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50 Things About Me

Thursday, April 28, 2011

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope, Mom just wanted the initials EJ, so since I am a girl, Erin Joy...if a boy, Eric Joshua

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
6 days ago when I felt overwhelmed about my eating/health.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I used to, but since I type 90% of the time, my penmanship has suffered.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
It used to be cotto salami, but now is turkey.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Yes, 1 girl, Kaylee (almost 2).

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yes.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
Yes, and I can abuse it a lot, especially with my DH, the poor thing.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yes, never had many issues with them.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Not when I was 240+ pounds. Now? Yes, I would :o}

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Cinnamon Toast Crunch or Life Cereal.

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Yes, because otherwise the insides get ruined a lot faster.

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
Physically, YES! Emotionally, getting there :o}

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
If plain, my favorite is New York Vanilla. If I get mix-ins (ala Coldstone Creamery), Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough.

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their smile :o}

15. RED OR PINK?
Pink ever since giving birth to a little girl ;o}

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My insecurities about my body and weight in general. My stomach and the fact that I have been hovering around 160 since last October to be more specific.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My grandma.

18. WHAT IS THE PAUL MCKENNA TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST?
Had to Google this...hypnotism? He can make me thin for only 43.80 Euros? Well. No.

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Silver and Red (Asics running shoes).

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Beef Roast with Onion gravy and mashed potatoes.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
My daughter watching Dora...wait a minute, she just messed with the Netflix and is watching...Big Beach? WTH?

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Periwinkle ;o}

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Pizza, my husband, my daughter after her bath, my deodorant when I am working out (gross, right?), freshly mown grass, rain, the sun on my face (yes, that's a smell!).

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My friend (and Kaylee's godmother) Melissa to set up a time to hang out!

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
Beach house for sure. I love the beach!!!!!

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Watching NFL, any game!

27. HAIR COLOR?
Dyed blonde (otherwise light brown/dark blonde)

28. EYE COLOR?
Mostly blue, sometimes green, sometimes like a grayish, depending on mood.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
No, because I can't stand them. (getting LASIK soon anyway)

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
So sorry, don't have one, have many! Probably one of my many issues. Faves are most any pizza, most any ice cream. I'll leave it at that. Wait....all you can eat shrimp at Red Lobster. Okay, now I'm done. Nope. Olive Garden. I'm done now. Promise.

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Is it a gory movie? Then scary. If not, then the happy ending.

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Oh, God....Twilight Eclipse. I need to see a movie.

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Bluish gray.

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer. If I could have summer year-round, it would be done.

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Who are they from?

36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
I can't pick one. All of the above. If that doesn't work, then Dirt Cake.

37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
Cardio, but I want to love ST more.

38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
Computer.

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Chasing Fire by Nora Roberts

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
A mouse.

42. FAVORITE SOUND?
The sound of my breathing when I run. My daughter's laughter. The waves on a beach.

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Neither.

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Cancun in March.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Special talent? Not really. I used to be an amazing flutist, though.

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Where I live.

47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
Where I was born.

48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?
Dark gray.

49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
Black.

50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS?
The first 20 sure, but I start running out of time because my daughter wants me to play after that :o}

  
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RUNNER4LIFE08 4/29/2011 2:46PM

    Nice to get to know you a little more. We have some similarities!

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SALINAMATHER 4/29/2011 12:04PM

    LOVE IT! And how can you have just one favorite food? LOL. If any of us had just one favorite food, we wouldn't be on a site like this getting support to get into shape!

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BETTERJULIA 4/28/2011 9:40PM

    LOve it!

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JILLIANPRNCSS 4/28/2011 9:31PM

    Thanks for sharing, I will get to mine soon.

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SWEETMOMMY41 4/28/2011 7:56PM

  what a great blog! thanks so much for sharing! have a great day!

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My plan for the week (April 25-May 1)

Monday, April 25, 2011

I think it is time for me to get back to basics and up my accountability by making a list of things I want to do, and on Sunday, May 1, update with how I did and make a new list.

Nutrition: This will be for all days this week:
1. Stay within 1200-1550 calories.
2. Work on being in ranges for most of the things I track, including sodium, potassium, carbs, protein, fiber, fat, etc.
3. Drink 80+ ounces of water minimum, but strive for 100+.

Fitness:
Monday:
1. Spin and Sculpt class (50 minutes).
2. Spring clean the backyard that is full of dog poop (Nasty).

Tuesday:
1. Run 1 mile.
2. Do half an hour of ST minimum.

Wednesday:
1. If 1 mile was pain-free, run 2 miles.
2. Elliptical for half an hour on lower setting.

Thursday:
1. If 2 miles worked out fine, run 3 miles.
2. ST for half hour minimum.

Friday: Rest.

Saturday:
1. Run 5 miles if the previous 3 runs went great.
2. ST for 45 minutes.

Sunday: Rest.

All days: Walk dog at least once, but if a nice day, twice at least.

Other:
1. Keep busy.
2. Remember that I am not perfect and don't have to do everything on the list if something comes up, but that I want to strive to do better this week.
3. Clean when opportunities come up.
4. Be outside when weather permits, because being outside invigorates me! That goes for running, too :o}
5. Take time for myself and read, watch a favorite show (without eating while I am watching OR reading), take a long shower, shave, paint my toenails, and hey, my fingernails while I am at it.
6. Be productive at work. The harder I work, the more I make, and I want to be paying extra on a certain bill.

Have fun! That's what I really need to do.

  
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PRICANSTINA84 4/29/2011 10:36PM

    great plan! you can do it

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COLD_GOLD 4/25/2011 9:15PM

    I like your plan and I'm glad to see #2, 4 and 5 there! You'll rock this week!

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THEHONESTME 4/25/2011 7:25PM

    I like your plan -- I should do the same thing -- it's time to get back to basics! :)

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ANNE1123 4/25/2011 5:20PM

    Looks like a solid plan, good luck!! emoticon

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DUSTYGIRL25 4/25/2011 2:29PM

    Excellent list! emoticon

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 4/25/2011 2:27PM

    Great plan! emoticon

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KAKEPO 4/25/2011 1:29PM

    I'm right there with you! You can do it!

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BRENDY_28 4/25/2011 10:57AM

    emoticon plan.

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ZURDTA- 4/25/2011 10:24AM

    Great plan :)

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RUNNER4LIFE08 4/25/2011 10:22AM

    Sounds like you are going to have one great week! Way to be prepared!

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ANIKA34 4/25/2011 10:15AM

    Good plan! Thanks for sharing!

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JENS_MISSION 4/25/2011 9:32AM

    This is a good way to start off the week in writing your goals and planning....helps keep things on track.
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Starting Over? Or just picking up the pieces?

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Okay, Sparkies, I have frequented SP every day, but yet my activity has been minimal (posting on other blogs, writing blogs, checking out my friends' feeds). My activity has been minimal IRL, too.

Ever since my hip flexor injury I have not gone running. I have also stopped going to the gym and stopped my ST. I have gone for walks outside, but that is it.

I planned to get "back to it" last week since the Sports Medicine doctor said I could. But I didn't. I let my other health issues that I blogged before about get in the way. The blood tests revealed that my prolactin is low, my TSH (thyroid test) is normal, and I am anemic. That explains me feeling tired and sluggish and dizzy but that is about it. They were looking for my prolactin to be high, so it being low is actually a good thing. I am on a 2-month wait to see if my cycles regulate. If it doesn't, then I am referred for an endometrial biopsy.

The bad news is, last week my weight jumped to 168 (my baseline weight is 160). I had it down to 162 the week before, and now this morning (after having a delicious yet fatty/sodium packed dinner) it is 165.4 (yesterday being 164.2).

I have been driving myself and my DH nuts with my behavior. Three days ago I recommitted to eating healthy, and I have been doing that (well, except for yesterday's dinner date with DH). And, I am learning through this that with diet alone you absolutely CAN lose/maintain your weight, but right when I get close to 160 again, something happens and I allow myself to eat what I want. It's like I can't handle much anymore emotionally. I feel drained.

And I feel lazy. The fact that I have barely any fitness minutes this month KILLS me. I prided myself on the fact that I got up at 5:15 five to six days a week to run or work out. I know that I am going to the gym tomorrow and that I am jumping back on the horse, but I feel like it is too late for the weigh-in at Weight Watchers on Tuesday, May 3.

Just a few days ago I was telling DH about how I was feeling, physically and emotionally, and how I felt bereft, just empty, like I didn't have any emotions, but I knew I was drowning my emotions in food. He said that he doesn't blame me given what I have been going through with my non-stop period.

That is crap. I can't use that as an excuse. I need to use that as motivation! I need to use that as fuel to my fire to get up and do something healthy to make my body FEEL better.

So, I am NOT starting over. If I was truly starting over, I'd be sitting here not able to walk 100 feet, weighing 286 pounds, not 165. I would be at my rock bottom again.

Therefore, I am just picking up where I left off. I am going to start running a mile, then 2, then 3, until I am ready for the half in (eeks) 1 month. I am not worried about being able to finish it. I won't be finishing in 2:17 like I did in October because of the big pause in training, but that's okay by me.

But, I still only have 10 pounds to lose. 165 is not a bad number. I am NOT going to put myself down about the number. In fact, I am happy that I only gained 5 pounds throughout this. And I know that most of it is, as usual, water weight. I probably only really gained 1-2 pounds of real weight. Sure, I am thinking I lost some muscle with my lack of ST, but I can get it back.

I believe in myself, and I am happy. I wasn't 3 days ago, that's for sure, but that was then and this is now. I choose to make my life a happy one to be proud of.

Here is a quote from The Biggest Loser: "I need to feel proud of myself. That's my motivation to lose weight."

Hear, hear.

Oh, and Happy Easter!!!

  
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MADDEELOU 4/26/2011 12:20PM

    Hugs! Erin, you are so strong and smart! I am constantly motivated by you. Congratulations for picking yourself and moving on.

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LOSING107 4/26/2011 12:25AM

    Minor setback...!

I can relate to this a lot, hate the empty feeling and hate even more the urge to drink or eat or whatever just to *feel* something. I wish the best for you and am glad to hear you're pushing through this tough period in life.

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RAVENSONG37 4/25/2011 10:49PM

    Just love you sweety. Take care of you in whatever ways you need to an be kind. I love you and know that you are incredible. Always, no matter what.

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ELLABELLE66 4/25/2011 8:06PM

    Oh Erin. I could seriously write this blog (minus the health issues). But you are here now - focus on that! We can do this!!!


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THEHONESTME 4/25/2011 8:00PM

    I believe in you, too, Erin! AND I believe in me! It's time to recommit and re-focus. Spring is finally going to be here (I HOPE) and it's the perfect time to get our A$$e$ in gear! Let's do this!!

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PARTICLEGIRL22 4/25/2011 9:17AM

    Something must be in the water. I've gained back 7lbs over the past 2 weeks. Your postive blog has insipired me to recommit myself.

You are going through a lot and I understand why you turned to food. I would do the same. You are totally awesome for picking up the pieces and realizing that things can get out of hand quickly.

I'm here to cheer you on!

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RUNNER4LIFE08 4/25/2011 8:49AM

    So glad you ended your biog on a happy positive note! I know you can do this! Hang in there.....


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COLD_GOLD 4/24/2011 10:41PM

    hey... I liked your idea of starting by building slowly. Don't be too hard on yourself! You are going through a lot. I'm glad that your doctors are on top of things. It might be worth mentioning to your doctor about the lack of emotions and how you are trying to lose weight. If they are worth their salt, they will be able to assist you and both those things might be medically important.

I think you are doing an awesome job and that this is just a hiccup that you can't completely control. You are taking what you can control and off to a good start!

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RUNNERGIRL60 4/24/2011 8:59PM

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SPACELION 4/24/2011 6:53PM

    Keep going! I've read a lot of people get to a certain number and then end up battling up and down 10lbs rather than passing the number.. It must be a mental thing. Don't beat yourself up about it, you're in the right mindset right now - you KNOW what's up, you know what you gotta do to change it and you will! :)

Glad to see you're blogging again :)

xxx

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MELLYBEANS0919 4/24/2011 6:09PM

  You are still doing really well, do not be hard on yourself.

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HEALTHYASHLEY 4/24/2011 4:50PM

    You know it is funny because I have been going through this too. As soon as I got near a hundred pounds lost I just let myself do whatever and not be into it. I don't see it as starting over either. It is just picking up and moving forward again. Good for you for your determination! We both can do this. Hugs.

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SHERRYJVP 4/24/2011 4:43PM

    Hang in there. Sounds like you have done great and you are on one of the bumps in the journey. Every day is a new day and a new adventure..some good and some not so good. Walkng is great exercise and until your body tells you YES...you just listen to it.

I had similar period problems. They did a procedure on me and now I only have a period every 3 months..with prompting from some hormones that I take then.

Enjoy the next stage of your fitness adventure, what ever that may be.

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ELAOPET 4/24/2011 3:07PM

    You need to be kind to yourself! tell yourself: " I ROCK! "
We need to be proud of ourselves every day, or all is no good. I think. We need to tell ourselves we rosk all the time and that is how we make it!
That said, I was at the same place as you and still kind of am. I couldn't do anything about the fitness, and now I just am trying to sort my life as a working woman so that I can figure when exactly am I supposed to workout, when I have double shifts at work...hmmm
Will have to find a way. As they say, where there's will...
WELL, I THINK YOU ROCK!!!!!! I KNOW SO!
HAPPY EASTER TO YOU TOO!
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POOKAQUEEN 4/24/2011 12:21PM

    It's definitely been a rough time for you, but it sounds like you are back on the right track. Take it easy, and make sure you are well, my friend. That's the important part.

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EDDLES08 4/24/2011 10:59AM

    I could have written this blog. I too have been drowning my emotions in food. I have gained back 8lbs of the 125 that I lost. It is an uncomfortable feeling. Deep down I think I will always have a fear of going back to 300lbs. But you are right, we are not starting all over again.

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ANIKA34 4/24/2011 10:17AM

    Great Blog! Today is a new day, make the most of it!!! You have come so far, don't let this set you back!

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GTANYA 4/24/2011 10:17AM

    Erin, this blog is great - it transpires what we all go through. I am amazed in your strength and perserverance - you will accomplish this goal, this is just a hiccup in your journey of health! Good for you!!!! I will be following you - a cheerleader in getting to your goals!! WOO HOO!!!! YEAH!!!!

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TEDDYBABE 4/24/2011 10:02AM

    Awesome blog! You are NOT starting over, you are just continuing on. We are on these health journeys but we are also living life at the same time. Sometimes, our life journey takes over our health journey for a bit of time. That's OKAY! Give yourself permission to attend to the other parts of your. Your plan of 1 mile, etc is perfect. You will get it going again. Be kind to yourself. Make it fun! You are truly inspiring even when you are off the track for a bit! Hugs!!!!

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ROBYN168 4/24/2011 9:58AM

    Erin - for different reasons - I have been having the same kind of life....kind of just out there - hanging on by the tiniest of threads.

You are not alone - and you will pick up those pieces and keep pressing forward.

The one thing that I have learned from this cycle of "down" is that I am able to see it - I feel it - I know it is happening and I know I am in control - so arne't you. The key is that you are noticing it - and ready to do something about it...one small step at a time. You will get there.

I know what you mean about getting to that magic number too - I have done that - it is so close to success for me - that I let it slip - and I don't know why.

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My appointment....

Monday, April 18, 2011

I went in with my list of days I have had my period, which was ridiculous (during this month I have only had 3 days OFF). My mood has been up and down, my weight has been up and down (and I explained to her that I have had days where I can eat everything under the sun and still be hungry and it seems to be the days before a crazy period day).

My BP at the appointment was 90/60 with a pulse of 40.

She decided to put me on an even stronger birth control pill for 2 months and sent me off to the lab to get my TSH (thyroid), prolactin (hormone controlled by the pituitary gland) and CBC (blood counts to see if my blood levels are off or if I am anemic).

She said that if the pill doesn't regulate things in 2 months, I will be scheduled for an endometrial biopsy.

Lots of fun! I am happy I went though...hopefully I'll have some answers or just some regulating soon. I just can't take much more of this right now, the mood swings most of all.

Thank you all for your support and advice. I really appreciate it and love you for it!

I will also update with any more news....

  
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ELAOPET 4/22/2011 9:35AM

    Sure glad you went. They must find the reason for it! Fingers crossed and hang in there in the meantime!

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WILD22 4/21/2011 1:18PM

    I am glad she has offered you some sort of alternative. I hope this new stronger birth control works for you. I was recently at my OB's office. Although her solution for me is not going to be an option for you (vag hysterectomy), she did talk about the things we have tried. I did go on a strong b/c pill and I took it for 90 days straight then off for 3 days and back on for 90 days. This did help for a bit but not long enough. I have a prolapsed uterus caused by my very speedy deliveries (45 min for my first and under 15 min for my second) She said that it is causing pain when I work out because the muscles just aren't there to keep things in place, and we will have to do a hysterectomy anyways so why not do it now when I am younger and stronger so I will have a faster recovery. Anyways this wordy comment is to offer yet another suggestion for the pill for 90 days. I was way more pleasant and not nearly as ravenous! Good luck to you.

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RASMUSSEN5 4/19/2011 11:38AM

    Glad to hear that you decided to go...makes me think that I should probably go in as well. I am having the same issue. I hope that they can figure out whats wrong hun! emoticon

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RDARLING 4/19/2011 8:43AM

    Hope you find some answers and relief from the situation. Take care

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SHERLYN-WILL 4/19/2011 8:41AM

    I have been keeping up with you... (should have dropped a comment on your previous blogs.. HUH? LOL)

I am so glad you went to the doctor... and that some bloodwork is being done...

At least it is a start towards getting this fixed...

Hang in there!

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RAINEMARIE214 4/19/2011 7:43AM

    Glad you got to see a doctor! Those are some huge concerns, but hopefully they can figure out whats going on!

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PRICANSTINA84 4/18/2011 9:35PM

    glad you got to the doc! hopefully you'll get regular again!! that has got to be no fun at all!!

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COLD_GOLD 4/18/2011 8:29PM

    sooo glad that your doctor is on top of this! don't be too hard on yourself right now... you have done great and are still doing wonderful! hugs! e

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MADEMCHE 4/18/2011 7:57PM

    So glad you got in to see someone. I hope you get things figured out soon!

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WANT2BEFIT10 4/18/2011 7:39PM

    Wow...I hope that the docs can get this figured out for you! I can't even imagine how draining this has been!

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LIL_EZZY 4/18/2011 5:23PM

    I hope that the stronger dose regulates things for you and it is no more than that. I understand the mood swings. I get them before my period so you poor dear would be very moody....God love you.

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KANSASROSE67 4/18/2011 3:32PM

    Glad you are going to get some relief. Hang in there...our bodies work in mysterious, complicated ways, don't they?

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LITTLELOTTE04 4/18/2011 2:53PM

  Sorry Erin. I hope they can figure out what's wrong. emoticon

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JILLIANPRNCSS 4/18/2011 2:33PM

    Fingers crossed this new pill works

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GRACEISENUF 4/18/2011 2:05PM

    Glad you went and that you are feeling better about it. WOW! Your BP is awesome.....definitely what they call a "runners blood pressure"...GREAT!


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SBW1027 4/18/2011 1:41PM

    My friend has been going thru something very similar to this. She had 'on' days for about 3 months. The dr never could figure it out. I hope for you this works!!

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PINKBEANBOO 4/18/2011 1:41PM

    You poor thing! I hate that we have to deal with this sort of junk. I'm sure your hubby is hating it, too.

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GETFIT2LIVE 4/18/2011 1:29PM

    Glad you went in and are getting things checked, but I do hope the new pill regulates things sooner rather than later and the biopsy is not needed. This has been a rough ride that needs to be over!

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MARTY728 4/18/2011 1:24PM

    My thoughts are with you! My DW had an endometrial biopsy and based on her experience I hope you do not have to experience it.

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JEM0622 4/18/2011 1:20PM

    I am sorry you are going through this. I had this happen and it did eventually correct itself. It was very draining and troublesome. emoticon

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Update, and a thank you! (and a vent at the end)

Friday, April 15, 2011

First of all, thank you for the support you have all once again shown me. It truly makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside to have my friends bring out the positivity in me.

I decided not to call my doctor for a couple of reasons: 1. After looking at how long I have been on my new birth control pill (I was having 2 periods a month with my prior one), I am finishing up month 2 of 3. I can wait it out one more month. And 2. My period stopped yesterday morning, so it only lasted 3 days this time for a total of 14 days in the last month. But, if it starts up again within 2 weeks, I will be calling her PRONTO!

Soooooo, I stepped on the scale, and it said 168. That did a damned good job of shocking my system intellectually and emotionally. That is TOO close to 170 and in a real danger zone for me. I have 20 days to get below 162 for my monthly weigh-in at WW, so that was a kick in the butt!

I tell you what, I had about the most productive day of my LIFE yesterday.

Here is the list:
1. Put together a package for UPS and brought it there to send off (returning a jacket my DH bought me that is too BIG! Yay!).
2. Tanned on my lunch hour.
3. Paid a person back for making a shirt for me for Spin For Kids.
4. Finished and sent in our state taxes.
5. Sent in the check and form for changing from full marathon to half marathon in May.
6. Stayed in my calorie range of 1200-1500 (at 1258).
7. Walked the dog.
8. Cleaned the entire house (to include 2 loads of laundry, dishes, vacuuming the whole house, cleaning the nursery, etc....3 days of no cleaning adds up!!!).
9. Spring cleaned the garage (not an easy feat....my goodness that was just dirty!!! ON a happy note, found my missing Zensah calf compression sleeve and my dog's original collar with her tags on it).
10. Cleaned out my office (another difficult task).
11. Drank my 100 ounces of water for the first time in at least month.
12. Cleaned out the bathroom (ick).
13. Oh, yeah, I worked for 8 hours, too!!! And had a productive day with that, as well :o}

***WARNING!!! VENT AHEAD***

I also went to bed at 8:30, though I didn't fall asleep until 10 because my mind was focused on my daycare lady. She slipped a piece of paper in the bag holding my daughter's jammies asking for 2 days off in the next 2 weeks. I called her asking why she needed them off (this is her 7th and 8th day off now since January and we are just getting tapped out completely with sick days/days off for PTO...I am now having to take leave w/o pay for days off to watch Kaylee, who has NOT been sick at ALL since October). She told me she has an appointment for her toe on one of the days (she had a wedging procedure done a week ago, very small procedure) and her annual appointment on the other day.

Since when do people take an entire day off for one appointment? As far as I can tell, each of these appointments would take, what...an hour. MAYBE 2??? And she needs the DAY OFF?

And I need to now work Easter weekend because my mom is working, DH has used up his sick days to watch Kaylee on various days for the same reason, and I can't afford to take days w/o pay, so now I can get those days off, but must work Easter weekend.

Maybe I am overreacting, but it seems she uses any reason to get days or half days off, and it's hurting us. I wish I could tell her this, but really she acts very emotionally fragile and whenever the other mom (there is only one other child in the daycare) brings up a concern to her, she vents to ME about it (must be forgetting that I am also a mom of a child she is watching).

We are thisclose to finding another daycare because this lack of dependability is just getting so old. I am hoping to get a procedure done soon that will take 2 days of recovery for me, and I also need a couple of Fridays off next month. I need these days by the end of May, and so if she asks for more time off between now and then, she better have a hugely awesome reason, because if she doesn't, I may have to discuss this with her, and would hate to have to give her a 2-week notice.

Phew...good to vent.

So, again, thank you so much for your advice and support! It means the world to me. I am so happy to be back on track again. I know it was only 3 days, but the last day felt like a pure binge day where I couldn't stop eating. I just couldn't.

Take care, Sparkies, and enjoy your Friday! I know I will :o}

P.S. It is snowing here. That is just wrong on so many levels.....

  
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RASMUSSEN5 4/19/2011 11:35AM

    wow That's alot to get accomplished in one day girl! emoticon

I would def start looking at other options for daycare. She def could have put both appt on ONE day and still not needed that entire day off! Ridiculous. I wish you luck in whatever you and your husband decide.

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RDARLING 4/18/2011 11:05AM

    Using a home daycare is super hard for this reason. I was lucky to have a home daycare provider that was rarely sick or closed, her husband would even watch the kiddos some days so she could run to an appt (only an hour or so). I've heard this same story from other moms though. Best to start looking for another option for Kaylee...just in case.

As for you my dear, take care of yourself. Only you know your body best so if your gut says something isn't right, it probably isn't.



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COLD_GOLD 4/15/2011 1:59PM

    omg... how on earth did you get that much done? that is amazing! And, your daycare lady sounds flakey... how annoying.

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ANMRUNNER 4/15/2011 1:57PM

    I'm with others on the daycare lady. We never considered homecare for that specific reason. I have friends who have to take off work often because their sitter couldn't watch the kids. They still have to pay the daycare person (a weekly/monthly fee ya know?) plus they get no money for taking off work...doubly brutal! I would certainly talk to the sitter about it. Tell her your situation and tell her that you are searching for another sitter, then actually DO look for a different source of care. I know she has a personal life to take care of, but she also has a business to run. (BTW, couldn't she make those appointments on the same day and then only need ONE day off??)

Snow in April....crazy!

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GODDESSELLIE07 4/15/2011 12:19PM

    That is ALOT of days to take off in less than 4 months... most people don't have 24 days to take off in a year (8 days in 4 months, 24 days in 12 months). I would be finding a more reliable daycare.

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RUNNER4LIFE08 4/15/2011 12:11PM

    emoticon Whew.... you got a lot accomplished yesterday!

I can see why you are frustrated with your day-care. My suggestion, talk to her about it and let her know that if this keeps up you may be looking for another day-care. I think is she knew that she may lose a child, she may rethink some of her vacation days.

Glad to hear you are back to yourself! emoticon

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SONGBARDBIRD 4/15/2011 12:04PM

    Phew! What a day! Glad you made a decision about the BC, hopefully things will work out...sorry about the gain but I KNOW you can get back on track--it sounds like there is a LOT you are dealing with right now...good luck!

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GRACEISENUF 4/15/2011 11:55AM

    emoticon You got so much accomplished yesterday it made me tired, lol. Way to go.

I would start to look around for a new provider in case it happens again.



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AURORA1423 4/15/2011 11:50AM

    That IS just wrong... the snow AND your daycare lady. I don't blame you for being upset one bit. Yes, life's full of "issues" we have to deal with every day, but it's hard enough to be a working mom and I feel for you.

I hope you do something nice for yourself, something that makes you feel really really good! emoticon

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