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Friday, May 14, 2010

Well, this morning was rough. I woke up with a scratchy throat most likely caused by our fan, and just not feeling rested overall. In the bathroom, while brushing my teeth, I thought of at least 5 excuses for not going to the gym and just crawling back in bed:

"My throat hurts....that workout will be tough as it is!"

"I went to bed at 10....I could use another hour of sleep!"

"I worked out Monday through Thursday and I could use a day off. I will just go tomorrow."

"I'll go on my lunch hour!!"

"My butt hurts (I did a spin class 3 days in a row this week and that was part of my workout this morning)"

But, by the time I finished brushing my teeth, I thought to myself, "Just weigh yourself. If you really like what you see, then by all means go back to bed. If you don't like what you see...then get it together and go to the gym, lady!!"

I jumped on the scale and, as expected as Friday morning seems to be like clockwork the day I fluctuate, I was up 1 pound from my Tuesday WW weigh-in. Yup, that did it!! I was ready and out the door 10 minutes later.

What I learned today was something that I read off another's blog, and that is MIND OVER MATTER along with just making the decision that is the right one for you. I would have felt horrible if I went back to bed. I would have definitely made up for it, but I would have regretted not going in the first place since the class I took this morning is only offered at 5:40 a.m. on Fridays and you have to sign up for it (very full class!). If I didn't make it, I sure would have felt guilty!

Oh, and it felt SO good! Twenty minutes of purely insane spinning directed by a screaming, yelling Amazon (I absolutely love her) followed by running around the track at a sprint, followed by 40 minutes of Pump-It (a strength training class that involves free weights, doing chest flies, dead rows, squats, lunges, tricep dips, and many other fun fun weight lifts!!). I then did 20 minutes on the elliptical to round it out, and went home a much more alert, happier, sweaty mommy!!

One good decision leads to another, just as one bad decision can lead to another. I know that I am in control of each and every decision I make, and I sure made a good one today. Here's to the start of a fantastic weekend, and hopefully a great weigh-in on Tuesday!

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ILIKECACTI 5/15/2010 10:00AM

    I think I have that conversation with myself every day :) Good for you for making the right decision! Good luck at your next weigh in :)

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KATTMAN 5/14/2010 11:17AM

    I had the same mental conversation with myself this morning! I also got my butt out the door. YEAH for us!

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PAMAPPLE 5/14/2010 11:11AM

    You are so motivating!!!!! It's awesome how you disregarded all of that negative self-talk, worked out hard, and felt better afterwards!!!! You will see the results of your effort in no time!

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NANCYANNE55 5/14/2010 10:46AM

    GOOD FOR YOU! Often times when I don't feel like working out I tell myself I'll just go and get started- I can quit if I want to. I always, and I mean ALWAYS finish my workout, because once I get there it just ain't so bad!

You are doing AWEsome!

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LUCKYNAT 5/14/2010 10:39AM

    Way to push through all that mental self talk. That is where I am right now, trying to change all that mental self talk.

Have a great weekend!

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PAYDAY10 5/14/2010 10:28AM

  Get Well and Keep up with the motivation thinking. It is worth it.

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My first blog EVER....

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Well, first of all, I track my food and fitness. Oh, I do that VERY well. But, after reading some of the blogs, I realized that I have never really put my thoughts down. Anywhere! That needs to change, since I know that a lot of my problems in my journey have related to internalizing what I am thinking, feeling, and that needs to stop.

Yesterday, I did my first outdoor 5K run with a friend. I am doing my very first official 5K on May 21 in Fargo, ND. I am so scared about it because it is an unknown to me. So, yesterday I was nearly sick to my stomach, because I don't believe I have what it takes to be a runner. I have plantar fasciitis in my right foot, but I try to keep it at bay. That's another thought on my mind. I can't grasp the concept of having to back off on my exercise routine if I really hurt my foot. That would be extremely detrimental to my weight loss.

So, I went at 7:00 p.m. The wind was fierce, about 15-20 miles per hour in the open area (of which there was a lot). We had a hill to go up on the way there and on the way back. And I finished in 39 minutes!!! I was so proud of myself. I would be so happy just to finish the official one in 45 minutes (which was what I registered at).

So, this morning I was sore, but my foot was okay. I went to the gym this morning and did spinning for 35 minutes followed by the elliptical for 25 minutes. Normally, I would have gone on the elliptical before the spinning, but I got up a bit late. Great workout. Guy next to me on the elliptical looked like Nigel Barker from ANTM. Made for a better workout!! emoticon

If it only took working out to lose weight, I would be a machine! But, it's eating that I have trouble with. I track points, I stay within my points, but there are days where I feel like I could eat everything under the sun!!

Also, I can be so hard on myself. I just SO badly want to be at my goal weight before my 30th birthday, and I know that I can do it....if I really am focused on my weight loss from here on out. I am so deathly afraid of a plateau that I take EVERY step I can to avoid it like the plague.

When it comes to support, I have a husband who is GREAT at supporting me, but sometimes it is hard to feel that from him because he doesn't understand my struggles all of the time. He has never been overweight, much less obese. He is 6'0" and 185 right now and was 160 when we met 10 years ago. Very skinny but for a bit of a belly! So, yeah..when I tell him of some of my past behaviors of bingeing on food, he looks pretty disgusted sometimes before he catches himself. I mean, I am disgusted, too, about it....but seeing that look sometimes makes me want to run to the nearest McD's.

So, back to work for now, but I will try to put feelings, backstory, etc. in a blog on here.

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LOVEMYKIDS874 5/15/2010 6:29PM

    I have found that if I blog it helps me remember why I am on this journey! Are you still with WW's? I have been on it for 5 months now. I have been doing well tracking on my own so I am going to do it with SP.

Good luck with your 5k's. I am walking/running one on June 6th. I somehow hurt my foot last June and since then it hasn't been the same, so most likely I will walk it. I need to be able to work out and can't afford to hurt it worse.

Good Luck to you next weekend! I will be thinking of you!

emoticon on your weight loss so far! You have done amazingly well!

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MARATHONMOM26.2 5/15/2010 2:51AM

    Blogging is a great outlet for feelings - doubts, fears, joy and all - and it brings a lot of support from those who read the blog - another plus. But even if no one reads it, what a great way to deal with things that doesn't involve food!

Congratulations on your 5k time, I think you're off to a great start and you will meet your goal! Try to let go of the thoughts that you aren't a runner... after all, you're doing it, right? So therefore you ARE a runner! emoticon

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FROMBABY2BRIDE 5/13/2010 4:59PM

    I love blogging and agree that this is a great outlet for all the emotional stuff that goes along with weight issues....

Best of luck and continued success!!

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ILIKECACTI 5/13/2010 2:29PM

    Yes! Keep blogging! It's a great outlet :) I'm subscribing to your blog so that I can be notified when you write one.

I totally understand about internalizing everything. And your husband sounds just like my husband.... very supportive but doesn't really understand all my issues b/c he's never been even overweight- he's very thin!.

And I must say that you are a workout machine! Holy cow... i wish i could do that! That's great that you signed up for the 5K. I don't have the guts for that yet. You rock!

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JENNY888 5/13/2010 10:42AM

    I am so glad you blogged. You are an inspiration to others and should be sharing. I look forward to seeing your progress and I know it will come. You are doing an awesome job!

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