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TMI probably...why I've been MIA for 3 days

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

So, I'm having my third (THIRD!!!!!!) period in 1 month. This can't be right. I know the nurse practitioner said to give these pills 3 months to regulate my cycle, but 3 periods in 1 month? I am going crazy...I want to blame hormones so badly for this, but the last three days it's like I can't eat enough. I am eating SO much, healthy and junky. It's like I can't stop!!!

And then, I made the final decision regarding the marathon. I have to drop down to the half marathon. I just know that the only way after this injury to do the marathon is to walk most of it, and even then I will probably hurt myself and regret it.

So, that decision coupled with this hormone crap/period overload plus not being able to run plus not going to the gym and sleeping in has equaled a stressed out, depressed Erin. I keep trying to make good choices and be positive, but not too much after I make a not-so-good choice or just go into a funk. I wish I could snap right out of it, but I just don't feel like myself. I can't lie to myself about that or to DH. He sees it, and I talked with him about it. He wants me to call my provider tomorrow even though she said to give it 3 months.

But, if I give it 3 months....I just can't imagine it if I am going to continue dealing with this cramping, mood swinging, hungry self.

I was back up those 5 pounds I lost when I stepped on the scale this morning. DH wants to weigh me on Friday. Blah.

SOMEONE SHAKE ME!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. I want a baby.

  
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LEARNING2LUVME 4/18/2011 10:43AM

    Keeping you in my prayers today. I hope you get some answers!!! emoticon

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MEGSFITNESS 4/15/2011 1:23PM

    That must've been absolutely miserable :( p.s. I want a baby too. I'm going to read this entry and get all caught up.

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LKEITHO 4/14/2011 11:42PM

    Hang in there! I hope everything works out for you.

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MARTY728 4/14/2011 11:07PM

    I cant's say I have ever been through that before. COntacting the Dr will help both you (physically) and your DH (peace of mind).

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THEHONESTME 4/14/2011 10:00PM

    I know I'm a little late in responding -- I hope you've called the Dr. by now. So, the pills are to help you get pregnant? The doctor really should know what's going on and that you're not happy. There must be something they can do. Keep us posted!
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MADEMCHE 4/14/2011 4:52PM

    Sending hugs, happy thoughts and calm your way love. Hope everything gets worked out soon!

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    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Sorry you are having to deal with this. I am with DH--call the doctor. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 4/14/2011 12:58PM

    emoticonSorry to hear about all of this. Hopefully your body will get back on track with you and everything will get figured out! emoticon

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LITTLELOTTE04 4/14/2011 11:42AM

  Sorry Erin that really sucks. emoticon I def agree with pps, call your dr. The most they will tell you is either it's normal or not, and if you should still continue to wait the three months. Or they may give you something to help with your mood. *Hugs* Don't beat yourself over the 5 lbs. Like pp said, I would almost bet it's coming from having three periods so close together. KUP on what the dr says.

Oh, and about the baby thing, agreed! We start our second round of clomid today. August will be a year of trying (more if you consider the fact that I was still trying even while breastfeeding), but considering our history, the RE went ahead and gave me the clomid. Good luck, and hope you get your baby soon! And don't forget to post on ff when you do!

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PINKBEANBOO 4/14/2011 10:13AM

    It does not hurt to call & let the dr know you've had 3 periods this month. If it's "normal" (yeah, right) they'll tell you, or they may want to switch you to a diff kind. I switched pills & it was a Godsend.

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RASMUSSEN5 4/14/2011 9:42AM

    I am having a similar problem with my period lasting 2 weeks! I would def ask your doctor about it to double check...hope it goes ok emoticon

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GODDESSELLIE07 4/14/2011 9:28AM

    I'd call your doctor and make sure that was normal. Two months ago, I had a 2 week long period... not normal for me. So I waited for the next month to see if it happened again... thankfully it went back to normal. I hope that all the extra periods go away soon!

P.S. I want a baby too (although I'm not ready for one just yet).

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RUNNER4LIFE08 4/14/2011 8:36AM

    That does not sound like fun. I agree with your hubby, call your doctor. That just doesn't seem right.

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Hope you start feeling better and like yourself soon!

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XPHOENIX 4/14/2011 8:11AM

    I had 2 periods last month. I dont know what the heck happened. It was super light the first time (never is like that) then the second nearly killed me. Geez. I feel your pain babe :(

Do what is best for you regarding the marathon or half. Your health is most important, remember that.

And awwwwwwwwww a babyyyyyyyyyyy hehe. Well, if you want one, I hope you get one :D XOXOOX

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SWEETNEENI 4/14/2011 6:30AM

    emoticonSending some love your way...

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ELAOPET 4/14/2011 6:21AM

    I want a family too. Maybe. I don't know what I want. I'm PMSing
I totally understand your feelings - not being 100% is a killer after you become addicted to working out and doing stuff!!!
I'm with your husband on this - CALL! ASK!
And hang in there. What I keep telling myself is - this will pass!!! I chant it all the time. Well, in between the hunger strikes and funk, I chant and comfort myself. All I really want to do is crawl under a rock. With a bag of chips and a chocolate. And ice cream!
...sigh...we shall overcome...time will hel us out! Meanwhile, let's just try not to gain too much - OK?
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-POOKIE- 4/14/2011 2:42AM

    emoticon Im sorry xxx

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SONGBARDBIRD 4/14/2011 1:10AM

    Dang, I hope you figure everything out! That's nuts...and sounds like a very frustrating situation. Those 5 pounds might have to do with your three (!!) periods though, so don't beat yourself up! Good luck!

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AURORA1423 4/14/2011 12:58AM

    I'm sorry you're not feeling good. emoticon That sounds like an ordeal you shouldn't have to go through. I agree with Graceisenuf7 that you should call your doctor and see what's up.

On the P.S. part... a little baby would be soooo cute! emoticon. Take good care of yourself and good things will happen... emoticon

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GRACEISENUF 4/13/2011 11:55PM

    I would get off of that pill IMMEDIATELY if it were me. That is not right. I feel for you having to go through that 3 times in one month.

I would call the Doc up and say, "No way, I need another solution".

Hope you get this straightened out and you feel better ASAP.
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My Sparkversary (April 9) - SUPER picture heavy...

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Yesterday was my Sparkversary, folks, and I sure wish I had the time to sit down and type out a blog about this the day of, but I had a crazy fun day of spinning, going to the Healthy Living Expo, and dealing with flood-related detours in driving, etc.

I would like to preface this by saying that I wanted to put together a slideshow of my journey. Unfortunately, the computer I had been putting that together on was....hurt by my daughter and I wasn't able to retrieve it before it had to be put down. I do have some pictures that I will be sharing below, however.

First of all, this journey with SP started 7 months after I had started on my journey to healthy living. When I started with SP, I was 209 pounds (I am 5'7") and when I started, I was 286 pounds.

I like to call my success three-pronged. I used Weight Watchers for my accountability, Center Court Fitness Club for my fitness, and SparkPeople for everything else (which included inspiration, motivation, further help with nutrition, challenges, and fitness, and also the developing of numerous friendships and relationships that helped me on days I was in need of help, and pushed me to become a better person by giving back to those in need when I was having a strong day).

Here's my story (from a previous blog I have written a long time ago it seems):

I have been overweight since I hit puberty. I was a swimmer when I was young, but when puberty hit, that summer exercise just wasn't enough, and combined with my mama's cooking (and the mentality of eating everything on your plate) I started ballooning. I was about 160 when I was 13, 170 when I was 16, and at age 18 I was 180. When I met my husband, I was about 180 (at 19). I worked at many fast food restaurants, which didn't help. I was active, but not REALLY active (I would play tennis here and there). But, I never really tried to lose weight. I would WANT to try, but would never just DO it.

Over the span of 5 years, I gained 50 pounds, and weighed 230 pounds at the age of 24. I was so embarrassed, and was really clingy to my husband as I was so very insecure. We had been putting off having a family because of my intention to go back to school. I had gone back at age 22, but because of an addiction acquired during that time (gambling), I had to drop out and we had to move off campus. I have an addictive personality. I am addicted to smoking, eating, and gambling. I have not gambled since February 26, 2004. I have not smoked since October 2, 2006. And now since my daughter's birth in July 2009, I have been working on my final addiction, overeating. I have slips here and there.

I was supposed to go back to school (I am planning on going into pre-Pharmacy and then go to pharmacy school 90 miles south of where we live). Then, my mother-in-law died at the age of 50 unexpectedly in August 2007. That hit us hard, and so then my husband decided one day (I wish I could remember the day, but it was in August 2008 around the anniversary of his mother's death) that we should start our family, and that he wanted to be a daddy. I had been waiting for him to come to that decision as I had been ready for a while. I found out on Halloween of 2008 that I was pregnant, at 240 pounds.

I tried so hard to be good during my pregnancy. I was good at first, only gaining 10 pounds in the first half of the pregnancy. Then? All hell broke loose on my eating habits. I was very inactive to begin with, and the cravings just hit me SO hard, and I started giving in to them as long as they weren't harmful to the baby (so I still didn't have artificial sweeteners, but I did allow myself a can of Coke a day with 35 mg of caffeine). Doritos, Tootsie Rolls, and Spaghettios that were BURNING hot were at the top of my list. That, and Domino's Pasta Bowls (oh Lord the calories I later found out in those were horrendous).

I ended up gaining 66 pounds total in my pregnancy, weighing 306 pounds the week before I gave birth. I spent 27 hours in labor, and pushed for 4 (Yes, FOUR) hours and gave birth to my beautiful Kaylee Cynthia, who weighed in at 10 lbs 0.4 oz.

One week after giving birth, I was down to 286 pounds. In the next month, I got down to 261 pounds. Most of that was because of nursing, eating VERY healthy food, and well, let's face it....when you have a newborn you just don't have TIME or ENERGY.

I spent the next month at that weight, though, which prompted me to join Weight Watchers in September 2009 at 261 pounds. In October, I signed up for my first 5K in May 2010 in Fargo, and I joined the gym in January 2010.

My first 5K went okay, considering I didn't train for it. I worked out, sure, but didn't run really at all but for a trial run the week before the race. I finished that 5K at 36:49, which wasn't bad!

Since that 5K, I have become addicted to running (pun?...not sure). I signed up for every 5K I could, and signed up for my first half marathon, which took place on October 9 in Fargo. I finished with a time of 2:17 and signed up not long after for my first full marathon, which I am running on May 21.

But, I have come so far from last year, and the years before that. My baseline weight over these past 5 or so years was 230-240, and I started my journey at 286. I now weigh about 160 pounds (I am 5'7"). My ultimate goal is about 155, which I know I can accomplish, but no longer has a timeline. What matters now is being healthy and just continuing along doing what I love most: Running, being active, eating healthy MOST of the time, and being on here, seeing the encouragement, going through the ups AND the downs, and supporting each other no matter what is going on in our lives.

I am so proud of being a part of SparkPeople. I cherish you all, and plan on being here for as long as I have a computer and the Internet :o}

Here are the pictures of my journey that I have, in order, from 2008 to now (sorry I will not have more defined timelines than that for now!!):



Before and Afters measurements:

1. Weight: 286/160
2. Waist- 44/32
3. Hips - 48/38
4. Thigh - 30/22.5
5. Calf - 20/14.5
6. Upper Arm - 18/12
7. Chest - 48I (yes, I)/36D

So, that means:

126 pounds lost.

53 inches lost.

I have run:

8 - 5K races
1 - 7K
1 - 8K
1 - 10K
1 - Half Marathon

Training for my first full marathon in 1-1/2 months from today...

  
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STREAKFREAK 4/25/2011 10:03PM

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KIMBAKER40 4/25/2011 7:49PM

    You are such an inspiration to me!! Great job!!

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LOVETOCROCHET5 4/25/2011 10:30AM

    Amazing story!! Great job!! emoticon

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FLY0NTHEWAL1 4/25/2011 9:01AM

    AWESOME! You can really see the shrinking happening! Great job! I know you don't know me but I'm so proud of you for changing your life!! Way to go!

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CHANGE4THEBEST 4/24/2011 9:39AM

    Great photographs, you look fantastic, well done!!

Thank you for taking the time to write your blog.

Inspirational and a great motivator!

Reap the rewards and enjoy

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ONEWAYALI 4/23/2011 5:03PM

    Wow, what an accomplishment!! You look amazing and you look so full of life!

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FRISKYGRANDMA 4/23/2011 2:17PM

    Great Job! Train hard...I wish you great sucess in the marathon emoticon

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STEPH-THE-WOMAN 4/23/2011 1:06AM

    simply amazing. so proud of you.

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LUBAML 4/22/2011 10:50PM

    Congratulations! What a happy girl you are. Keep the good work and enjoy!Lovely smile. emoticonLuba

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ARCHIMEDESII 4/22/2011 3:27PM

    What an absolutely incredible blog !! Congratulations on losing and gaining so much !!! Your journey is an inspiration !

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FREGGIEQUEEN 4/22/2011 2:26PM

    You are just INCREDIBLE. Way to go!

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CHASINGOLIVE 4/22/2011 11:23AM

    I love this blog :) You can see the transformation in your face - you just seem so much happier!! Congrats on your Sparkversary & the 126lbs lost!!!!

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MIZCATHI 4/22/2011 9:00AM

    What a HAPPY PRETTY girl you are! I am so proud of you. Feels great doesn't it?

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MIZCATHI 4/22/2011 8:59AM

    What a HAPPY PRETTY girl you are! I am so proud of you. Feels great doesn't it?

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MOUNTAINKATIE 4/21/2011 11:01PM

    good job! you are an inspiration to us all!
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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 4/21/2011 8:55PM

    WOW--you look amazing! What a transfomration. I especially love that beautiful red dress. And your little girl is SO CUTE. You should be really proud of what you have accomplished. You've taken your life back! WAY TO GO GIRL!!

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LOVE-REVOLUTION 4/21/2011 4:32PM

    Wow. 286 is my starting weight! That just motivated me soooo MUCH! Thank you for sharing your journey!

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WILD22 4/21/2011 1:30PM

    you continue to inspire and always will. I know you will accomplish everything you set your mind to. I think it is safe to say, you are know addicted to living!! Looks good on you.

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_AIYANNA_ 4/21/2011 8:55AM

    You are amazing!!!!! Congratulations and thank you for the inspiration xxx

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SALEX52 4/21/2011 12:55AM

    What a wonderful story of a wonderful journey. Thanks for sharing. Great work.
I'll bet that if you decide to have a second child, your weight gain will be just a fraction of your first pregnancy!

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MISSMOLLY53 4/20/2011 9:01PM

    Congratulations on your successful journey!!! You look awesome. And your baby is beautiful, too. Loved all the pictures.

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AARONSGIRL420 4/20/2011 8:04PM

    What an awesome blog and amazing accomplishment. Thank you for sharing and being here to inspire us.

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SARAHARTIST 4/20/2011 7:24PM

    Your progress is AMAZING! Congratulations on all your hard work!!!

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SBURROWS007 4/20/2011 6:59PM

    You are phenomenal.

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VANILLAMAMA 4/20/2011 6:38PM

  Wow you are amazing!

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RAVENSONG37 4/20/2011 6:16PM

    You are so beautiful inside and out! I love you sweetie!!

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WRITERSUSAN 4/20/2011 2:38PM

    You look marvelous! I, too, got pregnant with my daughter at too heavy a weight (240) and just managed to stay south of 300 (297) when I gave birth. But I was totally expecting to go over 300--I was a little dead inside as I watched that needle hover there.

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    Oh my goodness!! You have done a wonderful job! I hope you are very, very proud of yourself. You look phenomenal. You're doing it!!!! emoticon

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Congrats that is so amazing!! I love blogs like this makes me know that I too can do it! (Love the Vikes jerseys!)

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JONICACALDWELL 4/19/2011 7:46PM

    You made me cry! Congratulations on being beautiful with a beautiful family! You deserve every good thing that comes your way- you've earned it!

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LINZER4 4/19/2011 4:18PM

    Thanks so much for sharing your story! Congratulations! What an amazing success!

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    emoticonYou look great! Thanks for sharing your story and inspiring us emoticon

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NIKKICOLE83 4/19/2011 10:05AM

    Your daughter is GORGEOUS! I just wanted to snuggle against those cheeks of hers! And you are phenomenal. I am so proud with how far you have come in your weight loss and also proud that you overcame your gambling addiction also. Good luck to you and your family.

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  Congratulations! Love the red dress, you look fntastic in it! emoticon

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STRUMERCAT 4/19/2011 5:49AM

    Great success! Thank you for sharing.

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DUSTYGIRL25 4/19/2011 2:30AM

    Erin,
You look absolutely fantastic! You have put in a lot of hard work and it is definitely paying off big time.
You've come a long way and I'm so proud of you!
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RDARLING 4/18/2011 10:56AM

    Absolutely fantastic! You have had some amazing results and accompishments. So much to be proud of!

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IMSMILEY88 4/17/2011 9:23AM

    Thank you for sharing your story. It is truly inspirational! I have an addictive type personality, too, and the one thing that scares me is that this is just another of my temporary 'addictions.' But, I WANT this to be a life-long habit.

Anyway, you look terrific and very happy. CONGRATS on all of your hard work!

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GAELENEC 4/16/2011 10:15PM

    I think you are absolutely AMAZING! Wow!

What a journey to be proud of.

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NITELITE72 4/16/2011 5:15PM

    You rock!

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TINARENA2 4/13/2011 7:37PM

    Congratulations, your success is very inspiring! And your baby is so cute and has the prettiest eyes!
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PRINCESS1959 4/13/2011 5:06PM

    AWESOME YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION

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MNGIRLIE 4/13/2011 4:15PM

    Such wonderful changes you've made for yourself girl!!! You're amazing!

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ELAOPET 4/13/2011 4:15PM

    You look so much younger now, that's first! You are the BOMB! An inspiration to all!
I love the time line here, it's absolutely chilling to think you did this!!! Sending chills down my spine! I hope I get to the goal by end of summer! Should have been there by now. Eh...Not happening! But I see the future and I see me there LOL
You are beautiful, amazing and so lucky to have a cute family!!! Keep shining my friend, keep shining!
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Yesterday was my "Monday"

Thursday, April 07, 2011

It seemed as though everyone around me had a "bad" day yesterday, including myself, if I let myself see it that way.

My DH woke up to a day he knew would be rough. He is the yearbook advisor at the high school he teaches at, and also the English teacher and librarian. So, yesterday was picture day, but he couldn't use the announcement system to get kids (there was testing going on) so he had to find the kids himself. Plus he had a rough day in the library, and then would be working 5-midnight at the grocery store. When he started his car, he forgot he turned the heater off, so it had a layer of frozen ice on it when he went out to leave (it rained and then froze the night before).

Then, the garbage he was taking out had a major leak (my bad....I cleaned out the fridge the day before and didn't see the rip in the bag!).

Kaylee woke up SUPER cranky and woke up an hour earlier than usual.

I woke up with her, weighed in very happily at 160.4, and started my day out otherwise just fine.

Until my dentist appointment at 10. First of all, it took almost 2-1/2 hours with my jaw being WIDE open the whole time (working on putting in a bridge in my top right jaw where the far back molar is). The first round of novocain didn't work. How did I know? When he drilled by a nerve. He then added another round of novocain. That wore off before he was finished. I always use the "loopy gas" during dental work. It always has me floating and not caring with the sadist is doing to me. This time, though? I must have had a bad reaction. I was paranoid, felt freezing cold, anxious, and just wanted to hop out of the chair and leave. Worst dentist appointment of my life.

But, by the time I got back to work (knowing I would have to work for an hour and a half after Kaylee went to bed to make up the time), I thought about it and how I could change it to a positive. Well, I didn't have a droopy lip or numbed up mouth at all, which was nice. I took ibuprofen and controlled the pain. I finished work, went to dinner with my friend for his birthday with his family, went grocery shopping, brought Kaylee home, put her to bed, and finished my work, wrote a blog, and went to bed.

And I didn't binge. I didn't go over my range. Because I took control of my reaction to my dentist appointment. That appointment would easily have set me up for a disappointing eating day in the past, but not this time.

Because I am in control of my choices. I form my OWN destiny.

And today is going to be a good day. But if it isn't due to circumstances? That's okay! Because I will be just fine no matter what happens. I choose happiness. And I choose health :o}

Have a great Thursday, Sparkland!

  
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THEHONESTME 4/9/2011 2:23PM

    I love your attitude! It's a glass half empty/half full thing -- you can choose to let those things drag you down or you can decide to rise above it all! Glad you chose the high ground!! GOOD JOB!
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MEGSFITNESS 4/7/2011 2:12PM

    Ugh! that dentist appointment sounds horrible. I've got one on the 22nd that I'm just crossing my fingers goes well.

I love love love your attitude, though! You made awesome choices. I hope your Thursday rocks.

Oh, and give extra lovins to your hubbykins :( he sounds like he had a horse..shoe.. kind of day.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 4/7/2011 12:47PM

    What a great attitude :)
Sorry to hear about your awful time at the dentist, though... that is rough!

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TREASURINGLIFE 4/7/2011 10:40AM

    Love it!!! Great attitude, girl! :)

- Michelle

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MOM2MXKE 4/7/2011 10:29AM

    woo hoo for you!!! Do you feel great that you took charge and got through with a smile on your face!! (: Keep up the great work your almost to the 150's!!!(:

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PINKBEANBOO 4/7/2011 10:05AM

    I Am Terrified of the dentist. Ug. Sorry it was a bad appt, but how wonderful of you to not let it get you down.
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MJCLARENDON 4/7/2011 9:26AM

    That sounds like a TOUGH day (I hate the dentist!!!), but wow, you handled it really well. Great attitude! Hope the rest of your week gets a lot better!

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RAINEMARIE214 4/7/2011 9:19AM

    Sorry your hubby had a bad day, and that your dentist appointment didnt go so well. But you had a great attitude and made the best of your day. That is huge, and that is what its really all about :)

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RASMUSSEN5 4/7/2011 9:18AM

    You both deserve a good day! Hope its today. emoticon on staying in your range!

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RASMUSSEN5 4/7/2011 9:18AM

    You both deserve a good day! Hope its today. emoticon on staying in your range!

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ELAOPET 4/7/2011 8:36AM

    TGI...Thursday! emoticon
It's a thing of beauty - new days..fresh starts,,,
Fingers crossed and it's friday...(I'm so jealous of everybody today, and it's your turn! I'm jealous because you get to not work on weekends and I always work weekends, hollidays....blah!
I wonder who's next for me to be jealous of today! LOL

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-POOKIE- 4/7/2011 8:29AM

    *hugs* hope today turns out better.



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BUSYGRANNY5 4/7/2011 8:22AM

    You and your hubby definitely deserve a better day today! I like your positive thoughts! Have a terrific day!


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Choices

Wednesday, April 06, 2011

Happy or sad, bored or busy, lonely or surrounded by friends, hungry or full, angry or content, tired or well rested, I have choices to make.

No matter the feeling, no matter the circumstances, which I cannot control, I do have the control of ONE thing: My response, my choice, my reaction.

I have to make the choice, and NOT make the "excuse." Because all of those feelings/circumstances listed above? Easily excusable in my brain.

Happy? Let's celebrate! Let's have DQ! Or...how about I enjoy being happy and NOT make it about food? How about I celebrate my health and take a walk with my family instead? Or play with my sweetpea while getting her ready for bed, not thinking about heading through the drive-thru with her only to put that dessert in the freezer, waiting for me to go eat it after she falls asleep.

I have been seeing a quote floating through SP a lot lately...I had to look it up:

"Success is the sum of small efforts, repeated day in and day out..." Robert Collier

Others that I really like:

“There are always two choices. Two paths to take. One is easy. And its only reward is that it's easy.” ~ Unknown

“It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.” ~ JK Rowling

“It's choice--not chance--that determines your destiny.” ~ Jean Nidetch

I always have at least 2 choices. And I know when I continuously make the right choice, everything about me improves. Not only the weight on the scale, but my attitude. My self-esteem. My self-worth.

Because when I continuously make the wrong choices? It becomes another kind of cycle. One that we call "vicious." Because it is. Oh...I ate those Girl Scout Cookies, may as well have ice cream, too! So....screw my workout because why even try to work off that massive amount of calories. Eh, I don't feel like putting make-up on and getting dressed. Shower? Forget it. Leaving the house? Why? Let's order in pizza. And so on.

I make hundreds of choices a day. Will I make a wrong choice? Of course. But, the next choice is a new opportunity to make my day better, brighter, happier, healthier. To become a better person. Better mom. Better wife. Better me.

Want to know what my last food choice was this evening? To continue driving when I saw Dairy Queen and had a very strong craving for ice cream. To call DH and say "I'm craving DQ and wanted you to know so I won't do it."

To have 20 grapes as a dessert instead.

Because that's how I am learning to roll.

My next choice? Going to bed after this is done. And choosing to take one more day off from the gym because I can still feel my injury. And not feeling depressed, defeated, or lazy about it. Feeling good about myself instead, and knowing I am making the RIGHT choice.

Peace out, Sparkies, and I hope you think about your choices!!

  
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GRACEISENUF 4/10/2011 5:42PM

    I am so glad I read this one, very inspiring!

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CALLIEGS 4/8/2011 2:38PM

    Fantastic quotes! Thanks for sharing them. Although I have never read it, apparently what you have worked out for yourself is one of the 7 habits of a highly successful person (Steven Covey?) - that you cannot change anything except the way you deal with things

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ANNE1123 4/7/2011 4:18PM

    You made the right choice by posting this blog. Thanks for the quotes and the inspiration! Take care, and I hope you feel better soon! emoticon

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KANSASROSE67 4/7/2011 12:11PM

    Good blog! A wise SparkFriend of mine recently wrote "The best choice is always the healthiest choice." So true!

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FITAT50 4/7/2011 11:54AM

    Hundreds of choices a day, and that ONE can make all the difference! Great blog Erin!

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MK_MONKEYTOES 4/7/2011 11:47AM

    I have found myself this past week with choices to make. Some have been good and some, well not so. I have to say that it all must be working here because overall I am not doing a string of bad choices....it stops at one. Ok, maybe two. But I haven't totally sabotaged myself!!

Great blog and good timing on it for me! Thanks so much for writing it!! emoticon

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SHELLEY81 4/7/2011 10:13AM

    I found myself needing make some choices Tuesday night and did make the better ones which have led to more good choices and a an improved sense of self worth. I love reading blogs like this because they now pop in my mind when faced with deciding about skipping my run or eating that cookie (which, unless homemade and gooey from the oven probably wouldn't even be worth it!). Slowly but surely, all the little choices will add up and make us that much stronger and happier!

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RUNNER4LIFE08 4/7/2011 9:24AM

    I needed this blog today because I was struggling with my choices last night. But you said it perfectly, we do have these choices and even if we make a bad one, we still have the choice to turn it around.

I wanted DQ last night.... basically just wanted ice cream. But I did resist and instead made my daughter and I a yoplait smoothie. It was just as good and was better for me.

Great blog!

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PARTICLEGIRL22 4/7/2011 8:06AM

    Just before reading this blog I was thinking to myself "I'm having a crummy morning, maybe I'll treat myself to a sausage biscuit". You've inspired me to get an apple instead.

Your blogs and your success inspire me more than you could ever know.

Thank you!

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ELAOPET 4/7/2011 8:01AM

    Oh, my choices...Ehem! Not the best these days. They'll get better. No doubt. Just hope it's sooner rather then later.
I love your blog. I love that we learn, and then we apply.

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MADEMCHE 4/7/2011 7:57AM

    Awesome choices, and a great blog Erin!

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THEMRSH 4/7/2011 7:23AM

    Oh YEAH! That's how you roll and you are rolling your way right into a healthier YOU. Congrats on making such good choices today. It's always great to remember how good those good choices make us feel. Looking from the outside it would seem so easy to do, why is it so hard sometime though? You are doing great.

“There are always two choices. Two paths to take. One is easy. And its only reward is that it's easy.” ~ Unknown

I spent the last 12 weeks in charge of a daily quote for my BLC team and I thought I'd seen them all but never this one. I love it!!! Going to add it to my sig. Thanks for another awesome, thought provoking blog Erin. emoticon

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EMILY-THE-GOOD 4/7/2011 6:55AM

    this is exactly what i needed to read right now!

thank you!

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COCOMAC7 4/7/2011 12:23AM

    I totally needed this blog tonight. I have had some great days of eating but it's my night at home by myself which means I feel an intense need to binge when that happens. It goes back over 15 yrs ago to highschool when that's what I did when my parents weren't home. I struggle with it often but tonight I reminded myself that I have a choice. It's my weigh in day tomorrow and I don't need anymore calories today so I'm choosing not to eat anymore!


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ILIKECACTI 4/6/2011 11:20PM

    Way to go! I caved to the ice cream tonight. But only a little over range. =p

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JZPINKGEEK 4/6/2011 11:09PM

    It's tough to quit using food as a reward for yourself. Some alternate suggestions are: getting a manicure, hair cut, new hair color, new outfit, jewelry, stuffed animal, pretty doodad...etc. Doesn't have to be expensive. I like browsing clearance racks, Ebay, and on-sale drugstore cosmetics. Whatever works.

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CHASINGOLIVE 4/6/2011 10:57PM

    emoticon I love this blog! Thanks for posting Erin!! I needed to be reminded of this :)

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LEAG0628 4/6/2011 10:50PM

    Great blog!

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Tracking getting easier...

Monday, April 04, 2011

I am finishing up day #4 on my tracking. I actually reset my goals (I would like to reach 155 pounds by marathon day, which is 5 pounds). It then reset my ranges for food, which surprised me. Turns out my goal I had it set for was to get down to 150 by April 9, so of COURSE it had me at 1200-1550 calories. No wonder I felt that eating at the top end of my range was more doable than 1200. (I just can't do 1200...I get nom nom nom nom nom on the brain and feel starving).

So, my new range is 1570 and 1920 calories. I will still stay around 1570, but I will consider closer to 1920 my "maintenance" days.

I made the decision to stop using the WW points system. It worked wonderful for me online, but now that I am at Lifetime and want to stop paying, I had to make the choice to learn how to do the points on my own with a calculator or whatnot, or learn how to track on my own with calories. With SP, I am not only tracking calories, but also fat, protein, fiber, calcium, sodium, carbs, potassium, etc. etc.

Tracking has been interesting. I have been low on the fat end, high on the protein/carbs end, and low on calcium. I think it may be time to consider a calcium supplement, or actively pushing my calcium intake.

Anyhoo, I have pretty much made the goal for myself to track 100% of the time for the month of April, and try to stay in my range as much as I can. It would be interesting to see if this is what finally breaks my plateau, because if there is an area that I have been inconsistent, it is tracking my food, especially for the last couple of months.

Today was tough, but that is always the case the day before the Weight Watchers weigh-in. It's almost like I want to sabotage my weigh-in....I was SOOOO hungry today. I craved sweets. I craved salts. I did end up eating 3 pickles during my lunch. I still stayed in my sodium ranges thankfully because everything else I had was pretty low sodium. I decided to not have my late night FF strawberry frozen yogurt to kind of counteract the pickles. I can have that tomorrow night ;o}

This week is actually looking to be a toughie coming up with food choices. I will be having pizza (deLite pizzas from Papa Murphy's) at my friend's after WW (but I will track and figure what I can/can't "afford" to eat). On Wednesday, said friend's husband has his birthday, and we are eating at Toasted Frog, which is an AMAZING restaurant, but local and no nutritional values. With a place that has frog legs, sweet potato fries with aioili dip, and fried cheesy pickles (om nom nom nom nom), it's hard to calculate, but I will do my best.

On Thursday, I am having work done to finish my dental work (6 years in the making), so I will be having soft food, thinking mashed potatoes. Easy to track.

On Friday, I am going to a potluck for the local running group (to celebrate the end of phase 2 of training..). I don't know what I am bringing yet, but they pretty much expect carbs ;o}

I am doing Spin For Kids on Saturday, which will be awesome. Ummm...so now I am just kind of rambling about my week.

It's amazing what a positive attitude, planning, and the realization that I really can do this...can do for me and my outlook. I haven't worked out since Wednesday, and I feel amazing! Sure, I can't wait to get back to the gym, but you know what? It's not only about the exercise. So much of this is about my nutrition, and it's great that I have been able to finally realize this. My injury is a blessing, not a curse.

  
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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 4/5/2011 12:31PM

    Great idea on updating your goal date -- whenever I do that I'm like "woah!" need to be eating some more...!

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MEGSFITNESS 4/5/2011 10:21AM

    So happy that you're having good realizations. You sound a lot less stressed out today than you did yesterday :) Good for you! emoticon

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RAINEMARIE214 4/5/2011 9:30AM

    I am realizing the same thing - so much is really about nutrition. Exercise is important too, but its amazing how much better my body overall feels just eating more properly. :)

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PARTICLEGIRL22 4/5/2011 9:09AM

    You are always such a postive inspiration. I am so interested to hear how it continues to go with using SP over Points. I love Point because it's easier to calculate but I often wonder if I'm missing other nutritional milestones. Great job!

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-POOKIE- 4/5/2011 6:32AM

    With calcium, supplements are 50% RDA in a tablet, so I usually only take 1 a day and that gets me to goal, you dont want to have too much certainly.

I love the SP tracker, I firmly believe was my biggest tool.

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LEAG0628 4/4/2011 10:27PM

    I agree. You really do have a fantastic attitude! I found it really tough to track in the beginning but now it's like second nature. It keeps me honest!

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BLEIGH711 4/4/2011 10:02PM

    You have such a great attitude. Love it!

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KAYE454 4/4/2011 9:57PM

  Tracking can be challenging but we can conquer as long as we do track this is my motto Keep up the great work you are doing

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