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Sunday, 2/19 People I can count on!

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Hi everyone,

I am trying hard to avoid thinking about this pain--I can't when it flares hard or when it makes my right arm buzz down to the tip of my thumb and renders it useless, but especially while I am typing, I don't have to talk about it.

I am taking a homework break right now. I wanted to check emails and do some sparking. The first thing I noticed was all of the thoughtful and caring comments on my last blog. My dear basset hound friend is correct, my colleagues are a very self-absorbed lot. They are competitive and they work closely with a partner and terribly with other people. I have a constant push and pull think where they want me to serve their students but they won't let me take them out of their classes. I have a couple of close friends, mostly people who are on the end of the same whipping stick that I am. In our building if you are over than 30 or weigh more than 130, you are not one of the chosen ones. Self-absorbed is a good way to put it. It will be interested when school starts and 4 of them are all off on maternity leave. I wonder if experience will be coveted a bit more then.

My church family is another group that I can count on. I sent a request out via our prayer chain looking for guest readers and I may be up to six now. I think it is interesting that the folks I work with had trouble finding one reader, but through our little church in the heart of the inner city, I am getting a lot of warm and caring responses. Even the folks who are telling me "sorry, I cannot" are sending some wonderful messages.

My own family gets kudos from me as well. They are walking on eggshells around me and they are being kind and they are getting along a lot better recently. Megan is doing my laundry (again.) The biggest problem that I have with family is that Marshall and Miles keep buying me food that I wasn't expecting. For VAlentine's Day, my husband commissioned my daughter's musical group to bring me a singing valentine along with a long stemmed red rose and a sweet stuffed teddy bear. It was sweet when they came to school, I was quickly returning to my room after a discipline issue and one of my first grade groups was in my room. The little girl in the bunch had her hands over her heart, sighing and swooning a bit. It was cute.

Anyway, it is a tough time in my life and I sure do appreciate the many ways my spark friends are showing kindnesses. I know I am barely reciprocating. I have broken spark streaks recently and missed taking care of things on a couple of my team pages. I simply am without enough energy because this pain in the neck is taking more than its fair share of my energy.

I am down to a ten day countdown. I got a letter from my husband's insurance approving up to 5 days in the hospital. My insurance , which is primary, approved one day. The doctor was clear that this may not take care of all of the pain, so I am expecting some pain to linger. I also know that my first days are going to be rough because I already use the pain meds that they would use to make me comfortable to treat my lower back problems. However, I know it and I am not expecting everything. I do expect that removing the offending disks and replacing them with gifts from my hip should take the pressure off of the nerve that is upsetting my right arm. Eliminating that much of the pain makes this a worthy procedure--anything else will be "lixury."

I am so blessed to have the people in my life I can count on. You and my other spark friends, my church family, my family, and a few special people like my best friend. Our lunch date for this month is tomorrow because we had so many other things on Saturdays this month. President's Day is a good day to spend with her. I will go to the pool after that and I have class in the evening. I am going to wrap things up now and work on homework for as long as I my neck will allow it. Although this body and the arthritis that is in all of my joints is painful and tricky to live with, I am blessed to have the best people around me. People I can count on is a definite plus. Thanks for being one of them!!
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Gentle hugs to each one of you, my reliable and caring friends!!
Sylvia

  
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MKPRINCESS007 2/19/2012 10:45PM

    Hey there.........I have cut back on Spark, and actually have read your blogs and haven't commented because I have been trying to cut back on my time on the computer and Spark. I just wanted you to know that I am praying for you and wishing you all the best. I will definitely keep stopping by to see how you are doing.

Sending you much love and prayers!
Karen

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MALKS_ARIA 2/19/2012 10:38PM

    I am glad you have support from those around you.... (even if your co-workers are selfish)....

Hang in there.... glad to hear your 2nd-ary insurance is approved a lot more days than only one.....

Deep Breathing, and focusing on anything but pain....

aria

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_LINDA 2/19/2012 10:03PM

    Wow! 4 on maternity leave, hope you get replacements that are more reasonable to work with. I would have thought people interested in educating children would want only what is best for them, and not be so concerned with their fellow teacher's appearance or age..I hope becoming Moms tunes them up. Unfortunately, cliques are found in all levels of society :( As one who has always been on the outside, I am quite familiar with it..
One day hospital stay from your plan and five from your husband -that is some kind of discrimination!! I always thought it was the DR., or physiotherapist that decides when you are ready to be released, not the insurance company.. This is very delicate surgery, not a day operation! Its awful this is sooo far away :(((
Thoughts are with you,
{{{gentle hugs}}}

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MORTICIAADDAMS 2/19/2012 9:11PM

    Even in your condition, Sylvia, you are able to accomplish more that most people could. I know you are worn down from pain but you are strong and will get through this. I'm hoping in the mean time that your colleagues have a change of heart because educated people should know better. We should not have to teach people who help children to have empathy for others. At least you have support in every other area.

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Saturday, 2/18 Complications on top of things

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Hi there,

I feel as if sometimes the only places I can be myself are at the pool, in my chair at home, and on the computer. I am so hurt by some of the people in my work world that it has added to the physical pain I am feeling in a nasty way.

I have been told that I need to give up some things I do at work because "I am going to be gone." Hmm, it will be a total of 8 days at the most. It was a snippy little email from the principal about handing out prizes that the kids earn on their way to making a reading goal for the ball game. NOBODY else wants the job and I had it covered so that I distributed them one day a week and there would only be one day that I couldn't do. Now, I am trying to figure out an entirly new way to doit.

Next, we have our other reading day coming. It was supposed to be a fun day, based on "Read Across America." We couldn't do it on the national day because it is an ISAT day (our state's standardized testing.) The group working with me has changed it to "Read to Succeed" and they want all of the guest readers to share their career and give it a career theme. Okay, I can work with others--and this group of 6 was supposed to be responsible for 2-3 guest readers apiece. (We need 20.) When I asked for a meeting to put the schedule together and to see how many readers we had, I was told that there wasn't time this week. (Reading day is March 9 and I won't be back to work yet.) I got three emails from one of the team members Thursday night that told me a number of things about the ball game and reading day. The big piece is that they think one of the teachers husband has two readers coming. I have three scheduled and that gives me 5 out of the 20 needed. Nobody else got one person. I have to figure out where to find 15 readers who will talk about their career. When one of them asked if I was going to be there, she told me "Wow, you really picked a bad time to be gone missing ISAT, the ball game prizes, and reading day."

What in the world was I to say? It didn't matter, she walked off after spewing that anyway.

Thursday was not my best day. On Wednesday, I went to the hospital after school to do my pre-op lab work. On Thursday, my PCP called me everywhere. My urine test turned out like the one I had 3 weeks prior for my regular physical. There was bacteria in it. He did a repeat and did a culture and there was bacteria in it. I am not having any symptoms of an infection and my doctor decided that it is probably colonies of good bacteria causing the test to respond that way. He said with my history of the infection in my spine that it would not be a good idea to treat this because the good bacteria would be killed and then bad bacteria would replace them because they were colonized. (I guess it is something in women my age and I have to believe it makes sense. He is a pretty picky doc worrying about every detail of test results.)

Now, my surgeon is balking because the new urine test showed bacteria. They are doing a culture now and these cultures take time, so there were no results yesterday. I told the doctor that I cannot have this surgery canceled over this. They are telling me that there is plenty of time to manage it, if they get results on Monday that indicate I need to be treated. OK, calm down, Sylvia.

My entire world is revolving around this awful pain. My neck and shoulder and arm are making me crazy. Somehow, I had pushed my regular low back pain out of my mind, but it reminded me yesterday that it hasn't gone anywhere. It is almost impossible to function with my lower back inflamed. I am stiff in one of my knees right now as well which tells me that our weather must be changing. Arthritis can really be mean.

I am hanging on, but my patience is almost gone. I wish I could just hide in a corner until the surgery and let the school deal with itself. However, I don't have enough sick leave to cover it and staying here thinking only about this pain probably isn't a good idea.

I am going now, to Weight Watchers to weigh in. This isn't going to be good because I am ashamed to admit that I have also started engaging in some comfort eating. There were too many things around on Valentine's Day for me to resist. I am not myself right now. I am going to go face the scale--it has been weird while I have been behaving, so I am hoping that this helps me get back on track. I have either not eaten or enjoyed the chocolates around me when I didn't need them.

I love the pool. It is weird to swim when this thing spasms, but I am getting used to the sensation. I wish I could live in the pool sometimes.

I need to go--take care of yourselves.
Gentle hugs,
Sylvia

  
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MTNGRL 2/19/2012 5:53PM

    The people you work with are a nasty bunch. I hate to think how they interact with the children if they treat a colleague this way.
I can see where a little comfort eating would happen.
I really wish you could spend more time in the pool but know that isn't possible. Praying that the surgery goes as planned .
I am so glad you do have the computer and you can share with your friends here who support you 100%
Hugs!!

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FELINA 2/19/2012 10:25AM

    You have some unfeeling workmates. No empathy at all. Try not to let them negatively effect you. Do whatever you need to do to take care of you.

I wouldn't worry about a little comfort eating right now. You'll get back on track when you need to.

Enjoy the pool, relax a bit if you can.

I hope these test results do not delay your surgery.
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WALKZWDOGZ 2/19/2012 4:02AM

    Try not to let the emoticon emoticon get you down. It sounds like you have a school with several. I'm so sorry! Do they have any clue or are they just a self-absorbed lot? emoticon

I don't think anyone would blame you for hitting chocolate right now. A good stiff....chocolate brownie ...might be better than hitting some other things. emoticon

We'll be praying for some resolution re: bacteria & surgery. You do NOT need anything else right now! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MORTICIAADDAMS 2/18/2012 10:51PM

    At least you can still get some relief from the pool. It is getting closer to the time for surgery. Hang in there. Surely the school can manage without you long enough for you to heal.

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_LINDA 2/18/2012 7:16PM

    Wow! You have some cold co workers at that school!! I would prefer to say stronger words though. Just your luck to show a bacteria infection :( I was once told I had a bladder infection on a routine test, but had absolutely no symptoms. I get tested regularly because of all my medications.
Hoping, hoping, hoping those test results don't get in the way of your surgery..
I was wishing I was back in the warm physiotherapy pool. Hope you can at least get daily pool time..
{{{gentle hugs}}}
Linda

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HOPEFULSNAIL204 2/18/2012 4:33PM

  emoticon emoticon emoticon Shame on those people at your school! Can't they recognize a truly difficult time when they see you in such pain and frustration? Giving you a hard time now shows that they have character issues they should deal with. It is my hope that your surgery will not be delayed and that it will relieve this NOW! Blessings

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JRSWHIMSY 2/18/2012 11:59AM

    *hugs*

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MALKS_ARIA 2/18/2012 10:56AM

    I am building an ideal world... come join me pain free with a 92 degree pool for use anytime we want to slip in! Plus pain relief without side effects and addiction possibilities.... And last but not least..... a bunch of net friends giving each other hug ggz in person!

aria

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Saturday, 2/11 I am in the waiting room of life

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Hi All,

I am waiting and waiting and waiting for the surgery on my neck. This procedure that my doctor said needed to be done "as soon as possible" is scheduled for February 29th. I wish I could understand how the medical world around here really works because waiting almost an entire month doesn't seem like it is as soon as possible.

This thing hurts day in and day out. I am doing everything I wildly can in order to manage my pain and function. Everyday is a total challenge. The meds that help the most put me to sleep which is needed at times, but not always at the times they work. Staying focused is a major challenge--and for someone trying to take a couple of classes and teach every day, this is not a good plan. The injection that my pain doc put into my neck seemed to numb it up a bit which is a blessing since I deal with these spasms going on at irregular intervals all day long. They are a unique sensation of weird and pain, starting at the base of my neck, moving across my shoulder and then squeezing my upper arm like a blood pressure cuff being over-tightened. It does that for a few times and then buzzes down my arm all of the way to the tip of my thumb. The only thing that I notice that triggers them is when I start walking somewhere--I always have a series of them and I assume it is the way I hold onto my walker that does that. I also have them at random times that are not predictable--when I am sitting, talking, in the pool, right now...

The surgery will fuse my affected disks. The MRI clearly shows problems with two of them and hints at trouble with two more. I won't know until I wake up exactly what has been done. I will have an incision about an inch long on the front of my neck right where it folds--the incision will ultimately not be noticeable because of the way they do it. The doc will use bone from my hip to replace the disks and then use a small metal plate to do the fusion. It sounds so simple to hear the medical folks talk about it. I did learn that our neck really doesn't facilitate most of the movement that our head does. I have to trust that this will all result in some relief.

I sure wasn't expecting any of this to be part of my new year plans--it has thrown me for a loop. In the meantime, I am not able to spark as has been my habit for a few years. I sometimes get out the computer and then, things just get out of control. Or, I fall asleep for the first time in a couple of days. If I could predict how all of this worked, I could fit my world around everything.

I sure appreciate you all for hanging in here with me as I muddle my way through. Some of the next few weeks are going to be challenging. My doctor has said that I should expect to be off work for two weeks and then probably returning with light duty for the next four weeks. The middle two weeks of that is our scheduled spring break so I will have that time off of work. I was planning to volunteer at the church for a few of those days and to do an interview with one of the ELL parents who are there for one of my classes. I think those plans are going to be changed now.

My kids have been pretty good and have been helping in a number of ways. Our sad news is that Mason lost his job because the sheet metal company had to lay several people off due to a shortage of work. He has been diligently looking for a job and got a new one last week, in a company that makes hose. He will be cutting hose--and I don't know where his planned apprenticeship now fits in. He told me that he needs to be able to pay his bills (Hmm, his truck payments and his phone) so that is his focus. I want him to have more than a job, but I understand that he is a responsible, hard-working young man and he needs to be given the freedom to be in charge of his life. During this past few weeks, he has helped me in a lot of ways with rides and supporting our two younger kids.

Anyway, my entire life is revolving around problems with my spine again. It is almost like deja vu for me, except this time, I am still going through the motions of my life and when it was my lumbar spine with an infection, I couldn't do anything for the entire month before my surgery. My life would have been different if I hadn't had bacteria injected in my back way back then. I don't have much else to blog about except how I am managing to function. Thanks for the goodies and the kind words that I receive from you all. I am lucky to have my spark friends. I am lucky to have anyone still in my life who can live with this thing with me because it has taken over my life.

Take care of yourselves!!
Gentle hugs,
Sylvia

  
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WINLOSS 2/14/2012 9:06PM

  HI, I saw we had some things in common. Praying for you dear lady, I understand the pain.


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MORTICIAADDAMS 2/14/2012 1:18PM

    Hang in there, Sylvia. It will be over soon and you will be on the road to recovery. I hate to see you suffer like this. I will continue to pray for you.

I am sorry about Mason losing his job but I admire him in this economy for finding one again so soon. He is being very responsible and I hope opportunities open up for him again soon.

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EMRANA 2/12/2012 12:54PM

  I know it feels like forever, and I'm sorry. As Linda said, the wait would be much longer in another country. In Alberta, where I just moved from, we had people waiting two years for spine surgeries. I can't even imagine. I wasn't a candidate, but if I was, I would have just had my surgery at some point last year after getting hurt in June 2009!

Find your moments of relief in the meantime, and bask in those! I'm sorry things are so bad right now.

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_LINDA 2/12/2012 11:28AM

    So very sorry Sylvia! I always thought you Americans didn't have to wait for your surgery :( That is one heck of a lot of wait time when you are in such acute pain :((( Unfortunately, injections always carry the risk of infection with them :( I guess I have been lucky, having had them all my life and never getting any. Same with the surgeries. No trouble at all. I guess that is the one thing this body has given me is an infection free life (I don't even get colds and had the flu only once as a child)..
Nothing much to say can comfort what you are going through, but know my thoughts are always with you..
{{{gentle hugs}}}
Linda

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Thursday 2/2 A diagnosis and a plan

Friday, February 03, 2012

Hi there, my friends,m

After a busy morning at work, my son took me out for lunch. Then, we went to the doctor. I had some more x-rays and that led to meeting the new doctor. He is a younger doc who is very conscientious about his work. He told me that I have at least two herniated disks in my cervical spine and there may be up to four of them. He talked about treatments and he was quite uncomfortable with this because--well, I have had all of them but the big one. I have tried a variety of meds. I went to PT without any success. I have had injections of almost every shape and size. The next treatment is surgery. He told me that he honestly didn't like recommending surgery to a patient on their first visit. He tried to talk me into waiting another week and seeing him again. I told him that I cannot wait any longer and that I was in so much pain that I was ruining relationships and am unable to focus on anything.

Then we talked about the surgery. I will have a small incision in my neck and he will place it strategically where I bend my neck so the inch and a half won't be noticeable. He will then remove each of the herniated discs and clean out all of my bone spurs. He will replace the disks with some of the bone from my hip. Then he will use a titanium plate and some small screws. It will be closed up with dissolvable sutures. I am to expect to stay in the hospital overnight and the recovery pain will be the worst for the first 2-3 days. The second biggest area of pain and discomfort will be my throat from having the voice box and esophagus moved and the breathing tube during surgery.

There is a high success rate (90-95%). I am at risk because of a previous disk/ spine infection and pain meds might be an issue because of what I use regularly to control my lower back pain. Most patients having a similar surgery take 2 weeks off of work and then 4 additional weeks of light duty that includes not lifting over 10 pounds. I already have those types of restrictions because of my permanent back injuries, so all I have to do is follow the rules and patiently wait for certain jobs be done for me. Patience is something I really need to learn and develop, as is less independence in my attitude and the skill of asking others to do things for me.

Anyway, surgery is on and I should know when tomorrow. My big job is trying to manage this lousy pain until "the big day." It will be a lot more of what I have spent the past month doimg. I will need a lot of help from my family and friends to be ready to do this. In the note from the surgeon, he asks for us to NOT diet in the weeks up to the surgery and the 6 weeks that follow. I am sure glad that we are on a program of healthy eating and moderation!

I am not crazy. All of this pain is here. Fixing the problem will be a big deal, but it will be worth it. I had a tough night as you can tell by the date at the beginning of this and when I am finally posting this. It will be no small deal for me to hang in there while I am waiting for my surgery day.

Gentle hugs,
Sylvia

  
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PUGRAD1995 2/5/2012 9:31PM

    Sounds pretty normal-the only thing different with mine was they used an experimental protein (BMP?) instead of getting any bone from the hip. They told me to make sure to eat enough protein-more important in building bone than even Calcium. The no pool rule also-which has been the hardest. So hang in there-I know it has been worth the surgery for me!

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JRSWHIMSY 2/4/2012 4:55PM

    I'm so glad something is happening Sylvia! I wish you all the best!

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NIKKILEEG 2/4/2012 2:21PM

    Just saw your blog for the first time so haven't been following until now. Glad to see you have a solution in sight.

I know what you mean about patience and learning to ask for help. It can be tough.

Good luck with the surgery, recovery, patience and asking.

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HOPEFULSNAIL204 2/4/2012 12:00AM

  I am glad you finally have your answer. You will be in my thoughts and prayers as you wait for your surgery date and go through surgery and recovery. I am so sorry you are in so much pain. Thank you for keeping us informed as we will be waiting to hear your date and time of surgery. Blessings

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MALKS_ARIA 2/3/2012 10:20PM

    I am so glad they are finally gonna do something that may help with the pain. I am praying that you have the success of the a successful Surgery and healing!

and YES, I think sometimes we are tasked with patience and being humble enough to ask for help... then wait.... (I know I sure don't wanta do that!!)

Huggerz
aria

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ANOVELGAL 2/3/2012 7:34PM

    Wow! You got a diagnosis and an answer! Hallelujah! I am happy for you. I know surgery is a big deal and the recovery will be hard, but hopefully this will help you ginormously and it will all be worth it!

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MTNGRL 2/3/2012 7:21PM

    I am so glad you know what is going on and have a plan in place. My prayers are with you as you wait for the day and they will continue until you are home and feeling better. May God guide the surgeon's hand, the staff at the hospital and your family at home as you have this operation done. May He give you the patience you need and ease the pain as you have this surgery done. Hugs!!

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EMRANA 2/3/2012 6:49PM

  I like that success rate! It's good to have answers ~ and validation, even though no one here thought you were crazy. I know what you mean though. My doctor kept telling me that it probably wasn't that bad, until the MRI came back. I felt like, SEE!!!

I know the surgery itself will involve a lot of pain, but what are you going through now? I'd happily go for the pain that stops rather than this pain that won't.

Hope your date's not too far away.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 2/3/2012 4:25PM

    Thank goodness! I am for getting on with this as well. I see no reason to wait. The sooner it is done, the sooner recovery can begin.

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DETERMINEDJANET 2/3/2012 1:23PM

    This waiting will be easier because you know there is something out there other than "unknowns." Glad you let the doctor know you couldn't wait any longer....that you'd waited long enough.

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_LINDA 2/3/2012 12:53PM

    At last!! A answer and solution!! Good for you standing your ground and demanding treatment now, not waiting. I like this Doctor, tells you up front the surgery pain and recovery will be hell. But what is it you are going through now anyway?? A small incision -good sign of his skill! I am so glad you finally get a permanent fix at last.. Sorry to hear it will be so rough, but you have to like those success rate odds!
This is good news and you sound like you are in good hands. Healing and soothing thoughts are with you,
{{{gentle hugs}}}
Linda


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FELINA 2/3/2012 9:44AM

    I'm so glad you've finally got some answers and treatment. Sometimes the worst part is the not knowing and thinking that others don't believe you.

My best friend is going through the same thing right now, severe pain, loss of balance, falling down, broke her hip in one fall. They couldn't find the reason but finally after many tests and a couple of doctors they found that her 30+ year old spinal fusion is failing and crushing her spinal cord. She's going for surgery to redo the fusion with rods, etc.

I'll be thinking about you and praying this surgery helps.
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SCOOTER4263 2/3/2012 7:55AM

    My husband had a back so bad in so many different ways, that the doctors used to get excited when he came in - so many new things to look at! - and he actually wound up in a couple textbooks (the "worst case scenario" example), so I know a little of what you are going through.

Of course you're not crazy, and you need to do what you have to do to get this situation corrected. All your Spark Buddies are rooting for you!

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14JESUSGIRL 2/3/2012 7:37AM

    Praying for you, Sylvia. Chronic pain is ... well, I can't think of any words bad enough to describe it. My heart goes out to you.
In Christ,
Lee
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RITAROSE 2/3/2012 7:33AM

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Wednesday 2/1 Whining should not be a way of life!

Wednesday, February 01, 2012

Dear Friends,

This story just keeps going into a darker and darker hole--but I may have found some light peeking in...

I called my pain doc and spoke with his nurse again. She informed me that they faxed my info on and that I should contact the neurosurgeon. they called me but due to the fact that my son reversed two of the numbers in the extension number I was to call, it took me two days to catcgh up with the right person. Laurie schedules appointments for the doc and yes, he wanted to see me. His first available appointment is April 26. April 26????? Am I kidding? Not a bit. I told her that I wouldn't need that appointment if I was going to wait that long because I would do something drastic. She found another back doctor in the same orthopedic group--not the creep who I used to see--a different doc and he had an appointment available on Thursday at 1:15. I told her to give me that one. The slight relief I have had from the recent injections is wearing off and this pain is getting deeper and more serious. It is now moving from my upper arm all of the way down to my wrist when it spasms and there is not a solitary thing I can do except ride it out until the break before the next spasm.

I saw my PCP again yesterday. He had me call the pain clinic for him and left my pain doc a message that suggested he increase the dose of fentanyl for this "kind and caring lady" until they can do something for my pain because the 75mg that I am on is leaving me in obvious distress. He noted that their office closes at 4:30 and it was only 4:29. He left his number and then he gave them my number. He told them to call me. I warned him about that nurse. Anyway, it is Wednesday afternoon and I haven't heard anything yet.

I am holding on--My attention span is very limited and my patience is gone. I am hoping that this "new" doc whose credentials look pretty good, is my knight in shining armor.

Whining is not pretty!
Gentle hugs,
Sylvia

  
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MORTICIAADDAMS 2/2/2012 11:49PM

    Sylvia, I am continuing to pray for you and am sure that relief is on the way. Continue to pray without cessation and ask everyone you know to pray for you as well. God will provide. emoticon

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MALKS_ARIA 2/2/2012 8:26AM

    UGH!! I am scared for you, and i very well understand pain is debilitating!!! that's all there is about it!! I am hoping *Someone* gets through to your Pain Dr Soon and ups your meds.

Having just went through a month of med changes and chaos going through side effects..... I wish you the best....

and to make matters more interesting... I can't get back into the pool :(

aria

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_LINDA 2/2/2012 1:01AM

    I hope with all my heart this Doc can do something for you on Thursday. At least one of your Doctor's is showing some compassion. But it isn't really enough in such an acute crisis.
So very sorry you are suffering. Feel free to let it all out here. Most of us can't imagine pain like this.
{{{gentle hugs}}}
Linda

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JENNY712 2/1/2012 4:28PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonfor your trouble and pain. It is hard to have patience during such pain. HUGS! Jenny

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DETERMINEDJANET 2/1/2012 3:24PM

    Sorry you still have phone calls and waiting to endure while hurting so much. Hugs...gentle ones!

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