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It's Going to Be a Long Road

Thursday, February 18, 2010

I have been away from Sparkpeople for some time now. It's kind of depressing, I had this sense of motivation and I knew where I needed to go. But then, my head got clogged with all the things I had to do, and the places I had to be at. I lost sight of what I needed, what I wanted, and how to get there. I realized that part of my problem was working 2 jobs which I felt blessed to have but cursed at the same time. I did not have time to do the things I wanted or needed to do. I didn't have a day to myself to do anything because a day off from my full time job, meant a days work at my other. The stress was overwhelming and I became so exhausted I would find myself going home and crashing on my bed, neglecting to take better care of myself.

I made the decision a week ago to put in my two weeks at my part time job. Its sad and I felt blessed to have two jobs because I know many people are struggling to have one. However, I am giving an opportunity to give a job to someone else, and in addition paying better attention to myself and making time to do what I need to do.

One good thing that I have done since I have been absent from the Sparkpeople (temporarily) is that I did sign up at the gym. Yes, I know, I never thought I would actually do it, but I made the leap. I know that I am one out of many people who feared the gym or at least was a bit intimidated. I felt like I would be the center of attention because I would be a new face, and a new body type. However, I realized that those thoughts were put in there by my insecurity and if I never overcome them, my insecurity and unhappiness could fester into something much larger than I can handle.

So, I got the courage to go to the gym, and I even bought new gym clothes to motivate me to go. When I got in there, I looked at the ground and walked to the girl's changing room. I put my coat on the hanger and turned my iPod on and walked back into the gym room and onto an elliptical where I started a very light workout. I didn't notice many people looking at me, and I realized most people looked at their televisions and/or listened to the music and focused on themselves. I felt relieved and more comfortable. I am happy that I made that decision, I now go on a 3 days a week basis, and eventually hope to increase it.

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TEGOCHU 2/18/2010 5:45PM

    That's too bad that you had to quit your part-time job, but you did it with your own best interests in mind, so good choice!

That's great that you joined the gym! :) I was self-conscious and worried about what people would think of me when I first started going, but I quickly found out that no really cares at all. You could be 120 pounds or 300 pounds, either way you're there to better yourself and exercise and I think people respect that! :)

Keep up the good work! emoticon

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Day 2-Not so hot

Thursday, January 21, 2010

So, today is day 2 and I started off really well. While I did get a corn muffin, it was a low-fat one and I was able to find out its nutritional value. I also had some orange juice to jump start the day. I didn't consume many calories for lunch either. However, I felt really lazy today and I cruised over to Boston Market for dinner. Bad idea, Erica! Bad Idea :(

All my calories were blown during dinner. While I am upset with myself, I have to look at this in a positive light. Never before would I have looked up these items I was eating and track them, or even care how much it was worth. I would look at the calories, but I wouldn't write them down. I realized that if I am going to get serious in losing weight I need to kick the fast food eating habit, which is so common for people around my age or people who have a hectic lifestyle.

I was looking through other people's spark pages and I found women who have been here for several years and are at their weight goals and look absolutely amazing! There was also another person's blog who touched my heart. She has been on here for 3 months and has already lost so much weight and I could see a bit of myself in her. I used to be a very skinny person and was always self confident. But, with time, I did gain a bit of weight and then after my car accident, I packed on the pounds faster than a blink of an eye. I never realized how fast it was to pack on the weight and how long it can take to take it off; but, that common phrase, " all good things comes to those who wait!" must be true, and I can tell you I can't hardly wait to get here, but I am going to have to learn to be patient.

It's going to be alright, I am learning and I will definitely make a healthier choice during dinner time from now on. No matter how tired I am to cook, I will not be stopping at a fast food joint or buy some sort of pre-made food for me to eat. And, of course... Drinking more water is a must! I did get one glass in... it's all I could manage today, but I will do better.

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JIBBIE49 7/8/2011 10:27PM

    I have read Scott Rigden, M.D.'s book "The Ultimate Metabolism Diet" as well, and find it very interesting. He treats PCOS and Insulin Resistance, which I have. I'm 61 and of course, in menopause, but I had PCOS until I was 25 & had my first child. I used CLOMID back then, but no one talked about diet being part of the PCOS problem. When I read his book I found it so amazing that I had nearly all of those symptoms. I wasn't fat back then, as I was ALWAYS on a diet to keep the weight off because I knew I could be fat. It wasn't until I was 41 & had my last child that I gain so much more weight.

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NOEL4KIDS 1/25/2010 12:05PM


I am 40 and have battled weight my whole life thanks to the PCOS. After lots of research, I've found the key is to eat low glycemic index. If you google it, you'll find lots of info. I also read the PCOS chapter in The Ultimate Metabolism Diet book by Scott Rigden M.D. It changed my life and the weight is coming off easily with very little effort on my part--NO CRAVINGS. Check it out. I've lost 54 pounds in 17 weeks.
Keep going til you find what works for you!!!!


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LARREIKI 1/22/2010 8:17AM

    The first step to making changes is awareness. Good for you and keep at it. We are all here to support each other.

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Day 1

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Today is day 1, day 1 that I have decided to make a promise to myself that I will change the way I am living. It was kind of a rough start today putting in my substitutes meals in and realizing that the cookie I had as a lunch snack actually cost me 620 calories! This is definitely a learning experience, but a good one. What I am finding out today is going to help me as I continue on my journey to lose weight. I am sure that there will be points where I set myself back, but the point is, is that I am trying and its better than not doing anything.

I am really excited to start this and seeing the results. I have seen and read other people's blogs and I realize that the feelings I feel and the experiences I have or still currently, are also felt by other people. I feel like a lot has been lifted off my shoulders and I found where I need to be. This new year, I have made a promise to make me better. There is always a reason for second chances, and I am willing to give this lifestyle change a chance!

Best luck to everyone!

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SLVD73 1/21/2010 1:59PM

    I am just starting this too!!! I'm just really doing my food tracker right now, but hope to get on board with the fitness tracker pretty soon. It's so eye opening to see the calories in things that I would normally just eat and not think about. Good Luck on your new journey!! We can do this! emoticon

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FUNKYGLITTER86 1/21/2010 6:01AM

    I'm new to this too. There is really good information on this site! I am obsessed with reading the articles.

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LESLIE522 1/21/2010 12:44AM

    Today is really my first day too! *high five* We can do it!!

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