Wednesday, October 31, 2012
I am in a bizarre mood for me. I just want to start arguments with people who have caused me grief lately--I don't mean little bits of grief, that's a part of life. I mean people who have gotten me upset and raised my blood pressure kinds of grief. that is not who I am and it is not my job to do such a thing. However, a very wise friend of mine reminded me that it is a lot easier to say "no" when you are feeling irritated. I sure hope that works for me on Halloween.
Today, when we were supposed to meet, nobody showed up until 3:25 when I was getting ready to leave for my doctor's appointment. (My friend Linda sure called that. It's probably a good thing that I didn't read her response to my Monday blog until after the event, ha ha.) Two of the others showed up then and as they asked enough questions to realize that there is nothing planned and we are in a real bind, they decided to go to talk to the principal about sending notes home to parents and announcing a date change. I'll have to wait until tomorrow to see how that played out, but I am betting that the principal won't go for that. this is when I have to be able to say "No." I am not going to put this on my back, my friends. I teach back to back lessons without a break on any given day except Wednesday and that is getting to be a heavy load due to the nature of the kids I see. (I have many who are having serious problems and who are not having easy success. I am digging deep into my toolbox to find strategies and ideas for getting their reading skills to grow. Many of these same children also have some behavior problems that also take a good deal of energy--so my plate is really full.)
This is not the only situation that is bugging me. I also have had a lot of problems with one of the lifeguards at the pool. She doesn't do anything and on at least two occasions, I have taken abuse at some wayward youth hands because she sits, flirting with whatever random male shows up and ignores the things they are doing. It is really bugging me, so I filed a written complaing over the weekend on a comment card that is meant to praise one's favorite staff member. This young lady needs to get her act together and I am a bit weary of seeing her sit and do little and nothing, often putting people in danger by her inactivity.
I am grumpy. I don't know if it is pain, fatigue, over-work, tension, "diet rage," dealing with our car problems and the resulting financial problems that correspond, or what. However, I know me and I know that I am having a hard time just handling things my way and I want to hold people around me accountable in a way that fits their crimes.
Maybe it is the full moon--or Halloween??
Maybe it is thoughts of my pending surgery on Thursday. However, now that I have done this once, I know what is coming and the outcome is wonderful--so that doesn't make sense.
I don't like being taken advantage of and I don't like being treated unfairly. I look at the duty schedule and I know that I have twice as many turns as some of my colleagues and the principal who wrote this beings out the worst in me. I have to go to work early in order to do this duty and that is not fun given the fact that sometimes I sit up all night and have finally fallen asleep in the morning. Ok, I know that isn't her fault, but assigning us duty that requires us to be to work before our contracted time is her fault and not distributing these opportunities fairly is her fault. Also, I am still trying to collect paperwork for the tutoring program from other teachers that clearly says it is due to be turned in by August 24 on it. That is her fault too, because she lets them do such things all of the time instead of requiring them to meet assigned deadlines. This is often a problem for me and I cannot complete my work without their data.
Anyway, right now--in this time and place, I am grumpy. I want to get over it and feel like me. Do you think chocolate or sleep or ??? will get me over this? I need to get a grip.
Any thoughts and ideas would be gladly appreciated. I could use some help!
Take care of yourselves and don't go where ever it is that I am at.
Monday, October 29, 2012
As if I weren't busy enough, we have a parent night scheduled for November 15 and it has been delegated to our "reading cadre" to do. We had an organizational meeting in early August and nobody has spoken of anything since. I wanted to make it a "reading lock in" for the families and hold break out sessions for the parents to attend during the evening. the others wanted to invite an authour to come and present to the families. It was left with some of them to hunt some authors up. We just had an author night at our school and I think it is too much to do the same thing again. Maybe, I am not meant to help with this!
Anyway, today, we got an email from the principal saying that we had to do it, the parents were told at their meeting that we were doing it and to expect it. There are 6 of us in the group and at least half cannot help out. I have no clue where this is going, but I am feeling like there will be a lot of work for whoever gets this on their plate and personally, I am meeting myself coming and going.
I sent the entire school an email telling them we would have a meeting right after school tonight and if they couldn't come, they needed to send a return email and let us know and they needed to share their ideas. So far, I have had two emails from people saying that they couldn't come and there were no ideas at all. Oh boy, it will be interesting to see how this comes out.
Share your thoughts...
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Today was a historical day for our church. We chose a new pastor after our search committee spent hours and weeks and months looking. She preached today and was quite comfortable with us while finding a way to give encouragement and motivation. She did a nice job with the children and the pastoral prayer as well. It was a good service and when we had our congregational meeting to vote, things were fairly quick and easy. Her name is Mariah or "Pastor Mariah" and we are ready foir some leadership. I like the fact that she has experience with refugees and the community that we serve. I think she will continue the programs that Michael started and build upon them. It makes me quite happy to know that those programs will be safe.
This week will be a lot less frantic than last week was. I have a doctor's appointment after school on Tuesday, my class on Halloween Wednesday, my cataract surgery on Thursday afternoon, and a follow-up with the eye surgeon before school on Friday. Friday is a half day inservice program and as soon as our principal lets me know which grade level meeting to go to, I will be attending something. I have my duty day on Halloween, and that is my only day to go to school early this week.
When I got to school on Friday, I had a ghost picture in my room mailbox along with a bag full of Halloween candy. The note basically said that I had been "booed" and it is now my turn to do the same to two other people. Awesome, I needed a bag of candy. Anyway, I haven't opened it yet and I left it at school. I think I will give it to my 14 year old on Halloween since he is too old for trick-or-treating and too young for parties. He is kind of lost this year as to what he should do on Halloween. I think his oldest sister might take him to a couple of haunted houses.
We still don't have our little car up and running. Besides the limitations on when we can go where, it is costing us a fortune to keep filling the jeep up with gas. I sure wish that the guys could get that car fixed--they only have a couple of things lest to do on it, but apparently they are tricky to do. Since I cannot even open the hood, lol, I cannot fuss or complain about this.
Anyway, that's about it for now in my world. Things are both changing and staying the same, but all are getting better. I lost .8 this week, so I am still well on my way to my goal. YAY!
Best wishes on your goals as well!
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Well, I'm at it again. I am stressing over the expectations I have on myself and the things I have to accomplish. Just think, there are 2 months from today until Christmas. Let me ad to that and share what has to happen in my world by then... My second cataract surgery. Completing my grad class and that includes 2 exams, a field project, a final project. Starting my kindergarten program that begins today. One quarter of school instruction that will end with progress reports for my 68 students. Thanksgiving. Halloween--which may be my low-key holiday since our kids are older. Christmas and includes shopping, decorating, planning the food. Possibly selecting a new pastor for our church. Our 25th wedding anniversary. Getting this house ready for my post-op needs. My hip replacement surgery.
Yes, I should never think of the list of things I have to do over time because I have no idea how I am going to complete this many important items in the time that is available. I am also sure that there are things that I have forgotten as well. I have these three areas of my life and although they overlap a bit, being a mother (and wife), a teacher and a learner are all big, time consuming tasks. I also want to mention that I still have 18 pounds left to lose on my weight loss goal--hopefully 8 of them by Dec. 17. I have to get started on my professional development plan. I need to join a couple of organizations and get started on my own research to go with it. Whew... There is always a lot of pressure in my world.
There's a more positive spin to this--let me see if I can say it a different way. We finished week ten of our grad class last evening and I have an almost perfect grade (I lost .5 of a point on the first exam.) I have a professional development plan. My work around the house is started and has simply been put on the shelf as we get our cars up and running. I started my holiday shopping way back during the spring and I need to sort out who I have gotten what gifts for to date. My cataract surgery is half way finished and has already made a wonderful positive impact on my life. As for work, I am excited to start seeing kindergarten students today and it will be fun as always. I need to look at their profiles and then, the lesson plans will be easy to write and those little darlings will get a good start to their academic support. As for my hip, I have a good friend helping me to find a reading specialist to or an experienced reading teacher to sub for me. I am halfway there on that situation and I will handle it with the support of my union president when it is time for me to be off work so I can heal. And--as for that, I have already lost 12.4 of those 30 pounds, so that is a great start on that. I bet I'll make it to the 20 pound mark by December 17.
OK, now I can breathe. Sometimes, I just need to put the positive spin on what is on my mind and then, I can run with things.
It is time to head for work and get this day going. I have to leave a bit early for yet another doctor's appointment this week (#3 of 3 in 3 days.) My world is a busy place with a lot going on--that break for the past two weeks was really needed even if it was driven by a lot of appointments too.
I can do this and that will be my mantra for today!!
Gentle hugs, one and all!!!!
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Going back to work has made me realize a few things...
I like my work. I am good at analyzing what children need as readers and giving it to them. I can help make a big difference in the lives of my students regularly. I am still a learner as well and know how to get help and learn about my work.
I am not as enthused with working for somebody. A couple of things happened (already) yesterday that made me know that the same old regime is in our building and that there is someone who can treat me as unfairly as she wants and in a very public way--and I have to let her get away with it. She can make it look like she has made a dumb mistake. However, if that is true, she is making a lot of them and the many disrespectful ones come my way over and over again. I wish I knew why she did that--really knew. I have a couple of guesses, but I'd like to be able to crawl into her thoughts and find out for sure.
Anyway, my right eye is improving by the moment. It isn't fond of the lighting at school and I see these waves of light off to the side when I am there. Those little waves are a lot easier to handle than the sparkles and junk I was seeing at night before, but after a while, they are pretty annoying. My room doesn't have any windows and I cannot turn the lights off or down. Keeping busy helps me to ignore them the best that I can.
I have an early meeting today followed by my duty assignment. After school, I have a doctor's appointment and then I need to go back to school for the Title 1 meeting that I learned about yesterday. Maybe I'll be able to go exercise after that. I cannot go to the pool until the evening open swim time because I'm not allowed to simply exercise when the adults are in the pool. I worry about kids splashing, but I have a special corner that I exercise in and I simply tell them why I need for them to go away. Anyway, it will be a long day for me and my back is growly and owly today. I have to prevent it from getting worse and do everything I can to get it better.
Have a great day--Do what you need to do to make it that way!!
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