Sunday, May 29, 2011
I went to church this morning. I went to the contemporary service (the one at 10.45am) with praise and worship songs, rather than the earlier service at 8.30am with traditional hymns. I'm a Methodist.
After service, my friend didn't want to drive me all the way home because of the horrendous traffic jams along my route, so she dropped me off at a mall near the church. In this mall, there are many shops of interest like : my fave Korean restaurant, a budget bookstore and other shops like my fave collectables store where they sell stamps, coins etc.
I was thinking of treating myself to some nice, spicy kimchi soup, so I ordered the Kimchi soup set, vegetarian, I love meat but I don't fancy chicken or beef in my kimchi soup. And if I order the vegetarian kimchi soup set, I get more mushrooms instead of the meat, and I just love mushrooms. I used up a lot of napkins because the kimchi soup was soooo spicy, ummmm! Good!!!
Then I went to the budget bookstore, didn't see anything I fancied, so I continued walking, I came across a shop selling clothes for a fraction of the normal price, I asked the shopkeeper why they're selling the clothes so cheap, and he said they were old stock. I managed to get a cute little knitted jacket to go over my sleeveless tops (to hid my dialysis scars) for RM20! I'm very pleased with the little knitted jacket! the sleeves are just right too, not too short, not too long.
Then I headed to the subway station nearby to go home. I've made a resolution to save some money every week, that is, I'm determined to save something, not to spend every dime I have but to put aside something from my weekly allowance every week, so I can treat myself to more expensive stuff. Well, I'll see how it goes, I'll keep you posted.
I'm planning to buy some nice designer jeans when I reach my goal weight, that's why I'm saving whatever money I can!
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Because of financial and health problems, I'm currently still living with my parents. My only brother is also living with my parents because of financial problems, but my brother doesn't have health problems.
It's just that my Mom keeps focusing on what I don't do around the house. She turns a blind eye to what I do to help around the house. It's like what I do doesn't get noticed but what I don't do gets aired out frequently, with my Mom calling me useless etc. Well, what about the things I do!?
It's gotten so bad that now I don't even feel like doing anything at all, nothing I do is ever appreciated. My Mom goes out with her friends everyday, leaving the breakfast dishes undone, who does those breakfast dishes every morning? Me! But does she ever thank me? No! My brother also leaves his breakfast dishes in the sink every morning, who does it? Me!
Whenever my brother does something to help around the house, my Mom will thank him profusely and go on and on about it, but whenever I do something, it goes unseen and unappreciated.
Sometimes, I just don't feel like doing something because I'm tired or because I'm just physically incapable of doing it. I'm a dialysis patient, so the the arm with the access in it can't lift heavy loads. I also need lots of sleep particularly after my dialysis treatments. Also, I'm not a morning person.
All I'm saying is, I have my limitations but it's not like I do nothing around the house, it's just that no one notices. Sometimes, I just feel like leaving this house and let nature take it course so I just fade away for lack of dialysis and die, then they will finally notice the little things I do when I'm no longer there.
But that is just wistful thinking because that will be like suicide. And I don't think that brave or admirable but just a form of running away. I'm just so sick of the whole situation.
To say that the Chinese (I'm Chinese) only appreciate the sons and not the daughters is quite true, in my case, at least.....
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Well, my Mom and brother are away at the moment, visiting Singapore to spend some time with my Mom's younger sister. So, tonight, it's just me and my Dad. So, to fix a small dinner for 2 is my task today.
My Mom and brother left for Singapore yesterday morning, but the night before that (Sunday night), my Mom bought 2 focaccias for us. I'm planning to fill the focaccias with bacon ham, cheese & tomato, then I'm heating it on a flat pan so the cheese gets all gooey and melty! Yum! Can't wait!
In the meantime, to keep the munchies at bay, I'm steaming 2 mini yams, one for me and one for Dad. The yams are really small, a little bigger than a large chicken egg but packed with complex carbohydrate! Good for you, right?
Yup! I'm home alone atm, so I'm planning to get some exercise in before dinner, and I'll be going to home fellowship tonight too. So, I'd better move it as it's already half past 3! Gotta hang out some laundry too! Ta!
Monday, May 23, 2011
Lately, I've been fixated about getting a pair of low-waist skinny jeans that fit just so. Y'know, like a second skin but still comfortable. I actually had my heart set on a faded blue Levi's. Only that it's more than RM200!
I was debating with myself, should I get it now or when I've lost my belly roll? Well, because of lack of finances, I've been putting getting my Levi's off.
However, yesterday, I bought a pair of nice lacy hipster panties and a comfy seamless bra. And it wasn't too expensive but I now have less money in my savings.
Well, I guess, the skinny jeans will have to be the end goal treat, when I finally reach my goal weight and don't have a belly roll. In the meantime, I'll treat myself in other, less expensive ways.
I look at it this way, at least when I finally get my new jeans, I have a nice pair of hipster panties to go with it and a nice, seamless bra to go under my T-shirt!
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Oh Lord! I hate my belly roll! I was trying on a pair of low-waist jeans today and my belly literally just spilled over the low waist!!!! I'm not kidding!!!! I was mortified, with myself and my darn belly roll!
That pair that I tried on was 50% off and was a really cute design. But after looking at the belly roll spilling over the waist, I decided that this time I mean business. I'm going to stop overeating and exercise regularly! Whatever it takes to lose that belly!
Then, when the belly roll is gone, I will look into buying cute new clothes!
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