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Thursday, February 03, 2011
Ahhh...a clear mind. I love it.
Ever since I wrote the blog earlier today about maintaining instead of losing for the next month or two, it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders, especially after reading your responses. You all help me so much, you really do!
So, my eating was pretty darned good, and...I didn't think about food as much today. I did my run outside for 3 miles, which would have been the ultimate if I had remembered my Yaktrax! So, I had to really watch my step so I wouldn't slip. It was still quite the uneven running, though, with so many people still not having shoveled their sidewalks. My left ankle rolled a couple of times during the run, so it is a bit sore (along with that hamstring and shin). But, I am so glad I did it! It felt great. And the song "Eye of the Tiger" came on when I was feeling like slowing down, and that picked me right back up!
I talked to my DH tonight about something that has been on my mind, and that is my stomach/boobs/eyes. Yeah, weird combo, right? Basically, I am looking at getting LASIK soon because I can't wear contacts and I basically don't want glasses. Also, my RX changes like every year, so it would ultimately be cheaper if I went the LASIK route.
Also, once I am done marathon/race running for the year (thinking October), I am hoping to plan surgery to remove the excess skin from my tummy (tummy tuck) and also get a breast augmentation. I am not unhappy with the size (they are now a 36D) but I am unhappy with the fact that after being a 48I at their largest, they are like deflated balloons. Bras just don't fit right, and that along with my stomach has been bothering me. I plan on getting a consultation in late August since I want to make sure I maintain my "happy" weight for at least 5 months before seeing the plastic surgeon. I also still want to do everything I can to tighten up my stomach before seeing him. If I can avoid that surgery, I will do what I can. Even if I can make the surgery easier to do....
Okay, DH and I had dinner at Red Pepper. I know, I wasn't supposed to eat out, but I only had 2 soft tacos, and it fit nicely into my maintenance points. DH and I also went to JC Penney's today since we were w/o Kaylee and wanted to walk around (and secretly I have been thinking about a goal weight reward since I hadn't done that yet). I ended up getting a couple of things that I have SUPER wanted, but went on clearance today!
These boots were $110 and I got them for $29.99 :o} They look AWESOME and actually fit my calves!!
Here was my super awesome reward:
This jacket is smoking hot, and when I wanted it 2 months ago, it was $250 (down from $300) and I fit in a size large (leather jackets tend to run a different size, so though I am a medium, I fit in large leather jackets). Well, today I fit into the medium (was swimming in the large) and I got in for $30!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!
So yeah, I am psyched about this. I can't wait to wear the boots with a skirt and dresz
1. Nutrition: Do not let one day of not 100% eating right throw me off track. I do love my breakfast of oatmeal, so I am sticking with that today. Lunch needs to be something else. Not sure yet, will poke around the cabinets, but my egg scramble meal yesterday made me nauseous. Dinner will be a small steak with lots of veggies and/or couscous.  in that I changed up my meals, but I still stayed in my WW points range. I had the oatmeal breakfast, then a sandwich with lean deli meat, a string cheese, and grapes for lunch, and 2 soft tacos for dinner, with fruit for my snacks. I need to get in more veggies, but one step at a time...
2. Water: 140 ounces or more. Cripes, I got in 90 ounces, which is still good but I want to exceed this!
3. Fitness: I didn't hit the gym this morning because I knew the weather today would be in the 20s (We're having a HEAT WAVE!!!! A tropical...). I am going to run OUTSIDE!!!! On my lunch hour. Oh, I am looking forward to that! I will be FREE! I plan on 3-4 miles depending on how my shins feel. I got in 3 miles in just over 30 minutes...
4. In bed by 9. It is already 9:07 right now. My daughter decided to stay up a bit late because she was wired from the sugar at grandma's, so I got a late start on doing the nighttime dishes, getting everything set out for tomorrow, getting myself ready for bed, and getting this blog done.
5. Productive/busy: Walk dog at least once today, push for twice. Poor doggie misses it! Clean house if possible/as much as I can. The more I do between today and tomorrow, the less I have to do on my busy weekend. I need 200 lines at work, though, at least, if not more to catch up on my low line count days this week (which begs the question, why am I typing this instead of working? Because I need to get this done, that's why). I think that's it! My daughter is going to grandma's today, and I can't let my DH talk me into a "date night" where we eat out. Or, more importantly, I can't let MYSELF talk HIM into eating out. I tend to sabotage myself that way.
Okay...I met some of these goals, and missed out on some. First off, I got the dog walked. I didn't do any cleaning. I didn't get my lines. And I ate out :o}
Countdowns:
29 days until Cancun
7 days until my first official race of 2011 (Frozen Feat 10K on February 12)
45 days until the first day of spring (March 20, 2011)
43 days until I meet Becky, Paula, and a bunch of other SP friends for the Get Lucky 7K and her birthday weekend!!
Thursday, February 03, 2011
I need to back away from the scale. Very soon. For the next 2-1/2 weeks I can't because I have to stay in between 158 and 162 for WW or I lose my goal status and start over again.
But, after that I only have to weigh in once a month at WW to keep my lifetime status. And I believe that will be what I will do from then on. Just weigh in, once a month.
I have been a slave to the scale, weighing myself daily, since my daughter was born in July 2009. Heck, I have been weighing myself nearly daily since she was CONCEIVED, and I still gained 66 pounds that 9 months.
I too often dictate my attitude for the day based on what the scale says. Yesterday, it said 160.6. I was bummed, which I really shouldn't have been! I should be happy! But, I was 159 the day before.
Before anyone pitches in about fluctuations and all, trust me, I know my fluctuations like the back of my hand. My mind is obviously not always logical.
I didn't weigh myself this morning. I planned on it, but forgot with the rush of getting my oversleeping (yay!) daughter up and ready for daycare, and had my water and PB oatmeal before I remembered. That is a good thing. I am sure with yesterday's eating that if I stepped on there today it would say 164 or something like that. Then what? Do I get upset, frustrated? Does that help me? No.
I have been waffling to myself, to my DH, and to you all about losing or maintaining my weight. It seems like my body loves 160. I want 150. Heck, I want 140. But, looking in the mirror, could I stand to lose 20 pounds? I want to say yes, but, albeit my hanging skin on my belly and the muffin top created by it, I am really happy with my body. I know that I will never get rid of stretch marks and cellulite, and looking beyond that, there isn't too much more I want to lose fat-wise.
Sure, I want to tone up more, and I have been doing ST like crazy since the beginning of the year. I have been getting a lot more muscle, and yes, I know I need to update my pictures, but.....I don't know where I am going with this. Maybe I am just looking for reassurance that I am not making the wrong choice by maintaining for now at least until after Cancun in early March, and then maybe reevaluate after my weigh-in post vacation. Even if I am above 162, I only am charged $12 for each meeting I weigh-in at until I get back to under 162. Not that I am looking to gain weight, I am just not going to freak out and weigh myself every day when I get back home from Cancun.
I think this is the start to a new chapter in my journey. This chapter focuses on maintenance through the rest of the winter, then revisiting losing weight in the following months after that when outside in the sun and the ability to do so much more!
I make myself go crazy over this topic, because I constantly doubt my reasoning for this. Am I wanting to maintain so I don't have to lose? Have to cut back as much on my food? Because I know that to lose weight I have to tighten up my eating, and maybe I don't want to do that for a while. Mind games. Love them.
And now, back to work with my brain in a tizzy. Can't wait for the dog walk and REALLY can't wait to run on my lunch hour. I know my head will clear significantly with them both :o}
The weather right now? Partly sunny, 13 degrees, wind at 7 mph. My kind of day!!! It is supposed to hit 26 degrees, later, too! Hoping to run at 2 p.m. and it will maybe be 20 :o}
Thursday, February 03, 2011
Wow, yesterday at the end of the night felt like I had maybe failed, but when I woke up this morning, I held it in perspective. I am getting tired of what I am eating, and so I veered off my plan of what to eat, and even though making good choices for most of it, still ended up using too many points (thank you weekly allowance points)!!!
I had Subway in the food court at the mall with my daughter (we split a Subway Club). If I was thinking good choices, I would have not bought the M&M cookie for her (that I ate myself because she didn't want it..weird). I should have bought the 6-inch sub, and not the 12-inch, because she only ate a couple of inches, and I would have done JUST fine with 4 inches. So I ate 10 inches. I then wanted a DQ ice cream cone, which would have been fine had I purchased a small (5-6 points), but instead got a medium (9 points). So, I dipped into my allowance points that I was saving for the weekend, but I still have a TON of activity points that I never use (56 so far). I don't use them, though, because my body has adapted to most of my fitness that I do, so I don't think if I ate all those points I would maintain, that I would gain. I am not worried about losing weight this week. I am just wanting a maintenance really.
My fitness was FANTASTIC. I did what I was supposed to do. Too cold to walk the dog. Had a playdate with Gracie and Kaylee (and Gracie's mom, Jessica) and had a great time. Went to bed too late as I had a sandwich while reading a book. Wow, didn't need that sandwich, even if it was a healthy one!
No biggie, just picked up myself and moving on to a new day :o}
1. Nutrition: Oatmeal with PB, milk, and Splenda for breakfast. Egg white omelet with mushrooms and cheese with turkey bacon for lunch. Whole-wheat pasta, marinara sauce for dinner. Goal NOT met as explained above....Need to shake up my meals a bit soon.
2. Water: 140+ ounces
3. Fitness: Run 3 miles. ST. Core work. Burn, baby, BURN!!!
4. Sleep by 9:00. Uff, went to bed at 9:45. Knew I wasn't going to the gym the next morning, though, so sleeping from 9:45 until 7:30 wasn't bad ;o}
5. Keep busy/make plans for the day: Walk the dog. Meet up for a playdate at 6. Keep busy! Be productive at work. Start cleanup of house (hosting Superbowl party this weekend). The only things I really did are the playdate, keeping busy 80% of the time, and doing the laundry and dishes.
Thursday's Goals:
1. Nutrition: Do not let one day of not 100% eating right throw me off track. I do love my breakfast of oatmeal, so I am sticking with that today. Lunch needs to be something else. Not sure yet, will poke around the cabinets, but my egg scramble meal yesterday made me nauseous. Dinner will be a small steak with lots of veggies and/or couscous.
2. Water: 140 ounces or more.
3. Fitness: I didn't hit the gym this morning because I knew the weather today would be in the 20s (We're having a HEAT WAVE!!!! A tropical...). I am going to run OUTSIDE!!!! On my lunch hour. Oh, I am looking forward to that! I will be FREE! I plan on 3-4 miles depending on how my shins feel.
4. In bed by 9.
5. Productive/busy: Walk dog at least once today, push for twice. Poor doggie misses it! Clean house if possible/as much as I can. The more I do between today and tomorrow, the less I have to do on my busy weekend. I need 200 lines at work, though, at least, if not more to catch up on my low line count days this week (which begs the question, why am I typing this instead of working? Because I need to get this done, that's why). I think that's it! My daughter is going to grandma's today, and I can't let my DH talk me into a "date night" where we eat out. Or, more importantly, I can't let MYSELF talk HIM into eating out. I tend to sabotage myself that way.
Countdowns:
30 days until Cancun
8 days until my first official race of 2011 (Frozen Feat 10K on February 12)
46 days until the first day of spring (March 20, 2011)
44 days until I meet Becky, Paula, and a bunch of other SP friends for the Get Lucky 7K and her birthday weekend!!
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
So, yeah....furnace was still doing the same thing, prompting my DH to call and basically say that we really need to get this thing fixed, and either they refund us yesterday's or not charge us at all for whatever today costs. They said they would have the guy out in between 1-5.
I dropped Kaylee off at daycare at 7:45, then went to the gym. I was feeling pretty frustrated about the furnace and my not-so-hot day yesterday. I decided I would just set the treadmill for 60 minutes and run what I could. I ended up running the whole thing (except for the 2-minute warm-up and 5-minute cooldown after). I then hopped on the elliptical for 50 minutes. Sore after all that, but felt good.
I then got some errands done, then took a long hot shower (since it was super cold in the house):
1. Nutrition: My weird day of the week where I have a banana pre-workout, then have water until noon, then nothing until after my weigh-in at 5 p.m. and then I eat a good meal after that. This time, though, I do plan on eating a whole-grain pasta meal with veggies as a way to have a more balanced meal overall. (i.e. no crap food). I ended up going with my chicken stir-fry for dinner with a piece of toast with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter.
2. Water: 80 ounces.
3. Fitness: 3-5 miles on the TM and 45-60 minutes on the elliptical. Core workout. I skipped the core workout....
4. Sleep: In bed by 9:00 p.m. Maybe a nap in the early afternoon.
5. Weigh-in: Given how my bad day on Friday went, I will be happy to weigh in under 162, but hoping for 160. I weighed in at 159.2!
6. BUSY BUSY BUSY: I will clean the house if bored. Need to bring documents to the bank. Need to call the stinking furnace guy AGAIN. Done but for cleaning. I kept busy!!!
Goals for Wednesday:
1. Nutrition: Oatmeal with PB, milk, and Splenda for breakfast. Egg white omelet with mushrooms and cheese with turkey bacon for lunch. Whole-wheat pasta, marinara sauce for dinner.
2. Water: 140+ ounces
3. Fitness: Run 3 miles. ST. Core work.
4. Sleep by 9:00.
5. Keep busy/make plans for the day: Walk the dog. Meet up for a playdate at 6. Keep busy! Be productive at work. Start cleanup of house (hosting Superbowl party this weekend).
Countdowns:
31 days until Cancun
9 days until my first official race of 2011 (Frozen Feat 10K on February 12)
47 days until the first day of spring (March 20, 2011)
45 days until I meet Becky, Paula, and a bunch of other SP friends for the Get Lucky 7K and her birthday weekend!!
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Member Comments About This Blog Post:
You totally look great. You legs are noticably slimmer, you waist and tummy, wow everything! You are one hot mama! Love the last pic too w/your daughter! Your pics are just what I needed to see. Some days (like when I'm sick and can't do a lot..today) I feel like this journey is impossible. I haven't broken any huge records yet, but your pics reminds me that I can! You enjoy your trip and new rock'n self!
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