Thursday, January 17, 2013
I have been tired again today--way more tired than has made sense to me. I have had a hard time staying awake most of the day. I can;t remember being this tired in a long time.
I did get myself together this afternoon and did my exercises, went for a walk, went to WW and stayed for the meeting, then ran a few errands and did a bit of shopping. However, I am back at home now and am still tired. I am enjoying some ice on my knee again. It feels a bit swollen tonight.
I am glad that I lost 1.8 pounds this week. Last week, I gained 2.0 and the week before, I lost 2.2. I think I am truly in my maintenance mode right now and will stay there until I can get back to good cardio that raises my heart rate and works my entire body. I have at least another week before I can go to the pool--I'll have a week in the pool before I can go back to work.
I had a phone call from our HR guy today--he come to realize that I worked on the 7th when I was supposed to be on leave and that is causing them grief, especially since I qualified for extra pay for doing my presentations. I guess he will have to figure that one out.
I am still working on my application. I want to answer the questions in a way that shows off who I am and what I can do. I want this position-they hire 80 people out of the hundreds who apply. It will be tough competition. If I don't make it this year, I will try again next year. I think this is a position made for me and I am going to give it my best.
That's it for today--Tomorrow, Lady has her first follow-up at the vet. She won't get her sutures out until next week. I wonder what we will find out about the cone. She really hates it so much that I feel guilty.
Take care and enjoy the good in your world!!
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Today has been a thoughtful, thinking, thinking, thinking day for me. I have been working on that job application. They will ultimately hire about 80 people from about 800 to 1000 applications. It will be a tricky competition. I know I am a very good candidate, but I am going to have to write it all correctly to be considered. I have to be thoughtful, undoubtedly.
I am noticing improvement in my hip and its functioning. I am so glad. I can get my own leg in and out of the car without help these days. I can do a lot for myself except for the shoe and sock on my right foot. I can walk through the store with only a couple of stops to sit and rest. I did a lot of new exercises in therapy today, but...
The therapists are new to me and I think they have a goal to have me walk unassisted. I didn't realize that until today when one of the guys attached a gait belt to me and we went for a walk with the cane. (I have two of my own canes and have used them in the past.) I got about the length of the gym and my back started heaving and that was that. I lost track of my rhythm and had to grab hold of the first available thing--a big exercise machine. He was kind and caring about things and waited out the spasms and helped me to walk back, realizing that I had started holding my breath and doing a number of inappropriate personal behaviors. He got me to my chair and he said for me to rest and to breathe... I was embarrassed and I don't know why. I wanted to walk--my hip is more than ready for that, but my back, grr-rr the problem of my adult life--got in the way.
The other thing that is bothering me is my right knee. It aches and it aches and it aches. It is constant and annoying. My PT finally suggested that I talk with the doctor about it because even he must understand that this isn't just using a part that has been sitting idle for a long time. I know that that isn't so because I know what my workouts prior to my surgery did and I didn't leave any part of my legs and unused. It is where my biggest source of discomfort is right now. (I am icing my knee as we speak.) My hip gets tired after I have done a lot of walking or whatever, but it comes back pretty quickly after I rest. My knee starts the day a bit rough and grows more and more painful all day long--and by now, heading towards bedtime, I am quite upset with the whole deal. Grr-rr, I had my hip replaced, my knee replacement was about 9 years ago or so and hasn't had much pain for some 8 years. I sure hate feeling this again for whatever reason.
That's about it for today. Lady is finding ways to mutilate that cone today and we have had to rescue her once and the cone twice, ha ha. I sure hope that the vet takes her out of it tomorrow or Friday rather than leaving her in it another week. She is getting pretty owly over it.
Take care of yourselves. Time is flying by so quickly that I'll be back at work before I know it.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Physical therapy is getting a bit more difficult as they let me do a bit more. I think I might be reading their concern about all of the pain in my right knee more like I am, even though they keep telling me that it is hurting because "it didn't have to work much when I was having all of my hip trouble, but now that my hip is doing more of its share of the work, my knee is having to work more as well." Quite honestly, I don't believe that because my leg has never been allowed to be babied and without movement going on. I have worked it and worked it, in the pool and out of the pool--with weights and without them, using bands and the stepper and so on. I also am a bit surprised that it feels so swollen after I leave therapy, especially after it has been babied and iced with relaxation time. I haven't had pain in that knee since a couple of months after its second replacement surgery. Before that, I had non-stop pain in that right knee for about 4 and a half years along with about 5 scopes and two very good docs trying to come up with a treatment that matched the fact that I was "only 43." It kind of scares me because that knee caused me to have more falls without provocation than anything in my life. It was then that I also became diagnosed with RSD--and if you don't know that nasty little disorder, check it out on our "Health conditions from A to Z" here on SP. It is awful. Around here, it is so rarely heard of that people have big fundraisers to help cover their expenses. I lived with it and all I can say is thank heavens that my ortho moved back here after having been in Columbus for over a year and that he teamed with my wonderful pain doc/ anesthesiologist to figure out what was causing me all of the grief.
I was catching up on my emails today and I may have an answer for myself professionally. Because I am a National Board Certified Teacher, I was sent an email about some positions with the Department of Education. Some are Washington Fellowships that are not going to work for me. The others are classroom fellowships that allow people to work half a day in their position and then the federal government pays them to be liasons between regular teachers and the Dept of Ed., sharing information both ways and advocating for what teachers want, know and believe. I think this might be a perfect response to what I need professionally and I have started working on my application. I need to have letters of recommendation from a couple of people--one in my district. I have sent a request to an assistant superintendent because obviously, my principal wouldn't be a good person for such a letter. I also asked the professor of the ELL classes I have just completed. She already got back to me and raved about how this position would be a great match for me and that she will have my letter early next week. I am excited because having a half day with my kids and a half day under anyone else's supervision sure sounds like a perfect position to give me what I need. Now I have to admit that they will have hundreds more applications than they need and it will be very competitive, but I am as good as anyone else and I am going to give it my best.
Lady either has to wear the cone until the end of this week or the end of next week--I'm not sure which. We cannot take a chance at her whipping up that poor ear again while it is trying to heal. I am so sorry for her. The only peace she seems to get is after she takes her antibiotics and goes to sleep. The only good that has come from all of this is that she has finally started fussing at Sadie for some of her naughty behaviors. Lady has not fussed at her this way ever, and Sadie is paying attention to my sweet hound when she lets out her sharp, loud bark for her monkeying around. Sadie has quit fooling around with the cone or with Lady as she tries to get comfortable. I'm proud of Lady for helping her people here with that ornery pup.
I have an appointment with my therapist again tomorrow--we shall see how he thinks I am doing. I am guessing the entire world is shocked that I haven't been inside the school since before the end of break. I am going to get my husband to go water my plants tomorrow and I am not going to do anything except to work on this resume and application. I hope that I can make it top-notch and have a chance at one of these coveted positions.
Thanks for hanging in there with me too!
Monday, January 14, 2013
Today was strictly routine...or as much as it gets around here. We started off at church and with yet another interim pastor. Our new pastor starts in about a month and I am looking forward to the kindness and consistency I have been used to in the past. We did have an ordained pastor today and got to have Communion. I have missed being on our regular schedule with Communion.
We went grocery shopping after church and (yay) no falling!! That went according to the plan. I spent the rest of the day sparking and reading. It's been quiet.
I don't think Lady is going to get used to this cone, poor girl. She keeps running into things and then is just confused by it all. I feel so badly for her. She is taking her meds without a problem, including the ear drops.
There's nothing much else going on--isn't that amazing?
Have a great new week.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
I'm not terribly proud of today and there is really nothing I can admit to having accomplished besides some fussing at my family with resulting cooperation and help with some chores that were long overdue in being managed. I had lunch with my best friend today and after that, our weather has changed from being unseasonable jacket weather to full on cold, "blizzardy" stuff. Micah is outside shoveling this late because he is excited about the wintery stuff being back.
Personally, I didn't sleep much last night because I was trying to comfort my sweet Lady. She is not making much progress on this cone, but she is on her second sleep of the day. I think fatigue and antibiotics are both helping her to get some rest. It is hard for her to eat or get drinks, so I am recruiting people to help her to get to her nourishment. With her short basset body, that cone drags and causes her grief. The vet trimmed it down, and my husband was going to trim it some more--but I stopped him because any further trimming would go into the seam and then the thing would probably fall apart and be ineffective. I would hate for her to have to have a third procedure on her beautiful ear. She is my baby in so many ways...
I went to WW and weighed in, having gained back 2 of the 2.2 i lost last week. I am not surprised. I was as active as I could be last week, doing my exercises and going places to get my pedometer going--but my eating was either poor (not enough) or poor (bad choices.) I am going to have to resign myself to maintenance until I have recovered from my hip. I am ready for it to move on, but I am also already dreading that I have to return to work in 3 weeks and start dealing with the monkey business that ruined most of my week. I talked at length to my therapist about why I am so defined by my job and why, after 7 years that this woman causes me so much grief. He laughed and said that he was thinking the same thing. For the first time--or maybe second--he gave me straight up advice. I told him that she "was a flake" and his response was that I was never to be surprised by anything she does again. He said that I could be disappointed and temporarily caught off guard, but that I could not let her surprise me again. She has done this month after month for 7 years and I don't understand how she operates or the strange ways that she does things, all based on lies and other mistruths. I am as honorable and honest as I can be--and straightforward; the things she says and does hurts me and defies what I value. Now, can I NOT be surprised when she tells me that she won't place someone until the end of the week and then does so the next day, choosing a person I specifically asked her to not choose? I don't know, but I will try to remember that she's a flake and doesn't operate the way I think most people do, certainly the way I do. It is at least an approach instead of this constant garbage in my professional life.
I finally fell asleep around 5:30 to take a short nap when my husband woke me up to let me know he cooked a pot of chili for dinner (yummy, lots of tomatoes!! woo hoo, my favorite!!) I was pretty grumpy because it was the first nap I have had all week. I fussed at virtually everyone and told them they didn't need to eat until they did their chores--and they did them. I went back to sleep for about an hour and it felt good. This is the time of the day when my body hurts the worst. Sleeping through some of that after taking my pain meds allowed me to wake up with some control over the pain. I could make this a habit.
I feel better--still tired, but better after a nap. It is snowing hard so church might be out of my reach for tomorrow. My husband won't let me go out if it is slippery and I will cooperate--no more falling for me. All I can do is see what tomorrow brings.
Thanks for being my friends!!
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