Sunday, May 06, 2012
I did set my alarm clock for 9am! It rang at 9am this morning! But I set it to 10am and went back to sleep. When it rang again at 10am, I thought : 5 minutes more, just 5 minutes more. But by the time I finally got up, it was 11am. Church is at 10.45am. I know, I've been a naughty girl!
I couldn't even bring myself to go to the evening service at 6pm, because a) it's further away b) it will mean that I have to give up my Sunday evening. I had an evening of reading planned. If I go to church at 6pm, I will probably go the the nearby mall with the budget bookshop at 7.45pm, which means I'll probably come home around 9pm, just the thought of that made me balk, as I'm trying to save money for future purchases and outings. So, I didn't really feel like going out.
Anyone ever felt this way? Why does going to church feel like pulling teeth to me now? Sigh!
Saturday, May 05, 2012
I walked for 20 minutes to the nearby pet shop. I love animals but I can't have them because I'm afraid I might get infected (I'm a dialysis patient, I have to be extra careful with many things). So, a visit to a pet shop where I'm separated from the cutie by a pane of glass is a treat for me. I get to see and interact with the animals without touching them.
I saw an adorable little maltese puppy. He seemed to get excited by my moving hands, I played with him for a while then it was chow time for the puppies, and I was forgotten. The staff at the pet shop also have a long furred chow chow that wanders around the shop freely. I stroked him with my other hand (the one without the fistula, something in my arm which facilitates dialysis).
I also saw an cute bunny rabbit that got excited when I nodded my head. Whenever I nodded my head, he nodded his too! So adorable! I wish I could bring a furry friend home but I can't! I'll have to see if I can at least get a fish, a Siamese fighting fish (beta splendens). They're fairly easy to care for, I'm told.
Finally, it was about to get dark and I had another 20 minute walk home, I sweated a little but then, I never sweat much usually. I would simply love a pet bunny or a hedgehog! They're so cute! But I can't.
Thursday, May 03, 2012
It hurts when I bend down! It hurts when I squat!!! I don't think I can exercise today. Maybe a nice walk. I did lot's of butterfly rollovers on Tuesday. I can't believe I'm still sore today! Maybe I'll cool it for today...........sigh!
Wednesday, May 02, 2012
I'm not supposed to take too much phosphate in my diet because I'm on dialysis. And phosphate being the evil siamese twin of protein, indirectly means I need to cut down my protein intake.
Today, my lunch was vegetarian. And my dinner would have been vegetarian too, if I hadn't caved in and had a few small pieces of fried pork fat! Have you tried it?! Better than crackling!!!! MMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmm! MMMMMMMMMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmm!!!
Anyway, I've been having meat for the past few days, so I thought I'd go vegetarian today. I'll have a bit of meat tomorrow, then have another vegetarian day. It was hard! That saucy chicken in the tuckshop looked soooooo yummy! But I told myself : "Nope, you had lots of meat yesterday, so time to cut back today, if you keep putting it off till tomorrow, when are you going vegetarian ever? Anyway, the shop will still be there, you can have the chicken some other time!". Sigh! Like I said, it's hard!
I really, really need to bring my phosphate levels down so I don't have to take the super expensive phosphate blocker, Lanthanum salts. The doc gave me a free sample and it tastes AWWWWFUUUUULLLLL! Yuck! I hope never to take it again, plus it's super expensive, I can't afford it. Even if he did prescribe it, I will never get it! Out of the question!
Tuesday, May 01, 2012
I have a lady friend that has breast cancer. She's married with kids. But her husband refuses to work. She has to work alone. Not only that, she has to do the housework and child minding as well! Despite being pain sometimes, she's just had surgery.
I can relate because sometimes after dialysis, I feel faint and dizzy but my Mom still expects me to do the dishes, all the dishes.
But my friend definitely has it worse than me! Can you imagine any guy being so useless and selfish! She's his wife, not his Mother!
Please pray for my friend. My heart bleeds just thinking of what she must be going through, day after day!
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