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Recap of my day/Goals for Thursday

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Today was another great day in the books. It was actually my best day in a while, because I feel so much more relaxed now after hitting my GW in WW. I didn't realize how stressed out I was about that until I did it. Now, I feel like I can continue on losing weight but not feeling like I absolutely must be perfect. It would be the ultimate to be down to around 145-ish for Cancun in March, but I know that as long as I am healthy and under 160, that is all that matters.

I had some mild cravings today that were spurred on by dropping my daughter off at grandma's. Right when I walked in the door, this is what I see on the table:



I had to stand there talking to her while she hands one to Kaylee, who promptly wolfs it down. Then, she pulls out Chips Ahoy. Argh.

I didn't have any and left. When I picked her up and brought her to the grocery store to see her daddy, I had a craving for a cookie. By the time I was done shopping, I bargained with myself. They usually have 3-packs of their cookies in the front of the store (and I have gotten into trouble with them before). I told myself that if they had the kind I was REALLY craving (they are called Ranger cookies, basically a plain oatmeal cookie), I could buy them and have one. Thankfully, all they had were date cookies, chocolate chip cookies, and M&M cookies, none of which I was craving.

On the way out of the store, I had a fleeting craving for a DQ small ice cream cone, but I remembered pretty quickly that I had one on Saturday, my "down" day, and did I really need one? No. I just wanted it. I could afford it, sure, but why have it? I was still full from my couscous meal.

So, I am taking some important steps forward by having an inner monologue instead of just grabbing and eating.

Let's see how I did today:

1. Nutrition: Get in 29 points. I am thinking oatmeal with banana and milk for breakfast, egg whites, milk, mushrooms, turkey bacon for lunch (can you tell I like that meal??) and couscous with 1 slice of turkey bacon in pieces, mixed veggies, and 1 egg scrambled in it for supper. Apples, bananas, and clementines for snackeroos. emoticon I had everything on this menu, except for breakfast I skipped the milk and had an apple instead of a banana (since I had a banana already for my preworkout snack. My lunch was nummy, and my dinner was super filling. I had some hungry moments during the day, but I thwarted it with apples, clementines, and tons of water.

2. Water: Need to get some fluids in! I will strive for 140+ since my fluids today were so low. emoticon For the first time EVA, I got in over 150 ounces of water today!!! Yay :o} Felt good, and my body is getting used to the amount of water so I am not peeing every 10 minutes anymore!

3. Fitness: 55 minutes of spin and ST followed by 15 minutes of Abs class. Will NOT be walking dog as we are still in the wind chill warning, and the wind will be picking up tomorrow. emoticon for the most part. I did the spin class, but skipped my abs class because my DD woke up at 4:30 this morning and I was feeling bad for DH, so went home to take over childwatching duties. I could have walked the dog today, but I didn't realize that the weather had gotten better until it was too late. Shame!

4. Bed by 9:30. emoticon Man, I love sleep.

5. Busy, busy, busy! Meeting up with a friend after work and will probably hang out until 7, then go home and have my couscous meal, followed by putting Kaylee to bed and then I will sleep. I will be focused and productive at work. I will take out the trash, too. emoticon I did this all except the trash, since DH actually took care of it :o}

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Goals for Thursday:

1. Nutrition: Breakfast will be plain oatmeal with 1 TBSP of reduced fat Jiffy, a banana cut up on top, and 1/4 cup of milk with a bit of Splenda. Lunch will be either the usual scrambled egg whites with 1 egg and mushrooms with 3 slices of turkey bacon or a can of Chicken Noodle Soup, whichever floats my boat. For dinner, I am making chicken stir fry with broccoli, water chestnuts, peppers, mushrooms, and onions. NUMMY!

2. Water: 140+ ounces!

3. Fitness: None! I feel a need to take a rest day because my foot has been aching like a sore tooth. I am just hoping it is a transient thing and not something like a stress fracture. I am backing off on running until Saturday. I will walk the dog if the weather allows (we are supposed to be getting a system in tonight into tomorrow with snow and bad wind chills again). I may do ab work if I am feeling like I am being lazy.

4. I will keep busy, busy, busy. My DH is going to his friend's house after dinner, so that will be a couple of hours along with Kaylee. As long as I keep busy with her I will be all good. I will also need to bring in a bunch of stuff to the mortgage dude at the bank on my lunch hour. Get tax stuff together too....

5. Go to bed by 9:30, drink no caffeine, and make myself happy!!

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Countdown to Cancun: 44 days with 13 pounds left to lose!

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THEHONESTME 1/20/2011 8:25PM

    Erin, you are so amazing!! You are such a hard worker -- you are always so busy and yet you have your nutrition and exercise at the top of your list. I don't know how on earth you do it all, but CONGRATS!!! You go, girl -- Cancun will be here before you know it! emoticon

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PARTICLEGIRL22 1/20/2011 12:42PM

    Great job on saying no to the brownies. They are my ultimate weekness.

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DELPHYNE 1/20/2011 9:57AM

    Great day! Take care of that foot. I've been having foot pain, and I started wrapping it at night with sport tape. It has made all the difference.

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ROBYN168 1/20/2011 9:52AM

    Way to go beating the craving of the Ranger Cookie (I love those) - Oatmeal are my favorite - especially with butterscotch chips...

Congrats on a great day.

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PRICANSTINA84 1/20/2011 9:11AM

    yay for avoiding your cravings!!! those brownies just make me wanna drool lmao!

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ILIKECACTI 1/20/2011 7:02AM

    Wow... way to avoid all of your cravings! It's so hard sometimes! I'm not sure if I would have succeeded at all of those in one day :)

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-POOKIE- 1/20/2011 4:33AM

    Good work avoiding your inner grabby-food self we all have!

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BRENDY_28 1/20/2011 1:00AM

    oh my! congrats on avoiding all your cravings. i don't know if i would have done the same... lol

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Recap/Goals/Weigh In At WW/NSV for the day

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Where to start, where to start....? Oh, yeah! With the fact that at 159.0, I hit my Goal Weight at WW!!!!! WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! Now, with the next 6 weeks, I need to stay under 162, but that will be cake (cake?) with the fact that I am going to continue losing, but now it will be so much less stressful for me. Once I finish those 6 weeks, I will weigh-in one last time, get my lifetime membership, and then go to Cancun hopefully around 145-148 pounds, and then not have to weigh in there for a month! I plan on weighing in anyway the week after, but it will be good knowing I do not HAVE to, so if I am up, I can weigh in the next week. YAHOOOOOO!!!!

I had to stand in front of the standing-room only crowd and talk about my journey, which was a little nerve-wracking for me. In all my excitement about going to weigh in, I forgot about the fact that I might have to talk about it. So, I said to the group that I started at 286 pounds, lost 25 on my own, stalled, and joined WW at 261 pounds in September 2009. It's been a long road, but every bit of it worth it.

NSV for the day: I went to Kohl's to buy a gift for my best friend, and the jewelry saleslady turned out to be someone I used to work with about 7 years ago at a grocery store in town. She asked me, "Do I know you? You seem familiar?" I said that yea, I was Erin from Hugo's back in the day. Her eyes got huge, and she says, as she leaned over the counter to look at me better: "Wha??? You look like you lost 100-thousand pounds!!!" And then of course she asked me how I did it. I gave her the short version: WW, gym, SP. She asked what I did for exercise. I told her what I do now versus what I did then. When I said I was training for a marathon, she looked frustrated, and basically said she couldn't do that. I said she didn't have to, that we all start somewhere, and that I started out walking around the block, doing Walk Away The Pounds videos with Leslie Sansone. That's it. I didn't join the gym until 6 months into my journey. But, that's not what people want to hear. They want to hear that it was easy. I always say that it is simple, but not easy.

SO, my evening went great, of course, and then we went out with our best friends to Mexican Village where I had a half order of Nachos, and had my DH eat about half of it. And now I am typing this and then off to bed because it is already 8:37!!!

Recap of my day:

1. Nutrition: It is my wonky weigh-in day, so I will be eating a banana before my workout and having water until noon. After that, nothing until my weigh-in at 5. Supper will be with my DH as it will be our first date night in...Gosh, forever. We will most likely eat out, but my portion will be reasonably small; in fact, we will most likely split our meal! Keep points below 29. emoticon Did the date night with our friends, and split my meal. Had 2 bananas otherwise.

2. Water: 100+ ounces. I set the expectation lower since it is hard to get my water intake in on Tuesday. As long as I get in 100+ I am happy! Goal not met. I got in only 60 ounces. Yikes. More to drink tomorrow!

3. Fitness: Well, it is a day off for me, so I plan on running 3 miles in the morning, and if I have the time and inclination, I will go back and hop on the elliptical for the heckuvit. I will walk my dog if it isn't crazy seriously cold like today was. emoticon partially. I ran the 3 miles, and felt like it would be overkill if I hit the elliptical, so didn't go back. Also, today was SUPER cold and we are actually in a wind chill warning (-18 with -36 wind chill) and I have a hard and fast rule that anything below -10 with -20 wind chill is to hard on the dog. And me.

4. Sleep: I will be in bed by 9:30. The usual! I love how this is all habit now. emoticon

5. Get my list of errands done tomorrow including tanning for the first time since high school, cleaning, picking up a belated birthday and Christmas gift for my friend (we're meeting up Wednesday), and shovel again. Won't have trouble staying busy this day! emoticonTanning was fun! Only did laundry today. Picked up gift. Didn't shovel, though. Too flipping cold and it had been mostly shoveled already.

6. Limit computer time to 1 hour all day in order to accomplish all of this. emoticon

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Goals for tomorrow (Wednesday):

1. Nutrition: Get in 29 points. I am thinking oatmeal with banana and milk for breakfast, egg whites, milk, mushrooms, turkey bacon for lunch (can you tell I like that meal??) and couscous with 1 slice of turkey bacon in pieces, mixed veggies, and 1 egg scrambled in it for supper. Apples, bananas, and clementines for snackeroos.

2. Water: Need to get some fluids in! I will strive for 140+ since my fluids today were so low.

3. Fitness: 55 minutes of spin and ST followed by 15 minutes of Abs class. Will NOT be walking dog as we are still in the wind chill warning, and the wind will be picking up tomorrow.

4. Bed by 9:30.

5. Busy, busy, busy! Meeting up with a friend after work and will probably hang out until 7, then go home and have my couscous meal, followed by putting Kaylee to bed and then I will sleep. I will be focused and productive at work. I will take out the trash, too.

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Countdown to Cancun: 45 days with 14 pounds left to lose!!!

  
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NUTRIGIRL08 1/19/2011 4:04PM

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FUN2BAROUND 1/19/2011 11:45AM

    Wow this is great. Love the structure and accountability with this plan!
Keep up the great work - and take a minute to pat yourself on the back. You've done an amazing job.

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PRICANSTINA84 1/19/2011 9:53AM

    congrats on reaching your goal! my mom just started WW (has lost 4.6 lbs in 2 wks) and my aunt just met her goal at WW of 27 lbs lost.

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JESPAH 1/19/2011 9:12AM

    Yay!

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    emoticon on hitting your goal at WW!!! emoticon

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ILIKECACTI 1/19/2011 8:41AM

    Congrats! That's great!!

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PARTICLEGIRL22 1/19/2011 8:21AM

    That is so incredible! Congrats on reaching your WW Goal!! It's so wonderful that your old co-worker barely recognized you. I am glad you were able to encourage her a bit. It's hard for people to hear that diet and exercise are key and that there is no magic bullet, but it also helps to hear that you don't have to start by running 10 miles a day.

You are AH-MAZING!

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THEHONESTME 1/19/2011 8:04AM

    YAY!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!!
emoticon Here's your cake! Not to eat, but to inspire you!
You got this!! I'm very happy for you, Erin!
PS -- I like that -- simple, but not easy!

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SHAWFAN 1/19/2011 7:26AM

    Congratulations!!!

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FLYINGB16 1/19/2011 5:49AM

    Congratulations! I am so proud of you!!! I remember years ago I was at a WW meeting when my friend hit the 100 pounds lost mark. I think just about everyone cried from the joy. I bet you inspired a whole new group of folks!

I am back to regular exercise now so I know I will met my goal of 170-LAND by the end of january. I can't wait to get my body back up to speed so I can run again.

Have a great day and keep on inspiring the rest of us!

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IRISH_AGUIRRE 1/18/2011 11:06PM

  Congratulations!!!!

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THEMRSH 1/18/2011 11:02PM

    Awesome about your WW goal and your journey all together so far. I posted a quote for one of my groups today and when you mention people wanting to hear it was easy I thought of it again.

"It always seems impossible until it's done" ~ Nelson Mandela

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DELPHYNE 1/18/2011 10:44PM

    I love that. It is simple, but it's not easy.

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Recap for Today/Goals For Tuesday

Monday, January 17, 2011

My day today was fairly uneventful. I got up, participated in the spin and sculpt class (pulling in 18.4 miles), doing the abs class after (KILLER), and getting my day started. My DH and Kaylee were home all day because of MLK day, but I had to work. It was a bit of a distraction, but I managed to get all of my goals done. As usual, because it is the day before the weigh-in, I felt ravenous all day. But, I ate what I was supposed to eat, drank my water, and stayed busy. I am typing all this up at 7 p.m. because the moment my daughter is in bed, I am also going to bed. I don't need to, but I feel it is in my best interest to go to bed rather than stay up and possibly eat something, maybe SALTY!

This Saturday, I start my marathon training, which on one hand I am excited about but I am also nervous about! I will be training partially with the runner's group in town (costs $30 to be a member), and you do your long runs with them every Saturday morning until the marathon. Will definitely keep me accountable with them, and I know come spring time they start running as early as 4-5, which works best for me.

Here is how I did today:

1. Nutrition: Stay in the lower part of my points/calories for the day. Breakfast will be oatmeal with fruit. Lunch will be the 3 egg whites with 1 egg and mushrooms scrambled with 1/4 cup of skim milk and 3 slices of turkey bacon (seriously right now my fave meal ever). For supper, I will have tuna, veggies, and fruit. Snacks will be freggies (fruits/veggies). emoticon I ate all the stuff on here plus a small bag of 94% fat free popcorn, and I put that tuna on a slice of bread with mayo :o} Still stayed in the lower range of my calories/WW points.

2. Water: I have now taken the caffeine part out of the equation because I feel that it is now a done deal, that I just no longer drink it. I will limit my Diet 7-Up still but will not kick my a$$ if I have more than 1/2 can. I will push for 140 ounces of water. emoticon Loving the water finally!

3. Fitness: 50 minutes of spin and sculpt followed by a 15-minute abs class and any ST I can get my hands on ;o} Walk the dog. Walk around the mall later or Target. emoticon I did all of this excelt for the walking of the dog and walking in the mall. WAY TOO TREACHEROUSLY COLD OUTSIDE. It is now -4 degrees with a -29 wind chill. And the wind is 20 mph. Nuh uh.

4. Busy, busy, busy! As always, the busier I am, the more focused I am. Part of the problem Saturday was the fact that I was alone with Kaylee and didn't put in place measures to keep me busy. emoticon Did this perfectly as I could!

5. Go to bed by 9:30. Sleep is a priority! emoticon Going to bed no later than 8.

6. Be happy, productive at work, and grateful for what I can do! emoticon I had a great day at work today, even if I did get mildly distracted.

Goals for Tuesday:

1. Nutrition: It is my wonky weigh-in day, so I will be eating a banana before my workout and having water until noon. After that, nothing until my weigh-in at 5. Supper will be with my DH as it will be our first date night in...Gosh, forever. We will most likely eat out, but my portion will be reasonably small; in fact, we will most likely split our meal! Keep points below 29.

2. Water: 100+ ounces. I set the expectation lower since it is hard to get my water intake in on Tuesday. As long as I get in 100+ I am happy!

3. Fitness: Well, it is a day off for me, so I plan on running 3 miles in the morning, and if I have the time and inclination, I will go back and hop on the elliptical for the heckuvit. I will walk my dog if it isn't crazy seriously cold like today was.

4. Sleep: I will be in bed by 9:30. The usual! I love how this is all habit now.

5. Get my list of errands done tomorrow including tanning for the first time since high school, cleaning, picking up a belated birthday and Christmas gift for my friend (we're meeting up Wednesday), and shovel again. Won't have trouble staying busy this day!

6. Limit computer time to 1 hour all day in order to accomplish all of this.

Countdown to Cancun: 46 days with 15 pounds left to lose and hoping with the weigh in tomorrow it will be even less!

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ROBYN168 1/18/2011 11:55AM

    Way to go Erin - great day!!!!! Good luck with the Marathon training!

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ILIKECACTI 1/18/2011 11:35AM

    Way to go! You have to be pretty darn focused to get all of this accomplished... and you're doing it!

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BRENDY_28 1/18/2011 4:39AM

    wow, good luck with the marathon group training. :D i'm really excited for you.

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THEHONESTME 1/17/2011 10:17PM

    Good luck with weigh in, busy lady! Congrats on bouncing back so quickly from the 'bad day' incident! emoticon

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PRICANSTINA84 1/17/2011 9:48PM

    you are definitley busy! good luck at the weigh in!

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SHAWFAN 1/17/2011 9:20PM

    Busy, busy, busy is right! Whew! You wear me out!! lol You're doing great! Hope weigh in is good for you. emoticon

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TRIP2HAPPINESS 1/17/2011 9:15PM

    Sounds wonderful. You are right on track Erin, keep it up! I find it easier to stay on track when I am busier too, on my days off I have to fight myself to do anything! LOL. I have been on track ALL week, hopefully tomorrow and wednesday(my days off) won't ruin all the hard work. WE gotta stay STRONG! :) Good luck with your weigh-in! :)

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IMSMILEY88 1/17/2011 8:55PM

    Sounds like a great day! And, I bet you'll really appreciate the marathon group. Hope you have a wonderful Tuesday!

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Recap of my day/Goals for Monday

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Well, I am not going to be doing any "goal met" emoticons today since I didn't really set any goals. The weekends are generally tough for me given their lack of structure, but it helped that I worked today.

As my last blog was about how crappy I did, I am so happy to say that today was all good again! I ate all good foods, a lot less OF them, drank a crapton of water, actually didn't have ANY Diet 7-Up today, did a fantastic job at work today, kept a positive attitude, and then after work I went to the gym and ran 7.25 miles. It was a tough run both physically and mentally. I couldn't focus real well because I kept thinking about the aches and pains in my calves/shins. I ran too hard on Thursday. All I could think about was a PR that day, and instead I nearly injured myself. I tried to take it slower today, but I was in a time constraint and only had about an hour and 20 minutes to run. I told DH (dear husband for those who don't know ;o}) that I can't limit my time like that (today was different because I was supposed to do this run yesterday, and I had to fit this run in between work and a meeting).

I just took a shower, and I am getting into bed here at 9:07, which is good, so though I didn't write down any goals, I made nearly all of the ones I would have anyway. I like how this is becoming a habit for me, and I feel so much better going to bed tonight than I did last night. Too much food in the tummy just doesn't feel good. I put all of the food I had yesterday into my tracker on SP to see the calories. On WW, it ended up being 81 points (HOLY GOOGLY MOOGLY) and the calories on SP turned out to be about 3700 (faints). But, I know that will not undo all of the hard work I put in. What it does mean, though, is I may see a maintenance at the scale this week at WW. I hope I don't, and I will do everything I can to make sure that doesn't happen from today until Tuesday, but I won't be upset or frustrated if it does happen. What matters is I move forward and stay positive!

So, onto my goals for tomorrow:
1. Nutrition: Stay in the lower part of my points/calories for the day. Breakfast will be oatmeal with fruit. Lunch will be the 3 egg whites with 1 egg and mushrooms scrambled with 1/4 cup of skim milk and 3 slices of turkey bacon (seriously right now my fave meal ever). For supper, I will have tuna, veggies, and fruit. Snacks will be freggies (fruits/veggies).

2. Water: I have now taken the caffeine part out of the equation because I feel that it is now a done deal, that I just no longer drink it. I will limit my Diet 7-Up still but will not kick my a$$ if I have more than 1/2 can. I will push for 140 ounces of water.

3. Fitness: 50 minutes of spin and sculpt followed by a 15-minute abs class and any ST I can get my hands on ;o} Walk the dog. Walk around the mall later or Target.

4. Busy, busy, busy! As always, the busier I am, the more focused I am. Part of the problem Saturday was the fact that I was alone with Kaylee and didn't put in place measures to keep me busy.

5. Go to bed by 9:30. Sleep is a priority!

6. Be happy, productive at work, and grateful for what I can do!

Countdown to Cancun: 46 days with 15 pounds left to lose :o}

  
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MIECHI7 1/17/2011 11:29AM

    emoticonI admire that you can write down your goals and know what you expect from yourself. I think that is where I am falling short. I know what I want the end result to be, I know what it will take to get there, but I just need to put all of that into an action plan like yours.

I luv va-ca countdowns! Mine is 54 days till St. Croix:)
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JILLIANPRNCSS 1/17/2011 8:17AM

    I was having a hard time last week too and ready to get back on track with you. We can do it. emoticon

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ILIKECACTI 1/17/2011 7:09AM

    Way to get back on track! Thanks for the goodie! With all the working out that you do, I'm sure any damage done by that one day will be gone in no time!

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-POOKIE- 1/17/2011 4:37AM

    emoticon good luck with the next goals of the day!

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THEHONESTME 1/16/2011 10:21PM

    Glad you're back, Erin!

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My "down" day..

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Wow, so how vague was I yesterday on my status feed? Exactly WHAT is a down day?

To me, yesterday was a down day because I met nearly NONE of my goals. I didn't drink much water at all. I drank more than half a can of Diet 7-Up (try 4 half cans). I didn't run 7 miles (using exercises like I am so sore, wanted to spend some time with family, etc). And, I ate. Like it was going out of style.

I don't want to make excuses for what I did yesterday. I was fully conscious of what I was doing. It wasn't mindless eating. It was my being "perfect" the last 2+ weeks finally catching up to me and me not handling it smart. I basically called it my "down" or "off" day. Maybe I needed it? But, the scale this morning says I really, really didn't.

I had pancakes. I had fruit. I had Cheerios with sugar. I had chicken noodle soup. I had crackers. I had chips. I had toast. I had Subway (6-inch). I had DQ (small cone). I made a box of au gratin cheesy potatoes. I made chicken/broccoli rice. I felt sick. I read a whole book while eating the potatoes and some of the rice. I couldn't eat all the rice because I had no room in my stomach. I went to bed super late (for me) at 10:30. I felt sick. I woke up at 6:30 this morning with my stomach just so, so, so, so angry with me.

Last night...really all through the day, I felt I was letting so many people down. My daughter, me, my DH, my Spark Friends....the Cancun trip. Everything and Everyone. And I didn't stop myself once. No hesitations. Just a "Hey, I'll be back on track tomorrow."

While I know that is true, I am back on track today, it doesn't lessen the feelings I have about what I did yesterday and the clear evidence of how crappy my body feels. No matter how long I have been at this..no matter how successful, I still have days like yesterday. Thankfully it doesn't happen often at all, but I hate that it still happens.

If I try to go the root of why it happened, I stop myself, because really I don't need that reason. My life is great and has been for at least 18 months. Sure, there is some stress here and there, but nothing that really throws a wet blanket over me. Oh, wait. There it is. My job.

In June, we had over 70 people in my department. With a new system being put in place, they realized a week after implementing it that they no longer needed so many of us. They cut over 50 of us. I made the cut, but don't know how close I was to the bottom of the list of 25.

We were told over and over that they cut this deep so they wouldn't ever have to cut again. Though I am still working, the work has still been running out and has been off and on for over a month. We were told it was the holidays. Yeah. The holidays are over now. And, I am part of the "communications" team, and the boss wants to get us together some time this week.

I can't lose my job. I just can't. There are so many reasons that would just blow chunks. I just got a raise. I get incentive pay. I work from home. It will be the perfect job for going back to school in the fall. I have the benefits (my DH is a teacher and it costs $600+ a month for medical/dental for him and about $300 for me through my job).

I know even if I lose my job it WILL work out. I can find another job and, in fact, have 2 lined up just in case. But, they are jobs I had as a teenager and the pay would definitely be minimum wage. Changes will have to be made. We don't live outside our pretty modest means right now, but even those things we do, we will have to scale back.

Umm...So yeah. The 7 miles I didn't run yesterday, will be run today. I work 7:30-4 today, so that helps, but unfortunately my DH is watching Kaylee all day, so then when I get off work and run to the gym, I will be feeling guilty as heck about that, too. Because running 7 miles takes me over an hour, not sure how long over an hour, but I am sure I can't run too fast for that long. And I can tell she is being a bit of a terror this morning, which is going to have him be stressed out soon. Hopefully she takes a good nap.

Oh, and then I have a meeting tonight that I chair from 7-8, so basically I am not going to be able to watch Kaylee much at all today. A part of me thinks that I need to do this, and take this time for myself since DH was out of the house from 3:30 on for the playoffs yesterday.

Argh. Well, I talked with DH just now about how I was feeling, and he made me feel better about it.

I guess I just needed to get it out on here so I feel....like I am doing something about it and not a failure.

Take it easy, Sparkies. Love you...

Erin

  
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PARTICLEGIRL22 1/19/2011 8:55AM

    Oh girl, I understand your stress and your bad day. They happen to all of us. Your stress is enough to make the strongest person turn to comfort food. But look at it as a success. It was only one day. You were aware it was happening and you woke up the next morning resovlved to do better. Your body rejected all the crap because it is used to healthier options.

Would all of those things happened before you started your journey?

You are awesome.

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THEHONESTME 1/16/2011 8:24PM

    What's one day... big deal! As long as you feel better today and you get back on track, you'll be fine. You live, you learn. You have a lot going on in your life being a mom, wife, employee -- it's hard to juggle it all and no one expects you to be perfect all the time. I tell my daughter often, this is the hardest part of your life -- juggling it all -- hang in there and don't be too tough on yourself.
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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 1/16/2011 1:40PM

    Breathe, baby, breathe. Sounds like we both need to.

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PRICANSTINA84 1/16/2011 12:47PM

    i think every once in a while, days like yesterday are OK. plus, you realize what you did and are back on track. don't beat yourself up for it, k! big hugs to ya!!

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FITTINGIN130 1/16/2011 12:46PM

    Good luck to you - sounds like you're doing a good job of being honest with yourself and being self-aware. You can do it! And you are definitely not a failure - every moment you can recognize what you're doing, every time you make a decision to take care of yourself, you are victorious and successful.

We all have our down days, I think. Try to not be so "perfect" and maybe you won't feel the pressure build up so much that it implodes on you. I know if I'm "too careful" I'm more likely to have a huge binge day. So I plan my treats and excesses and try to think about them wisely.

(Also, can anyone tell me what DH stands for? Thx)

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PAMATX 1/16/2011 12:44PM

    We all have our down days, that's for sure. The good thing is, they don't happen so often with Spark. Good for you for making time to get your run in tonight. That always helps melt the crap off my brain. Sorry you're having such a stressful time with the job. I hope that settles down (and picks up) for you soon!

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ROBYN168 1/16/2011 11:24AM

    That was yesterday --- today is today -------

Have a great run - clear your head, and keep moving....

No looking back!

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TRIP2HAPPINESS 1/16/2011 11:04AM

    ahh it was just 1 day Erin, it's okay. Since you have been stressing some about your job, I think you DESERVE that 7mile run, it'll get your heart racing and clear your mind. Plus it will make erase yesterday! ;) You have come so far, don't be so hard on yourself missy, your too awesome for that! :)

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HEALTHYELEPHANT 1/16/2011 11:00AM

    Awww...this is a mega bummer! I'll be sending you happy thoughts this week about the job. I'm glad you have a couple things lined up, just in case....and for what it's worth, my opinion is that if you were recently promoted, you'll be ok.

Everyone has a weird meltdown day - it's part of being human. Just hop up, dust yourself off, and carry on being awesome like you always are. :) Sometimes it's the down days that really remind you of who you are!

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ILIKECACTI 1/16/2011 10:44AM

    Oh man, I totally understand... but it's great that it was only 1 day! I ended up filling this past week with excuses while I was traveling. ugh.... anyway... i feel your pain.

good luck with work! that's great you didn't make the cut!

you are so not a failure! look at you picture as whole... you have accomplished so much, and this one day does not change any of that.

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