Wednesday, October 05, 2011
I wanted to take a few minutes to describe my accomplishments so far this week...
*I have gotten in two hours of exercise at the pool each day.
*I finished my 60 progress reports, made copies and sent them to the appropriate teachers.
*I attended a Webinar today to help pilot a PBS program for teachers that is coming.
*I have done my lessons for my students along with some up to date informal assessments.
*I helped to sort out issues for three needy children in our school today--and none of them were even mine.
*I have completed 5 homework assignments and read two more articles.
*I worked in my yard on Sunday.
That takes me to what is left for me to do...
*I have to attend parent teacher conferences tomorrow after school, Thurday from noon to eight, and Friday from eight to noon.
*I have a midterm, three chapters to read, and four more assignments to write before Friday.
*I have one doctor's appointment that conflicts with my after school work on Wednesday--I am going to the doctor.
*I have my regular Thursday night class that conflicts with conferences--conferences come first.
*I have my weekend class this week, Friday at 4 and Saturday from 8-3.
*I want to get to the pool each day and that will be tricky too.
*I have to plan what I am going to do during my reading club and at the church with RLLs
*Avoid the potluck/ eating frenzy that will be at school for parent-teacher conferences.
Anyway, now that I have made my list, I know what I have to do--so here I go. I am starting the second half of the week with a tough agenda. Knowing what is coming will help me to get myself organized and focused. I can do all of this, eat in a healthy fashion and give my body the activity it needs so that I can keep going. I know what is important and I can do it.
Sunday, October 02, 2011
You all know that I am having a tough go of things--and I have done more than enough whining here--but I have to admit that the outpouring of kindness and understanding from all of you make things a lot better. I had lunch with my best friend today (I also went to Weight Watchers, worked out at the pool, did chores around my house, worked on homework, went grocery shopping, took care of part of the pets, went out with my son, solved a couple of emergencies for my kids...and I walked 19027 steps today!!) Anyway, it is the good stuff that I want to talk about.
I want to talk about what I am doing that is right...
*I am working with pride and doing what one of the administrators told me to do--I am holding my head high and I am proud of all that I do for so many kids.
*I know that I will be having surgery at some point, as soon as we know what all is contributing to the carpal tunnel in my left hand--but I am making plans to take care of everything just as I always have with surgery. I will be taking a day or two off work with this surgery unlike what I usually do. I should do this for me.
*I am spending my spare time doing my enormous pile of homework for my grad classes and interestingly enough, I have an ally in the professor of the course. She told me that she is glad to have someone with my talent and experience in her class. That made me blush a bit.
*I have decided to do good things for others during my break and use my talent in ways that it will be appreciated. I will also have time to (finally) get caught up on my homework, lol.) I will also have time to take naps and visit with people I care about.
*I am exercising daily, eating 5-7 servings of fruits and veggies, drinking 10-12 glasses of water each day. I am happy with my eating habits. The only thing I ever overdo it on is having a second Weight Watchers 3 point bar on a given day. I also know that I have my bigger weight losses on the weeks when I have eaten more--and I need to learn how to manage that.
*I have great kids--I know each of their strengths and weaknesses, but when I listen to what other people are dealing with with their "young adult" aged kids--well, I am fortunate that my kids aren't doing all of those scary things. There aren't a lot of people who can say the same with 8 kids who all go to church,volunteer in the church, work and/or go to school, and who aren't doing nasty or illegal things.
*I have good friends in my life and online. They are kind to me and others, and they make my life better--I hope that I do the same for them!!
*No matter what, I am healthier than I have been in years, I can tell when something is wrong with me now and that is new to me. I am so much more in tune with my body.
I know there are more things that I am winning at, but since I woke up after having written this much, I am thinking this is a great start that I should keep adding to.
Thanks for all you do for me.
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
As my title says, I had my EMG today. I will have a complete report with my wonderful spine doctor on October 11. (We are on fall intersession that week. I volunteered to teach at both my school--for primary kids interested in a week-long reading club and at my church--to teach reading to the ELL children while their parents have English classes.) My doctor appointment had to fit in between all of that. Anyway, she told me that she didn't have a full and complete report but she could tell me that my right hand which she used as a base--has a mild case of carpal tunnel and that we will most likely need to treat it with me wearing a night splint. She said that she already knows that my left hand has a serious case of carpal tunnel that will need surgery without a doubt. The problem at hand is that with such a big problem, she won't be surprised to find that it is getting a "double whammy" from the nerves on my neck. I will find out the entire story when I see her then and we will discuss what will help.
Yesterday, I noticed that my numb left hand was feeling some "thickening" around my thumb and it was hard to bend. Today, I notice the same feelings in my fingers. My hand is also swelling now. That strange numbness was my red flag that these issues were coming.
I am also having a personal struggle--too much stress and weather induced pain is giving me too many negative feelings. I have to admit that my 9/21 blog had so many kind comments and support that it helped me a great deal. Thank you all for your kindness and support. I feel badly that I am struggling with my feelings when I know a few other people who are dealing with big, life-changing issues. Carpal tunnel surgery is not a big deal for most folks and it would be something like surgery #48 for me in the past 8 years. Being picked on and called names by my supervisor is not a life changing thing either. She is simply giving me grounds for a grievance or litigation or something that can ruin her life. I do not intend to sink into the dark hole that depression has been for me and I don't want any meds either. I need to avoid becoming exhausted or overwhelmed. I can do this, especially with all of the cheerleaders I have here. Thank you all so much.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Here is a direct quote from the email I got from one of the downtown administrators about what the woman in charge of our building said to me: "I will be up to see you this week. You are professional and respected. Hold your head up high and be proud of what you accomplish every day with kids. Hang in there until I can get there." That brought tears to my eyes. Those were better than the tears she gave me.
I am wondering if I should start looking into legal consequences for this awful woman. Rumors have it that her ex-husband is a pretty intense attorney. It might be hard, but I am really tired of the way she treats people. I might have backing of our teacher's union. For all of the people who hate the teacher's union and say all of the nasty they need to think about this kind of thing that is done by other people in school. We have unions to protect our rights from the multitude of people who work with or against us as we try to care for children and their education. I understand that all teachers are not good, but because of this kind of garbage, we have to put up a wall of protection That is exactly why the teachers' unions came to be. Back to my personal business, I wish this didn't bother me at all, but I wouldn't be human if it didn't bother me some. I am glad to not be internalizing it and putting it out there for everyone. I have told everyone around me exactly what has been said to me. Each person responded with an apology on my behalf and an incredulous look and/or comment.
As for my family, yesterday was my husband's birthday. I prepared a nice dinner for him--new recipes. One was a spaghetti bake and the other was a taco-pasta meal. Both were loaded with veggies and variations on some of his favorite foods. My daughter did his birthday cake. It was a nice day and I felt better caring for his special day than I did for mine having been neglected. It made up a lot for Monday.
My son and I went to a wonderful workshop yesterday by Don Bear, put on by our local Reading Council. I got a couple of ideas for my needier students. My son won a door prize and he selected a great book for me to use with my ELL children. He also gave me a great bag of treats from a specialty store as a birthday gift. I shared them with everyone last night so I wouldn't be tempted.
The cooler weather and the stress is really playing my fibro. I have my EMG tomorrow and will miss a half a day of work. I considered taking the entire day off, but I hate to let all of my kids down like that. I have a sweet letter from one of my last year students about missing me. I also heard from her teacher that she is losing ground.
I'm going to be late for church, so I'd better scoot. Take care everyone.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
This week, my birthday week has been a stinker. Literally and figuratively, it has been a stinker. My birthday was Monday and it could have slid by unnoticed. I went to a good deal of effort to make a cheesy meat nachos for the staff for my birthday treat and well, I can't even tell if it was appreciated. I took in plenty so there would be enough and about 3 bags of chips were eaten--so I guess someone enjoyed it. I had plans to go to dinner with my youngest daughter, but a better situation came up from her friends. I was a kind mother and let her off the hook without her having to ask me. However, then, it was my husband trying to toss some dinner together because he was going to take the boys for fast food. My oldest daughter gave me a pretty coral and green skirt and a white top. Otherwise, the day went unnoticed.
Yesterday was the real stinker. Our principal went out of her way to come and let me know that she needed to give me a heads up that I smell bad. Besides the fact that that isn't true--she is just awful. The reality is that I am back. I am stronger and working harder than ever before. People are recruiting me for my expertise and help, that seems to intimidate her and she makes it personal to try to put her foot bak on my head. I am no longer putting up with her monkey business and I contacted the assistant superintendent, another downtown administrator, and the union president. The latter of the three already came to visit her. She backpedaled and said it was my room. He checked it out and said that it wasn't so. He is helping me and so will the other guys. The HR guy sent me an email and told me that he would get back to me. I know that she is on their radar. Her comment to me was that people who take arthritis meds have a smell about them. Hmm, I am not taking any arthritis meds anymore--I can't they either make me sick or could make me sick or they don't work for me. Her thing is that she only likes and wants pretty, young teachers and this overweight, disabled teacher pushing a walker around her school doesn't look good enough for her. I will NOT be silenced and I will not be mistreated by this woman any more.
Tonight, I have a doctor's appointment at 5:45 and my MRI at 7:30. The x-rays didn't show a lot, as my doctor expected. They did show arthritis damage in my C something and another vertebrae--and a little of something else. (The phone kept dropping out. I talked to them and asked if it showed anything "new" or beyond my regular arthritis-type damage and she said "no." That's where I am at with my health. I started using the new lidocaine patches on my upper spine and they are helping with the pain in my upper back. itis strange how wearing them on my spine helps the pain in a different bart of my back, but my doc was right and it helps.
I am getting beaten down and I need to pull myself up and fight back. I know who I am and what I am about. I use the pool daily and wear clean clothing on a freshly bathed body each day--no odors here. I clean my room and the custodians comment regularly about how nice it is to work in my room because of how well I keep it. I am not going to let this woman start her evil garbage with me again. If you aren't aware--this is the third time she has tried this with me and I went to my doc and was checked out in every way. I even did some natural things like drinking chlorophyll and taking extra zinc tablets and so on to treat her "odors." They do not exist and I am sick of this game with her. I won't treat myself badly because of her comments.
OK-that is all I am going to say--or think--on this topic. I have called out the calvary and I have prayed. Now, I am going to work to do the magic I do for the children. That is what drives me!!
Take care you all!!
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