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Summary of the last 5 days (Corset Pic included)

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Okay, I will try to keep this short, but this is for myself first and foremost as something to read in the future and remember what it feels like to go back to old habits, even for a day or two...or three.

Friday, September 3:
Nutrition: I ate very well, watching my intake and writing everything down.
Fitness: I did a spin class followed by Pump It (strength training) for a total of 45 minutes. Walked the dog for 2 miles total throughout the day.
Grade for the day: A

Saturday, September 4:
Nutrition: Oh boy. Day started out great with me having 2 portions of cereal (Peanut Butter Crunch) with the reasoning for the double portion being I was going on the road for 5+ hours and didn't want to feel hungry. I then had a snack of red grapes during the drive down. We stopped at the halfway point for lunch for my daughter (bits of a nonbuttered, nonsalted soft pretzel) and Subway for my sister. I had green grapes for lunch. I then had 10 Chocolately Chip Teddy Grahams for a snack. While at the Southdale Mall, I scoped out all of the restaurants in the food court. I was not impressed with the offerings, and smelling the Subway in the car for 2-1/2 hours turned me off to that. I ended up having PF Changs with my family and daughter. I had 1 full plate with a lot of space in between each choice, and a few bites of my daughter's meal. What specifically did I eat? Garlic Shrimp with Snap Peas and Broccoli, Chicken Fried Rice, Beef Lo Mein, and Beef with Broccoli. I had Diet Coke with this.

Fitness: None, unless you would like to include walking in the Southdale Mall for a few hours in Edina, Minnesota (which is hard to calculate, because most of it was window shopping).

Grade for the day? B-

Sunday, September 5:
Nutrition: I started off the morning by having a banana. We then went to the Renaissance Festival. My God. The food! The horror! I may as well just put an itemized list here in the order I ate them and the portions:
1. Soft Pretzel (2 bites, rest went to my sister, mother, and daughter).
2. Turkey Leg (Ate half, was grossed out by the amount of gristle and fat, and gave the rest to mother).
3. Breaded Mushrooms with Ranch dip (Had 3 of them, gave the rest to my brother).
4. Pepperoni Pizza (had 4 bites and threw the rest away).
5. Beer Cheese Soup in a Bread Bowl (ate 3 spoonfuls, 1 bite of the bread, and the rest went to my mother).
6. Vanilla Almond Cupcake (had 1 bite of it; it was my sister's).

On the way home for the 5-hour drive, we stopped at the halfway point for dinner. We went to McDonald's. I had the Mushroom and Swiss Angus Burger with a medium fry and medium drink (which was Mello Yello, egads).

Fitness: Besides walking through the Festival for about 7 hours? Not a thing.

Grade for the day? D (would be an F if I had thrown portion size maintenance out the window).

Note: I did say no to a lot of things, like the Cheesecake Factory cheesecake my brother and sister bought after the PF Chang's meal (Godiva, Red Velvet, and Oreo). I also turned down the donuts (glazed mostly) that my parents bought for breakfast.

Monday, September 6:
Nutrition: I started out with grapes before taking off on a 7.17-mile run, which went as well as could be expected with a lot of wind, being chilly, and no music. I had a decent lunch that included a ham and cheese sandwich and soup. I had more fruit, and then the evening struck. I had pickles, tomatoes, a Skinny Cow ice cream bar, grapes, and then a bowl of Captain Crunch. I was a bottomless pit last night!!!!!

Fitness: Well, the 7.17-mile run was my fitness for the day. I did walk the dog once for 1.5 miles and did various walking throughout the day with my husband and daughter.

Grade for the day? B-

Today, Tuesday, September 7:
Nutrition: Oh, it started out very good again. I had a banana before hitting the gym. I then had a bit of a situation hit. My daycare lady had to cancel daycare for the day because her brother had a heart attack, so I took the time off work and was spending it with my daughter. Today's my weigh-in day for Weight Watchers, and I tend to not have food after 10 a.m. since I have done that since I started weighing in on Tuesdays in September 2009. It is a consistency thing, and I feel reflects my true weight loss. I am able to do that with focusing on my work and keeping busy. Well, with my daughter I am busy, but I am also making sure she has her breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, snack, etc. so I am constantly seeing food...and wanting food. I COMPLETELY DERAILED TODAY, and this is the reason I am pouring everything out in this blog. The last few days? Sure, cause for a bit of concern food-wise, but nothing that was really that bad considering the circumstances. Today? I need to reevaluate things. Here is what I had after I told my husband I was NOT weighing in today (I used a flimsy excuse...that he needed to fix something on the roof after work and so I needed to just stay home and watch Kaylee). I also got out of running with the runner's group, but that actually was legitimate...I will explain in the Fitness portion of today. So, here is what I ate in the same order I ate it and the portions of what I had:
1. 10 Teddy Grahams (these are a snack for my daughter. Why am I eating these?).
2. 1 can of Chicken Vegetable Soup (which is actually pretty good calorie-wise, but a sodium bomb) and a grilled ham and cheese sandwich (made with regular bread...oh boy, but 1 slice of cheese and 2 thin slices of deli ham).
3. 2 hours later....a Nachos Bell Grande from Taco Bell. Yes, the LARGEST nachos they have. OMG. I felt sick after eating this. And get wasn't good. It was very gross actually. Yet I ate every last bit of it.
4. 1 cup of green grapes.
5. 1 Skinny Cow ice cream bar (Truffle bar...White Mint YUMMMM).
6. Dinner: Little Caesar's Pepperoni Pizza ~ 2 slices.

OMG. I felt and still feel SO BLOATED.

Fitness: Tried my FIRST EVER Zumba class and LOVED IT!!!! My shins, however, HATED it. My plantar fasciitis? It is yelling at me right now and has been all day. I did 25 minutes on the elliptical, walked around a few places with my daughter, and did a 1-mile walk with my dog. I planned on running with the running group tonight, but my legs and foot hurt so bad, I backed out. A part of me feels like I made an excuse, but the logical part of me knows that I am not pushing myself and therefore lessening my risk of an injury that will hurt my chances of doing my best at the half marathon I am hopefully running in a month.

Grade for the day: D (would be an F if I didn't work out).

So, there....I have written it ALL out. Every last bite I many of them. I am weighing in tomorrow morning with my husband (I think he is concerned, as well, that I am jumping off the wagon). I know it is going to be painful, but also that it will be a good starting point.

I had a conversation yesterday with my husband. I told him that I want to only lose 5 more pounds and stop. I am sick of losing weight. But, I am not happy yet with the way I look. I may not ever completely be happy with my body. I need to learn to live with it. By it, I mean the spare tire that has taken permanent residence around my midsection. If only I could wear a corset for the rest of my life! I kid, I kid, but seriously, here is me in the corset and blouse I spent $250 on, and spent the next 24 hours wishing I spent that money on a Garmin Forerunner and a new pair of Asics GT-2150 *sigh*

That is me on the right trying to breathe and instead feeling ribs crack :o}

And a couple of other pictures, why not?

My daughter and I at the entrance to the Renaissance Festival:

A try at taking a picture of me and Kaylee:

Here's to a new day tomorrow, and putting my health first, and really consciously taking control of what I am putting in my mouth. As you can see, I have no trouble with fitness. It is the food, and possibly the emotions or boredom behind it.

If you have read even part of this, I thank you!


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ELLABELLE66 9/8/2010 1:34PM

    Erin you look fabulous! Don't get too discouraged - maybe after these next 5 pounds try maintaining for a while. Then if you want to try getting lower then you can reevaluate! I know that you can do whatever you choose! Good luck and I am here for you

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ILIKECACTI 9/8/2010 6:55AM

    You look great! You know, I think you have a great attitude about all of it!! I totally understand about the food issues. I'm still struggling with my own, and it's so frustrating. I feel like, having been on this journey since April, my little progress is due to my food issues! But you're a great example to me of how things work!

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BRENDY_28 9/8/2010 2:16AM

    oohhh... corsets. love it!

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COLD_GOLD 9/7/2010 11:38PM

    I LOVE the corset!

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NOT_BIG_BONED 9/7/2010 11:12PM

    Btw, beautiful corset!!! And I hear you on the spare. I told my hubby I want to lose 5 more pounds and then I'm done too. I really think I'll never be happy with my body either. I'm happier, but with all the effort, it soul be nice to not have the hanging lower tummy.

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NOT_BIG_BONED 9/7/2010 11:10PM

    Man, did I write this blog. Seriously, it really is like I wrote this. Since Friday, my days have started out good too and then spun out of control. Today I'm back on track( knock on wood there are 2 more hours of today left). I don't know why I'm acting like a bottomless pit too. I feel like crap and am full but keep eating. Ugh, couldn't weigh in this week either. Good luck with your weigh in and getting back on track. A few slip ups don't matter as long as we pick back up with our good habits!

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RAINEMARIE214 9/7/2010 10:45PM

    I read the whole thing! Your weekend sounds like my weekend with the eating and fitness lacking, but you at least got your run in, and I am still trying to figure out when to get mine out (tomorrow definitely). But, these weekends happen, and as long as we can pick ourselves up and keep going forward, then its all ok. Because we need to enjoy life too!

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MADDEELOU 9/7/2010 10:39PM

    I read it all! =) Kudos to you for being so honest. My son's birthday weekend turned into a cake eating feeding frenzy for me. I fear this will not be a good weigh in for me. Hope your feet/shins feel better soon.

You have done so well. Don't beat yourself up, okay?


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HHI0901 9/7/2010 10:36PM

    You're welcome ;) have a great week!

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Curves? Yes, please!

Thursday, September 02, 2010

Today was a fabulous day, and it started out pretty boring. I worked, I ate my food, and yes I did run 6 miles this morning, but overall...pretty blah, like the weather (rainy and grey out).

Today, my husband and I had my daughter for the evening, which is rare. Either my husband is working 5-midnight or she is being watched by my mom. So, of course she has 6 teeth now cutting through. The poor little girl was SOOO fussy, so after dinner (pork chops and pasta with broccoli and carrots) we took her to Target first and walked around (while I picked out grapes). She was obviously wanting out of the cart and wanting to walk, so we went to the local mall where she could walk around (and see puppies).

So, all fun, right? Well, at the end we went into JC Penney's, and for the fun of it I decided to try on various jackets for the fall and winter. All of the peacoats and Columbia jackets I tried on were MEDIUMS! YAY!! And the leather jackets I tried on were large (they always in the past fit smaller than regular jackets.

I modeled them for my husband, and on the way home he said that I looked beautiful in the jackets, that I now have curves and a waist! It made me feel so good to hear him say that.

Oh, and one more thing. The last pair of size 12's that I can still "wear" are now too big for me and I am now completely feeling good and rocking a size 10!! I am getting close to a size 8, too, and that will be my absolute pinnacle!!!

Well, off to bed....despite my best intentions, I went to bed too late last night (11 p.m.) and just didn't get enough sleep.


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SCRAPPYLADYV 9/7/2010 12:48AM

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Compliments from the hubby mean so much!!

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RAINEMARIE214 9/4/2010 9:58AM

    Congrats! Sounds like a great evening!

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TANNERS 9/4/2010 9:38AM

    What an awesome day!! Congrats!!

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-SHIMMER-ANN- 9/3/2010 8:42PM

    What a fun day, congrats on the new size and curves!!

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IRISH_AGUIRRE 9/3/2010 6:26PM

  Fantastic! My hubby likes my curves, too. Congrats on making so much progress!

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MOVINITMORE 9/3/2010 1:44PM

    emoticon What a great feeling!!! I'm jealous and can't wait to be there too!! You keep me inspired. emoticon

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MADDEELOU 9/3/2010 12:31PM

    Woo Hoo!! Congratulations, Erin!

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KIMMAS82 9/3/2010 9:33AM

    Ended up being a pretty great day!! Congrats!!

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MUSTANGMISSY 9/3/2010 8:59AM

    Sounds like an awesome end to the day! You go curvy girl!

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POOKAQUEEN 9/3/2010 8:30AM

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That's awesome! Congrats!

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ILIKECACTI 9/3/2010 7:48AM

    Yay! Curves are great!!

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BRENDY_28 9/3/2010 2:03AM

    wow! great job on fitting to smaller sizes! emoticon

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SROUS1340 9/2/2010 10:54PM

    Sounds like you had a great evening Erin, congrats on the size shrinkage!

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And check-in for yesterday and today :o}

Wednesday, September 01, 2010

Well, yesterday I had my weigh-in at WW, where I went from 171.6 to 168.4, SO happy!!

All day long, I came up with so many excuses as to why I didn't feel like running with the Tuesday Night Running Group (i.e. my running partner who is slower like me wasn't going to be there, my shin was aching, I was hungry, etc. etc.). I even put a dress on for the weigh-in, so then I couldn't run! Five minutes before leaving, I changed into my running outfit, so then I would really WANT to run, and not have another excuse.

So, I did run, and ran 5 miles! I ran with Mike and Jeff, and they actually went my pace, which was nice. I felt really good, and had a nice dinner.

Today, I had a lot of fruit, a steak, tons of veggies, soup, and some fruit snacks :o}

I took a day off from running/cross training. I still walked, but throttled back on everything else!

So glad it is a new month!! I hope to do much better this month with my weight loss, but I will be happy with whatever happens as long as I give it my all! (or at least 90% LOL).

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BRENDY_28 9/3/2010 2:04AM

    good job! :D

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POOKAQUEEN 9/2/2010 8:21AM

    Good job doing the running after all! Congrats on your loss!

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    Yay!! Congratulations that's wonderful! Great way to start off the month!!

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ILIKECACTI 9/2/2010 6:49AM

    Great job! I need to take a lesson from you on fighting the deire not to run.

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-POOKIE- 9/2/2010 6:22AM

    Wonderful going!

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HALLORAN84 9/1/2010 11:14PM

    Yay for a new month! Let's make September the greatest yet in 2010!!! Congrats on the weigh-in, go you!!!

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September Goals

Wednesday, September 01, 2010


~ PLAN, PLAN, PLAN, PLAN my meals :o} This makes all of the difference in the world for my weight loss and sticking to my plan overall.

~ Continue drinking at least 8 glasses of water, more on days I run. Rinse and repeat ;o}

~ Try a new recipe every week to shake it up! It would be fun to try this!


~ Continue my Half Marathon training, bumping up to 4-5 days of training a week. My HM is on October 9th, so I hope to run a minimum of 80 miles!

~ Do the spinning class 2 days a week maximum.

~ ST 3 days a week, either via Cycle and Sculpt (Mondays and Wednesdays) or through Nautilus equipment.

~ Work in some form of core strengthening/abs work 3-4 days a week.

~ Take 1-2 FULL days off from working out so as to avoid overtraining/injuries.

~ Lose 10-13 pounds and get myself to my goal weight, or at least SO much closer!!

~ Run two 5Ks (September 11 and 12), an 8K (September 17) and hopefully, crossing fingers, I will run a sub-30 minute 5K!!!

~ Pay off my credit card.
~ Put in overtime if offered and I have the time.
~ Work on incentive pay and focus on my job, utilizing my time appropriately so I get paid more and have more production (especially since my review is coming up in November).

~ Be motivated to actually wear a sexy outfit for Halloween this year!! WOOHOO!!!

~ Try on a size 8 and have it actually fit this time :o}.

~ Buy a cute pair of undies every week to slowly replace my granny underwear!!

~ New leather jacket when I hit 160, which I absolutely WILL hit this month.

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POOKAQUEEN 9/2/2010 8:20AM

    Awesome goals! You can do it!

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ILIKECACTI 9/2/2010 6:51AM

    Love your goals! Especially the undies one :) That's so fun... great idea!

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    GREAT GOALS emoticon



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ASHLAU2403 9/1/2010 10:23PM

    I love your goals! It made me realize I need to work on my goals as well.

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Summary of August Goals

Wednesday, September 01, 2010


~ I planned my meals about 75% of the time, and this definitely has room for improvement.

~ Continue drinking at least 8 glasses of water, more on days I run. TOTALLY did this 100% of the time.

~ Try a new recipe every week to shake it up! Ugh...I so did NOT complete this!


~ Get back on track with my Half Marathon training, though modifying it to reflect 3-4 days of running per week rather than 4-5. I would like to achieve 60 miles of running this month!

I am seriously on track with my HM training, averaging 4 days of running. I ran 58 miles this month, which isn't bad considering I was out more than 1 week because of injury!

~ Do the spinning class 2-4 days a week depending on the run schedule. DONE!!!!

~ ST 3 days a week, either via Cycle and Sculpt (Mondays and Wednesdays) or through Nautilus equipment. DONE!!!

~ Work in some form of core strengthening/abs work 3-4 days a week. I averaged this 2 days a week rather than 3-4. ROom for improvement!

~ Take 1-2 FULL days off from working out so as to avoid overtraining/injuries. DONE!!

~ Lose 5-10 pounds!! Ugh..Not done. I lost 2.4 pounds this month, which is my lowest yet.

~ Run a 10K on August 17 and walk the 2-mile Stroll for Epilepsy with my daughter, my friend, and her son with epilepsy in Fargo on August 12.

I did the Stroll for Epilepsy, but didn't complete the 10K because I was injured at the time.

~ Pay off 1 or 2 credit cards. Not done, but we did refinance our mortgage, moving from 6.75% to 3.87% and from 30 years to 15!

~ Put in 5-10 overtime hours a week while offered if you feel able to achieve this. This wasn't offered as much this month since we got caught up!

~ Work on incentive pay (extra pay when productivity is higher than expected). UGH...My focus on my work was horrific this month. A TON of room for improvement.

~ Be motivated by the fact that you will be going to Miami, FL with another couple in February, and you want to be SMOKING hot in a monokini by then!!! (SIGH) We are NOT going to Miami in February after all (DH found out he won't be able to take the time off). We WILL be going to Fort Myers, FL, though after the marathon in May.

~ Try on a size 8 :o}. I did this, and it buttoned and zipped...AFTER sucking my tummy in like crazy!

~ Buy a cute pair of undies (thong?) every week. I didn't do this, mainly because sometimes I feel bad spending money on myself.

~ New handbag when you get under 170? I didn't have the chance to do this since I wasn't under 170 until a couple of days ago. I did buy myself a new handbag, though, a few weeks ago because it was on clearance ;o}

~ Buy that book. Oy...NOT done. I need this, though!

~ Realize that I am human, and try hard to reach and exceed your goals, but do NOT be discouraged when you falter...After all, you do work full time, you have an almost 13-month-old daughter, and have many responsibilities outside of this. :o} I feel I did a pretty good job of this!

Now, onto my goals for September!!!!

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POOKAQUEEN 9/2/2010 7:02AM

    Good job! You hit so many of your goals, you rock!

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