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Sunday, December 28, 2014


I think this workout really kicks butt without being too taxing. I watched it once through and this is what I aim to be doing next morning. I plan to go to bed early tonight and waking up early to do this!

I didn't really sleep well last night, so I felt too tired to attempt this today. Hopefully, I'll get a good night's rest tonight, then I plan to do this tomorrow morning and every morning after if possible!

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1HAPPYSPIRIT 12/28/2014 7:43AM

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Feeling a little down because Christmas is over!

Saturday, December 27, 2014

Who else feels like that? Every year it's the same! Starting around October, the malls start playing Christmas music and the Christmas deals start, everything feels so jolly, esp in the malls. Everything feels so festive, even restaurants offer special Christmas deals.

Churches everywhere put on Christmas plays, there are parties to go to etc. Then around the 26th or the 27th, everything winds down, and another Christmas season is over!

I don't know about you but I always feel a little down when Christmas is over! I know that the reason for the season is Jesus, but I can't help but be swept up by all the festivities esp when I'm in a mall!

Every year, I give myself a little Christmas treat that I normally wouldn't on normal days. Last Christmas, I bought a little makeup set from Laneige. I wanted to buy another set this year but I didn't really like this year's set. I wanted perfume too but couldn't afford it.

I am hoping that next Christmas, I will be able to afford some nice perfume. I'm really hoping my part-time business takes off. Anyone can join in, the link is in my signature! Please feel free to check it out! Sparkmail me if you are interested!

I bought a new dress yesterday. It's actually for Chinese New Year in February. Somehow, I prefer shopping for new clothes during the Christmas season rather than pre CNY! I prefer the Christmas fashions rather that the CNY fashions.

I've also been feasting quite a lot during this Christmas. The result was a 0.5kg weight gain! Sigh! Well, back to the drawing board, I guess! Btw, do you think that turkey tastes like chicken? I think so! I'd rather buy chicken, much cheaper! How about you?

So, how was your Christmas?

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SWEETNEEY 12/28/2014 3:38AM

    there is usually so much prepearation for christmas that I do feel a let down when it's over. But we have a holiday after that which has a parade so there is not a complete fall off of revelry. Then there is the 1st of January and activities associated with that.

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MISSDAISY23 12/27/2014 11:36PM

    Our tree is still up... so I am still in the mood. Personally, I do not think turkey taste like chicken. Christmas is as usual here just spending quality time with family.

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PATTYKLAVER 12/27/2014 10:04AM

    I feel down after Christmas. I've learned to start making a list of the things I want to do and achieve in the coming year. It does help. But I also know that I have to stay busy.

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NELLIEC 12/27/2014 9:41AM

    As for turkey tasting like chicken, it does somewhat. However, it has been years since I have had turkey since I seem to be allergic to it, but not chicken. I do like chicken pretty well.

My Christmas isn't fully over yet, since my family is going to be exchanging gifts on Jan. 1. My oldest daughter had to be out of town on Christmas, so we decided to wait until we get together on Jan. 1. When I put away my little artificial tree yesterday, I did feel a little sad not to be seeing the pretty lights for another year.

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Time to get SERIOUS with myself!!!

Saturday, December 20, 2014

I am not waiting till January 1st! I am starting NOW!!!

I will track every single bite of food, even if it's only a little mouthful!

AND I will make sure I exercise every Tuesday, Thursday and the weekends!

This is because on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, I have dialysis. I am REALLY not a morning person but if I can, I will also try slotting in morning walks in addition to my regular evening workouts! But if I can't wake up in the mornings, I will still make sure I sweat it out on at least 4 days a week!

I normally track on MyfitnessPal but I will track here too, to really get serious about keeping track!

I hope to lose 7.5kg by the end of 2015! And if I succeed, I will maintain it, if possible, go down to 45kgs, depending on how I look and feel, but that's the plan! Oh btw, I am 4 feet 11 and currently 57.5kgs! Yup! I gained a little, not good!

I can and WILL do this!

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MISSDAISY23 12/22/2014 5:42PM

    Hi Elaine, emoticon
That is a great plan! I am sure you can do it!
Take care & God bless you & your family!

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NELLIEC 12/20/2014 9:34AM

    Considering this isn't only about losing fat, but also gaining better health, your ideas will help you greatly!

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I MUSTN'T Give Up!!!

Friday, December 12, 2014

I am having a really tough time atm. Every single thing I eat or drink becomes extra weight! You see, I am on dialysis and it's a real struggle to keep my weight gain to less than 3kgs, especially during weekends! Because it's 2 days instead of the usual 1!

My heart is getting weaker because I almost always extract more than 3kgs. 3kgs worth of food and drink really isn't much, especially on hot days when you just HAVE to drink! To make matters worse, I have practically stopped urinating altogether! So everything I drink gets stuck in me.

I am trying and trying to eat and especially drink less but it's sooooo, sooooo hard! Added to this constant battle is my belly problem. I have been trying for years to get a flat belly but I haven't been successful! I feel so ugly and bloated! To make matters worse, family and friends have commented on how fat I look!

I am 57kgs and 4 feet 11. I am so depressed because as an Asian woman, I am borderline obese! I have tried taking less rice, bread, snacks, you name it! I have also cut out my snacks like potato chips. I try to limit fast food to only once or twice a month. I try to fit in at least 3 cardio sessions a week. I do Pilates or other exercise DVDs whenever I can. I go for dialysis treatments 3 afternoons a week.

I am trying so hard but I still have a belly problem! I may be in my early 40s but I refuse to believe I can't have a better, more attractive body. I am still hoping to attract a good, Godly guy so I don't have to journey thru life alone. I just need to presevere and keep on exercising and eating right! I refuse to give up! I CAN'T give up! But it feels like my whole life is an uphill battle!

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LUCIOUSKITTY 12/17/2014 12:42AM

    I actually own the book "Eat to live" the amazing nutrient-rich program for fast and sustained weight loss. It gives amazing information. it teaches you how to eat for fuel and how to properly eat. On that note,I understand the weight battle,I have struggled for 2 years to lose belly fat and I don't really get anywhere. So now I'm educating myself on health. Thats why I got the book Eat to live. I've also done Yoga,I've noticed my body is having more energy and getting stronger with yoga...although my weight haven't changed but I believe my body is preparing for it.

I'm sorry your not having a great time and people are commenting on your weight. Stay strong, Keep pushing, Don't give up. Everything will happen sooner or later. As for the man,the right one will come along regardless of size,I have faith. emoticon

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2015TODAY 12/12/2014 7:36AM

    emoticon I'm so sorry for your struggle.
I don't know if you know the book Eat to Live. I've no idea if following that program would be doable or healthy for you, I'm no expert. But maybe it would offer you a way to lose some weight AND improve your health.

Remember you don't have to be perfect. You are making a lot of effort in all areas already. Is it maybe an idea to focus on developing your personality? Train yourself to be extra friendly, a good listener, to have a positive outlook (as far as possible) on life? I think that will help attract a life partner, maybe even more than having a good looking body.

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GHOSTFLAMES 12/12/2014 4:31AM

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BUCCWE 12/12/2014 4:28AM

    I am super inspired by you pushing ahead despite your challenges. Keep it up Girl you can do it! emoticon

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FORZACHANDMATT 12/12/2014 4:09AM

    Im so sorry - hang in there

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I hate my life!

Thursday, December 04, 2014

Why did I get SLE?! My Uni friends only put on weight but why did I have to get sick?! I know many worse ppl than me so why did God single me out like this!? I have been on dialysis for 10 years bcoz of SLE. I watched my diet like a hawk after my SLE diagnosis in 1997 but my kidneys still failed anyway after abt 7 years, I started dialysis in 2004. I have a friend also having the same form of SLE but to date, she still doesn't need dialysis. Why can't I b like her?! To make matters worse, my parents keep blaming me for needing dialysis but it wasn't my fault!

Lot's of ppl managed to hold their jobs but I never could! Why must I always be the loser? I m not the worst person in the world but I keep losing my jobs! Why can't the backstabbers lose their jobs!? They are the ones causing trouble, not me. And I keep getting rotten bosses who won't even pay a few dollars in overtime! In Malaysia, most bosses won't even bother to train you! But expect you to hit the ground running!

I hate my life bcoz nothing goes right for me! I m on welfare bcoz of my dialysis. There is never enough money, I have to save up for everything. I still live with my parents bcoz I can't afford to move out. What am I going to do when my parents get old or pass away? I m so worried sometimes that I feel life is not worth living. I feel that God hates me!

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MISSDAISY23 12/6/2014 4:59PM

God loves you! God did not give you this sickness, He would not have given up His only begotten Son for you. Do not blame God because sickness and all bad things did not come from Him. You should follow Joseph Prince sermons online because when you hear the word of God and keep on hearing the word of God, it would result in right believing and in turn will produce right living. Only when you believe, the Grace of God will be able to flow through you. There are many testimonies that shows that when people believe in God, sickness will go away, finances will be abundant, etc. When you worry, God cannot supply. I pray that the Holy Spirit will guide you. Peace be with you.

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    I am sending you a huge hug. If I could be there with you we could go out and have some tea or just browse the stores. I seldom buy but I love to sight see. You could show me your wonderful city. Please drop by my blog today. I think you know you are loved. My your spark friends your family and by God. Hugs. Remember you are not alone. emoticon emoticon

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KELLIEBEAN 12/4/2014 12:15PM

    This is awful to hear. I'm so sorry. Maybe your parents don't mean to blame you. Sometimes when we feel helpless over our loved ones, we say thoughtless things we do not mean out of frustration.

Like the others said, there are sometimes lessons in hard times. Is there any volunteer work you can do while you look for work, with others with the same diagnoses at a hospital or clinic? Maybe helping others will help you.

My daughter went through a self destructive phase for several years with an eating disorder and anxiety issues. She has come a long way in her recovery and now she volunteers with the National Eating Disorders Association. She has touched many lives.

It may seem impossible but look for the good around you to keep you in a healthy frame of mind.

I'm thinking about you!

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2015TODAY 12/4/2014 11:39AM

    What can I say.... I think no one knows 'why'. I tend to believe that there are lessons in the problems we encounter. Maybe there is something you can learn from this misery. If you believe in God, why not assume that HeSheIt knows what HeSheIt is doing?
We are all different. I think that maybe you have your own special gift to bring to this world also if you don't work and don't have a good health.

I'm very sorry your parents are blaming you. Blaming a person never works and you never wanted to get health trouble, I'm sure.

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PATTYKLAVER 12/4/2014 9:06AM

    I always read Ecclesiastes when I starting wondering "why me". It reminds me that in life there are ups and downs but it does even out in the end. I prayed for you this morning and will keep you in my prayers.

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CHICAM 12/4/2014 6:30AM

    So sorry about your health problems and with keeping a job.

Please do not think negative. When we talk to others and here their story it is even worse than ours and we come home happy with the problems that we have cause after hearing others our problems do not seem as bad..

You are right to think of your future and needing to get a job to take care of yourself. Do not lose hope. I went through super hard times with the loss of my late husband and bank dets but I rolled up my sleeves and worked hard at finding my new future to take care of me and my 2 children. God is holding you in his arms in these hard times. I also said to God why did you take my husband away from me? He was 31 years old and at the time I became a widower I was 27. I needed my husband so much to help me raise my kids and to be with me? I know God was with me. I had a lot of challenges but God held me and helped so much. I became a stronger person and out of those super hard SAD MISERABLE times I did have things that I can say were good to make me the person I am today.

Think of all the good things you do have in your life. Think positive and positive things will happen to you!! You are very special and yes you ARE worth LIVING!! Life is beautiful, we just have to look for beauty to find it. emoticon

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