEANBOO 4/30/2011 6:41AM

Being a mom & wife is hard & you are doing a good job.

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MJCLARENDON 4/30/2011 12:09AM

    Wow, that seems like an incredibly stressful string of events- I'm stressed just reading about it! But I think you handled it beautifully! Good for you for blogging! I hope you have a wonderful night's sleep and that things get better tomorrow.

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COLD_GOLD 4/29/2011 11:30PM

    good for you for blogging it out. you are NOT a horrible mother... chin up! new day tomorrow.

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I'm proud of myself....

Friday, April 29, 2011

I am proud of myself for:

emoticon Getting up when I fall down

emoticon Holding my head high even when I don't feel confident

emoticon Remembering that I am human, not perfect

emoticon Becoming a hottie, in my own mind, and maybe a few others!!

emoticon Being healthy

emoticon Getting up and starting each day fresh and positive

emoticon Keeping it real, to myself, and to others

emoticon Losing 126 pounds, and wanting to lose a few more!

emoticon Being a good mommy

emoticon Doing things because they are good for me, even if I don't feel like it

emoticon Putting myself first

emoticon Sticking with my journey, through various obstacles, because I am worth it

emoticon Becoming a runner!!!

emoticon Knowing when to back off from something because I need to

emoticon Thinking things through and being less impulsive

emoticon Getting up in the morning and going to the gym, even when I'd rather sleep in

emoticon Looking in the mirror and seeing the beauty, not the ugly

emoticon Taking on challenges and beating them to the ground

emoticon Remembering to looking forward and not backward

emoticon Making new friends!!

What makes you proud!?

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RAVENSONG37 4/30/2011 8:20AM

    Love this list!! I'm proud of you too, just for being you!

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LAURIE-RN 4/30/2011 8:10AM

    Excellent reasons to be proud!


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COLD_GOLD 4/29/2011 10:52PM

    this is awesome!! I like this blog idea.

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PRICANSTINA84 4/29/2011 10:34PM

    you should be proud of yourself! youve done awesome!

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RASMUSSEN5 4/29/2011 8:34PM

You should be proud of yourself girl! emoticon

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SHERRYJVP 4/29/2011 8:31PM

    this will be a great thing to look back on when you have a down day...or if you read it daily..maybe you won't have a down day!

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SPACELION 4/29/2011 5:53PM

    Yay! With good reason too, you're doing fantastic miss! Way to go :D

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 4/29/2011 4:59PM

    Good for you :)

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MARTY728 4/29/2011 4:18PM

    Besides having SP Friends like you, I am proud that slowly by surely I KEEP SPARKING and when I fall, I get back up. I DO NOT QUIT! emoticon emoticon emoticon

I hope all is OK medical wise. Remember I am a guy, so I DO NOT want any details. I am confused enough about that stuff! emoticon

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XPHOENIX 4/29/2011 4:15PM

    Perfect!! You inspire me!! I love this and I'm proud of you, too! XOXO

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BETHHRSN 4/29/2011 4:11PM

  sounds like you should be proud of yourself. Good job!

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