Monday, September 10, 2012
I have had a rough day with the pain in my hip--even treading water aggravated it today. Grocery shopping with a lot of walking after an extra long trip to the pool didn't help much. I have an appointment with my rheumy on Monday after school, so maybe he will have a suggestion or two. I want to hold out until early June for my replacement, so I need to manage this in a better way. I used ice with my Flector patches today. That finally gave me some relief. I hope that if I keep getting my meds at the right time and can go easier at work than I have been doing that I will tame it a bit and get the pain into a more manageable state. It is important to me to wait until the end of the school year for my surgery--I want a year that is uninterrupted by major surgeries for a change. This year has given me a group of kids who need what I can give them as opposed to either nobody or a sub who isn't a reading specialist.
We had a "special" Congregational meeting today with two major pieces of business today. One of them was to discuss using our sustaining funds to purchase a dilapidated property that is adjoining our church property. That won 42 to 21. The other was an announcement that the selection committee has found a pastor who also thinks we are the church for her. She will be coming and doing a service in about a month and we will vote on whether or not she will be our new pastor. I sure hope this is the one. We have a sweet interim pastor, but it is not her intention to be here full time. She is not ordained and doesn't do Communion, weddings, funerals. She is a great preacher type, but we need someone who can do all of the components of worship. With each passing day, I miss Michael and I am not contacting him because I don't want him to be in violation of any rules of any kind. I'd sure like to have an hour or two to hang out with him... I'd like to catch up on what he has been up to since I saw him last in June.
I have a heavy duty week from Monday through Wednesday this week, then it settles down for the end of the week. Monday is my rheumy appointment after school. On Tuesday, I have an appointment with my therapist after school followed by a meeting at the church where I am recruiting students for tutoring. On Wednesday, we have a staff meeting followed by an RIEA meeting (our teacher's union( followed by my grad class. I plan to go to the pool after these meetings and classes each day. I have a presentation in my class on Wednesday to add to regular assignments--and of course, I'm behind in reading. I will be a busy girl until things calm down on Thursday. All I have is some late work followed by a Weight Watcher's meeting before I go to the pool. Friday is mine--and I will go to the pool right after work.
i have my schedule and my food plan for the week. I have my new mantra--"Be proactive rather than reactive." I have a determination to be successful and positive so that I can be happy and healthy in the hectic nature of my world.
Have a great week--and stay happy and healthy yourselves!
Sunday, September 09, 2012
There's a double meaning to this blog. I certainly worked and I worked hard. I am trying to do some of the things we have been learning at our trainings from the Steven Covey people. A big one is to be "proactive not reactive." It helps to have things under control before there is a problem. Of course, there is that thing that teachers have to do called "being flexible" and I am at the mercy of each teacher, child and parent who we work with. Anyway, that has been my mantra this week and it helped me in an awkward situation at the pool.
I lost two pounds this week. I am not sure why the feed didn't show it, but it is a relief==that turns my three week total into a loss of .8 which isn't much, but it is mine and I am happy to lose it slowly. I just don't like to see gains.
I'll share more next time--just wanted to touch base with you all.
Saturday, September 01, 2012
Hi there my friends,
I have been a really good girl--eating nothing that is out of line (except birthday pizza on Saturday) and exercising daily that includes stretching daily and some strengthening every other day. So...this week, I gained .8 and last week, I gained .4 for a total of 1,2 pounds back in 2 weeks. Neither bothers me too much alone, but a gain two weeks in a row indicates that I need to figure out what to do about it. I have a couple of ideas, but I'm going to keep them to myself as I write this and then include them as a comment, so I can get your expert advice.
First of all--I am measuring, so the idea of our servings being bigger estimates than they should be is not correct. Secondly, I am not nibbling or snacking on things I am not counting. This goal is too important to me to do anything like that. My hip is really hurting--a lot today--and having a good experience with that replacement is extremely important to me. I need to lose 30 pounds to match the new, shorter height I now stand at and I want to take care of myself. I am getting in a lot of exercise--it isn't high intensity because I am not able to walk that fast with my walker--but I am moving a good deal, more than my trackers even show. I walk anywhere from 12,000 to 19,000 steps every day and that doesn't include the 1.5-2 hours a day I spend in the pool doing exercises and swimming laps. I am up to 26 laps again, except for today and I just hurt too much. I only got in 12 today and I knew I had to let it go.
Medication--It hasn't changed in a long time. I take a BP pill every day because it was inching up there for no apparent reason. I could have insisted on doing it with my diet--and I think I do a good job of keeping my sodium down, but I didn't want to take any chances. I take gabapentin or neurontin at the max dosage of 900mg four times a day. 6000 units of vitamin D daily, 65 mg of iron, 100 mg of Savella twice a day (also a max dose), Hydrocodone 7/5/500 for breakthrough pain up to four a day, a 75mg fentanyl patch that I change every three days, Flector patches that I use as needed for inflammation (pain), and an injection of 1 cc of cyanocobalamine (vitamin B12), once a month. If you are aware of meds, these things are mostly for pain due to neurological damage (so many sclapels in my spine), due to fibromyalgia disruptions, and pain due to arthritis and bone damage. The reality os that the meds help some but after some 45 surgeries in the past 14 years, pain is part of who I am.
Another thing is I have interrupted sleep every night. I know that having a block of uninterrupted sleep is best, but when the meds wear off, I wake up. I do all of the things I know about falling asleep, but it takes time until the next medication and usually ice bags work enough to get me back to sleep. I cannot lie down, I sleep in a recliner. I do get 6 hours eventually--in about 3 increments and with a lot of effort. It is hard to make yourself sleep when you are not sleeping and short of making it dark, boring and quiet, I have no other plans. (I cannot climb into the tub or shower alone and I don't wake others up because I cannot sleep.)
Eating--I generally eat a piece of fruit for lunch on work days and I have a second piece or some veggies late-to-mid-morning. When the kids are dismissed at 3, I have lunch which is either Greek yogurt or a sandwich on 2 slices of light, multi-grain bread. Along with that, I have a tomato and fruit. For an afternoon snack, I have something like a Weight Watchers 2 or 3 point snack and fruit or popcorn and veggies. For dinner, I have some sort of protein--often my favorite, grilled chicken--with veggies, and a side dish that is made of brown rice or pasta. I have an evening snack that often is a half of a sandwich on light multi-grain bread, a cup of nonfat milk, and a fiber one bar. If I get hungry at other times, I have more fruit as a rule--I have a sweet tooth that likes being fed. The fruits I usually have are blueberries, strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, grapes, plums, bananas, oranges. I also sip on water all day long and typically get 10 or more glasses in. I do get regular (like every day) messages from Spark People that I need to have more food, but I cannot see eating to be eating.
Other things that are important to know when you consider this is that I often have a good deal of stress, mostly work related but sometimes related to my family. I have maintained my weight loss of over 140 pounds on my regular diet without trying hard for months. I do stir things up a bit on the weekend where I am eating more in the morning when I have more time and less in the afternoon/evening. I often fall asleep in the later part of the morning, like around 4:30 or 5 and that is when I grab a couple of more hours of sleep before I go to work. When I wake up, there isn't time to eat so I can get to work on time and then, when I get to work, I work straight through my day at school. I have reading classes for my little kids straight through the day with no break from 8:30 to 2:45--even getting to the restroom is a problem. After school, I have at least one and usually two doctor's appointments a week after school, I also have one class night (Wednesday), and I go to the pool each evening. I go to Weight Watchers on Thursday evenings. I have 6 of my 8 kids still at home and they help, but I sometimes have to run an errand here of there, and as most teachers do, I bring home work to do. I get spark time in the evening and I watch my soap (Days of Our Lives) at ten PM, unless I fall asleep early. I go to sleep by 11 on my most normal days and I often wake up between 1:30 and 3:30. I get back to sleep between 4:15 and 5:30, and then I have a mad rush at 7 to leave for work by 7:30--I have to leave at 7 on morning meeting days and 7:15 on the days I have door/playground duty.
On the weekends, I get a couple of extra hours of sleep and get up around 8 or 9:30 rather than 7. I eat at my leisure and do chores around the house in the morning, usually having to be to the bank before it closes at noon. I also get extra spark time on the weekend mornings. On Sunday, we go to church at 10. I go to the pool at 1 and stay for some extra time to relax a bit, especially when I can get my husband to go. We come home and work in the yard or do a big grocery run for our crew. I work on other things like home work or teacher work and then we prepare dinner together. On Saturday evening, we watch some TV together. On Sunday, I organize things for the week. I am a creature of habit.
What might help me to get my weight loss jump-started or at least moved away from these small gains I have had the past two weeks? If you have ideas, please advise. Remember, I am asking--but I am a tired and sore mother and teacher, be gentle with me. Laying my entire life out there, on the line is not easy to do, but I need help.
I appreciate each of you!!
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Here it is, 2:37 AM. I think SP just got through doing some sort of site maintenance because I couldn't get to my points page or my Spark page or anything--and then, voila, all of those attempts came to life. Now, here I am--blogging. It is funny because I had just decided that I wasn't going to blog anyway because I didn't want to send any negative feelings out into cyberspace, to my friends. I decided not to talk about what is bothering me and more about what is going right. The only thing that I will say is that I am both tired and sore. The injection that helped my hip so much already seems to be wearing off, a good month before the 3 months that allows me to have another is over. I have decided that I must wait until the end of the school year to have the hip replacement surgery, so I have to spread these injections out wisely and in a way to keep me working as comfortably as possible until surgery fits all of my schedules.
Tomorrow is the second night of the final class that I need for my ELL endorsement. I need to find out how I go about having this added to my teaching credentials. I am not sure if we must take an exam or if we just take transcripts to the ROE (Regional Office of Education) or whatever else is needed. I really have enjoyed being back in school because it has allowed me a place to share my expertise and to be appreciated in a way that doesn't happen in the building where I teach. I have learned a great deal and I have been able to put it to use as I develop both lesson plans for group instruction and plans for individual children. This final class is called "Linguistics for ELL Teachers" and our professor has warned us that this class seems to worry more of her students than any other. I am not sure what is up, but it seems to be a lot of memorizing and testing. I am sure I will find out soon. We have a few assignments, projects and tutoring that are all part of this--and they always seem a bit larger than life at the beginning of a class. I'm not too worried right now, even though my books just came tonight and I am technically behind. I will try and read tomorrow afternoon and take care of this issue then.
My classes are going reasonably well. I get to move out of the beginning of the year necessities into actual instruction tomorrow. That makes me quite happy--teaching children to love and enjoy books is one of the greatest things I get to do. I have several groups that are smaller than 6 this year, more like real "small groups," the way I should be teaching. I can sure get to the nitty-gritty of what each of these children need far better this way. I am also really teaching in another classroom where we are sharing lesson plans and activities and the class. This is what I wanted to do last year with two teachers, but all they thought I was there for was to use their rooms. I tried to work with both of them, but I left one room at the end of the semester because she wouldn't even let me use the space and in the other, she pushed me all of the way into the little lab room outside of her classroom. neither were unfriendly with me, they just didn't understand what team teaching looked like. This uear, the teacher I am working with totally knows why I am there and we are wrapping 3 groups of her children with double lessons each day. That is a great opportunity for the kids. When we are in full swing, I am hoping to both videotape what we are doing and to sharing data that shows the progress that I am expecting for these children.
I have been having some amazing work outs at the pool lately. It can be tough with my hip misbehaving, but I am working harder and harder and am almost back to the 28 laps I was at last spring before my cervical fusion surgery. I did 26 laps on Monday. I only got to 23 last night, but I am working on this and want to be at muy best when it is time for this replacement.
It is now time for me to get ready for work--I took a small nap in the middle of writing this. Take care of yourselves today and remember that the little steps really do count!
Monday, August 27, 2012
Yesterday was a tough day. I sat up with Chloe most of the night Saturday, giving her sips of water. It was the first time she had been uncomfortable and I decided that it was time to take her to the vet because I didn't want her to be miserable. Up until then, she had been slowing down and barely eating. However, she continued to wag her tail when I spoke to her. She whimpered a bit every couple of hours during the night and it seemed as if it was getting tough to breathe. Her last food was Friday evening, I fixed her a scrambled egg and put some cheese and ham in it. She seemed to enjoy that. Anyway, it was as if she needed to be alone to cross the Rainbow Bridge because we left for church and were gone just over an hour. Our son was here, but he didn't hover over her as I did, and after we were gone for about twenty minutes, she passed away.
Chloe was a rescue dog that we traveled out of state to get. A spark friend of mine helped us to find her and her companion dog, our littel pug, Frankie. I think she had a wonderful life as a young dog, but as the owner got older and married, her dog took back seat to her new family. When they had a child, they didn't "have time" for their dogs. I had mentioned that I wanted another basset hound, I love Lady so much. My husband gave me Lady as a valentine's gift and she has been the light of my life. Bassets are such a special breed--they have more personality than some people--yes, they are also stubborn, but it goes with the territory. Anyway, we were blessed to add Chloe and Frankie to our family. We have had them for the past 4 years and I know she has been happy. She was the "old gal" and got to do things like sleep on the couch and have her own special meals. She never liked Scooter (our other rescue dog, a doxie-lab mix) much and she always let out a warning bark when he came around her. I never quite understood why she didn't like him, but it was part of the personalities that our dogs shared with us and it also worked out.
Chloe made our lives better and I will miss her greatly. If you have a chance to adopt a rescue dog, it is something that will enrich your life greatly. If you have never owned a basset, they are wonderful dogs who make you smile regularly. They are quirky and fun.
RIP, sweet Chloe. You will be missed.
Gentle hugs to all.
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