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Wednesday, 9/26 My Doctor Came Through for Me!!

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Hi there,

I do really need to get better at patience. I got a phone call from my doctor at 1:00 this afternoon. He is contacting the radiologist to schedule my next hip injection ASAP. He also had a cancellation on Friday at 1:10 and will be seeing me then to evaluate my shoulder. By now, I know that I have an "A-Team" of doctors--my pain doc, my ortho, my rheumy, and my PCP--and these 4 guys all give me good answers and take care of me. Other docs and most of their nurses are not exactly my "A-Team," and I have to find my way past them to get what I need. It is frustrating though, to have to work my way around some of these other people to get to the doctors. I do listen to what they tell me and I understand my diagnoses and care plans. Whew, I am sure glad that the treatments for my back didn't interfere with the plan for my hip. When I see my ortho on Friday, I may talk to him about doing the replacement during the holidays. I will not be able to wait until the end of the school year because the injections aren't lasting more than three months--so this will need to be my new plan. By getting it on the calendar now, I have time to really get ready for it.

Today was a day of problem solving for me as a teacher and a professional in the community. I had to go to work early for a meeting where we worked on plans for two of the children I see. Both have a myriad of complicated problems and the team I work with did a good job of branistorming and coming up with positive plans for both of these very different children who are not having academic success. After that, I got my daily dose of morning duty--I was late, but I did the job that was given to me.

After school, I went to the park board office and I met with one of the board members and the building director about the fiasco that went on during the summer program. I shared the letter I had written with one of them who hadn't seen it and went over some of the details, but then we spent a good deal of time discussing how to fix the problems. That is my wish--not to end the program or anything even like that, but to make it better. I did learn that they are resisting the funding sources desire to make academics a big part and want to keep it recreational in nature. I don't know if we can get both sides together--but without any funding in the great, very broke state of Illinois for summer school and academic support, we need this program that caters to children who really need a quality program with competent care-givers and role models. That group of people did not fit either category last summer and the gal that they really like who was in charge of them did not do enough supervision in order to "fix the problems." However, I hope that by reaching out to them and offering my ideas and my help, that they will use anything I suggested and work towards taking this to a new and improved level.

I like that--it may become my new mantra: I am taking me to a new and improved level. I am losing weight regularly and I am planning my hip replacement which will both take me to a new and improved level. I am also seeing the eye doctor to plan my cataract surgery--hopefully within the next couple of weeks for my right eye, with the left one to follow two weeks later. Wow, I will be able to see again soon. We will get to the bottom of my shoulder issues the same day and we can get organized for caring for this hip. For any of you who know pain, you will really understand this next statement. For those of you who don't know pain, I am so glad for you and want to gently remind you to stick with your spark goals and take care of yourself so you don't get to this place if at all possible. I have been having that severe, nasty pain that makes me want to vomit. I cringe when I sneeze or cough or yawn because I feel pain down in my hip and shoulder, and I avoid taking any deep breaths because I know where I am going to feel it. This type of pain takes over your life and functioning in so many ways that it gets a life of its own. I am more than ready to get rid of it and get back to my regular back pain that gets its biggest relief from my regular pain meds and my workouts at the pool. Right now, I do my best at the pool, but it isn't too enjoyable because my hip is not cooperating with me.

So, Wednesday is my day to regroup. I need to get caught up on my homework and reading, my report cards, and the confounded, complicated new evaluation plan for our district and state. It is a time-consuming plan that requitres two years of work with an improvement plan and goals that will help me to be better at what I do. I don't want to sound arrogant, but I have done the National Board Certification process and the same renewal process and that is where it takes you. I think I am pretty competent and that makes this new evaluation model very difficult and time-consuming. That is why there have been teacher strikes and issues in our state. They have not been over salary or pension or insurance and perks, they have been over an evaluation program that takes time away from people who do not have enough of it as things stand. An evaluation is supposed to be about somebody in charge "evaluating" one's competency and ability at doing the work they were hired to do. I have to have the first document completed, along with a follow-up interview with the principal, by next week. I am not anywhere near there, not even close. My weekend will be about studying for this first exam in my class and preparing this document. Wednesday will be about doing my progress reports. I have switched to the checklist format fromt he far better anecdotal records because with 68 students, I just do not have the time to write all of those up. I think they give parents a far better picture of their child and how they function as a reader, but i cannot get them done. I will try to write up some helpful comments that are generic for each grade level with tips for the parents to go along with the progress report form I am using this year. It is not the perfect plan, but there are limits to what I can do.

"There are limits to what I can do." should be my second mantra. I get it, I just don't quite get how to do it when I have such an important job to do for the students who are not having success in their classrooms. There are many layers for these kids that involve their regular classroom, their family situations, their peer groups, and a multitude of real-life situations that most adults have never dealt with. I cannot fix those things, none of them, but I can do a lot of other things to make their time with me and at school a better time with the security of a caring , understanding adult who is there for them. I think my time is far better used in that direction than the complicated evaluation system which puts all of that on my back rather than on the backs of the people in charge who should know if I am doing my job.

Right now, I am going to take a few moments and just feel relief that I am going to get help for the non-stop pain I am dealing with. My shoulder is killing me as I type. How is that for a really off-the-wall description of my current functioning.

Take care, my friends!
Gentle hugs,
Sylvia

  
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_LINDA 9/27/2012 2:26AM

    Bureaucracy, always getting in the way of doing actual useful work. Stress, of course, only compounds the pain you are in. So very sorry for how much you are suffering and that you have to put off getting your hip replaced until the holidays. Four good Dr.'s -that is awesome- ones you must consult with first always.
My sleep is non existent right now. I am waking up in pain. If I sit for too long I hurt. Its keeping me moving but wearing me out. I am guessing my right hip is finally going. Its really affecting my back and my right leg all the way down to my bad foot. But I can't take time off from my work. We are short handed in games directors, I have been given more responsibility and there is no one who can do my month end work. September, October and December are the busiest times at the club.
I can't even do aqua exercise as my foot will cramp just from the buffeting of the water :( So ground pounding is all I can do. I am getting behind in trying to keep up with my Spark friends, so if you don't hear from me this is why. I usually get some Sparking in at 10 pm to midnight after my last night class.
Hoping your shots work this time. I am almost out of dilaudid -will have to use very sparingly as I do anyway because they plug me up :P
{{{gentle hugs}}}
Linda

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DETERMINEDJANET 9/26/2012 1:14PM

    Sounds like some things are coming together for you finally!

I too need that mantra of "can only do so much." I am working at building more down time into my days.

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LIVINGLOVINLIFE 9/26/2012 12:47PM

    JOINT PAIN...Wither BACK KNEE OR SHOULDER PAIN, IT IS SO INTENSE THAT IT WILL KEEP YOU FROM DOING THE THINGS YOU WANT OR NEED TO DO. I AM SO GLAD YOU ARE ON THE WAY TO GETTING RELIEF FROM YOUR PAIN. IT IS SO APPARENT THAT YOU LOVE YOUR JOB AND THE KIDS YOU WORK WITH. YOU SOUND AS IF YOU A TRUE ADVOCATE FOR CHILDREN REACHING THEIR FULL POTENTIAL AND NOT JUST GETTING BY. SO MANY TEACHERS ARE BEING OVERWHELMED WITH ALL THE NEW RULES AND GUIDELINES. DON'T GIVE UP OR QUIT. OUR CHILDREN AND GRAND CHILDREN NEED TEACHERS LIKE YOU. GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR CATARACT SURGERY, I KNOW NOW BEING ABLE TO SEE WELL MUST BE REALLY DEPRESSING FOR YOU. JUST KEEP FOCUSING ON THE THINGS THAT GIVE YOU STRENGTH. SOON YOU WILL BE MOVING BETTER,PAIN FREE AND ABLE TO AND ENJOY THE PEOPLE AND ACTIVITIES THAT REALLY MATTER TO YOU. emoticon

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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/26/2012 11:16AM

    Maybe this injection will hold you longer. I'm glad you have such a good health team.

It sounds like you are continuing to be an excellent advocate for children with learning problems.

Good luck with your many projects. You have a lot of irons in the fire.

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Monday, 9/24 Patience is not one of my virtues!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Hi there,

That doesn't seem like something a teacher should admit, does it? I am pretty good with the kids at school and my own "little darlings." Actually, I do often wish that I was a bit more patient with the ones I gave birth to, but I have grown to realize that the more invested I am, the harder patience can be. It is definitely hard to watch an older child make a bad decision, but unless it is a life threatening or destructive thing, I do know I have to keep myself quiet so that my kids can grow up and deal with the important things in their lives. It can be hard though, but they are not "younger versions of me" and need to gain their own experiences and knowledge. Sometimes "messing up" is the best teacher of all.

I can be patient for some of the good things, like waiting to open a gift. However, sometimes when I get a gift for one of my family members, I cannot save it until their birthday or Christmas like I intended and I give it to them early. I really need to develop my patience there. I did a good job with my husband's birthday presents and he really was surprised--I got him a set of chrome hubcaps and a new spare tire for his little car. Yay, I finally got him something that he likes and can use--and will use. I don't always get his gifts right. That was nice and we got him an ice cream cake for his birthday treat. He didn't actually get his birthday dinner because he put a nice pork roast in the slow cooker this morning and he cooked the rest of the meal.

That comes to my next issue. I am having to wait until Tuesday afternoon to hear from my ortho. The nurse wasn't good with me on the phone today. She told me that I wouldn't be able to get my injection (in my nasty sore hip) as planned because the two SI injections I have had from my pain doc are the same medication and that means I have to wait fro three months from the last of those for the treatment in my hip. Hmm, I could have had another of those in early September, but I chose to wait so I could have one towards the holidays if I needed it. I can have three of those in 6 months. I thought that those were specific to the joint they were put in, but our school nurse told me that they are systemic and although most of the medicine stays int he area of the joint it is put in, some does travel a bit. She also confirmed that she has had the same injections every 2 weeks from her docs. As I got more and more upset (given my current pain levels,) I told the nurse that they might as well schedule the replacement then because I cannot stay at the pain level I am at for three more months.

Then, some reason set in and I asked if I could please leave a message for my doctor. I need my left shoulder checked anyway--and it is my guess that he will give me an injection in it to reduce the inflammation. I want to hear from him what I need. My pain is at the level that it is making me feel nauseated and like food will make me vomit. (Sorry for that graphic description, but when pain is like that, it is extreme.) I am not happy and am having a hard time functioning. Swimming is hard as is walking in the water--that is my "me time" as well as my exercise.

So, I am trying to be patient as I wait for Tuesday afternoon to hear from my doctor. If I don't get the call on schedule, I will call my pain doc and the radiologist who gave the injections and ask them. At the very least, maybe my pain doc can change my meds for pain and breakthrough pain that aren't managing this. I am in trouble--and when pain takes over my world, I don't do well with much of anything else.

Anyway, that's my story and I'm sticking with it!
Gentle hugs,
Sylvia

  
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_LINDA 9/26/2012 1:47AM

    So very sorry for all that you are suffering :((( By all means get after your Doctors until they do something about it. Unlucky the injections are the same medication, is there something different that could be used instead??? If they can't do anything, then yes, push for the replacement and get it over with. Really Sylvia, it will be a huge releif!!
I can see that its hard for any mother to stand by and let her kids learn life lessons the hard way, but really, that will toughen them up and be a good teacher..
My thoughts are with you,
{{{gentle hugs}}}
Linda

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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/25/2012 9:56PM

    I am trying to develop patience but there are some things that we should not have to wait for and relief from pain is one of them. I hope they will help you soon.

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Sunday, 9/22 A Birthday, Weight Loss, and Now, Pain!!

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Hi there,

It's been an incredibly busy week and as I muddled my way through a lot of work, several successes, several issues, my birthday, and a whirlwind of activity, I am back trying to make a decision as I am barely coping with excessive pain. I cannot understand how I, as an intelligent and competent woman can be baffled by my body like I am. The pain I am experiencing is doing just that.

Pain is my issue now and that is what I want to talk about and hopefully get a bit of advice on dealing with it. Most of this started on Thursday and is building its way to an obnoxious crescendo. I wish I had a clue when it would peak. Half of the pain is my right hip--the one that needs a replacement. I will call my ortho to set up my second injection on Monday. This makes me quite sad because it is unlikely that I am going to be able to hold out until the end of the school year for the surgery this way. I have two more injections that I am allowed and it is just over 3 months since I had the first one. If I follow this pattern, I will need the third injection in December or January and that means I will need the surgery by March or April--or the pain will be out of hand with no possible treatment.

The other pain I am trying to cope with is quite odd. It started Thursday in my left shoulder moving into my upper arm where it is squeezing it hard and then radiating down into my right wrist and it throbs. It is intense and I even cried a bit earlier tonight because of it. I thought it was due to the weather change we had at first and then I tried to blame it on my fibromyalgia. However, I am thinking it is the same out of control pain I have had on two other occasions due to some sort of nerve damage. It is sickening and I need to figure out what to do about it. I know what happens when I try to figure out which doc and so on--I have to make multiple appointments one at a time and then wait until each one sends me to another. If anyone has an idea how I can circumvent this system, please let me know. I am considering an Er visit tomorrow that will likely take 4-6 hours. There's no fun in that and only a half a chance that they will get me to the doc I need. They will possibly give me some sort of pain meds and then x-ray/ That won't show anything broken, so they may do something weird like a splint and will possibly send me to a doc--maybe my ortho. I think it needs an MRI and possibly an EMG to get to the source of this discomfort. If I was a doctor, I might have a better guess.

As for my week... On Monday, I had a meeting after school before I went to the pool and went home. On Tuesday, I went to an elementary school and recorded two interviews with ELL children for an assignment in my class. I went shopping to buy some treats for the staff I work with along with 10 pounds of ground beef and seasoning. I made taco meat and brought the dessert for the mandatory Wednesday meeting that I had to leave at 4 to make it to my class. Everyone else had to stay until 8. It was the third of those. I provided the meat and dessert while the principal provided the fixings to go with it for a taco bar. I got it cooked up and took it to school with me on Wednesday. I also got a big cookie to share at my class.

Wednesday was busy in its own right. I forgot to do something for my students, so I didn't tell them it was my birthday. I have been taking all of the first graders from the room I co-teach in to my room each day this week to make ABC books. When school got out on Wednesday, our early dismissal day for staff training, I went and spent 2 hours in that training and left for my class before I went to the pool. I got home around 9PM. My kids and husband got me gifts, and I was happily surprised to learn that I am now wearing jeans that are two sizes smaller than the last pair I bought. YAY!! I needed a pair of jeans that actually fit me because we had to take out all of my former, big fat jeans. I have 3 new tops too, but I think one, if not two of them are going to be too big as well. I will figure out how to solve that at some point--right now, I am postponing putting them on. We had homecoming in the school district where I teach and had a different spirit based set of colors to wear each day and that kept me from trying on anything but the jeans.

On Thursday, I downloaded my recordings of the Tuesday interviews to find out that they didn't work and got to leave work for an appointment with my therapist followed by my WW meeting. I lost 1.8 pounds and am again thankful that I didn't change a lot of my daily diet a few weeks ago. I did some math and in the past 6 weeks, I have lost 2.2, gained .4, gained .4, lost,2.0, lost 3.2 and lost 1.8 which gives me a net loss of 8.0 pounds. I now have 24.8 left to lose before I will feel comfortable to agree to my hip surgery. I do have to admit that my doc didn't suggest this or ask me to do this, I just want to be at the right BMI for my current height. I guess I am an over-achiever. Oh yes, and I don't want to forget that Mason twisted my arm while he had his friend on the phone waiting for a response and got me to say he could get a puppy. She is a sweet little thing, an Australian cattle dog Sadie. I'll share some phtos soon.333333333

On Friday, the primary grades went on half-day field trips to the local art museum. I had a few canceled classes and some sparse ones, so I finished switching out books for the class I co-teach in and I reorganized my closet a bit. I also got caught up on some things and did some paperwork. When my husband came to pick me up, I went to the pool and did 56 laps. Today, I only did 16. I barely could walk or do much of anything and of course, I had a dozen errands to do. I managed grocery shopping but I didn't do well with helping Marissa to find shoes for her homecoming. We have 2 weeks, so I hope we find something by then. Her dress is silver and white and she wants silver pumps. I just couldn't go to another store today after the four we went to.

I haven't sparked much this week because I have had little time to do much, even today. I also have had some significant problems getting a browser to work properly with SP this week. I prefer using Safari and have never had any problems until this week. (I have a Mac.) I kept getting messages that there was a "Bad Input Error. Cookies were too large to open requested link." I tried everything I could think of for a few days and got off and on a few times. I thought of the browser by the end of the week and tried Firefox. I don't much like that choice of browsers, but I gave it a try and was able to open emails and click on links. However, I get lot of error messages that tell me there is a problem with "script" and I have to give it permission to continue. It takes forever to complete tracking food or doing this blog that is undoubtedly far too long. I don't know what is up, but I hope we get back to normal and I can go to Safari and simply take care of my usual Spark activities--learning, sharing, and collecting points for a variety of things.

Anyway, I have a similar week coming. Monday is my husband's birthday--I wrapped his gifts today--I got him a new spare tire for his car (Yes, I wrapped that!) and a set of new hubcaps for the same car along with a few small items he will enjoy...) I am interviewing another student after work and I am using a different recorder this time. I have another doctor appointment on Tuesday, class on Wednesday, my WW meeting on Thursday. I am taking at least half of the day off work on Friday to see the eye doctor and to set up my cataract surgeries. I am expecting a disagreement with one of the teachers I work with because she is trying to force me into changing my student selections. Some of my kids have made nice gains, but to me, that means they are learning. To her, that means I should take those children out of the program and take other kids. My rules don't allow that and all the new scores mean to me is that if they are accurate, I am meeting the kids' needs quite well. Oh, and report cards are due to the principal on Friday because the following week is the end of the first quarter and parent teacher conferences. (I have to miss one evening of those for the exam in my class over the book I haven't completed reading.)

That's my life--and my world. My arm is really hurting and the ice is annoying. There has to be an answer. I'll find it.

Gentle hugs, one and all!!
Sylvia

  
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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/25/2012 9:46PM

    I am sorry you are in such pain again and hope they can give you some relief. As usual you are one busy lady. Happy belated birthday.

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COURTNEY055 9/23/2012 5:29AM

    Hey Sylvia--I've been off and on too..I haven't done as much posting on our team as I should have cuz I've just been busy with back to school stuff and life in general has gotten hectic and I've had medical and psych. stuff come up. OMG...where to begin...

Well, I am now dizzy from reading your blog! I am also on the verge of tears from reading your blog. Both happy and sad. I am happy that your life is so full and active and full of happiness and family. I feel so sad for the pain u constantly endure and manage to live with day in and day out. I have told u before, u are an amazingly strong woman and I (to this day) don't know how u manage all that u do.

I am SO happy for u about the weight loss. How much have u lost in total from start to today? It must be close to 100 right? more? That in and of itself is amazing. I agree about getting down to the right size for the surgery. Very wise..How is the recovery for that surgery? Its great that you're still doing laps too! emoticon ...how u manage to fit that into your life, I'll never know.

I hope school goes well for u as far as dealing with that other teacher goes. What kind of classes do u teach? Is it a kind of special ed program? That takes alot of time and dedication. My stepson is adhd and mild mental retardation and is in all special ed. His teachers are AMAZING and so patient..they make all the difference.

Now, about the pain...I have ulna neuropathy. I have to have surgery to reroute the muscles. I may have to also have surgery on my elbow. They think there may be some structural damage going on there too because of the severity of the neuropathy. My pain (the first indicator of the issue) was a numbness and a tingling on the right side of my hand that traveled all the way to my elbow. It was a painful tingling and an annoying numbness. Does that make sense? I am now on nerve blocking painmed..Topamax. That was the indicator that I had nerve damage. Do u have anything like that? Over time, and maybe this pertains to u, because I didn't get the surgery right away (still haven't gotten it..waiting on MRI exact results and ortho appt) the tingling intensified and I began to lose strength in that hand. That is where I am at now. They upped the topamax because the painful tingles have become worse and the numbness in my right hand is still there. That's my experience with nerve damage.

I don't understand why Mason would twist your arm..that's awful. I hope u punished him!

emoticon on the clothes! I love it when clothes are too big!

Happy shoe shopping too!

Well, I guess that about sums it up. All I can say in a nutshell is WOW...You are super busy yet somehow find time and energy to keep it all together! You are such an inspiration, SYlvia. I don't want this to be an almight "Praise" blog, which I don't think u want it to be either..Lol..but I have to give credit where credit is due! U are one heck of a lady! I hope to see u around the threads. I;m gonna try to start posting in there more often again. I think everyones been on a kinda break. Hey, life happens! You should become a Spark Motivator..ever thought of it?

Gentle hugs back to you...Courtney emoticon

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Sunday, 9/15 Starting the new week, A do over?

Monday, September 17, 2012

Hi all,

Last week was not the happiest nor easiest one in my world. I was ill most of the week with the swelling and pain in my mouth, It finaly went away after most of the week went by. I am glad to be feeling better.

I am also glad that I didn't fet around to changing my eating very much. i lost 3.2 this week which makes me quite happy and when combined with my 2 pound loss from the previous week, they certainly balance out those gains of .4 and .8. Being somewhat ill last week helped things along, but I am aware of that.

My Monday blog will share my week plans and goals.
Take care--happy Sunday!!

Gentle hugs,
Sylvia

  
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DETERMINEDJANET 9/17/2012 10:09PM

    Hooray on the side benefit of losing weight! I am also glad you are feeling better.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/17/2012 2:28PM

    At least you lost some weight the past couple of weeks even if having pain is not the best way to lose it. I'm glad you are better and that at least some good came out of it.

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SUNSET09 9/17/2012 1:12AM

  It does feel good to know that your efforts are not in vain and you're on your way!Looking forward to hear what you have to share! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Tuesday, 9/11 Is it true that "You won't get more than you can handle?"

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Good Morning,

I am awake, of course, and it is much earlier than usual. Part of my denture broke today and I tried to patch it together to get through the day and it hurt the inside of my mouth that was already chapped and sore from a cold or allergy reaction. I woke up because the inside or my torn up motu was so dry that it is way too sore to explain. I will add that to my list of physical complaints.

I typically eat less during the day than I do in the evening, but this kept me from eating much of anything today. My lips are chapped and swollen, I think from something I got into when I was working in my garden on Saturday afternoon. Then, any food that seemed appealing to me was too acidic for my sore mouth to manage. I am going to get a lot of red letter comments from Spark People when I track my food.

I got a message from the principal that scheduled a meeting for Tuesday morning before I have my morning duty. I just had duty on Friday and here I am doing it again. I doubt that I mentioned that one of the other teachers counted up the number of days that each teacher had duty and it turns out that I have 9 days of duty, a special ed teacher has 8 days of duty, and then most of the other teachers have 5 days--with a couple of them only having 4 days for the entire quarter. She did this after I explained that the morning duty prevented me from being able to do any tutoring before school. This is the way that this woman does things--unfairly and showing partiality to her pretty, young, "yes-people" without listening to the voice of experience, skill or understanding. I really get tired of this situation. I am trying to rise above things and be proactive, but when I don't feel well, it is too much for me to do with this sutuation that has went on for far too many years. Grr-rr.

I was accosted at the pool by a lifeguard who I have taken to task and complained about in writing on more than one occasion. When I came in, there were signs on the locker room doors that said that nobody was allowed to do any walking or water jogging during lap-swim sessions. I thought it was a bit silly because everyone needs to do some warm-ups and cool-downs, but if it puts a stop from the ladies getting in the pool and preventing me from working out a half an hour before their 6:00 class and if it ends the strange recent practice of private swim lessons occurring during lap swim, then "YAY!" However, this lifeguard yelled at me and told me that I was "banned from the pool" and couldn't get in. She cited the name of the aquatic director and singled me out. It was embarrassing and rude and inappropriate. I decided that I wasn't going to put up with her nonsense, so I said "I'm going to lap swim and I am getting in the water." That is precisely what I did. I am still angry, especially today, when I kept to lap swimming rather than mixing some walking at the beginning of my workout and exercises throughout my lap swimming--today there were at least 65 people doing things other than lap swimming, the same life guard spent 6 minutes flirting with a male guard and kept me from exercising while she had the lap lane line draped all over the deep end of the pool, there were 2 swim lessons taught in the slow lanes where I swim (because I am not that proficient) and then, 13 minutes before the end of lap swimming, the male lifeguard took out the lap lanes and let the ladies in the coming class get in the pool. I wasn't the only one put out, I was keeping my thoughts to myself--but there were 2 of the regular men who work out then who went to the office and complained loudly. My daughter works there and she had to handle their complaints and she is the reason that I have been quietly trying to figure out how to handle this. I talked to one of the guys about what happened on Friday, because he wasn't there, and he was outraged--he said that "you have been coming here and working out for a long time and if other people were as kind and respectful as you are when they swim, the pool would be a perfect place." That helped me a lot--he then went to tell my daughter about what happened to me--funny in a way, but I do try to keep my business separated from her work.

My rheumy was overloaded for some odd reason today--the first time ever and I have been seeing him for about 15 years. The nurse asked me if I minded seeing his nurse-practitioner and I decided to do it. I started being in a fibro flare about two weeks ago and was expecting him to offer me a kenalog injection. However, she was concerned with my meds and how I am taking them. She recommended that I cut my hydrocodone in half and take a half of one every three hours, saving a full one for bedtime. She recommended that instead of me taking 900 mg of gabapentin every 6 hours (3-300 caps) that I take 900 in the morning, 600 at noon, 600 in the early evening, and then 1500 at bedtime to help promote sleep that lasts longer. She recommended that instead of me taking 100 mg of Savella in the morning and at bedtime that I should take 100 mg in the morning, 50 mg at noon, and 50 mg at dinner time. She said that this would give me more relief from my fibromyalgia during the daytime hours and that I would be on amore even keel with pain management throughout the day along with a boost of meds that would promote sleeping at night. I am going to start this in the morning. She told me to give her a call in the next week or so if it didn't help because there would always be something else we might try. She reminded me a lot of my dear Dr, Miller who is no longer around in her way of looking at things. It is good to hear that there are always some other choices. I liked her a great deal. She also doesn't think that my hip should wait until June--she doesn't think I would have to be off work for 6 weeks and suggested that I talk with my ortho about that before I make up my mind on everything.

Last week, I missed two doctor appointments--I am not sure how I did that. I never do that. One of them was a result of the holiday that left me thinking Tuesday was Monday all day. I went to the DMV that evening for my vision test and to renew my license. I haven't been driving for quite a while because of my cataracts. I did reschedule an appointment with the eye doc because the situation is getting worse and I realize that I cannot get the funds for the corrective lenses. I need to move ahead with these surgeries asap. Anyway, to make a long story short, my right eye failed the vision test. That meant that they gave me a restriction on my license and I am only allowed to drive a car with outside mirrors. I was blantantly flabbergasted at all of that. I have absolutely no business driving until I can see better. Also, don't all cars have outside mirrors these days? It makes me nervous to think of the types of people the state of IL is letting drive these days.

I also missed a follow-up appointment with the doctor who did the fusion on my neck. I need to schedule my mammogram. I need to call my ortho and I also need to reschedule the missed appointment for my neck. I need to do a lot of things for my class and I need to sleep. I need to do some things around my house and I need to do some things with my two youngest kids who are both having some issues in their school lives with classes and peers. I need to do a lot. I don't know when, but I know what I should do. I will manage things and I shouldn't be complaining, but I think of the people who always say: "You won't be given more to do than you can handle." I think that is a lot of lip service and that people who say that should simply say nothing. I think it is possible to have more on your plate than you can handle and I feel as if I am there right now.

My goal for tomorrow is to lighten my load. I see my therapist and this will be the topic. He knows me and when I tell him that I feel overwhelmed with all of this, I expect that he will guide me into fixing things. I am not sure what I will cut out, but I will do that asap. I need to have things in a manageable stack rather than haphazardly coming at me from all directions. I can do this and then I can get back to focusing on what is important to me--my family, my health, my weight loss.

I thank you all for bearing with me as I thought all of this through. Take care and keep things under control in your worlds too.

Gentle hugs,
Sylvia

  
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REGILIEH 9/15/2012 10:46PM

    When I feel overwhelmed by all of my challenges I make myself think about all of those that have it so much worse than I. That is how I then get on with my life in a more positive way.

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_LINDA 9/11/2012 11:15PM

    It just burns me up to hear how badly you are being treated, both at the pool and at your school :(( If you feel funny about complaining to your daughter, perhaps you should complain directly to one of the directors, or who ever is truly in charge of what goes on in the pool. It seems to me if its scheduled for lap swims there shouldn't be anything else going on in there at the same time, especially not swim lessons!!! I feel sorry for the front desk people being in the line of fire when they have nothing to do with it and can't do anything about it except pass the complaint along to the appropriate people. Kudos to those gentlemen for being on your side and speaking up!
So this principal knows you are been given more than your fair share of these 'duty' times, actually adds them up and tells you without doing anything about it?? That is just bizarre. I don't suppose you could complain about this over her head, does she have a superior she answers to? Are you the only one who actually does important things before your class even starts and if so, why aren't you being allowed to do them?? To me I think this is interfering with your ability to do you job properly and shouldn't be allowed -that is the platform I would take.
This nurse practitioner sounds really on the ball. The medication changes sound like they might do a better job structured that way -I hope it does something for you.
I think your first priority should be getting yourself fixed from your eyes to your teeth to your hip. I was able to do my job without a break in spite of my hip replacement because fortunately, it is a desk job, and I could walk within three days comfortably. Getting in and out of bed was the biggest challenge for me, but that since that doesn't affect my work any, and since you don't even use a bed that is not a concern for you. The only thing is you would have to get others to do any lifting for you. Usually, students are happy to help out the teacher. There is no reason you have to do it all. They are capable of doing it themselves under your direction. You would also have to make sure any chair you have is high enough so your knees won't bend past 90 degrees. My clever step dad made custom designed wooden cradle blocks under an easy chair so it was high enough for me to get in and out of safely. The biggest concern after a hip replacement is dislocation, so you have to be extra careful sitting down, and walking and being aware of where your feet are planted at all times and very, very carefult to watch where you are going so you never run the risk of tripping and falling. A walker does add a certain amount of safety, but you still have to watch it.
Like Sparks mantra says, you have to take care of yourself first as no one else will and its your responsibility to put yourself first, then you will be better able to take care of business with those under your care. When you are suffering and overwhelmed, you are not much good to yourself or anyone else.. So PLEASE start taking care of business. No more missed Dr. appointments!!! Schedule that replacement and eye surgery as soon as possible! Cataracts is a quick recovery, little or no down time, fast in and out does't waste your whole day. My step dad was astonished at the difference after his surgery -he said it was like going from monochrome to high definition. You owe it to yourself to get this done at the very least. He had both eyes done within a month of each other.
Thinking of you during these difficult times and thinking of how much I would like to come down there and b*tch slap that principal and lifeguard of yours!!!!
{{{gentle hugs}}}
Linda

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DETERMINEDJANET 9/11/2012 9:33PM

    Just so much all at once that you're bound to feel overwhelmed and miss some things. So sorry you received such poor treatment at the pool. Glad you and others stood your ground!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 9/11/2012 4:29PM

    I'm sorry to hear about the denture problems. Problems like this need immediate attention. You sound miserable with the cold on top of it.

Plain and simple, the Principal needs relieved of her duties. She should know better. There is nothing more demoralizing to staff than working for someone who isn't fair.

The pool represents another episode of unfairness. The only difference being that this young, most likely uneducated person doesn't have even the minimum skills to be in charge. It sounds like they need some adult supervision which we had at my first job as a lifeguard.

The nurse practitioner sounds excellent. I hope her suggestions help.

I hope that things ease up for you soon.

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