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Wednesday, December 01, 2010

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Starting Weight: 173
Ending Weight:160
Weight Loss Total: 13 pounds! Wow...I wasn't expecting that.

Starting Measurements:
Waist - 40
Hips - 42
Thigh - 22.5
Calf - 16
Upper Arm - 12.5
Boobies - 38

Starting BMI: 27.1

Ending Measurements:
Waist- 37
Hips - 38.5
Thigh - 21.5
Calf - 14
Upper Arm - 12
Boobies - 36
BMI: 25.1

Inches Lost Total: 12 (!)

During this challenge, I learned I can and will and DID get up after I fall.

I feel like I obliterated this excuse: "I'm too tired and I'm too busy!".

I know now that I need to work most on taking care of me and my emotional/mental state first and foremost. Everything falls into pattern like clockwork if I do that!

I am most proud of the fact that even though there were days that in the past I would have called an overall failure and jumped off the wagon completely, I stuck through it with my chin held up and started over each day!

I achieved at least one thing that I set out to do in this challenge and that was to lost inches in my waist and hip area!!! I am so beyond excited about that!

My before/after pics will be posted Thursday night/Friday morning as I can have DH take them Thursday evening. I did one earlier this last week, but that I believe was misleading as I had a huge amount of food in my belly (it was a bit of a pity party that night). Also, if they are taken by DH and not me, they are a better comparison to my before pics.

I am so happy I took part in this challenge and I thank Yoovie for coming up with fresh ideas and new challenges! She rocks :o}

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NITELITE72 12/1/2010 4:40PM

    Great job!! You are amazing!!

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DELPHYNE 12/1/2010 3:18PM

    Way to go!! You did emoticon!

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RDARLING 12/1/2010 1:06PM

    SUPER JOB! You made some great changes this month!

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My weekly plan

Sunday, November 28, 2010

I love that so many of the Periwinkles are putting down their weekly plan (no doubt following Ellabelle's lead). I, too, am going to do this since it has just been too crazy with life and work and it just seems an easier thing to do each Sunday night before going to bed.

Here is my plan for this week:

Monday: 60 minutes of spinning with ST followed by an ab class followed by a 3-mile run on the treadmill.

Tuesday: Zumba followed by 1/2 hour on the elliptical. Since it is my day off for working this weekend, I will go back in the afternoon and run 4-5 miles (since I can't go running this evening with the group). Weight Watchers meeting and hoping to be down at least 2 pounds (even with Thanksgiving)!

Wednesday: 60-minute spin class with ST followed by a 3-mile run and ab class.

Thursday: Rest?

Friday: 20 minutes of spin class followed by 40 minutes of Pump-It (ST) with abs. Run for 3 miles after.

Saturday: Run for 4-6 miles and 1 hour on the elliptical machine.

Sunday: Either rest or 1 hour on the elliptical depending on how I feel physically.

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JENNIFERKCM 11/29/2010 10:40AM

    You made me tired looking at your plans for the week! Whew! Good job getting so much of Monday's plan done already! emoticon

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-POOKIE- 11/29/2010 6:55AM

    emoticon Impressive looking!

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ILIKECACTI 11/28/2010 10:32PM

    Ambitious, but I'm sure you can do it!! Good luck!!

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ELLABELLE66 11/28/2010 10:27PM


No seriously, awesome plan :) and I love Team Periwinkle - can't wait to officially get started
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THEHONESTME 11/28/2010 9:40PM

    I have no doubt you can do this! Your goals sound very ambitious, but from the looks of your page -- you're an ambitious girl!! Keep up the good work! emoticon

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A new day, and how was YOUR Thanksgiving?

Friday, November 26, 2010

Hey everyone! How was your Thanksgiving? Did anyone head out for Black Friday shopping this morning?

Yesterday morning I went to the gym for a crazy fun workout with 30 minutes of spinning, 30 minutes of Turbo Jam/kickboxing, and 30 minutes of Pump-It (high rep barbell strength training). I then did a lot of shoveling as a storm was coming in, though it didn't turn into a ground blizzard like they thought it would. Good thing, since we had to drive across town to eat at my parents' house! We had our nap BEFORE our meal since my daughter went down at 10:45 for her nap and didn't wake up until 1:15 (yay!).

I had one full plate of food that I shared with my daughter (mashed potatoes/gravy, scalloped corn, green bean casserole, dressing, turkey, lefse, 1 slice of bread/butter) and then I had 2 Swedish meatballs and a slice of pumpkin pie with Cool Whip. Before this meal at home I had a banana and grapes, then last night I had 1 cup more of green bean casserole. When I really look at how much I ate (small portions of most everything) I actually stayed in my calories, but felt just SOOO sluggish and full. My tummy isn't used to such food!

I was feeling a bit down on myself last night because my dream dress didn't fit when I tried it on and then I took pictures of myself. I look so bloated, but it's no wonder given the meal I had just hours prior to those pictures. My weight after all that food was 168.4 pounds.

But, I got up this morning and went to the gym, though my body ACHED and I just wanted to stay in bed. It is -10 degrees with a -22 degree wind chill, so it stunk going outside, but it felt great to get to the gym. I did a quick spin for 25 minutes (10 miles) and then hopped on the treadmill to run for 30 minutes and got in 3 miles. I have to keep it light and easy and not push too hard running for now. My training for the marathon starts up all too soon and I need to ease back in!

Oh, and when I weighed in this morning? 163.4 pounds. Lesson? Don't trust an evening weight if that is not something you consistently do.

Okay, so it is DH's birthday today, but he is getting his free Mexican food meal with a friend while I watch Kaylee (to save money and calories for me). Not THIS weekend, but next weekend, I will be going to the Twin Cities to go Christmas shopping with my sister, mom, and my daughter. I have already heard the words "Cheesecake Factory" and "PF Chang's" floating around. The hotel we chose is the Hilton and it has a GREAT workout room. I plan on eating healthy down there, and they can eat wherever they want, as long as they don't mind me hitting up Subway for a healthy 6-inch sub when they do so ;o}

Well, back to work, but know I am thinking about all of you while making my good healthy choices today!



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VIXEN2188 11/26/2010 12:33PM

    I'm not to fond of PF Changs and Cheesecake Factory. Maybe it's just me. I ordered a nice drink from the bar when I went to cheesecake factory and that was about all I enjoyed. Didn't think it was worth the 1 hour wait! Have a good weekend!

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RDARLING 11/26/2010 10:43AM

    read your blog and now I don't want to go outside today! Luckily, I really don't have to. We changed our Thanksgiving plans because of the "storm", ended up staying home instead of driving to Mandan to see the in-laws. Oh well, better safe than sorry.
I did get in 2.3 miles yesterday...outside in the snow and wind! It wasn't too bad but I didn't go as far as I had wanted.
Sounds like you did great yesterday with Thanksgiving. Plus, you have a great plan for your trip to the cities. You gals should definitely check out the Holidazzle parade downtown Minneapolis. It is a lot of fun!

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JUST_SIMONE 11/26/2010 10:31AM

    Great job staying in your calorie range yesterday! I can identify with the bloat feeling, and I know better than to weigh myself in the evening lol. Sounds like you're killing the workouts!

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LONGWINDINGROAD 11/26/2010 10:29AM

    You did GREAT! Yeah...those evening weigh ins will depress anyone! Your self control is a good indication that this is something that you're going to stick with forever!! I had a great Thanksgiving, and I can't say that I did as well as you...I went over in my calories, but it wasn't too bad, so I'm not beating myself up over it...I've had a good week besides, and I've got a good day planned today, so I'm satisfied!!

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Reality AKA Pictures and The Dress

Thursday, November 25, 2010

I have made some great choices in the past couple of days, but then I made a few bad choices. It seems like when I make a bad choice, I have to go all out. And that worries me. Like moderation is not in my dictionary or something. I had a great day yesterday, eating very healthy food and feeling satisfied, and realized I had X amount of points left for the day and decided to get....a snack wrap from McDonald's. Which I had and enjoyed, and was hungry an hour later. So, I went to pick up my daughter, and then dropped by the Burger King a block away from my parents' house. Got a Whopper Jr. and a Buck Double. And had other food with that including Chef Boyardee crap that has been sitting in my cupboard for my daughter (yeah, like I should be feeding her that, really) and tuna with Miracle Whip.

Why don't I just eat myself to death????? I did figure out my activity points for yesterday, and even with those points added in, I had to use up all of my weekly allowance points for WW. That is ridiculous.

Today, I did very well until I put my daughter to bed. Even at Thanksgiving Dinner overall I did great, and with the amount of exercise I put in today (including 30 minutes of Kickboxing, 30 minutes of interval training, and 30 minutes of spinning along with a crapton of shoveling on this fine wintery day) I really came out ahead. But, of course my mom sent tons of leftovers home. I ate the slice of pumpkin pie along with about 1 cup of green bean casserole and grapes (well, the grapes weren't bad). I calculated my points as best I could, and my points were actually okay for today, but I just feel crappy. Physically crappy. I weighed myself, which is really stupid considering the volume of food in my stomach, but anyhoo. 168.4. If I weighed in RIGHT now for WW, I would be up 4.2 pounds from TUESDAY. 2 days. I know in my mind that most of it is water retention. I did a lot of lifting today. But I also know in my mind that yes, some of it IS fat.

How do I know this? I took pictures. First, I took pictures of THE dress. The dress I want to wear on New Year's Eve. When I tried it on, I had to have my husband zip me up, and it was tight, but it zipped up. A size 8. I put it on just after taking the pictures of the dress, and it was tight. Like, I can't even dream of zipping it up tight. So, instead of having to lose an inch in my back/chest/abdomen area to get it to fit, I'm thinking it is more like 3 inches!!!!!!! And when taking my pictures just now in the mirror, I look even MORE PREGNANT than the last time I took pictures. Ugh. But getting this out here is helping me because THIS is the swift kick in my ass that I need to get in line with my eating habits/problem. So, without further ado:

The Dress:

The Shoes:

Front in September:

Front today:

Side in September:

Side today:

Back in September:

Back today:

Okay, and I know this is silly, but I am really happy with my legs right now, and so tried to take some pictures of them (the heels are the ones that go with the dress since as for right now the thin heels make my ankles afraid of me):

Sorry about the quality and position of the photos from husband went to a movie and I just wanted to grab the bull by the horns and just do this, write it down, get it over with, and go to bed with a clear head!

Oh, and here is a parting picture of my princess and I followed by one of Kaylee looking as bundled up as the child in Christmas Story (well, not quite, but close!):

Oh, and sorry about the whole "just having been at the gym for 2 hours, no makeup, and needing a shower" look with my daughter! I was waiting for DH to get out of the bathroom ;o}



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RUNNER12COM 11/29/2010 5:59PM

    Wow, you are going to ROCK that dress!


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SROUS1340 11/26/2010 2:32PM

    I couldn't wear the pants yesterday that I wanted to wear-too tight to wear and eat-sure did remind that I don't want to keep eating like I did this past weeek for the next 4. Stay focused on the dress. That's a great way to get you thru the helladays!

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POOKAQUEEN 11/26/2010 9:18AM

    I LOVE the dress! That is super cute!
YOU CAN DO IT! Stay focused, stay strong!

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_COSMOPAULATAN_ 11/26/2010 8:51AM

    Congrats on all you have accomplished! That dress is gonna look HOT on you!

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JILLIANPRNCSS 11/26/2010 7:42AM

    You need to be proud of where you came from and not dwell on these little bumps on the road. Drink lots of water and move on. You will make it up.

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-POOKIE- 11/26/2010 5:27AM

    Your legs sure are looking good!

I love the dress too!!

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BRIAEL 11/26/2010 12:10AM

    You're worrying too much, Erin. You have fabulous legs and that dress will be fitting perfectly soon.

Call it a Splurge Day and start afresh tomorrow. Thanksgiving is a time that most of us fall off the waggon. Hard to resist when it's cold, there is gorgeous food on display everywhere, people are talking food and you are part of society. You're doing good ... one day will just delay you, not harm your goals. :)

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TEENY_BIKINI 11/25/2010 11:33PM

    Great legs, gorgeous. You should be proud. I'd show them off too!

I think you are doing a great job, have picked a gorgeous dress and you will look mah-velous on New Year's. I am sure.

You are rocking this thing. Congrats so far!!


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"I think I am in my head too much sometimes."

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Today I have been thinking about the last month, and thinking..."What the hell is wrong with me?????"

Okay, that was a bit much, I know, but seriously....I do wonder what is wrong with me sometimes. It is almost as though I am letting myself go, but when I try to pinpoint things, it isn't helping. I was looking back at other blogs I wrote back in May and from that point on, and these quotes stuck out for me:

"If it only took working out to lose weight, I would be a machine!"

"I can be so hard on myself. I just SO badly want to be at my goal weight before my 30th birthday, and I know that I can do it....if I really am focused on my weight loss from here on out. I am so deathly afraid of a plateau that I take EVERY step I can to avoid it like the plague."

"One good decision leads to another, just as one bad decision can lead to another. I know that I am in control of each and every decision I make."

"The busier I am, the better I do on my journey to lose weight and be healthy."

"I think I am in my head too much sometimes."

I have been still pushing myself pretty hard on a fitness level, though I feel like such a slacker on running. I have been running about 8-10 miles a week at the MOST. On average, though, I have been running between 3-4 miles 2 days a week. I have also been spinning twice a week, doing ST, going on the elliptical for an hour at least 2-3 times a week, walking as much as I can, and trying to fit in extras here and there (crunches/core work, circuit interval training and bootcamps). But I feel like I could do MORE and I SHOULD be doing more. Like Jill at Weight Watchers said...if your body is used to a certain level, you should push yourself to do more.

But, should I be focusing so much on my fitness? I sound like a broken record, but my eating is what I feel is such an issue. I did 100% fantastic for so long, and this last month I have just allowed myself so much wiggle room on my intake. Pizza here, ice cream there, Taco Bell, Subway, Chinese food, Mexican food. So many of the things I didn't really let myself have over the last 14 months or so. I rationalize it so well, too.

My excuses/justifications/rationalizations? "I am pretty much at goal weight, so I can afford to maintain through the holidays." "I have worked so hard for so long, I deserve a treat!" "Oh, I burned over 1300 calories today." "I will be hardcore after Thanksgiving."

That last one feels like a joke, since on Thanksgiving, I have these plans in place: 6:00 a.m. spin class, 8:30-10:00 class consisting of spinning, kickboxing, and Pump-It, followed by a 4-6 mile run outside, but on the treadmill if the storm hits us. Then, I plan on no dessert (they are all pies anyway and I am NOT a pie fan) and also I am planning on sharing my plate with my daughter. So really I am feeling pretty good about Thanksgiving.

Why is this happening to me? Why in this last month have I lost my mojo for eating right?! Where is my portion control?

Also, it seems like the day before my Weight Watchers weigh-in, I have the craving for bad food and usually give in to it, so then my weigh-in feels super sodium loaded, but that is no excuse!!!

One month ago today, I weighed 161. This morning I weighed 163.4, but last week I was 159.2. It is like I am all over the place and don't know my real weight right now.

Argh....see what I mean? I am just all over the place in general and feel like I am randomly rambling about crap.

I know that I should know "everything" by now that I NEED to know about this process...but if anyone has any insight, that would be MUCH appreciated. Even to have someone just level my thinking here, that would help too ;o}


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JILLIANPRNCSS 11/25/2010 6:58AM

    I did the same thing this summer. I allowed myself those things that I have craved for the past year. I had 3 months of fighting it and being mad. Then I let go had my 2 weeks of not a care. Then summer was over and I faced the reality of gaining back 6 pounds. Now I am able to refocus and get back into the groove. Perhaps you should try for a week to just not care which will give you that motivation to get back on plan and you get it out of your system.

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    I think that part of the issue could be from something you said:

"I did 100% fantastic for so long, and this last month I have just allowed myself so much wiggle room on my intake. Pizza here, ice cream there, Taco Bell, Subway, Chinese food, Mexican food. So many of the things I didn't really let myself have over the last 14 months or so."

Maybe you were too rigid in the now that you're closer and wanting to add things back in you're adding TOO much back in, too soon. Honestly, pizza, ice cream and Taco Bell aren't all that awful on their own, but you're eating them all more often...if you went for months without ANY of them, and now you're eating a lot, that WILL have an effect.

Maybe you should plan your meals for the week, and plan for one of those splurges...just one...each week. Then, you'll have it to look forward to and won't feel so tempted.

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-POOKIE- 11/23/2010 1:42PM

    have to agree witha previous poster that some of your food issues will be subliminally not your fault, we are totally bombarded this time of year, I have noticed it myself, Im not even a big fan of chocolate bars, but I STILL had one at Halloween, then finished it the following weekend... its all playing with us.

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BRIAEL 11/23/2010 1:00PM

    It's the holiday season .... food advertising gone crazy, everyone discussing what they're planning for Thanksgiving, organising who is going where to celebrate Christmas and food images are being thrown at us from all directions.

You'd be superhuman if you could resist that ALL the time. I know that it's causing me some mental issues, too! :)

One thing I can say is that since I spend less time in my own head, I do a lot better in managing myself. If you feel like you're overwhelming yourself, then call someone, or go out. Anything rather than get into that destructive mental loop.

I have faith in you, Erin. I know you can work through this one. :)

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PARTICLEGIRL22 11/23/2010 12:24PM

    I dont have an answer but you are not alone with the food vs exercise thing. I know I sabotage weight loss with food. I can work out all day but I'm constantly rationalizing treats and splurges. I know they are preventing me from losing more weight. You are not alone, but if come up with an answer, let me know!

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RDARLING 11/23/2010 12:20PM

    I truly think most of your issue is the food intake. Even if you are sticking w/in your calorie range but not eating the RIGHT kinds of food you are sabotaging yourself. The last few pounds are the hardest so you really have to have your ducks in a row to make it happen.
I've been with/in 7 lbs of my goal weight for months now and I know for a fact that it is a combination of things for me. Not eating well one week, not exercising enough another week, etc.

I do know this....

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SROUS1340 11/23/2010 12:13PM

    I can't tell you why Erin, I'm experiencing the same kind of pattern myself. I'm 10lbs from goal and have been for 2 mos now. I'm eating looser, more, exercising less, I don't know why but I've been here before. I'm still focusing on healthy lifestyle, just having trouble kicking the weight loss thing back into gear-and I'm so close!

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