Thursday, October 28, 2010
I am dog sick today (and was feeling it come on yesterday). Sinus infection. I don't do well with those. Especially when you add in the swollen throat. And the sinus headache.
My eating the last two days has been HORRIFIC. As in, I can't seem to get enough bad food in me horrific. I'll give you a recap:
Lunch ~ I ordered 2 double cheeseburgers, a medium fry, and a cookie dough pie slice at BK. They accidentally charged me for and added in my bag an extra double cheeseburger. I ate it all. Felt gross.
Supper ~ I ordered a medium 2-topping pizza from Pizza Hut (pepperoni and mushrooms). I ate just over half. Gave the rest to DH when he got home.
Dessert ~ Ordered a large DQ ice cream cone. Shared it with my daughter. By share, I mean I ate 95% of it and she had the remaining 5%.
I did well for breakfast and lunch, but then went on to have Subway for supper. A footlong Seafood Sensation. And 3 white chocolate macadamia nut cookies.
Oh, and then I made myself mashed potatoes later on last night.
So, to recap:
It's as if my body and mind are rebelling against the fact that I am close to goal at Weight Watchers and I am now sabotaging myself with being sick as my excuse!
I have my food mapped out for today, and I am drinking water while popping Sudafed and eating grapes.
*sigh* I just really need to snap out of this funk, and I think I am posting this madness....this gross display of pigging out on horrible food...for encouragement. I know what I need to do. I do. But I need to hear it, too. That does help...
Ugh...now I feel nauseated. Sick? Or just the nausea that comes from too much...shame?
ETA: You all ROCK at getting me going....I think one thing I need to do is sign up for a race. I haven't been running much since the half, and I need to get back into it! Also, you're all right...I need to take care of myself and understand that I am human, and this will happen. But, it doesn't need to continue, right? Right.
P.S. Pookie, I want your wooly boots.
Monday, October 25, 2010
OK, so I just want to say that this week has not been "perfect" when it comes to eating. I had a couple of days where I had high-sodium foods (Thai food, Japanese, etc.) and I came to the conclusion that there would be no way I could possibly lose 1 pound to reach my goal weight this week.
Well, I had to try my hardest to get there for tomorrow....and here is what I did:
21 miles of spinning (55 minutes)
2 miles of walking (30 minutes)
7 miles on the elliptical (65 minutes)
4 miles running on the treadmill (45 minutes)
Total of 34 miles of cardio in 195 minutes.
15 minutes of ab class
30 minutes of upper body ST
And I am spent.
Friday, October 22, 2010
My Vision Statement:
I want to get fit/lose weight because:
1. I want to be healthy.
2. I want to be a role model for my daughter.
3. I want to be able to shop normally, and not feel the disappointment of not being able to try on clothes in a favorite store because they don't carry my size.
4. I want to be able to do things that don't cause me to be fatigued, short-winded, cramping, and just overall hurting because of my weight and deconditioning.
5. I want to look in the mirror and love my outside equally as my inside.
The hard work and effort to accomplish my goal is worth it because I deserve it! Because I am doing this, and this hard work brings so many positive things to my life: Happiness, energy, less overall generalized pain and achiness, pride, a better self-esteem, confidence, and an overall radiance to myh life.
What do I want my life to look like in 10 years?
I want to be finished with college and be in my career as a pharmacist. I want to be a marathoner. I want to be involved in my daughter's life and her hopefully many activities. I want to be taking a yearly vacation with my husband and daughter, most likely on a beach somewhere, and enjoying every relaxing minute of it. I want to be feeling as youthful, or even more so, than I did in my 20s. I want to be HAPPY.
What would my ideal days look like?
My ideal days would be, like now, getting up at 5 to go to the gym as I look forward to that fresh start!! I would be getting home afterward to get ready for work, wake my daughter for school, head to work, have a great productive day at the pharmacy I'd be working at, choose to have a happy day, use my lunch hour to get some work done because you bet it doesn't take a full hour to eat lunch, right? I would come home, get a healthy supper ready (most likely made earlier in the week for reheating to save time), spend time with my family, make sure the homework has been done, and reflect on my day while meditating before heading to bed.
What else (besides my weight) needs to change within my and my life to help me get from where I am now to where I want to be?
I need to change a negative attitude to a positive attitude and NOT obsess about things sometimes. It can be a quick road to going back to old habits when I start getting down on myself for not being 100% perfect.
And here are some pictures to keep me inspired to continue on my journey to being healthy, fit, and happy:
Me and my husband, May 2008, 250 pounds:
My daughter's baptism just over 1 year ago, September 27, 2009, 260 pounds:
Kaylee (6 months) and me, unsure of weight, but approximately 225 pounds:
Mid-April 2010, 206 pounds:
June 2010, 195 pounds:
Progress picture at around the same time:
July 2010, 180s:
August 2010, 170s:
September 2010, 169-ish:
October 2010, 165:
And that progression? That is my motivation. For this 1/11/11 challenge, when I am feeling down on myself, I will look at this vision statement, read my goals, and look at my pictures. I will then see why this is all worth it!
Friday, October 22, 2010
Well, the trip was very successful, for shopping and walking anyway!
On the way down (the trip is about 4-1/2 hours long), we stopped halfway to have lunch. We went to McD's (oooh bad). We split a #2, which is a 2 cheeseburger meal with medium fries and a medium drink. We shared a Diet Coke, I had 1 cheeseburger, and I had 6 fries. I was pretty happy with how I did there.
We got down to Albertville, and had previously decided to just hop into the shopping outlet mall since It was too early to check in at our hotel, which was RIGHT behind the outlet mall (yay for being so close!).
We spent the next 5 HOURS walking from store to store and browsing quickly, making mental notes, and really not actually purchasing much. At the Gap outlet store, I did buy 3 tops for $15, which was pretty good. At the Kitchen place (forgot the last name of it) I got a cake pan with a cover for $4! A Very nice one, too.
We stopped at Wilson's Leather store and I seriously tried on about 25 leather jackets. HEAVEN!!! I was so thrilled with how they all looked on me. So hard to choose! We decided to mull on it over dinner later.
I tried on SO many dresses at Dress Barn, probably 25 of them! I will say right now that not ONCE did my husband complain during this process. I still can't believe he spent 5 hours in a row shopping with me, plus 4 more hours of shopping later last night, and 3 more hours this morning! I LOVE HIM!
Okay. On with the recap. I will be missing some details because I don't want this to become a seriously long novella. After walking what seems like forever to the end of the first part of the shopping district, we decided to head on back to our car (which was located what seemed like miles away at the Nike store)! We needed to check in to our hotel and get ready for dinner.
Getting to our hotel, the first thing I notice is the contraption at the front desk with the Otis Spunkmeier logo on it filled with White Macadamia nut, oatmeal raisin, and chocolate chip cookies. I said no...didn't want to spoil dinner. Very happy with how the hotel was (Country Inn Suites)....big room, very spacious, nice king-sized bed.
We went to dinner at Hong Thai. We had never tried Thai food before, and our choices were limited to a pizza place, a Mexican restaurant, Subway, and a Chinese buffet place. The other choices were things we could eat at home, and as we don't have any Thai restaurants, we thought we would give it a try.
Oh, looking over that menu we got SO nervous. So many herbs and sauces we had never ever tried before, including curry, basil, lemongrass. Corey went with something that sounded safe, Beef and broccoli stir fry (with onions). I went with something a little different, basically a sweet and sour stir fry with shrimp. This included green and red peppers, onions, cabbage, tomato, and pineapple. Yes, pineapple.
OH. MY. GOD. It was SOOOOO good. And the portion was perfect. It wasn't too heavy, and came with a scoop of rice on the side. I ate every last bit of it and just LOVED IT. Corey's was fabulous, too, but the flavor in my dish was..yum.
Okay. So, we went straight back out shopping at 6 because we still had a lot of ground to cover including Banana Republic, Tommy Hilfiger, BCBG Max Azria, Anne Taylor, Calvin Klein, Gourmet Chef, GapKids, Children's Place, Gymboree, Carter's, Lucky Brand Jeans, Columbia, Kenneth Cole, New York something, etc. etc. etc.
I got a new pair of jeans from Lucky and a shirt, some clothes for Kaylee, and tried on so many more clothes. Oh so fun. :o} I just had a blast trying on jackets!
We finally got back to the hotel at around 10 p.m. Oh, and I was STARVING again at this point. Obviously had way too much walking in, plus I had gone on the elliptical for over an hour and ran for 2 miles before we even took off out of town. I went from wanting Burger King to wanting Jimmy's Pizza (a local pizza place right across the parking lot from our hotel) to wanting Subway, to finally having Baked Lay's chips and a few Twizzler's from the vending machine instead. Crisis averted, as 200 calories is a HECKUVA lot better than pigging out on pizza (and we even walked in there to see their menu...talk about a close call!).
Got up the next morning, and went back to do the final shopping. At Wilson's I ended up getting the jacket I really wanted. It is super heavy but so PERFECT for winter. I will have to get a picture of me in it tomorrow and post it. I LOVE IT! I also got a pocketbook thingy, a new belt (the other one is too big) and a faux-crocodile blood red handbag.
Ummmmm....we then headed back and stopped in Fargo to do some more shopping (ridiculous, right??). We spent about 3 hours shopping there. Did I say I love my husband? He helped me try on 12 more dresses in JC Penney's, zipping me up and helping me unzip!
Okay, I will not go into more shopping detail, but though my eating was not as perfect today (a larger breakfast at the hotel consisting of eggs, English muffin, a piece of French toast, sausage, and a bagel....lunch consisting of a slice of pepperoni and mushroom pizza and a breadstick at the food court in the mall but dinner being only grapes), I am very happy with how I did. I did have times during these 2 days where I got a bit down on myself for my cravings and wanting to eat so badly, but overall I had such a blast and seeing myself in the mirror as I tried on outfits in size 8, 10, and size medium to large (depending on the store), I felt beautiful.
Here are a couple of pictures Corey snapped of me while playing with the camera's settings...we are SO BAD about taking pictures:
Getting ready for round 2 of shopping:
Looking at the sea of stores :o}
And one of me driving for the fun of it...
Now, off to bed. Gotta get up to run in the morning with the group!!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Hehe...Kaylee is trying to add on poundage!!!
Okay, so I did it this morning. My weigh in at WW yesterday in clothes at 5 p.m. was 161 even, so I did get my 100-pound medallion (I started there at 261, having lost 25 pounds on my own). I was really excited and happy...the leader of our group was crying (Oh, I love you, Jill!) and I was nervous as I talked. I don't think I made any sense to anyone in the room, and of COURSE this was the day the room was PACKED and even people standing (probably about 40 people or so).
So, it was nice knowing you 160s, but I now have a new friend, and her name is 150s!!!
Thought I would post a scale picture since I needed to have some proof for myself LOL.
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