Wednesday, November 30, 2011
I've been so lax when it comes to food and drink, especially drink! I am a dialysis patient and I have watch my fluid levels like a hawk, among other things, like potassium, phosphate, protein, salt, in other words I can't eat and drink like a normal person because I don't urinate as much. I only urinate twice a day!
I've been warned by the nurses that either my heart will give out or my fistula (the thing in my arm that enables dialysis) will stop. So, I'd better listen and wisen up. I have to, I mean I HAVE TO watch my fluid intake. I also have to watch what I eat more closely as I've been gaining a little too!
I refuse to give up on myself! I can do this!
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
My belly roll is getting more noticeable and I'm going up in weight too! Only about 3kg but I feel so fat!!! But I have such a good appetite that I just can't say no to my snacks! I'm snacking constantly!!! I feel like such a pig!!!! I should know better!! But I'm just so hungry all the time!!! I'm also so thirsty all the time, I'm in trouble in the dialysis center too!
The nurses are warning me if I continue to extract 4kgs each time, my heart is going to give out or my fistula is going to die!!! I really should know better!!! But whenever I'm faced with food or drink, I get temporary amnesia and I ingest! Gosh! I'm such a pig!!! Help!!!
Sunday, November 27, 2011
As a dialysis patient, I don't urinate as much as a normal person, therefore I not only have to watch my fluids (primarily) but also my overall diet as I can't drink or eat as much as a normal person.
This weekend I went overboard! I don't even dare weigh myself now as I just know that I'm super heavy! My mom cooked spaghetti bolognaise on Saturday and I had a few heaping helpings. Then after each helping, I felt thirsty and had to drink each time.
Oh gosh! I really need to be more watchful of what I eat. But then again, I think, if I die, then I die, at least I went out enjoying myself. I'll have to be a better person though, so I that when I die, I'll be with The Lord, Jesus!
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Today, my brother and father went to work and my Mom went to her friend's house. I was left alone at home. Normally, I can fill the hours with stuff I like to do like surf the net, read, watch TV and sew. But today, I just felt so bleh. I felt like a dark cloud is looming over me, making me yearn for company.
I considered calling a friend but most of my friends are too busy with work to go out to the mall with me (for instance). And after I hang up, I will still feel lonely and bleh!
Well, I decided today, bleh or not, I will finish reading my new book, Inheritance. I didn't really like the ending but I enjoyed reading it all the same. But I still feel bleh!
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I can't wait for the 15th of December! Because that is when I have an appointment at noon with a professional hairdresser to tame my wild mane. Why not tomorrow, you think? Well, my hair grows super slow and a professional haircut is not exactly cheap, so I'm planning to get a good cut on the Thursday (the 15th) before the Christmas party on the 17th.
Then after dialysis on next day (the 16th of December), I'm planning on colouring my hair myself with some foam colour! After that, I don't have to do a thing to my hair for Chinese New Year (end ofJanuary (hopefully)!
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