Friday, March 05, 2010
March 5, 2010
Hello to everyone! Yesterday's excitment is still going strong, I was very disciplined yesterday, I ate only what I was supposed too, and I was satisfied with that, I didn't need any sweets or anything fatty. I was so good, I'm very proud of myself!
Eating clean actually makes me feel less bloated (or not bloated at all these past two days!) and this feeling is what makes me not crave these, otherwise very tempting, foods. I'll try to keep up the good work. On the 22nd of April my company participates in an EXPO and I want to look my best by then. I think I have just enough time to lose a couple pounds of fat-weight and maybe gain some muscles.
I don't care that much about the number on the scale, I want to see some definition on my body and feel better with myself. Lately my self esteem was below zero, I didn't feel confident and I was also very disapointed in me because I wasn't disciplined and I wasn't honest with my self.
But guys, this feeling of not being bloated after so many months is awesome!!! I know I haven't lost weight yet, but feel lighter already!!!
I hope you all have a very pleasant day!!!
Thursday, March 04, 2010
March 4, 2010
OMG, I'm so happy and I really wanted to share this with all of you, because your comments have helped me so much! So, if you saw yesterday's post you know that I was very sad because of my eating last Tuesday.
Well, Wednesday was perfect!!! I was feeling so good allday yesterday and today I feel even better!!! I'm not bloated, I feel no discomfort at all, I feel light and happy. I've been smiling allday! God, I haven't felt like this for such a long time!
Why was Wednesday good? Well, I ate only I what I was supposed to, no sugary and no fatty stuff at all, I had a good workout at the gym (... I'm actually smiling right now! I can't stop smiling, I'm so excited!) and I don't know, it just felt really good. I decided to listen to my body, see if I am hungry or thirsty (usually it's the second one in deguise!) or just bored.
I can't believe that it worked! A day with no bloating, it's unbelievable! I'll be good today too, I promise! I honestly cannot describe this feeling! It's so worth it!
I hope you all have a very nice and successful day like the one I had yesterday and even better!
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
March 3, 2010
Ok, yesterday ended with a disappointment, a big one. I was good all day, I went to the gym after work and did interval training on the elliptical for 40 minutes. I was all sweaty and felt so good and satisfied! Then I went home, I ate what I should (cheakpeas and chicken breast) and then ... I heard something calling my name from the fridge! I knew I should have left the kitchen right after I had finished my meal. But NO! I wanted to respond to the calling, a delicious chocolate cake with white chocolate on top. And what was the result? An awful feeling afterwards, it was a mix of disappointment, failure, and physical discomfort. And then tears came to my eyes once again.
So, one day lost. But, I won't let it win. I won't lose (the fight, because I want to lose pounds!). Today, I woke up early and went to the gym before work to lift some weights. I'm planning to go after work too, for an interval trianing session. And then for dinner I have a plan: I'll take my plate and leave the kitchen, I'll go to my room and eat there, then, immediately after I finish eating, I'll brush my teeth and ONLY THEN will I enter the kitchen again to do the dishes.
I promise that I'll do what I mentioned above. I refuse to have another night of crying because I wasn't strong enough, because I gave into temptation. Monday was good, Tuesday was bad, but Wednesday will be better, better than Monday that is!
What I have to realise is that the first week will probably be difficult, because, yes, I'm addicted to sugar, that's no secret. But I want to believe that I am stronger than sugar!
Actually, I've come to believe that weightloss is a mental thing. I know everything I need to know in order to lose weight. I know what I should eat and what I should avoid. I know I need to exercise, to eat right, to drink water. I know all these things and yet I haven't lost a pound and of course this is because I lack the necessary determination, or to better put it, I lacked.
To conclude, a new day, a new begining, a new chance to do a good thing for Phoebe. I lost yesterday's fight, but I didn't lose the war!
Good day to everyone who reads this!!!
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
March 2, 2010
This is my first blog. I'm creating this because last Sunday night I made a promise to my self that I won't let weight and food control my life, my mood and my emotions. I'll stop being obsessed about food. I'll loose fat-weight the healthy way, no extreme diets, no weight-loss pills, no gimmicks. I've tried all of these before and nothing helped me. No permanent results or no results at all.
My inspiration? Me, in 2008. I was lighter and feeling great about myself and my body. I was confident, I liked me. I realise this now, I hope it's not too late. Better now than never. No, it's not too late. I can do this!
I see women who have had children and they manage to have a great figure. Women that are older than me, much older, and have awesome bodies. All I need is wil-power + determination + faith in me. After all, I've done it before, i can do it again.
What I really need to do is to start listening to my body instead of listening to food calling my name. I need to eat when I'm hungry and I need to stop when I'm not hungry anymore. If it starts to feel unconfortable, I've gone too far. I need to drink more water, too. I'll have a glass or two of water before anything I eat. Because most of the time it's water my body needs, but instead, I've been giving it food. WRONG. So wrong!
So, yesterday I was good, not perfect, but better than the day before yersterday, and I want to believe that this is a good sign. I hope that today I'll be better than yesterday...
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