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Recap of today/Goals for Tuesday

Monday, January 31, 2011

Wow, today was a day where nothing seemed to go right. My previous blog about the furnace happened ($500 plus being cold for 5 hours while he fixed it). Then, the playdate with Kaylee canceled because of how cold it is outside (which I understood). Then, my gas light came on (DH said he would put gas in after work today). Then, my mom was late picking up Kaylee. Then, she was late dropping her off (there was a developmental meeting with Kaylee, a lady, and me).

And then the punch line: The furnace is not fixed, folks. We have now chucked in a total of $750 this month for this #($%# furnace and it was installed new in 2005. Not kidding. I have had it with this thing, and seriously, why can't they figure this out?????? And of course it is super frigid now. It wouldn't be SUCH a huge issue if it didn't stop working during the night, which it will, and then we'll wake up freezing. Nice. Apparently, something is causing it to reach the overheating temp limit and it shuts down. *sigh*

But, though I did fleetingly crave a nice pizza with extra mushrooms, I stuck with my chicken stirfry tonight. Maybe a bit much on the sodium end, but otherwise a great meal and I had a great eating day. Sure, my good choices may have had to do with the fact that I weigh in tomorrow, but I would like to think that I would have made the same choices on Friday (my serially bad day for eating that I need to work on now).

So, here's my day for goals:

1. Nutrition: Breakfast like a king, lunch like a joker?, and dinner like a pauper, or however that saying goes. Protein, veggies, and fruit. emoticon It went more like Breakfast king, lunch pauper, and dinner prince, but that's okay. I am happy with my eating overall!!

2. Water: 140+. emoticon

3. Fitness: I am already on week 3 of marathon training!!! WOOHOO! This is crosstraining day, so it will be spinning for 55 minutes with ST and abs. Will walk dog. emoticon I did the spinning, ST, and killer ab workout (Julie is brutal with side planks and all), but no walk again for Jenny. This cold snap is supposed to end after tomorrow, so back to walking we shall be!

4. Bed by 9:00 p.m. emoticon-ish. I will be in bed by 9:30. I am sleeping in tomorrow!

5. Busy, busy, busy. Work 8-5 (be productive), meeting with daughter at home at 6 p.m., play date at 6:30. Will keep busy!!!!! emoticon except the play date canceled. Kept busy anyway since the meeting ran late and had to go to the grocery store to buy some yum yums! (grapes, apples, bananas, eggs, etc.).

Goals For Tuesday:

1. Nutrition: My weird day of the week where I have a banana pre-workout, then have water until noon, then nothing until after my weigh-in at 5 p.m. and then I eat a good meal after that. This time, though, I do plan on eating a whole-grain pasta meal with veggies as a way to have a more balanced meal overall. (i.e. no crap food).

2. Water: 80 ounces.

3. Fitness: 3-5 miles on the TM and 45-60 minutes on the elliptical. Core workout.

4. Sleep: In bed by 9:00 p.m. Maybe a nap in the early afternoon.

5. Weigh-in: Given how my bad day on Friday went, I will be happy to weigh in under 162, but hoping for 160.

6. BUSY BUSY BUSY: I will clean the house if bored. Need to bring documents to the bank. Need to call the stinking furnace guy AGAIN.

Countdowns:

32 days until Cancun

10 days until my first official race of 2011 (Frozen Feat 10K on February 12)

48 days until the first day of spring (March 20, 2011)

46 days until I meet Becky, Paula, and a bunch of other SP friends for the Get Lucky 7K and her birthday weekend!!

  
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BRENDY_28 2/1/2011 9:23AM

    wow... i hope they fix your furnace soon...

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DUSTYGIRL25 2/1/2011 3:13AM

    So sorry to hear about your furnace.

Seriously, we need those things in good working order especially where you live.

Good luck achieving those goals tomorrow, actually you don't need luck, just some hard work.

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TEDDYBABE 1/31/2011 10:31PM

    You are rolling rolling rolling... you go girl! and stay warm!!

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Our Furnace Blows....

Monday, January 31, 2011

Okay, furnace bill: $500. It will take about 2 hours to fix/clean up. It is already 65 degrees in the house (temp outside -10). I am cold. My fingers are locking up and my job is typing, and typing as fast as I can. Cold. I am cold.

SO cold.

And though I am cold (do you get that I am cold?), I will not let this put me in a bad mood. That nor the fact that I just paid this guy $500. Like we have money. *snarl*.

Okay: Exit bad mood. Enter happy mood! May the rest of my day be wonderfully wonderful!

  
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ILIKECACTI 1/31/2011 9:41PM

    i hope you are warm by now!

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THEHONESTME 1/31/2011 8:55PM

    Just repeat after me: C-A-N-C-U-N!! CANCUN CANCUN CANCUN! emoticon

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MEGSFITNESS 1/31/2011 2:52PM

    Wonderfully wonderful and WARM! I hope the fix at least helps and that there are no repairs of anything(!) needed in the near future.

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JUNESHOPE 1/31/2011 2:29PM

    So sorry about your furnace. They say we lose more weight in cold weather anyway...just look at it in that positive light. lol
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BILLALEX70 1/31/2011 1:52PM

    Just keep thinking ...Mexico!
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DUSTYGIRL25 1/31/2011 1:38PM

    Just think, pretty soon you will be on vacation and warm, warm warm. Much better thoughts!
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BRIAEL 1/31/2011 12:35PM

    I hear you. We had 10 days without any heating about a week ago. It saps your will to live and your desire to move.

But, you get over it quickly. $500 to keep you healthy and warm isn't so bad. Sure, you could use the money elsewhere, but creature comforts are a priority. :)

Just think of all those calories your body burned just trying to keep your body temperature stable. :)

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JENNIFERKCM 1/31/2011 12:35PM

    Oh, you poor thing! We thought we were going to have to replace our furnace last month and I was in a tizzy and well, cold too! So, I am wishing you warm breezes, quick unfreezes, and re-filled bank account! You day can only go up from here, right?! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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THISISFORME924 1/31/2011 12:24PM

    YIKES! That sucks... Hopefully before too long it will be warm and toasty.

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PIP103 1/31/2011 12:05PM

    It will worth every penny once you're toasty and warm again!

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RDARLING 1/31/2011 11:59AM

    At least it is only 2 hours to fix vs 2 days! Stay warm!

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PRICANSTINA84 1/31/2011 11:56AM

    well, at least it's getting fixed and you shouldn't have to worry about it anymore. **think good thoughts!**

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Recap of Today/Goals for Monday

Sunday, January 30, 2011

I had a long story on here about how I worked in my office, holed up in it, all freaking day and then DH escaped to his friend's house when my daughter deleted it with the hit of one button *frustrating*. Oh, well, this will be shorter because I am too tired, and need to go to bed (it's 7:49...wow).

1. Nutrition: Mainly fruits and veggies. I am going to have DH pick up carrots and mushrooms for me. I will maybe have couscous for dinner, but it's going to be a very light day for me. emoticon I didn't have couscous, but ate in my ranges, and had more freggies than usual.

2. Water: 150+ ounces, yo. Need to flush some salt out of my system, and water weight! emoticon

3. Fitness: None. It is my 2nd day off for the week, and if I go and do something, I risk overtraining. I just can't do that even to lose some weight. I will walk the dog once or twice depending on the temperature outside! emoticon except for the dog walk. Too cold for her, and me.

4. I will be productive and stay busy. I will get as many lines at work as I can since we won't be running out (we never run out on the weekend). emoticon kind of. My lines weren't up to par, but that is because the notes I typed were horrible for obtaining a lot of them, if that makes sense.

5. Go to bed by 9:00 p.m. as sleep is so very, very important to me in my health and attitude! emoticon

Goals for tomorrow (Monday):

1. Nutrition: Breakfast like a king, lunch like a joker?, and dinner like a pauper, or however that saying goes. Protein, veggies, and fruit.

2. Water: 140+.

3. Fitness: I am already on week 3 of marathon training!!! WOOHOO! This is crosstraining day, so it will be spinning for 55 minutes with ST and abs. Will walk dog.

4. Bed by 9:00 p.m.

5. Busy, busy, busy. Work 8-5 (be productive), meeting with daughter at home at 6 p.m., play date at 6:30. Will keep busy!!!!!

Countdowns:

33 days until Cancun

11 days until my first official race of 2011 (Frozen Feat 10K on February 12)

49 days until the first day of spring (March 20, 2011)

47 days until I meet Becky, Paula, and a bunch of other SP friends for the Get Lucky 7K and her birthday weekend!!

  
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BILLALEX70 1/31/2011 7:18AM

    I so wish I was headed back to Mexico. This winter weather has been terrible and you've had it worse than I.

Best wishes in your up coming races!

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ANMRUNNER 1/31/2011 6:31AM

    I think the saying is king, prince, and pauper.. (:

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DUSTYGIRL25 1/31/2011 2:29AM

    Very aggressive goals again today and for tomorrow. Keep up with the good job!
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LETSSTARTOVER 1/31/2011 12:05AM

    Great job meeting your goals! You're going to Cancun??? Soooo awesome, I'm jealous! That's great motivation to look good in a swimsuit!

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HHI0901 1/30/2011 9:56PM

    Thank you for the 49 days until spring reminder ;)

Way to go on keeping your goals!

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MISSBEX24 1/30/2011 9:00PM

    I love your blogs like this! It's always good to see what other people are doing, and what's working for them. It's a good way to get some tips too! :)

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Recap of yesterday, today, and Goals for Sunday!

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Fellow Sparkers ~

I wish I could say that the rest of my day yesterday went fabulous and healthy and 100%, but that wasn't the case! I did eat less over the rest of the evening, but I think part of that had to do with the fact that I had less room in my stomach. I had a cookie and a candy bar from the grocery store (a monster cookie, and the Snickers Peanut Butter candy bar that is new was calling my name so nicely). I made French toast for my daughter for supper, and joined her in eating that. I then had bologna sandwich for my nighttime "snack." Needless to say, I went to bed feeling "ick." I did talk to my DH about what had happened, and he was very supportive, said I could call yesterday my "loose day." Oh, I love him. He didn't get a grossed out look on his face when I told him what I had eaten.

I woke up this morning and weighed myself, knowing that it would be awful and truly not be reflective of my true weight since there was a lot still going on in my stomach. Not to mention sodium and water retention from not drinking any water really. I weighed 166. Ugh.

I decided to eat very clean today, and mainly accomplished that. I had a lot of fruits and veggies, chicken for dinner, and we ate samples at Sam's Club for lunch. I had a good amount of water, some Sprite Zero, and Diet 7-Up.

I took a 2-hour nap with my daughter, which was needed since I didn't fall asleep the other night until 1 a.m. because of the turmoil of my body including being too hot, and feeling itchy.

After I woke up at 1:10, I got ready and before making any excuses, I took off to the gym to do my 8-miler. It is on my calendar for my marathon training, and let me tell you now, if there are any truly important runs, they are the Long Slow Distance runs. They are the main reason I survived my half marathon. I would have gone with the runner's group this morning, but with the 20 MPH winds and -30 wind chill, I had enough of that type of weather for running. It was mentally a FANTASTIC run. I was so into it, and felt great. What didn't feel great? My heartburn from the food the day before, and the ongoing turmoil in my stomach that was more in my intestines, and not feeling good at all. My legs, back, and everything else, however, felt great. It took me an hour and a half to finish 8.25 miles in total, and I feel good about that. I paced myself, keeping steady at 5.8 mph because 6 mph had my shins singing a bit. I am doing everything I can to not injure myself.

So, am I back on track? You know, I don't think I was ever really off track. Off track to me implies a more consecutive string of days where I don't work out or I eat horribly. One day here and there is NOT going to derail me, and I really needed to get those emotions out. Sure, I wish that my eating didn't have to be involved, but in eating that food, it opened my eyes up to the fact that I needed to just get some emotions out or I WOULD continue to eat bad (I would never stop going to the gym, though).

I know that I have a tough few days ahead of me as I need to stay under 162 for WW, but as long as I eat right, go to the gym on Monday and Tuesday, get my sleep, and drink my water, I know I will be just fine. I do need to look ahead, also, to hell weekend (AKA Superbowl/spaghetti feed/girls night out/8th anniversary weekend). That is going to be rough. Superbowl Sunday will be bad, will be at my house, and will include the following, all made by my mother: Chili from scratch, con queso dip also from scratch (like 20 ingredients), wings, smokies, macaroni salad, quesadillas, and then the things I am contributing, which are cocktail shrimp (loads and loads of it), veggies, fruit, and soda (mainly diet). Oh, and lots of water. See the difference in what I am bringing, and what my mom is bringing? Well, at least I will have some healthy things to choose from. I plan on indulging a bit, mainly because A) I am doing a 12-mile run that day and B) If I don't have a little bit of my favorites, I will likely binge on it later when my mom leaves it all behind.

So, my goals for tomorrow are going to be the usual since I actually have to work!

1. Nutrition: Mainly fruits and veggies. I am going to have DH pick up carrots and mushrooms for me. I will maybe have couscous for dinner, but it's going to be a very light day for me.

2. Water: 150+ ounces, yo. Need to flush some salt out of my system, and water weight!

3. Fitness: None. It is my 2nd day off for the week, and if I go and do something, I risk overtraining. I just can't do that even to lose some weight. I will walk the dog once or twice depending on the temperature outside!

4. I will be productive and stay busy. I will get as many lines at work as I can since we won't be running out (we never run out on the weekend).

5. Go to bed by 9:00 p.m. as sleep is so very, very important to me in my health and attitude!

Countdowns:

34 days until Cancun

12 days until my first official race of 2011 (Frozen Feat 10K on February 12)

50 days until the first day of spring (March 20, 2011)

48 days until I meet Becky, Paula, and a bunch of other SP friends for the Get Lucky 7K and her birthday weekend!

P.S. I want to thank all of you for the support, the tissues, and the understanding of what I went through. It amazes me how positive everyone is when someone is in need of encouragement. You all simply rock!

  
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PINKBEANBOO 1/31/2011 10:29AM

    I'm glad you made it through that yucky day. I wish we didn't have to have those, but every know & then we do.
Cancun, here comes Erin!

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-POOKIE- 1/30/2011 3:29AM

    *hugs*

Im pleased to see your plans to overcome to day your fell down... we ALL have them, woudlnt be human if we didn't!

I agree with the LOTS of water, green tea is great too.

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THEHONESTME 1/29/2011 11:41PM

    YAY, Erin -- I'm glad you're back, not that you ever went anywhere, but that you have your head back in the game. You're right -- one day doesn't change anything. The important thing is that you acknowledged it and have a better understanding of why you did it -- from now on you'll call upon that experience to help you through the next time you start feeling that way! emoticon

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WAKE UP, ERIN!! (letter to myself)

Friday, January 28, 2011

Erin,

What the hell are you doing? You vent about your morning on SP, and then you proceed to completely go off the deep end. You had what for your mid-morning breakfast? Popcorn chicken???? With mayo???????? Then, what did you just have for "lunch?" Tuna Helper? The whole F*$KING BOX?????? Are you nuts? Why are you doing this to yourself, to your body? You deserve so much better than this...

So what, you didn't get to work out this morning? So what, your plans changed? That's life, and you need to learn how to live it, and have a plan B when plan A fails. Because that will happen to you. It happens.

Also, I get that you are down today, but you need to pick yourself up. You have no reason to be depressed. You are living the life you have always wanted! And now you even have close to the body you have always wanted. Why do you want to hurt yourself?

Look around you, look at all of the comments and emails and messages you have gotten about how motivating you are, how inspiring you are...take that to heart, honey. Stop feeling/thinking like you are a fraud. Get over it.

Start feeling the emotions that you have been hiding, that you haven't been dealing with. Who cares if thre is no basis for the way you have been feeling, JUST FEEL THEM. Let them take over until you are drained of all of it, then move on.

I love you too much to let you fall to the wayside...you have a little girl who loves you, and when she comes home, she wants her mommy..be there for her, her happy healthy mommy.

Love,

Yourself.

  
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RUNNER12COM 1/31/2011 1:50PM

    What a fantastic letter. Now, go back and read it again and get yourself back in the right direction!

You are SO worth it!

SDJ

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THEMRSH 1/29/2011 11:59AM

    We've all written this letter to ourselves at one point or another. It's a nice way to get it out there! Love Bill's "Plan C" too! Great idea. Hope today is better for you.

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AURORA1423 1/29/2011 9:37AM

    I hope you have a better day today. Just know that the bad days never last. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NITELITE72 1/28/2011 10:14PM

    There is nothing like a good cry...but then you have to pick yourself up and move on. I believe in you and I know you will do it! I think having extra plans is the best way to accomplish what you want when you have small children. emoticon

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ROOT4HOME 1/28/2011 9:46PM

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THEHONESTME 1/28/2011 9:41PM

    I hope you got through the rest of your day without atotal melt-down, Erin. You'll have to check out my blog from last night -- I was pretty much feeling the same way as you. Stress and change of plans... ugh... the WORST things that can happen to me. They throw me off my game every time. I wish I was one of those people who just went with the flow...
Maybe if we can learn how to do that, we can conquer this weight loss thing once and for all!
Well, regardless, you are doing great. Don't quit on yourself!
Get out of your funk and have a great weekend! You can do this!!

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DUSTYGIRL25 1/28/2011 4:55PM

    Whew!! Good for You!
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BILLALEX70 1/28/2011 3:29PM

    I'd suggest a "Plan C" also.

I hope venting and the good cry has you back in track.
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RUNNER4LIFE08 1/28/2011 3:25PM

    Fantastic letter to yourself! Hopefully by doing this you realized how great you are! And that just because you had a bad morning doesn't mean that you have to complete the day on a bad note.

Put a smile on your face and enjoy your time with your little girl when she gets home. I know my kids always make me smile so hopefully she can help get you out of the funk.

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TEDDYBABE 1/28/2011 2:51PM

    You reached out to your friends, that's awesome! So its not a TOTAL right off. So you took a well deserved vacation day from dieting! WE ALL HAVE! You are going to be fine. Hot bath, fuzzy jammies, fun with your precious daughter... you deserve it. emoticon

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ILIKECACTI 1/28/2011 2:37PM

    I feel like you could be writing this letter me today! I'm glad you posted this. I had my cry last night. I need to get my a$$ back in gear. Wallowing in depression does me no favors.

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ROBYN168 1/28/2011 2:20PM

    Hang in there my friend - right now is the start of the rest of the day - put the first part behind you and march right on forward and grab it by the horns.

Carbo loading before your cold long run tomorrow - not a bad idea - emoticon

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PINKBEANBOO 1/28/2011 2:17PM

    Aw, Sweetie, the day is only half over. Reward yourself with a bubble bath when you finish it off strong. It will help relax you after you feel all those feelings. I know that can be exhausting.

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IRISH_AGUIRRE 1/28/2011 2:17PM

  A beautiful, heartfelt letter to yourself. Listen to it! You spoke the truth and gave great advice. We're here to help you keep going. emoticon emoticon

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-POOKIE- 1/28/2011 2:10PM

    *hugs*

Plans changing always unsettle me really badly as well and often the cause of overeating and poor choices for me. I dont have a lot of advice to offer on that, but just to say you are not alone in this problem xx

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MEGSFITNESS 1/28/2011 2:08PM

    awe sweetie :( "momma said there'd be days like this, there'd be days like this my momma said... "

You'll get through it. No matter what, just make sure the next decision you make is a healthy one. No more beating yourself up. What's done is done and you can't undo it, but you can make sure that the next thing you do is positive.

I hope you feel better after your cry. I usually do.

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BLEIGH711 1/28/2011 2:02PM

    Great Blog! I have been going through a lot of those feelings...and actions...myself. I need to just feel too. You said everything so well, that I just want to say...AMEN! You have come so far...and honestly you really are a huge inspiration to me. Kick this rough patch to curb and get that great body of your moving again. You can do this. And you know where to find me if there is ever a thing I can do.

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