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What would you do if you feel lonely and just so bleh?

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Today, my brother and father went to work and my Mom went to her friend's house. I was left alone at home. Normally, I can fill the hours with stuff I like to do like surf the net, read, watch TV and sew. But today, I just felt so bleh. I felt like a dark cloud is looming over me, making me yearn for company.

I considered calling a friend but most of my friends are too busy with work to go out to the mall with me (for instance). And after I hang up, I will still feel lonely and bleh!

Well, I decided today, bleh or not, I will finish reading my new book, Inheritance. I didn't really like the ending but I enjoyed reading it all the same. But I still feel bleh!

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BACKMOON 11/28/2011 10:54AM

    I try to keep myself busy with work, be it strenuous or tedious. Or I like to beat on my drums or play my guitar, maybe try to write a song.

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RUNCHOOSE 11/27/2011 7:48AM

    I like exploring places and hobbies on my own. I am used to being on my own a lot but like you I cherish my time with family. Also, classes or clubs- I like the atmosphere of learning new things and it's a way to meet new people, even if you aren't there explicitly for the friendship. I am always grateful for not being around people who are unpleasant or disrespectful to me.

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LESLIESENIOR 11/26/2011 2:14AM

    I have also found exercise a good mood elevator. But more than that, I reach out to help someone else. I find that engrossing myself in the needs of someone else pulls me out of myself. I end up feeling better than the person I was supposedly assisting.

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BUTTERFLY4411 11/24/2011 6:30PM

    Hi! I am lonely alot, I live alone I am older, my family is out of state, and no one is near me, and I just moved here so I know no one but the people in my apt building. Holidays are just another day for me I dont' cook fancy dinners or eat junk, the only day I hope will be good is xmas, its my favorite time of year when my son comes home if the roads an weather are ok.

I have alot of loneliness in my life but I talk to God alot and I play alot of good music and I go for a walk. I also keep books on hand as I love to read.

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ANJAYS-JOURNEY 11/24/2011 1:49PM

    I have these feelings a lot, I talk to God and do distraction techniques, eg sparking, exercising, even just writing down my feelings helps, hope you feel better soon.

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JUGE300000 11/24/2011 10:50AM

    Exercise...take a walk...exercise seems to clear the blues away.


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ADEWYN 11/24/2011 9:48AM

    it is not uncommon to feel this way...go for a walk i the fresh air this will help some...call a friend or just stop by someones house..bring a little snack and tell them were thiking of them :)

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Sometimes waiting can be so hard...........

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

I can't wait for the 15th of December! Because that is when I have an appointment at noon with a professional hairdresser to tame my wild mane. Why not tomorrow, you think? Well, my hair grows super slow and a professional haircut is not exactly cheap, so I'm planning to get a good cut on the Thursday (the 15th) before the Christmas party on the 17th.

Then after dialysis on next day (the 16th of December), I'm planning on colouring my hair myself with some foam colour! After that, I don't have to do a thing to my hair for Chinese New Year (end ofJanuary (hopefully)!


Why do I feel so tired today?

Monday, November 21, 2011

I've just finished dialysis but it's only Monday, the first treatment of the week! I don't feel like racking up sparkpoints anymore! I feel like taking a hot bath and settling down to read till I feel sleepy, then I'm going to bed............

Yeah, sounds like a plan! Bye sparkers!

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THOMS1 11/21/2011 2:58PM

    Have a good Nap and just take it easy! Have a Happy Thanksgiving. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ASHLEYLESHA 11/21/2011 10:24AM

    I hope you feel better through-out the week emoticon

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A relaxing weekend........

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Well, I was planning to exercise this weekend, but I ended up doing cross-stitch most of the time. I guess I am listening to my body because I'm still sneezing and sniffling because of the rainy weather and air-conditioning (at the dialysis centre since Friday afternoon, I just can't stop sneezing!).

I got bored this afternoon, and took a short walk to my hairdresser's around 4pm. I asked him what I should do to my hair and he recommended an overall trim at the end of December or January (for Chinese New Year). Since I want to look fab during Christmas, I ended up making an appointment with him for the 15th of December. I may have a Christmas do on the 17th. To my amazement, someone already has an appointment with him at 2pm! I'm scheduled at noon. I guess I'm not the only forward thinking one!

I can't wait for my haircut, my hair is driving me crazy! I keep it off my face with a hairclip and a pony tail. Hopefully, I'll be looking fab this Christmas! And I hope my good haircut lasts till the end of January too for Chinese New Year!


It's so hard when you can't eat and drink as much as you want to....

Saturday, November 19, 2011

and I'm not talking about watching portions or getting healthy in general either! You see, I'm on dialysis, which means I have to watch my fluid intake like a hawk, among other things.

While the people around me get to feast on that juicy burger and drink as much water as they want to quench their thirst, I can't. I have to watch my protein/phosphate intake, which means I can have a big juicy burger like only once a month. And when I drink, I can only drink the bare minimum.

And don't even get me started on not being able to go on a holiday! You see, I can't miss my treatments, not even once, it's unadvisable. Which means I can only go on weekend trips, only to be on time for my first treatment on Monday! It sucks! You see, if I make arrangements to have my treatments overseas, it'll be prohibitively expensive! So, I'm stuck here for the rest of my life. As I can only take weekend trips, which means they have to be local.

Sometimes, I feel like there's no point to carry on............

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GIRLAWESOME 11/19/2011 5:33PM

    hang in there! i am sure there is lots to explore near you!

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WENDYSPARKS 11/19/2011 7:29AM

    Hang in there and do not give up!

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