Friday, August 20, 2010
I read a lot of blogs today, and I noticed there were a lot of Sparkies today not noticing their progress, feeling discouraged, and feeling unmotivated, putting themselves down for a mistake, a splurge, a bad meal, not making it to the gym, not feeling like they did the best they could. Basically saying they weren't perfect.
After reading a lot of these, I realized something so important and so seemingly obvious: Those people...are me. We all have this happen to us, but it seems like we are so easily blinded by it.
It is so easy for me to put myself down, to feel the weight of my journey pressing on my shoulders and wondering how I can possibly keep going. But, if I was on the outside looking in, I am doing so well. I have come so far! I have accomplished so much. But, I am my own worst critic, and it seems easier to pick out my flaws than to look at the positives.
I learn something about myself every day. I also learn so much about everyone else when I read about their ups and downs. There were also a lot of blogs today about being grateful, and I need to make a point of doing that every morning to start out my day.
I absolutely CAN do anything I set my mind to. If I fail, I tried. I can't ask myself to do more than that!
If I can lose 116 pounds in 1 year...
If I can get up out of bed 5 days a week at 5 a.m. to go to the gym...
If I can be a fantastic mother and a loving wife, and love every minute of it...
If I can go from huffing and puffing while walking 1 block to running over an hour straight at a 6.0 mph pace...
If I can go back to college at 31 years of age...
Then I can do anything I want to do, and be proud of myself for accomplishing these things.
P.S. I'm sorry if this was all over the place...It is 11 p.m. and I definitely need to head off to bed!
Friday, August 20, 2010
Did I go to the gym yesterday morning and go on the elliptical as planned? Nope! I decided to take another rest day. I walked the dog for 2 miles total.
I had pancakes for dinner with my daughter instead of fish, but made sure that the calories equaled out (I had 3 small pancakes with 2 teaspoons of syrup for 8 points and so took away the peanut butter from one of my snacks). It was nice because then I didn't have to make my meal AND her meal.
I am still staying away from the scale, which is getting easier to do. I had to step on it yesterday at the doctor's office for my annual examination, but that doesn't count since it was at 2:30 p.m. and I had breakfast and lunch, and was wearing my clothes, which consisted of jeans and a t-shirt. One thing that torqued me, though, is that li'l miss prissy nurse (seriously, you would agree if you met her) did a shoddy job of doing my height. She had me stand facing her (fine), but then brought that thing down on my head really hard and SQUISHED it down! WTH??? So, instead of my usual 5 feet 6-3/4 inches that I am (I always just say 5' 7"), I ended up being written down as 5 feet 5-1/4 inches. What do I say, though, without sounding....whiny? So, I let it pass.
Then, my doctor came in. The OB/GYN who was supposed to deliver my baby, but was in Australia when I went into labor, but I saw him at least 10 times throughout the pregnancy and once at my postpartum visit. So, he DID NOT RECOGNIZE ME! And I am not so sure it was only because of the weight loss. He asked me questions that he should have known (like if I had children yet, if I was married) and then at the end of the visit he told me I need to work on losing about 15-20 pounds. I felt like clocking him upside the head, but hey...he is the mayor of Grand Forks after all.
Today's meal plan:
Breakfast: Apple Jacks cereal with milk (4 points) (yes, not quite as healthy as shredded wheat, but worth it!)
Snack: Apple with peanut butter (3 points)
Lunch: Carrots with 1 tablespoon low-fat Catalina dressing, and 1 filet of Alaskan pollock (5 points)
Snack: FiberOne bar (2 points)
Dinner: Pasta (Ronzina Smart Rotini) with Spaghetti Sauce (6 points)
Total of 20 points (goal is 23 points, but I try to have a 20-point day the day before a temptation day).
****Temptation day is tomorrow with the Christmas in August event at my grandparents house in Viking, MN. MANY family members, TONS of food, and I can guaran-damn-tee you that I will have no less than 10 of them trying to get me to eat their fatty as HECK food. I already had my godmother/aunt telling me about her flatbread with REAL butter that she wants me to have because it is so GOOD for diabetics and Weight Watchers followers. Liar.
Normally, I would be planning to run 8 miles before going, but since I can't run, I plan on doing the best I can with what I have, and just sticking to visiting as much as I can. I am also planning to wear my pencil-thin skirt and cute blousy top and so if I eat more than a few items, I will not feel good in that skirt. Hehe. (a trick by the WW leader...wear your skinny outfit and you will eat less guaranteed! Who wants to feel like their cup runneth over, so to speak?).
Ummm, so yeah. That should do it with the check-in :o} I am still going strong, and am feeling great. The focus is there 100%. I am also looking at future marathons that I may want to run (if I can prove to myself that I can do my first marathon next May).
Anyone have any suggestions for great marathons? You know what would be SO much fun? Running a marathon with YOU!!!
Toodles ~ Erin
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
I had a so-so day :o} I had a decent workout, but ate a few not so fabulous items, like Chef Boyardee Beefaroni and Easy Mac (my god, that is horrible!). So, I had much better food the rest of the evening, but had to eat much less because of it.
Lack of planning can sure make a difference, so I made sure I planned out tomorrow's meals. However, because payday is not until Friday, I am only going with what I have in the house, so not exactly the MOST well-balanced day ever and could use more fiber.
Breakfast - Banana, Oatmeal with Splenda/brown sugar and cinnamon, and 1 cup of milk - 6 points
Snack - Apple with peanut butter (3 points).
Lunch - Corn on the Cob with Chicken Noodle Soup (4 points)
Snack - Carrots and 1 cup milk (2 points)
Dinner - Alaskan Pollock with grilled asparagus and Baked potato (7 points)
Snack - Grilled onions and green peppers with 1 teaspoon olive oil (2 points)
Total points - 23/23
Oh, and I will be pushing my water intake tomorrow, hoping for 8 glasses of water on top of the milk. I will most likely have 1 glass of Diet Dr. Pepper, also :o}
I am planning on doing the elliptical for 45 minutes tomorrow morning.
Here's hoping for another great day, and I plan on rocking it!
Love you all!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Hi everyone -
Just a quick note before going to bed, but my weigh-in went EXCELLENT today. I lost 3.6 pounds, bringing me down to 170.6 :o}
I am over the moon about it, and so excited for my continuing journey. I realize my limitations, and am going to be heading to the gym in the morning to go on the elliptical and do my upper body ST. Yay!
Have a great night all :o}
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
I hurt my leg. Dang it!!!!!!!!! I know, it seemed like I was overdoing it, but such trivial things. I hurt my quad during a sprint, then rested it. I hurt it more dancing, but I drink maybe twice a year, got a nice little buzz (since getting drunk would require more calories, I didn't get drunk). I was out dancing, since the club we were at was ROCKING and the DJ was super awesome. I did a very "low" move and on the way up I felt a solid pop in my thigh. Not good. I still danced for another hour since I felt pressure to keep going (mainly by guys....lesson learned?). Here is a quick picture for you to see of me and my hubby...we are so bad at taking pictures with my camera:
Here is another one...more of a close-up (and less of my belly):
I spent Sunday relaxing/resting and actually feeling a bit depressed and let down about my injury and the fact that I knew I wouldn't be able to run the 10K that I had signed up for today. I know in my head that there are more important things (like the half marathon in October), but I just am such a competitive person. Who am I competing with, you ask? Myself. Me, myself, and I. I want to push myself further, test my limits. See what I can do! And this was the next step for me. Oh, well. Another 10K in the future perhaps! I guess another reason I am bummed is because a part of me feels....lazy for backing out. Like I am failing, or giving up. I need to work on this mindset. I can be such an "all or nothing" person, but thankfully I didn't let that derail me this weekend.
Not to say I was perfect. I did eat bad things. I did eat too much of some healthy items (granola bars, watermelon mainly). For the bad things, I had some McDonald's. I had the angus snack wrap (mushroom and swiss). That was so disgusting. The amount of mayo they added was grotesque. I threw it out after eating about half of it, so I had about 225 calories there. Not too bad....
I am nervous about the weigh in today. Such an up and down week, where the first 4 days were spot on with nutrition and fitness, and the last few were not so fantastic but not horrible.
I have been walking, though....I have said no to running and spinning for at least a week and then re-evaluate my leg after that. I will be doing the elliptical and upper body ST starting tomorrow. I have to remain somewhat active! I am also going swimming when I can this week.
I did play kickball for our league's first game yesterday, but I didn't kick or run. I played catcher and mainly outfield (in a spot that was only kicked to twice). I didn't feel worse after the game and felt better this morning, not sore. We won both games, 14-3 and 12-3, so that rocked!
What else....? I think that is it for now. I am sorry I didn't keep up with you all during these last few days, but I was kind of avoiding the internet and being a bit of a bummer....
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