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Emotions/Injury, etc.

Sunday, April 03, 2011

I haven't blogged in a few days, so there are a lot of things going on that I haven't talked about. I should be doing this, but with everything going on I just didn't know where to start and didn't feel like I had the time.

Well, I have 10 minutes before heading to a game for a cousin's son, so better now than never.

On Wednesday and Thursday when I had my daughter home, I took those days with the stress it involved (she is in her terrible twos and I shall NOT describe what such a charming, clever little girl can do to make you feel miserable) and then I ate what I wanted. I promised myself I wouldn't eat out. Yeah, but I then ate a couple of "small" donuts, candy, mac 'n' cheese, etc over those two days. On Thursday, I made tuna casserole (one of my favorites) and had too much of it. With I Can't Believe It's Not Butter (light) on top.

On Thursday, my daughter cut her finger pretty bad. Not big enough for stitches, but deeper so there was a lot of blood. It happened when my DH brought her to see his dad/her grandpa. He was freaking out, so I had to take charge, and by the time I got her all patched up and in bed, I was worn out.

On Friday, I got my period. I had it about 2 weeks ago while in Minneapolis. So, these new birth control pills so far aren't working. I promised I would stick wtih them for 3 months, but right now I am NOT happy. The cravings, the emotions...they're killing me.

Oh, and on Friday, I also weighed 165. The end result of getting my period and eating so much sodium/fat/overall food plus the amount of Coke Zero I downed. I have to weigh UNDER 162 this Tuesday at Weight Watchers in my clothes at 5 p.m. Yeah.

So, since Friday I had/have resolved to track ALL of my food on here. Not doing points, but just tracking on here. I stayed in my ranges (or so I thought) but then this morning I realized I forgot to track my lunch yesterday (half a turkey sandwich....I shared with Kaylee). So, I was almost 100 calories over. Oh, well! I stayed in all the other ranges, though...even sodium!

Yesterday, I went out to visit my grandma/grandpa about 40 minutes away with Kaylee, my mom, and my sister. I was surrounded by ice cream cake, homemade donuts, caramel rolls, and the like. I left 4 hours later having eaten only roasted turkey meat that she had made earlier in the day. It was awesome, and I felt proud. But, on the way out when we were hugging and saying goodbye, grandma started crying in my arms and thanking me so much for coming. I had missed her the previous two times for visiting because either I was working or I was out of town (in Minneapolis).

I felt like dog poo.

By the time I got home after dropping my mom and sister off, I knew I was in a tenuous state and that I was subconsciously planning an all-out binge. Of something. Anything. It could be the drive-thru, it could be something at home I could whip up and eat massive amounts of. Anything. So, I tried calling DH on his cell phone. No answer. I knew he was out with a friend, so I tried the friend's cell phone. No answer. I was panicking, and Kaylee was starting to hit her clingy time of night. I usually don't mind and just run with it, but I was so emotionally fragile that I could feel myself wanting to put her to bed early after going through Subway and getting a footlong and cookies....

So, I drove to the house of the friend. He wasn't home with my DH yet, but his brother was home. I sat there and waited until they got home, and had DH put Kaylee back in the car while I vented, told him how I felt. I could tell he was worried about me, worried about my state of mind, and asked if I would be okay. And I knew I would be, so I assured him of it.

I got home and fixed myself 1 cup of Fat Free Strawberry Frozen Yogurt, and watched Grey's Anatomy until it was time to go to bed.

This morning's weigh in (which is daily until Tuesday) was 161.4. The relief I felt was palpable. I knew that if I stayed on track until Tuesday, I would be fine.

But, I am feeling great physically since tracking my food again, and I know I want to keep doing that.

I haven't worked out since my injury, and am going back to the gym on Wednesday. I gave my body a week off to rest and recover. I still can't run for another 2-1/2 weeks, but that's okay. I will continue doing more low-impact cardio (like elliptical and spinning) and I will strength train. I know it's what my body needs and I will NOT risk it becoming a chronic problem.

I am still planning on running the marathon in May, but may not be running the whole thing. And that is okay, too :o}

So, where am I at now? I am doing much better, and got through this last week and weekend intact and happy.

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MADEMCHE 4/5/2011 3:22PM

    Good for you Erin. You did amazing after a very, very stressful week! Way to go, be proud of yourself!

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RAVENSONG37 4/5/2011 1:37PM

    Good for you for going over to the friend's house instead of binging. So proud of you Erin. Between the period, Kaylee and not working's no wonder your emotions are all over the place. Hugs and kisses to you. LOVE YOU!

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RDARLING 4/4/2011 9:12PM

    And that is what being a mom and wife is all about, the good and the bad! We all have days like these and I can appreciate you telling it like it is.
What did you injure? I haven't been following blogs or SP too much lately but I tried to read a few of your older posts and couldn't find anything. I'm sure it won't be a huge set back for marathon training since you are already so healthy and active.

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THEHONESTME 4/4/2011 6:45PM

    Oh Erin, I feel your pain - been there, but didn't have a DH to lean on. That's great that you could reach out to him. You're so strong -- you know what to do! I wish you all the best tomorrow night -- I have no doubt you'll make it! :-)

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MEGSFITNESS 4/4/2011 5:50PM

    I know how it feels to have those cravings strike and need someone to talk you out of them!! I have the numbers of a couple spark people I trust who I can call in situations like that. Even if I don't outright confess that I'm hanging by a thread, just chatting with someone so healthy-minded helps bring me back from the edge. It's no easy feat and you did the right thing! Way to go, lady!

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CHASINGOLIVE 4/4/2011 1:34PM

    You are such a strong woman Erin! I completely understand the out of control binge feeling (I have a lot of crazy hectic days. You'd think that after staying home for almost a year, I'd have this figured out!) BUT the fact that you felt that it was coming & did so much to stop it?! That's AWESOME!! I'm so glad you're feeling better & congrats on being under 162!!

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RUNNER4LIFE08 4/4/2011 9:11AM


I love how you took charge of your emotions and didn't let them get the best of you. You are very strong!

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ANDASI 4/3/2011 8:12PM

    I'm glad you are feeling better !

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PRICANSTINA84 4/3/2011 6:58PM

    So glad you were able to take control and not find something to snack on! I know sometimes I'm bad and will do that and then I feel like crap afterwards! You are strong emotionally & physically!!!

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PINKBEANBOO 4/3/2011 5:06PM

    You are so strong. With all of that going on, in the 2nd half of this blog, you were able to pull it together & make it through. That isn't easy. I'm really impressed & I'll want to refer back to this when I feel a binge coming on. YOU took control. You are a real woman who has the real problems that every woman has. Everybody slips up every now & then, but you are an example of determination.

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Thursday, March 31, 2011

It is midnight. Way past my 9 p.m. bedtime. I have read an entire novel tonight, I can't turn my brain off.

I am on the cusp of a new me. I keep thinking I am there, that I am being the best I can be, and that I am truly loving myself.

This past week, I have come to see myself as where I want to be. I look in the mirror, and I am happy with what/who I see. I am happy. I am healthy. I am vibrant. And I am done being obsessed with the weight on the scale.

I am finally now to the stage in my life where I am thinking of how I can work on my tone and strength training, on how I can become a better runner, and on how I can work on my eating, to be even healthier. To eat cleaner, stay away from processed foods, etc.

But I am now content with my weight. I am not skinny, but I am not fat. I am healthy.

I had to move my belt to the next hole today. This despite the fact that I am "still" 160. I fit in mostly size 8's now at 160 whereas in October I was mainly in 12s at 160.

I had a not so fabulous eating day today, being home with my daughter (daycare out until Friday because her son has strep). We had an amazing day, and I allowed some bad food choices. You know what? That's okay. I am still happy at the end of this day, and right now I am realizing that I drank WAY too much caffeine too late in the day and that is most likely the reason I am still awake.

Oh, and I didn't go to the gym today to run. I think that the treadmill gives me shin splints. Running outside for 12.5 miles? Sore hip flexor, but no problems with my shins. 4 miles on the treadmill? OUCH!!!!!!!!! So, can't wait until I can run pre-dawn without worries of slipping on ice patches (can't wear the YakTrax since besides the ice there is only concrete).

Tomorrow? Most likely will be skipping the gym because I need the extra 2 hours of sleep due to being awake 3 hours past bedtime.

Now, just a week ago I would be beating myself up. Now? Nope. It's life. As long as on Friday I jump back on the saddle at the gym, it's all good.

I'm happy. And that is what matters.

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THEHONESTME 3/31/2011 9:35PM

    So glad to hear you've come to this point in your journey, Erin!! yay!!! You deserve to be happy!

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THEMRSH 3/31/2011 3:07PM

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Absolutely! Happiness is the key! Keep up the great attitude.

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MIAMI_LILLY 3/31/2011 10:32AM

    Am am so proud of you. You're in a really great place, and I hope one day, I'll see you there. emoticon

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LKEITHO 3/31/2011 10:10AM

    Glad to hear you are doing so well! Sounds like you have reached a good place in life.

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TREASURINGLIFE 3/31/2011 10:07AM

    "Happy" is good...very good! Yay for you and your "happy"!! :)

Have a wonderful day!

- Michelle

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MADEMCHE 3/31/2011 9:57AM

    Ya for happy! So proud of you!

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    Isnít happy a wonderful feeling?! Itís amazing how one day youíre not and the next you are. Iím happy that youíre happy! You deserve it!

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PRICANSTINA84 3/31/2011 9:22AM

    that is great! you look great and obviously feel great on the inside! i can't wait to get to 160's!

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RUNNER4LIFE08 3/31/2011 9:07AM


You sound like you are in a great place Erin! Being happy and healthy is all that matters. Enjoy being you!

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FITBUG78 3/31/2011 8:18AM

    Happy and healthy is all that matters. And moderation not deprivation! Sounds like you had a nice day with your daughter.

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ELAOPET 3/31/2011 8:04AM

    Oh, that is the reward you get for making it this far!!!! Happy for you, jealous too! ;)

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MNGIRLIE 3/31/2011 7:34AM

    Great blog. sounds like you're in a really wonderful place mentally. Those are some wonderful changes while your weight remained the same. Congrats girlie!

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RLHOTAN 3/31/2011 6:52AM

    Erin it is so great to see you this way! I am so proud of you as you are of yourself!!! Sooooo GREAT!!!!!

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-POOKIE- 3/31/2011 4:26AM

    Its strange, Im still 140lbs, and have been since September, but like you, my shape is changing and clothes fit differently.

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WITHJOI 3/31/2011 1:34AM

    What a wonderful reason to be happy! Way to go. My goal is 165. Nice to know that exercise can make that much difference in the size of clothes I can be wearing when I get there. Thanks!
By the way, we use melatonin to get our brains to shut off at night. I have finally been able to sleep the past 2 years of my life. I give myself a bedtime now. After 38 years, I am loving this! Don't know how it works when too much caffeine is the problem, but for those of us who must not make our own melatonin, I love it!


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ANDASI 3/31/2011 1:31AM

    You really sound at peace with youreself right now. That is a really nice place to be it is a good feeling.


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UNCOMMONANGEL 3/31/2011 1:12AM

    Books are soooo worth the loss of sleep! ;)

...I just got the new book from Jean Auel's Earth's Children series. (the painted cave?) It just came in the mail today, and I am sooo excited!!! Then heard on NPR (Public Radio) that they were going to have her on about her new book so now I can't even listen, in fear of spoilers!!! lol
I am here at work... wanting to go HOME AND READ MY NEW BOOK!!!
I guess I will be the next one up all night reading... it is a rather LONG novel. ...but I love long novels... the heft of the book... :) aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

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Charity/Fargo Marathon

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

On May 21, I am running my first full marathon in Fargo. This has been a journey like no other for me. I started running, well...the marathon will mark my 1-year anniversary of my first day of running! And in the same town, same race (though it was a 5K last year). I am also running the 5K that I ran last year, but the night before the marathon.

I started running for many reasons,... for my health, for my sanity, for life, for love, for therapy...and it has changed me for the better.

I am also running the marathon for a charity, for Lutheran Social Services, the organization that helped me put my life back on track when it derailed due to compulsive gambling, an addiction that nearly ruined my life in 3 months.

They did so much for me, and at the time I was so deep in debt that I couldn't afford to pay anything for my treatment, and they still treated me. I go back to see them once a month as an alumni so newcomers can see that there is light at the end of the tunnel for them, that there is hope, that they can overcome their addiction and not gamble. It has been 7 years on February 26 of this year for me since I last gambled, and I thank Gambler's Choice of Lutheran Social Services in Fargo for that.

I am hoping to raise at LEAST $250 for them. It is the minimum amount, but they deserve the most they can get from me and those who are supporting my efforts to run the marathon. Any amount is greatly appreciated, from $1 to whatever!!!

I appreciate you all, as you and the SparkPeople Community did for my eating addiction/binging and weight loss what LSS did for my gambling. Thank you!!!

If you have any questions, just message me.

To donate online, go to the website, You should see a ďDonate NowĒ at the right, click on that. It will take you to a new page where you will see the basic information listed and then the second section under specific programs, you will see Fargo Marathon 2011. You can enter a dollar amount and finish filling out the page. Then, you can let me know the donation so I can put on the pledge form!

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PRICANSTINA84 3/31/2011 9:26AM

    i love doing stuff where you raise money! my son has autism and usually do the autism speaks walk.. one year i sent out soo many letters to different types of businesses and also friends and family. i raised over $1000 that year! we also did a garage sale and about $200+ went to that as well. you can raise over $250 it is possible!

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THEMRSH 3/30/2011 3:17PM

    You are emoticon

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ON2VICTORY 3/29/2011 4:35PM

    way to go my friend! you rock. I am really proud of you.

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DUSTYGIRL25 3/29/2011 12:16PM

    Good for you for remembering those who were able to help you along the way.
Good luck on your next run and the marathon. So happy you found something that helps clear your head and keeps you fit.

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_AIYANNA_ 3/29/2011 11:13AM

    I think that giving back is the most admirable thing anyone can do. Good for you.

On a different topic, going from 0 to a full marathon in just a year is just amazing!!! You must and should be very proud of yourself.

Keep up the great work, Erin. You're a true inspiration to us all :)

Elen xxx

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MEGSFITNESS 3/29/2011 10:05AM

    That's awesome, lovey! If you're willing to send me a message with the details, I'll find a way to send you a check. :)

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SAMSPARK1 3/29/2011 9:18AM

    Way to go for giving back! Congrats on getting on top of your gambling addiction, amazing! I work with clients, some of whom have had similar struggles so can appreciate the challenges yo went through! emoticon

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Learning to Love Myself

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

"And then the day came, when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful then the risk it took to blossom." -Anais Nin

The weekend was what I needed to get my mojo back on. I have been down on myself in the last few months because I felt I wasn't progressing or being as successful as I had been the year before. Well, duh, I had 120 pounds to lose, and this year I had 5-20 pounds at most more to lose. It's not going to shed in a month or two! Besides, it's time my brain caught up with my body. It's ironic that when I was bigger, I always felt skinnier on the inside than I looked on the outside. Now it is the opposite, that I feel fatter on the inside than I look on the outside.

And so that is the transformation that I have been undergoing the last few months. It was hard, and I felt myself just wanting to give up, to stop trying so hard, and I knew that if I did this....I would slowly (and maybe NOT so slowly) get back to where I was. Unhappy, sedentary, out of breath, out of shape, buying new clothes although this time because my clothes are too tight. And all too easy that could happen.

Unless...I move on, I grow, I mature. I start really loving myself. I start being truly proud of myself, of what I have accomplished, and of the goals that I have stopped dreamed about and actually achieving.

A not-so-small part of my plateau and lack of mojo has been because I stopped doing this for myself. I started only doing this for those around me who I have been inspiring, because I didn't want to let them down. I wanted to keep inspiring, so I set my lofty goals higher and higher and expected more than just a great result, I expected perfection. Black and white. I either succeeded or I failed. No in between.

I will still have bad days, I know it. But I also know there will be fewer and fewer of them, because I am learning now to deal with my issues, up front and center, rather than try to tuck them away and hope they faded away on their own.

Because I am worth it. I deserve it. Because I bought a t-shirt at the Mall of America that says "I'm THAT girl."

And I am. I am that girl.

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AURORA1423 3/25/2011 1:55PM

    You have so much to be proud of! And so much to love. emoticon emoticon

Comment edited on: 3/25/2011 1:55:50 PM

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LIL_EZZY 3/25/2011 6:41AM

    You are worth it and you do deserve it keep reminding yourself of that.

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BUCKHOLDT 3/24/2011 7:00PM

    The reason for a life plateau is refreshment, regrouping, and reinvigoration for the next climb. After all that work you needed refreshment, regrouping, and reinvigoration.
Doing for those around you is good.
Setting goals you can't meet is bad.
If concern for others helps you to accomplish your goals, it is WIN-WIN.

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MOVINITMORE 3/24/2011 9:49AM


Wonderful blog straight from your heart!!! emoticon

You are one amazing girl and you are that girl.
I am glad you are my friend on spark and look forward to
growing with you on this amazing journey. emoticon

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THEHONESTME 3/22/2011 9:04PM

    Erin, that is one of the most profound things I have ever read on Spark: "I always felt skinnier on the inside than I looked on the outside. Now it is the opposite, that I feel fatter on the inside than I look on the outside."

WOW! How true is that? Why do we do this? I hope just realizing that we do it will help put an end to it! THANK YOU for sharing those words of wisdom!!

Honestly, I've been reading your blogs for a while now and I always leave them feeling like 'wow, that girl works really hard at this'. You are like a machine with your workouts and your perfection -- or as you call it black and white. Maybe it's time to go a little gray and cut yourself a break. Don't slack off, but relax! Take a deep breath and become Erin (the skinny Erin)

Good luck, my friend! emoticon

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 3/22/2011 6:15PM

    You ARE *that girl*. And I'm proud to know you! And EXCITED to see you in May!!

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BLYNN710 3/22/2011 5:55PM

    I am so glad to hear you got your mojo back. It gets hard when you realize that your reasons may not be the right ones and are actually derailing your progress. I'm sure you are going to keep getting stronger and lose the last few pounds you want to shed.

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GWENAEL 3/22/2011 4:44PM

  Loved it! Good for you!

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-POOKIE- 3/22/2011 2:19PM

    emoticon Is is hard, I know I still downplay myself even now.

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PARTICLEGIRL22 3/22/2011 2:08PM

    Amazing post Erin.

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GAELENEC 3/22/2011 1:40PM

    You certainly are.


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RUNNER4LIFE08 3/22/2011 1:37PM

    You are awesome! Keep on shining!

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DUSTYGIRL25 3/22/2011 12:55PM

    Your right. You need to do it for you. And as long as you are doing it for you, it will take care of everyone else. emoticon

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SROUS1340 3/22/2011 12:54PM

    You betcha Erin, you are that girl!

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ALISHAB3 3/22/2011 12:50PM

    emoticon emoticon You deserve to be loved!!!

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MEGSFITNESS 3/22/2011 12:39PM

    I'm glad to hear that your trip here is what you needed to get you back in a positive frame of mind :) You go girl!

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BECKY_LYNN84 3/22/2011 12:23PM

    You are that girl! You can do it. This weekend opened my eyes to issues I still need to work on and also gave me my mojo back. It's time to shine for us!

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BRANDI.FEY 3/22/2011 12:21PM

    Good for you! You are awesome!

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QUEENCREOLE 3/22/2011 12:21PM

    I've realized that most people are too hard on themselves. We have to learn to be loving and gentle with ourselves. Perfection is not our friend, it's our enemy. Try to set small monthly goals... losing 5-10 pounds is better than not losing anything or worse...GAINING!

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Get Lucky 7K Race Report/Slumber Party/Fun Times!

Monday, March 21, 2011

Okay, I'm going to start out with saying that any and all pictures of this weekend are in someone else's blog and it is just easier to post the link to that (hoping Paula doesn't mind!!!):

My results of the 7K:
Chip Time: 42:12 (Pace of 9:42)
Division Place (30/34 age group): 253 out of 860
Sex Place: 1160 out of 3668
Overall: 1993 out of 5107

~ Lots of fun green outfits including a Teletubby, Turtle (I think he was channeling TMNT), lots of hats, wigs, cool socks, etc.
~ Loved the energy, and giving high fives and slapping hands with lots of people and children. Great support!!
~ Great scenery with the river and skyscrapers off to the distance. Didn't see it too much, though.
~ Food was good....once you got it.
~ Beautiful medal and fantastic sweatshirt that zips up!
~ My name was on the bib. Silly awesome!
~ Perfect weather but for a bit of a wind. Nice to not get too hot during the race!
~ Being there with so many awesome people. We may not have run together, but they were with me in spirit, cheering me on!
~ Free beer afterward, though I didn't drink it. Was still cool.
~ Salty Nut Roll (smaller one) in the food bag along with chips, grahams, a banana, and Muscle Milk. Oh, the muscle milk is actually gross. Oh, and eating Kristi's salty nut roll, too emoticon

Negatives (or just not quite as positive):
~ Two bridges. Mommy. Need to train on those suckas before the marathon.
~ The finish line was hidden, so you didn't see it until you turned the corner right before it. Definitely would have liked to see that in the distance rather than right before crossing!
~ The crowd was huge at the finish line, so it took a long time to get the medal, then finally walk around the block, up a big hill, to get to the water and food. I definitely could have used water like ASAP.
~ Muscle Milk. Definitely need to adjust to that taste.

That was pretty much it! It was a great race, so much fun, such great energy, and I had a fantastic time with it. I didn't focus so much on my pace as much as looking around and taking everything in (and not tripping on people, either).

The weekend was just fabulous. FABULOUS! Paula (MEZZOANGEL) has to be about the best hostess I have ever seen/met. She is amazing. I love her sense of humor. She is so thoughtful!!! She has a CRAZY brilliant singing voice. She is also gorgeous, and definitely gives us brick house girls a great name :o}

I met Paula, Becky (RAVENSONG37), and Esther (CALLIKIA) at the MOA on Friday. Becky is....freaking awesome! I don't have enough adjectives to describe her on here, but wow, she is one bottle rocket! She has so much energy, makes you happy happy happy just standing next to her. She is so loving, too, and really makes you feel like a queen. Esther? She is like the coolest chick. I love her kick-ass personality, and I am so proud of her for the journey she has been in. She is just amazing, and I am inspired by her.

So, we shopped at MOA, then went to the gym to have a circuit training session with Paula's personal trainer, Chris. He had us do 6 different stations including doing planks while pulling a heavy weighted rope towards you (yowza), flipping that big old tire, doing the sledgehammer dealy-o on another big tire, jumping up and down on a pull-up bar thing, doing frog leg things with weights under your hands and feet, sitting on a Bosu ball while doing bicep curls and presses with a dumbbell, and I think that is it! We did 2 circuits of that, and our butts were kicked. No wonder Paula is such a powerhouse!!!!

Afterwards, we did a few errands, picking up food and stuff, then went back to Paula's place and met with Becky (BECKYLYNN), who is so much fun to be with! She was soft-spoken in the beginning, but warmed up quick and was a blast. Funny, charming, and just beautiful. I am so happy I got to meet her and get to know her.

Becky #1 then made us a vegan stirfry dish with kale, garlic, onions, mushrooms, garbanzo beans, some other type of bean I forgot the name of, and tofu. OMG. Delicious!!!! We had this on rice to round it out.

So, we got everything ready for the race as much as we could, and then went to bed. Well, not really. Both Becky's and I talked until about 3 in the morning, and I then got about 4 hours of sleep. I think Becky #2 got about half an hour! Ouch!

I already kind of detailed the race above, so I will again mention the link above also that shows pics of the race and the weekend.

We then did the pole dance class after the race. WOW. Much respect for pole dancers. They must have crazy abs and upper body strength! We did a 20-minute abs workout and other things on the yoga mat before the actual pole dancing. I didn't do bad, but it was hard not to have a death grip on the pole!!! It was a ton of fun, and Paula also has a Vlog of it.

Though it was hard to do, especially after our race, I had so much fun with it!!!

After that was over, we went back and showered/napped/hung out and then got ourselves all slicked up for our classy dinner. I ended up wearing a black halter dress that Becky #1 had with her with my high-heeled leather boots. I felt sexy for sure!

Dinner was AH-mazing. Just amazing. It was Chianti Grill, and Paula ordered bruschetta for everyone to share before the meal. YUMMMMM. I also had sourdough-type bread slices with butter, garlic breadsticks that were to die for, and then I had Shrimp and Lobster Linguini. I couldn't finish it, but I came close! It was all just so delicious. Then, we all had birthday cake that was Mexican chocolate with a vegan frosting. A vegan cake! And you know what? 100% better than a regular chocolate cake. No joke. I loved it.

Oh, and Tamie Jo (TJZYSKOWSKI) was also there, and she was at the end of the table and I was more in the middle so didn't really talk to her, but wow, she is GORGEOUS! I loved how she had her hair up, very classy looking.

After that, we went back and did a buodoir photo shoot separately. Wow. I went into it acting all goofy-like, thinking that she would have to work a lot of magic in editing, but you know what? She made me look beautiful. And sexy. And really forced me to look at my body from the outside in. And I realized that....I am beautiful. I look healthy. I have muscles. I am proud of where I am, and now finally I am becoming proud of how I look. I can't wait to get those pics....

So, I conked out because I was so tired, and got in about 5 hours of sleep. In the morning, it was mostly people leaving, and getting ready to go. Becky #1, Paula, and I went to the MOA to do some shopping before I left. I got a TON of clothes at Old Navy on clearance, and I loved that most everything I brought in the dressing room with me not only fit, but looked awesome on me! I also fit into all 3 pairs of size 8 pants I brought in there with me. Some day I will have to get up the courage to bring a size 6 into a dressing room emoticon

Oh, we also got matching yoga tanks that say encouraging things on it, like One More Mile and Run Like The Wind. Love it.

So, by that time, I was seriously needing to get home to see my family as I was missing them, especially my daughter (I had a 5-hour drive home). But, it was the best weekend ever, and I am so grateful to Paula for having me, and for meeting the best group of girls ever!!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

THEMRSH 3/23/2011 8:54PM

    Sounds like an awesome time! Your friends page is private so we can't see the pictures but we don't have to, all the fun comes out in your blog. :-)

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RLHOTAN 3/23/2011 7:28AM

    Great weekend and a great time and a great PR!! You go girl!

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RAVENSONG37 3/22/2011 7:10PM

    You did so awesome, running your PR and being able to see how beautiful you are, both inside and out! I'm so happy we got to meet and spend time together. Love you!!!

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JILLIANPRNCSS 3/22/2011 6:38AM

    You are so lucky to get to have such a wonderful weekend with sparkers. And congrats on the time.

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ROOT4HOME 3/21/2011 10:54PM

    What a great weekend and you had an Awesome finish time!! WTG!!

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THEHONESTME 3/21/2011 9:04PM

    Sounds terrific! Nice that you got some "get away" time, but I hear ya -- it's always nice to get back home, too! Congrats on the race!

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SHERRYJVP 3/21/2011 8:26PM

    LOL can feel your excitement. Glad it was wonderful and congrats on comopletion.

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MIECHI7 3/21/2011 8:08PM

    It sounds like you all had such a wonderful time!! I would love in the future to meet all the ladies that make me want to be better and stronger and faster.

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BECKY_LYNN84 3/21/2011 7:19PM

    It was so great meeting you and the others also!! I had a great weekend! emoticon

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RUNNER4LIFE08 3/21/2011 2:41PM

    Sounds like a great weekend!

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DUSTYGIRL25 3/21/2011 2:38PM

    Wow! Erin, sounds like such a FUN time! You did Awesome in the race! I love all the pictures and getting to see everyone. I looks like all of you had a wonderful bonding time.
Thanks for sharing your fantastic weekend!!

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MADEMCHE 3/21/2011 1:08PM

    So glad you all had such a great time! And exercised and were super healthy! What a wonderful weekend!!

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