Saturday, January 05, 2013
My appointments went well today. The big one, of course, with my ortho, was the telling information. I am happy to report that my hip is fine--the x-rays showed the apparatus is totally in alignment. That was the happiest photo I ever saw.
The big pain and issue is this gigantic lump which is right under my incision. My doc removed the dressing and the single stitch that was in it. (He uses surgical glue and butterflies to repair large incisions--they heal almost invisibly and totally strong.) He believes I have a large hematoma behind there and he was worried that the coumadin (the blood thinner) that I have been on has been adding to this thing, so he took me off of it entirely. He said it is time for me to be gentle with my leg and rest it frequently, applying ice as I have been. He also had no part of letting me go back to work at all before I see him again on February 4--the same with the pool. I am going to go to the conference on Monday and try and get away with my presentations anyway. If it doesn't work, it doesn't work.
I am not a good patient. I don't know how to sit around and do little to nothing. I don't know how to ask for help all of the time, especially every time I drop something because I am not allowed to pick anything up off of the floor. I'm often awake at night when everyone is sleeping which is another issue, I cannot wake people up to do things for me, so I sit in some situation and am unable to do anything. It makes me a bit crazy.
All of that being said, I am going to get ready to do my presentation on writing poetry with young children for Monday. I sent an email to the folks in my building asking for test scores so I could make new reading groups--and I can do that here at home. (Some of the children have made great progress and either need to be discharged from my program or moved to another group. Others have not made such strong progress and either need extra service or they need to be moved to a different group. There is no sub who can do this work for me. However, in order to be able to do this work, I need up to date data on each of the children involved which includes all 6 classes of 1st and 2nd graders and all of the 3rd and 4th graders who are at risk. Getting these scores from the classroom teachers is often a big problem for me--it happened with my progress reports again and they weren't turned in until late Thursday afternoon to the teacher who offered to help me out.) It generally takes me two days to make all of this transition, so I hope that I can do this my way. Other wise, I have made plans for the children, in their groups as they were already established. It isn't right for the kids, but it can be done that way. I already know enough about how they are changing and I don't want to waste an important month of their education because it is convenient for adults.
Anyway, I am not a good patient and I am frustrated. I am doing okay and as soon as this hematoma that is bigger than my wrist and lower arm goes away, I will be doing better. My aches and bruises will heal in their own good time and my hip will be as good as possible. My doctor does amazing work!! I am so fortunate that my pig-headed behavior didn't cause me any grief. I think I have a good plan that protects me from doing harm to me while helping me to maintain the best level of professional care for my students possible during my absence.
Any thoughts on all of this? Help me to celebrate my good news too, you have all done a good job of looking after me so far and I appreciate you dearly.
Friday, January 04, 2013
By today, I expected to feel close to being back to normal. I am noticing some extensions in my range of motion, but the pain from falling is not letting up on me. I will see my doctor tomorrow and I am hoping to understand what's up with this lump on my incision site and the soreness.
I keep getting calls from "Claims" at Walmart and I haven't returned one yet. I'll wait until I talk to my doc and then, I'll let them off the hook if he endorses it. I don't think I have ever seen this side od Walmart. I'd sure be foolish to think it was because they were worried about me rather than them being worried about a law suit.
I spent this morning running errands. My husband took the rest of the week off to help me out. I had an appointment with the three teachers I am doing one of my workshops with on Monday to finish our planning. We met at Panera in Davenport which was very hard for me to navigate. Micah had a doctor's appointment and I had to get Marshall into the dentist for an emergency. I had to go have another INR done and the gal who did my blood draw was brutal and hurt me. I was surprised because I have a vein in my right arm that everyone uses all of the time without a problem. She shoved the needle that was too big for me and she either went thrugh the vein or right past it. She continued to dig around until she hit it. Grr, then, of course, the alternator went out on the jeep today. This, of course happened while the other car is in the shop and we are waiting to take the blue car in the shop when it is done. Today was a pain in the behind.
The guys worked together to fix the jeep which is good because I have two doctor appointments and physical therapy in the morning.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and I will have answers to all of my questions. Is there any new damage due to my fall? Will I be able to go to work and do my presentations and work half days to help me manage writing lesson plans for an unknown sub? That would help me a great deal.
I'll let you know too... Thanks for supporting me so much!
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Yesterday was tough. I'm not over this fall and when I went to my scheduled Physical therapy appointment, the therapist was concerned too. He brought in a colleague to check as well and they decided to do massage to try and break up the big knot on my incision site and then to ice me down good rather than work my hip out. the PT was astounded to see me walk in because I was not bearing any weight or doing any of the good things he saw me doing on Thursday.
They had me call my ortho (who I knew was out of town until Wednesday.) I didn't know their big office was closing at 11 yesterday and of course, I had therapy at 10, so they couldn't help me much. I asked them what to look out for and what I should do for myself. (I guess that I haven't explained the high level of pain I have had non-stop since I had my accident. I have a big knot on the incision that still has the hospital bandage. Walking is painful in every way.) My ortho's nurse was amazed that the folks in the ER hadn't undressed my incision and looked at it. She recommended that I use ice, take it easy and that I remember that the ER doesn't close and if need be, I go back. I had my coumadin put on hold last Friday because the level was too high and she said that that was probably a good thing. I will get a call from them on Wednesday morning to let me know if the doctor wants to see me early--his current schedule is loaded and frozen unless he directly changes anything. I have an appointment on Friday morning with him. Personally, I am barely functioning due to pain right now. It is relentless and unlike my post-op pain. It is a nauseating kind of pain that I cannot find a way to sit or lie or move to be a bit comfortable. Anyway, my ortho will be able to get the x-rays from the hospital and as my PT mentioned, be able to look for anything that he needs to see which might be different than what the ER doc was looking for.
Anyway, I am not having a good time. We usually go out on New Year's Eve for a family date and this year, we debated and debated until I finally told them we could still go bowling and I would watch rather than play. We had continued problems with deciding on a restaurant for dinner and again, we intervened with pizza and appetizers. I wish I could have stayed at home but I didn't want to ruin the family party. We did come home early and end the night earlier than usual. We had a lot of fun and the kids got along really well. Marshall was at work and Mason was with his friends, but the rest of us were together.
I am trying to manage things as they are right now and will wait until I hear from my doc tomorrow. I have plans to go to school and direct my husband to take down the Christmas tree and holiday decorations and to write lesson plans. Those plans may change.
I will do only what makes sense and makes me feel better until I am told to do anything else.
I'll keep you informed. I sure hope that lousy fall didn't cause anything to set me back.
Have a happy New Year!!
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Oh my, oh my...
I have been struggling all week to not do too much, but it is hard to be me and to let things go. I have done too much on every day except for last Sunday when the snow kept me in, Christmas Day, and yesterday after a stern talking to from my very nice new physical therapist.
So, today, with all of the wisdom of an ant, I decided it was time to go grocery shopping. I wanted healthy food and good choices for meals around here and I know what the rest of my family here will buy without my careful observation. My husband, our daughter Marissa, and myself left around 11:30 to go to (of all places) our big Super Walmart. They sell large sizes of many things which will support meals for my large family. Anyway, I went by and selected some wonderful fruit and veggies, and walked over to get bananas. (I don't like the great big ones my husband and daughter choose to buy...) Anyway, they came moseying over and I decided that I should sit down and rest my hip after all of the walking. (I considered a wheel chair or a motorized cart when I came in, but the motorized carts would require me to fold up my leg too much.) Anyway, when I went to sit down, the walker moved or the wheel came off or I don't know, but I flew over it and crunched my right shoulder and new right hip against the dried fruit display. I didn't hit my head or lose consciousness and all I could feel was pain in this hip and my back and my shoulder and it was horrid. I remember looking at my husband and saying that I didn't have any idea how he was going to get me up. At this point, I became aware of the number of people watching the show and the Walmart worker who said that I wasn't going to be getting up. They called an ambulance and helped to make me "comfortable" which wasn't possible.
To make a long--a really long story short. I ended up in the ER and after they could take the cervical collar off, they gave me a shot of pain meds and did the x-rays I was begging for. There was no dislocation of my new hip.
There is a lot of swelling in my hip and the pain is outrageous. The swelling and bruising on my right shoulder isn't fun either. I cannot sit comfortably in any position or location. I am thoroughly a mess. I am aching and don't know how to do much to help myself. I have tried periodic ice bags and heat, I cannot get comfortable at all.
Now, if I go through all of the reasons that were my fault that this happened with you all, you would tell me to let it go because I cannot change this accident. I am so sorry that I am so stubborn and that I don't know how to delegate and accept the way others do things.
I went to my WW meeting this week and lost .8 pound. That leaves me 6 over where I was pre-op. I am checking out this big hunk of swelling on my hip where my incision is.
We had a wonderful holiday and I only lost 3 different blogs that I wrote to share that with you.
It is time to find a new position to sit in because I cannot stand this. I'll update you when I can...
Sunday, December 23, 2012
It is nasty outside here today and after the original dumping of rain we got, the snow, temps that rose to the upper 30s allowing some melting--our ground areas were icy and slippery and my husband's resolve that I shouldn't try to go to church and take a chance won against my plans to go to church and show off what I am already capable of made me decide to stay home. He was pretty firm about it and he did finally give in, but I thought it was important for me to take him seriously. He was shocked when, I, the most strong-willed person he has ever known, listened to him and cooperated.
Part of the reality is that I am resting off yesterday. We spent about 6 hours shopping yesterday, mostly grocery shopping, with a bit in the drug store. I started out by going along to pick Micah up from his bowling league, and then we went to Weight Watchers so I could weigh in. Sadly, I had a 6.8 pound gain. I expected a gain--let's see, IV fluids, lack of exercise like I am used to a change in what I normally eat, a metal bar in place of my bones, constipation, pain meds...I expected a gain, but it was pretty hard to accept that much after I had tracked and eaten wisely all week, avoiding salt, sweets, and fats. Oh well, they gave me a "Bravo" sticker for even showing up. I know that my diet must be a great deal heavier on protein than usual and that I won't be able to work out at the same level of intensity for a while as well. It will take me a bit until I am on my losing path again. I won't quit trying but I will do everything in my power to take care of me because I need and deserve that!! (I may need help in deciding whether or not I should put this new weigh in on my start page. Please voice your opinions on that one!!)
We went on to the grocery store. I knew when I looked at their little electric carts that they would be painful for me to use. The seat was too low to the floor and I would have had to bend beyond that 90 degrees that was forbidden. I ruled that out and figured I could walk and sit on the seat of my walker if I needed. I had forgotten what it was like to be truly disabled and trying to get around in the grocery store on a busy day. People kept bumping in to me --or even worse, they would get behind me in a line and instead of being patient and waiting until the line moved, I would hear a loud sigh and then, the person(s) behind me would jerk around me and rush away like I was the dirt on their shoes. It happened over and over and over again. I won't lie, there were occasions when my husband with the cart and I with my walker were kind of blocking the lane, but there were as many when either we weren't blocking anything or that other people were the ones blocking it. I know I shouldn't have been offended but I was offended by people who were that impatient and unkind toward another who was obviously having issues walking. I am so lucky that I had forgotten this from the last time I was post-op and on crutches because it is enough to convince one to stay out of public.
After two very crowded grocery stores and a trip to Walgreens for a number of odds and ends that included flu shots for two of our children, I was spent. We left home at 10:15 AM and got home around 5:15 PM. About 30-45 minutes of that time was driving from here to there, but that leaves about 6 1/4 hours on my feet and I was tired, tired, tired. My family talked me into pizza for dinner and I didn't even complete a serving of that, I went to sleep. My youngest daughter looked at me and told me that I really didn't know how to take it easy and I guess she is right.
So... today, I have been home and except for a teeny, tiny bit of help with some cleaning and baking, I have been quiet. I have done a bit of walking and my exercises, but I stayed home from church and away from any and all errands. I watched "Miracle on 34th St" "The Polar Express: and "How the Grinch Stole Christmas." I have taken a couple of naps too. I should have worked on my presentation for the big conference, but one more day won't hurt anything on that one.
Tomorrow will be a big day--I am going to school with a couple of big helpers to retrieve all of the gifts that have been hiding out there and we will move them to Mitchell's apartment until after the candlelight service tomorrow evening. I need to make a couple of more brief stops for 2 items for gifts, and then I need to buy the veggies for our veggie/ relish tray. When I get home, I have to make 2 big pots of soup for Christmas Eve dinner and the hors d'oeuvre tray. We are greeters at church for the 4:30 family service and we are lighting the Advent candles as well. After the service, we will go home, have dinner and our family gift exchange. Marissa, Micah, Mitchell, and Laura will all be singing in the church choir for the 10:30 Candlelight Communion service. After we leave there, Mitchell and probably Mason will bring all of the gifts here and we will put them out after everyone else has gone to bed. I know how old my kids are, but this is the way we have done things for years and I am not willing to break the tradition now.
Christmas Eve is a really important part of our tradition. Our involvement at church means a great deal to me and that is part of the reason I gave up going to church today. I would have hated to have done something that would have prevented me from enjoying the wonderful day that we will have, as we wait for the birth of the Christ child. This is a day of wonder and glory and that has impacted the hearts of so many, so much more than any other day. I know that we often get weary of seeing the stores put out their decorations in September and of listening to some types of Christmas music for too long. I know that we resent the hype and the way that people have ignored or forgotten the real reason for the holiday and the whole commercial deal that Christmas has become in so many places and different ways, but there is a day of love and caring that exists in the hearts of many, and I have raised my family to understand and appreciate that.
Have a wonderful Christmas Eve--may your day be special and full of love!!
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