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Monday, August 09, 2010

Yes, YOU...all of you!!

I am really moved by the support that everybody shows me, when I need it the most. I really was having a bit of a pity party last night and typed it out before I caught myself, but looking back, I needed to type it.

First, I am going to respond to those with advice/questions from last night's blog:

Beth (MADDEELOU): I am definitely going to cut myself some slack...I stress myself out so easily, and I know that hurts me more than helps me!

ILIKECACTI: I am hoping it is no more than water retention, but I think a couple of pounds may stick for a bit. What you said reminds me of a saying: Practice, not perfection...and I need to actually do just that!

POOKAQUEEN: I am definitely weighing myself too much. I am definitely going to track my portion sizes and plan ahead of time! I do eat in front of the TV and computer, and will be looking at not doing that, at least as much! Thanks for the encouragement.

BRENDY_28: Sleep is SOOOO important for me, so thank you for that! I am actually heading to bed again real soon. I hope sweets are off your mind by now...they are finally off mine :o}

POOKIEPUP: I am seriously going to look into this. I track my nutrition through Weight Watchers, and I go by the fact that I get 23 points a day. That being said, we are supposed to get 35 extra points to use a week on things that come up (weddings, etc). Also, you get activity points for when you work out. I never use either of these "extra points" and it may be hurting me. I will talk to the WW leader tomorrow about what I can do about this.

RAVENSONG37: Usually in the morning, I eat a banana before working out and then after I work out I have either a bowl of Life cereal with skim milk or I havfe more fruit (grapes, etc.). I will definitely add protein for after the workout and I will cut back the sugar :o} Thank you, sweetie, for always being there for me!!

BUBBABREN1, FLB.MMA, and MAMADWARF: Thank you for encouraging me, supporting me, and reminding me that I really can do it :o}

Okay, so this morning when I woke up, I went to the gym feeling pretty good. I did the spin class, which was awesome, followed by running 3.65 miles which felt even better. My eating went great today, lots of fruits, whole grains, skim milk, etc.

Then, I met up with the kickball league and we practiced (next Monday is the first game). It was 98 degrees and I sweated so much!!!! I ran a ton from base to base and loved every moment of it.

So, to close this long blog (when are my blogs ever short), I really appreciate all of your help, and I will always come here for my inspiration, for the kick in the butt that I need, for motivation, and above all..for friendship, because you are my friends and great ones at that.



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RAVENSONG37 8/12/2010 3:42PM

    Any time ladyface! You are always there for me too!!!

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BRENDY_28 8/10/2010 8:45AM

    Glad you're feeling better! :D Well... i thought the sweet cravings are already under control, but this afternoon, i got hungry and couldnt find a healthy snack. I ate a cup of strawberry ice cream. *sigh* 460 calories. The good news is I was able to work it in my calorie range. Tomorrow should be better. lol

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POOKAQUEEN 8/10/2010 7:59AM

    I'm so glad things are going better!
The kickball league sounds like the funnest thing in the world, I may have to look for something like that in my area.

You are doing so great, have fun with it!

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ILIKECACTI 8/10/2010 7:35AM

    This is such a great place to vent and express what's on your mind!! I know I have gotten tons of support here!

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-POOKIE- 8/10/2010 3:48AM

    I am SO glad you found support here, its really made me smile too knowing you have appreciated my comments... giving and recieving makes SP great!

That sounds like a wise idea to have a chat with your leader, perhaps they dont realise how much you do! Let us know what they think :)

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MADEMCHE 8/9/2010 10:41PM

    This is what SP is all about, doing this crazy journey together! Glad you reached out last night and got that advice and encouragement that you needed. Sorry I missed it! I will read it right now.

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Sunday, August 08, 2010

This feels like such a crazy thing to admit, but I have to admit it.

Forget the running, spinning, and overall fitness. I haven't had a problem with being motivated for that in a long time., food, food!!! I have been so hungry and have been grazing. I still am tracking everything, but not so much the portion of what I have been eating. I will eat a sprig of grapes here, have a skinny bun thingy with peanut butter (low fat) there. I crave SO many different things (pizza, doughnuts, cookies, anything with salt and sugar really)!

I got on the scale this morning, and though I know it is one of my high weight points of the week (Sat and Sun are), I was still so disappointed. On Wednesday, I weighed in at 168. This morning, 174. WHAT???? And this is the morning following the total of 7.25 miles of running and 3 miles of walking. I know there is something logical in all of this that can be easily explained, but sometimes I am just so tired of it being so complicated and my patience starts wearing out.

I try to tell myself that my body is a temple and I should really be focusing now more than ever on the nutrition rather than focusing so much on my training. It just seems like such a monumental task to do that sometimes. I wish I had about 30 hours in a day to get prepared, but I feel like I have so much on my plate already.

I go to bed at 9:30 (which is in 15 minutes, so I better finish this blog up!). I get up at 5 a.m., get dressed very quietly, eat a banana, drink water, go to the gym, spin for 30 or 45 minutes depending on the day, do any training I have on my calendar depending on the day, ST depending on the day, get home, get showered/dressed, get the baby fed, dressed, and load her up in the stroller and walk her to daycare (15 minutes for a walk there). I get back, make myself a bowl of cereal (usually Life), get more water, and then punch in at work (8 a.m.). I walk my dog for a mile on my morning break (10 a.m.), do something productive on my lunch hour (mow the lawn, clean, do bills, etc.), walk dog again on my second break (3 p.m.) and then I am off work. On Mondays, I am going to be doing kickball from 6-8. Tuesdays, I have Weight Watchers followed by running 3-6 miles with the Tuesday Night Runners Group. Wednesdays, watching my daughter. Thursdays, free. Fridays, watching Kaylee again. Then, Kaylee goes to bed at 8:30 and then I get dishes done, finish up laundry, set out my stuff, and go to bed and start all over.

Maybe I just needed to vent. I just wish I could get a tighter grip on my eating. I haven't hit a plateau, but I think I'll be headed to one here quick if I don't watch it! I really, really want to get to my goal by the time I run my first half marathon in October. If I go by being 168 last Wednesday, then I have only 13 pounds to go. If I go by what I saw this morning, I now have 19 pounds to go.

Argh, I think I am in my head way too much tonight. I am going to go to bed now~~

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MADEMCHE 8/9/2010 10:44PM

    I always weight more the day after I run, I know that my muscles retain water, but it still makes me mad. I can totally relate. Switch up your eating a little, try some new things, find something really healthy that you actually really like the taste of. And get motivated by cooking it different ways. That always gets me going! You are doing amazing, don't forget that. We are all here for you!

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MADDEELOU 8/9/2010 1:35PM

    emoticon I hear you Erin! Last week was a great exercise week. Friday-Sunday were not great food days but not totally out of control. Stepped on the scale this morning and up 4 pounds since Wednesday....UH?? I know it is not actually a 4 pound fat gain but it is still discouraging.

Don't beat yourself up. You did so incredibly well during the Biggest Loser challenge. Cut yourself a little slack and I am sure you will rock the next challenge too.

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ILIKECACTI 8/9/2010 7:46AM

    way to vent! these blogs are a good outlet for that :) perhaps it's nothing more than water retention, maybe? i too go up and down with my adherence to eating well. i think it's normal. you're not a robot- able to do everything in the plan to perfection. anyway, i wish you luck inthe food department. i know it's a struggle for me too!

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POOKAQUEEN 8/9/2010 7:27AM

    Maybe you are weighing yourself too much and giving the scale too much power. It's good to know how your body changes day to day, but don't let it control how you feel.
Given your lists of activities(wow!) I think you are getting plenty of fitness in, and I think you're right, eating is where you need to focus. Track everything including portion size and see if that helps.
Do you eat in front of the TV and/or computer? Those are the problem areas for me. Maybe you would be less likely to graze if you didn't allow yourself to eat in those places.
Stay strong, you are doing really well!

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BRENDY_28 8/9/2010 6:07AM

    sleep. tomorrow will be better. take it a day at a time. venting it out is good. i also have my ups and downs, have been craving for junk food ever since I came back from my trip... :( it's hard to gain control when I just keep on thinking of munching sweets right now... but it will get better... we can do it!

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-POOKIE- 8/9/2010 3:46AM

    And here is me sure I focus on my food way too much!

Perhaps though if you are training this hard you are not eating enough, or not at useful ratios for hard training. Have you got the levels you exercise plugged into SP so that it can calculate the correct level of calorie for you?

As too little can stall losses/cause gain.

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RAVENSONG37 8/8/2010 10:26PM

    Hey hun...this sounds natural. You are getting more advanced in what your difficulties are!! Here's a much protein do you get in the morning and how much sugar are you eating during the day? Starting the morning with protein is totally necessary. And sugar is addictive...the more we eat the more we crave...and the less we eat, the less we crave. You'll get through this!! Keep going...we're in it together!

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BUBBABREN1 8/8/2010 10:22PM

    Don't be so hard on yourself..... SOunds like your on the right track!! We all have days or even weeks where we feel hungry all the time! I know I sure do! But then I just get right back and start again..... I don't look back just forward!! Keep up the good work and Love yourself girlfriend!! emoticon emoticon

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FLB.MMA 8/8/2010 10:22PM

  you sound much more motivated than me. I haven't been exercising half of what I normally do and have eaten about three times as much as I normally would. Good luck, hang in there you can do it!!

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MAMADWARF 8/8/2010 10:21PM

    If you have to write it down, you will be more careful about what you are eating. WRITE it down, every dang bite for at least a week. You will be surprised how it adds up....

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August Goals

Sunday, August 01, 2010


~ Focus so much more on my choices for food. PLAN, PLAN, PLAN!!! My downfall is not planning and making poor choices based on my mood/stress that day. This is so very important to my weight loss, more so even than the amount of activity I do. I fully believe that weight loss/management is 75% food intake/choices and 25% fitness.

~ Continue drinking at least 8 glasses of water, more on days I run.

~ Try a new recipe every week to shake it up! This will be a focus since I know part of my problem is I am getting bored with the food I eat over and over again!

~ Get back on track with my Half Marathon training, though modifying it to reflect 3-4 days of running per week rather than 4-5. I would like to achieve 60 miles of running this month!

~ Do the spinning class 2-4 days a week depending on the run schedule.

~ ST 3 days a week, either via Cycle and Sculpt (Mondays and Wednesdays) or through Nautilus equipment.

~ Work in some form of core strengthening/abs work 3-4 days a week.

~ Take 1-2 FULL days off from working out so as to avoid overtraining/injuries.

~ Lose 5-10 pounds!!

~ Run a 10K on August 17 and walk the 2-mile Stroll for Epilepsy with my daughter, my friend, and her son with epilepsy in Fargo on August 12.

~ Pay off 1 or 2 credit cards.
~ Put in 5-10 overtime hours a week while offered if you feel able to achieve this.
~ Work on incentive pay (extra pay when productivity is higher than expected).

~ Be motivated by the fact that you will be going to Miami, FL with another couple in February, and you want to be SMOKING hot in a monokini by then!!!

~ Try on a size 8 :o}.

~ Buy a cute pair of undies (thong?) every week.

~ New handbag when you get under 170?

~ Buy that book.

~ Realize that I am human, and try hard to reach and exceed your goals, but do NOT be discouraged when you falter...After all, you do work full time, you have an almost 13-month-old daughter, and have many responsibilities outside of this. :o}

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ILIKECACTI 8/1/2010 11:45AM

    great goals! very inspirational!

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RLHOTAN 8/1/2010 11:20AM

    Good job! I like that you have added rest days! You are doing so well! You will be ready for your HM! And, look hot in that monokini!

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BRENDY_28 8/1/2010 9:46AM

    great goals! how you manage your time amazes me! lol. i couldn't have done better. good luck! :D

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CBILODEAU6 8/1/2010 9:10AM

  Good goals! emoticon emoticon

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Summary of July Goals....

Saturday, July 31, 2010


~ Track what I eat every day and strive to stay within my points for Weight Watchers every day, or use activity points if needed (this is a repeat from last month, but so VERY important for me, especially as I am running more and more).

As I look back this month, I did this 75% of the time, and I believe that has impacted my weight negatively (or at least neutrally) for 2 weeks. This will be my MAIN goal next month!

~ Focus on less fat, less meat, more veggies, fruits, and whole grains! (Again, a repeat, but even more important again!!)

I did eat more fruit and whole grains for sure. My veggie intake has increased, but could still do better. Less fat? Check. Less meat....? I still need to work on that. I am SUCH a carnivore!!!! I love red meat the most, though I tried to eat more chicken and less beef.

~ Continue drinking at least 8 glasses of water, more on days I run. Of course I did this!!!

~ Try a new recipe every week to shake it up! I really need to be doing this as I am gettin more and more bored with my meals...

Eh, I didn't do this ONCE. I am so stuck on eating what I know, and I think the key to this will be planning/preparing the night before or the week before.

~ Run 4-5 days a week and stay on track with the Half Marathon training, completing approximately 88 miles of running this month.

I had a mild flare-up of my plantar fasciitis in my right foot, so I dropped back and completed 50 miles of running this month. I did run two 5K's this month, which I am really proud of!

~ On 1 to 2 of the off day for running, do crosstraining with spinning or elliptical depending on how you feel.

Because I was not running much for the past 2 weeks, I reverted back to spinning 4-5 days a week, which really helped my cardio. I didn't go back to the elliptical as I would much rather spin.

~ ST 3 days a week, either via Cycle and Sculpt (Mondays and Wednesdays) or through Nautilus equipment.


~ Work in some form of core strengthening/abs work 3-4 days a week.

Ended up doing this 3 days a week, never 4 as the abs lady KILLED me each time and I waited until less sore before doing again.

~ Take 1-2 FULL days off from working out so as to avoid overtraining/injuries.

I definitely listened to my body this month, and because of this I am raring to go for August!!!

~ Lose 10 pounds (again, seems high, but this is always my goal every month and I am already down 7 pounds today, July 15, 2010).

I lost 8 pounds for the month of July, and I am VERY happy with that! Realistically, I am happy with 5-10 pounds for the amount of effort I am putting into it. I know that I am nearing the end of my weight loss, and that it will not come off as fast as when I was weighing 250+ pounds.

~ Run a 10K on July 17 and a 5K on July 31.

I ended up bowing out of the 10K on July 17 as my foot was really hurting, but I did a 5K on July 4 and another 5K on July 31 and ran them both as well as I hoped for!

~ Pay off 1 or 2 credit cards.

Nope, but still a goal, and not hard to complete as the balances aren't up that high.

~ Get my hair done with color and cut (hasn't been done since March).

I completed this last week :o} My profile shows my new hairdo.

~ Buy a new outfit.

Well, I bought 2 new dresses? Does that count?

~ Buy new shoes (already did this a few days ago, but it was during July!!).

I bought new running shoes, and a new pair of heels!

~ Buy myself a book to read.

I didn't do this, but will be soon as the new Nora Roberts book came out!

I am really happy with how I did this month. Could I have done better? Sure, but I am not perfect nor will I ever be :o} I can only hope to continue achieving what I set out to do, because it is all about practice, not perfection :o}

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BRENDY_28 8/1/2010 9:54AM

    i think you did pretty well. :D great job!

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-POOKIE- 8/1/2010 3:05AM

    Sounds great! You did well!

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NOT_BIG_BONED 7/31/2010 11:49PM

    Way to go! You have such good balance in your life. Love the positive attitude and the great loss

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MADEMCHE 7/31/2010 10:50PM

    You had a great month! Way to go! All of these are great goals and you did so very well in them, I am so happy for you!

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5K Race Report!!!! UPDATED with pictures!

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Whew, okay, so let's see if I can hammer a brief summary before the baby wakes up from her nap (I snuck one in, too):

The race was at 8 a.m. this morning. Beautiful day out, sunny and 70 degrees!! Got there hydrated and with a banana and a granola bar in my tummy at 7:50. There were 190 people there, which is a LOT more than on the 4th. I lined up farther back and there wasn't a chip, so I lost probably 10 seconds on my time. That's okay!

The horn went off, and I started going...I knew right away my pace was a bit much, but I kept it up since it was with the flow of the group I was running behind. I noticed right away, though, that the sun was DEFINITELY going to be an issue. The trail we were running was 25% shaded, and 75% in the open, so that sun was blasting me from the get-go!

Like I said before, I hadn't really had much running in the last 2 weeks, only a 3-mile run and a 1-mile run, so I was nervous about how I would do, how I would feel. I have to say, I felt stronger physically, but mentally I really had to push to keep running. I walked for 3 seconds at each water station (there were 2) but otherwise I kept running.

On the way back, I found my rhythm and kept with it. Mentally, I just told myself "run to that tree up there, run to that brick flood wall, run to that sign" and was able to keep it up.

I was about 1/4 mile to the end when I ran past the person who started the Red River Runners group, Stacy Kussler, and she yelled to me "Great pace, Erin!" That surprised me since although I'd found my rhythm, I didn't feel like I was doing as good/better than I had last time (when I had run it in 32:00).

That really got me going! I picked it up as much as my lungs would allow me, and when I saw the clock, I almost cried! I saw 30:10 on it!! By the time I got to it, the final time was 30:19, my new PR!!!!

I was a bit bummed because my husband hadn't brought my daughter out to see me finish this race, but I can't blame him since I told him not to worry about it and that I didn't expect them to be out there. would have made my day :o}

P.S. After the race, you get refreshments. I walked up to that table, grabbed a water, and scanned my choices. I almost laughed out loud at what i saw!! On the right side of the table were apples, bananas, granola bars....and on the left side, there were cinnamon rolls, glazed doughnuts, and the like. Seriously??? Like I even had to think twice on that choice. I grabbed a banana and a granola bar and walked away...quite amused. Maybe if I had run a marathon, but I am not going to ruin the calories burned in that 5K with a donut!!

Well, off to get ready for the fair and hopefully someone took a picture of me at the race? I dunno, but I'll look. I'll make sure people take pics at the fair and later tonight.


Here is a picture of me running in the beginning mile (I'm in the blue):

And here is me finishing up the race:

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MOVINITMORE 8/4/2010 1:06PM

    emoticon time. You rock emoticon. I haven't been on much and just had a chance to look at your blog. I am so very happy for you what a great feeling. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TRACIEO3 8/4/2010 10:22AM

    How wonderful is that, you made my day today and reminded me that I can accomplish anything when I put my mind to it. emoticon emoticon

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MADDEELOU 8/4/2010 10:11AM

    Way to go! You are emoticon

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BRENDY_28 8/1/2010 10:15AM

    30:19! great PR! :D what a great run!

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KILTGUY 7/31/2010 10:11PM

    Great time Erin! Good for you to push on at a fast pace and maintain it. Good choice on the post-race snack too!

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SROUS1340 7/31/2010 4:45PM

    Way to go Erin! and a banana at the end to boot!

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MADEMCHE 7/31/2010 3:32PM

    Sorry double post! But now I can comment on the photos, you look great!

Comment edited on: 8/4/2010 10:13:39 AM

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MADEMCHE 7/31/2010 3:32PM

    Way to go! So proud of you, a new PR is amazing!

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STRIVE4BALANCE1 7/31/2010 3:02PM

    Awesome job! What a great way to start your weekend!!! So when's the next race?

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VIRGINIAGRETA 7/31/2010 2:46PM

    Great job on getting that PR! Sounds like you really kicked it! LOL @ the snack choices... glazed donut vs. banana after just setting a PR... no brainer! emoticon

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