Thursday, October 18, 2012
I haven't slept tonight--and I am still wide awake. I know this is a bad way to go to surgery because it is hard to wake up in recovery and you feel awful. I think this is truly nerves about having surgery on my eye. Even though I have had some 45-50 surgeries in the past 12 years, this is different to me. It doesn't make a lot of sense--I didn't do this with the big fusion procedure on my back that lasted 9 hours with 4 surgeons who had to displace my major body organs to do the work on my spine. I am not making much sense and I know it--but with my eye open, the doctor has to make 2 cuts in my eyeball to remove the lens whioch is now covered by one type of cataract on the inside and two others on the outside. Everyone who has had experience with this is telling me that I will be "so happy with the results." I believe them too, I am just a bit anxious about this involving my eye. As my right eye is now, I am legally blind--that is a good reason to fix this. I have a surgeon with an incredible amount of procedures in his experience and a high percentage of successes. I should be good to go, but...
I had a good class tonight and learned of an article and a study that basically proves that America's teachers are hard workers and who are doing better than teachers with similar populations from around the world with their students. I hope this study gets out to the people who have been trashmouthing teachers in the past few years.
Anyway, I finished typing my paper for class today--it turned out to be 13 pages long. The assignment was to interview 3 English Language Learners and to analyze their errors in speaking English, defining them by categories we have learned. We also had to summarize what we learned, describing trends and explaining what good teaching needs to be done with the ELLs we worked with. It was a powerful assignment and I learned a lot about being an ELL and what can help them to become more proficient in English. I also noticed some similarities in the three children I interviewed in their needs which gave me some ideas of what "all kids" in their age group probably needs instruction in.
Our youngest son is being bullied by a couple of kids--in school and on the bus, so I am going to have to pay the school and the bus barn a visit this week. This cannot continue because it is making him anxious. The rumoprs being said are all completely ludicrous and involve foul language and concepts too which is upsetting his world. I wish people would teach their kids the "Golden Rule" and the difference from "right and wrong." That simple background would save a lot of kids from pain and grief.
I'll check in sometime after my surgery--I'll be sleepy and I might even think about sparking ...
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
I think "fixing things" is the theme for my fall break. Miles, our 21 year old auto/diesel mechanic spent his entire day working on both of our vehicles. He has made good progress on both of them, but neither is quite finished. I am proud of his focus on this, he doesn't always have that sort of focus on things. I think his college education is really paying off. If all goes well he graduates at the end of this semester.
He also is going to help do some work on our bathroom and kitchen. We bought some materials and he is ready to replace some of the floor that is worrying me and doing work with plumbing and other things. I think Miles gets his understanding about how things work and how to fix them from his father, the military mechanic. I am thankful that we have people who can do this kind of thing,even if it takes a bit longer and they have to do a bit more trial and error. I am not sure how we could absorb the bills any other way. This has been one thing after another and has run into hundreds and hundreds of dollars--all after we took the car to a dealer who charged us almost 800 dollars and even after repeated returns, the problem wasn't fixed. I am pretty angry about that, that caused us a lot of financial grief that we haven't recovered from yet. I wonder what can be done about them. Grr-rr-rr.
I had my hip injection from my pain management doc today. He is such a good and thorough professional. He told me what to do to make sure he is part of my medical team for my hip replacement. He also met our youngest daughter at the fitness center on Saturday. He took a tumble answering a text from his daughter when he was walking down the stairs. I am sorry because he has been through almost as many medical procedures as me, and falling down 4 stairs hurt him. However, he did my injection and as the anesthesia wears off tonight, I am starting to feel better. He had me make an appointment for in a month because he said it would be worth it for me to have that other injection for relief before my surgery during the busy holiday season. I would like to find a way to honor this guy for his kindness and professional service because he always leaves me feeling physically better as well as emotionally better.
I started the eye drops for my eye surgery today. They have made my eye a bit dry and itchy, as well as distorting my vision in a new way. The surgical clinic called me to get my data, med list, and share information with me this afternoon. The nurse I spoke with me reminded me of the ambulatory surgical center that my ortho uses, efficient and kind. That is the best place to go to for a surgery. They are more efficient with IVs than the hosipitals, especially the ERs. They have it down to an art. I have to be there at 6:30 on thursday morning. The eye surgeon has ordered anesthesia because I have "wiggly eyes that will roll up" keeping him from getting to them when he needs to. He said that the surgery takes a total of 15 minutes. That is pretty amazing.
Anyway, I am getting repaired. Our car and our jeep are getting repaired. Our kitchen and bathroom are getting repaired. Life should improve with all of this repair work going on. I am looking forward to the outcome.
I'll be going to my weigh-in a day early this week--I am wondering how that will go. I am trying to stick to my plan. I hope to finish my classwork in the morning so I can go to the pool in the afternoon. (Dr. F said I couldn't go this evening because the pool water after an injection like I had could result in an infection.) I did a lot around here to make up for that time--it was tricky with the numbness in my leg and foot.
Take care, my friends!
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Somebody asked me a question today that is an interesting one to answer: "How do you do this? How do you stick with it for this long?" My answer is a bit long and I am curious how others do it.
I am well into my thrid year here at SparkPeople. I started out kind of slow, but I got charged up and sparked hard. I had a lot of success when I got that spark and I really lost weight. The hard part is that I have done that before--a few times, hmm, at least four or five that I can think of. I lost over 100 pounds at least four other times, but eventually, I gained it back. I have become a lifetime member at Weight Watchers at lease twice. I got good at losing weight...
This time, it wasn't quite so easy and when I got just over 100 pounds, it got harder again. I hit a plateau and I didn't lose any weight for one month, then two, then well about all of the way to six months. I also didn't give everything up and I watched things, not eating some of the things that I cannot really control.
However, I learned at the end of June that I was going to need a hip replacement and that became my newly found motivator. I really wanted to get to a healthy BMI for my height beofre that surgery came to be. I gave myself a lot of time to lose 30 pounds--from late July until next June.
In the meantime, a funny thing has happened. I started having success again. It is interesting, but I found a "new" formula for my weight loss. It is fruit and I am eating a lot of it...3-4 servings every day with 2-3 meals and snacks. I start my day off with a nice breakfast and at least two servings of fruit and it makes me feel both content and energized. I eat a more vegetarian type of lunch as well. Then, I have a snack with protein in the afternoon, a regular dinner, and another snack with protein in the evening. Obviously, this will not work for everyone, but it is working like crazy for me. I can stick in a few other things from time to time, but this particular meal formula is helping me to lose 1-2 pounds a week again. Yay.
Now, moving my weight in a downward fashion has become more important. I have had to get rid of my 30 pound weight loss goal for the time being because I am having my hip replacement in December now. I am still at it and am hoping to close in on 20 pounds by my surgery date, but if I don't get there, I will get close. And after my hip surgery is past, I am jumping back on this plan and working toward that goal. I am looking forward to maintaining the weight I want to stay at forever very soon--before my 4th Sparkversary.
I am on my way. I motivate myself and I get a lot of help from my Spark Friends. Even though I have several friends and family who I am talking about losing weight and my goals to, it is awesome to have so many spark friends around who are all in a similar situation with me. It is easy to talk to them and to continue to plan for success here.
Thanks, Spark Friends!!
How do you stick with you plan? What motivates you?
Thursday, October 11, 2012
That's a bit of a provocative title. I need to finish that--Today, I saw the surgeon who did my gall bladder surgery--and my biopsy and other things for a general follow up. (I was supposed to be seeing him annually, but I didn't realize that until he and his staff sent me a rather pushy letter about 6 weeks ago.) I haven't seen him since not long after I started sparking. Anyway, today he told me that I had "skinny legs and no butt." He was delighted with my weight which is not something that doctors have expressed to me much in my lifetime. His nurse had quite a time with all of my med changes and finally she deleted everything and just started over. I am kind of at the place with my weight loss that i don't think about it and how I have changed much, so this kind of thing energizes me. If my weight in his office is consistent with what it will be tonight at my weigh in, I will be sharing a nice 2 week loss here today.
Last evening, my professor was ill and we didn't have much of our class. She handed back the exams from last week and I scored 29.5 out of 30. I was a bit surprised because I kind of blanked on one question but it was correct. I lost a part of a point on an important detail I left out on another question that I really knew pretty well. I fretted over that exam a bit more than I needed to--I should keep the idea in my mind that I am taking classes for the knowledge I can get and use with my students. Learning for a purpose like this makes things like exams, grades. and homework a bit easier.
I have already been busy today--I cleaned off our front porch to motivate the guys into putting away the lawn furniture after I went to the store for a few necessities. I am going to go to the pool in just a few minutes to get my work out in early today. I'll come home and prepare dinner before going to my weigh-in tonight. After all of that, I'll be back to spark and share.
Again, for this being a break, I am busy enough!! I need to start on a big assignment for my class tonight or tomorrow. We had to interview three English Language Learners and record their mistakes in using English. then we have to write it up and analyze each error. It will be a way to help me work with ELLs and understand where they are at in learning English. I have done the interviews, I simply need to write the reports up. I think I'll add that to my list for tonight.
Take care--I learned today that it is important to look back and think about those early goals and where I have been. I also need to really see myself as others do. Even after over 3 years, I never have considered anything about me as "skinny." I think my doctor woke me up to my true appearance to others. That is an important thing, once in a while. I lived my life as the "fat" girl, daughter, woman, student, mother, teacher, and so on. I now understand that that adjective no longer applies. I am the one with "skinny legs and no butt." Ha Ha That's amazing. According to his scales, my total weight loss is 155.0 pounds. I also was curious about my total loss. I want to lose 20 more, so that will put me at 175 when I get there. (Remember how in early August that goal was 30? I am 1/3 of the way there already!!)
Did you notice I said "when I get there?" I may get slowed down by my coming surgeries--but I will still get there. I am doing this the right way and I feel good about it. This is what is best for my hip and my back--and my well being. For now, I will celebrate where I have been and where I have come. I no longer celebrate by shoving something in my mouth. I do it by sharing my good news!
Take care--keep on Sparking. My newest mantra is "Together, even big jobs seem small!" We can do this, you and I and our other spark friends!
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
These three topics can be a problem, especially if they aren't working right. We have been dealing with issues with both of our cars and it has been a lesson in patience and how to use money budgeted for other very important things. The result is that after a new water pump and replacing the muffler and exhaust system that was damaged when our jeep was taken to the shop, it is running. After replacing the radiator and any number of other things, our car is not working yet. This family cannot manage with one vehicle and this is a problem.
How does that work with other things? Last evening, I decided to let our son use the car to take him and his brother to work and that I would go for a walk rather than going to the pool. It was blustery. We live in the country where there aren't sidewalks and paved roads everywhere. I had quite a time getting in an hour and a half of walking that kind of matched my pool workouts. I have had intense pain in my hip since then that won't let up. I'll be glad to get that injection next week that should hold me over until my replacement in December.
I'm going to go to the pool today before class and work it out. I hurt a lot and my meds and patches aren't doing the trick. I tried some gentle movement and stretching too. Ouch. This cooler weather makes me miserable and I know it is just a tiny step to what is to come.
I think I might try an ice bag next--although, I hate to get cold when the coolness is already bothering me. I will overcome this--I just need to find the right combination of activity, pain meds, temperature, and prayers. I think I'm a candidate to retire in the sun belt. I also don't think that could happen because I won't go that far from my family.
In the meantime, I am wondering if I could take one of our cars and run over the other one. It won't solve anything an would definitely make things worse--but for the moment, just a moment, it might give me a happy rush of adrenaline that would help everything. Ha ha, only in my imagination could such a thing be a solution.
Things could be worse--I might not be on break!!
Take care of yourselves!!
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