Friday, December 17, 2010
That is the end of me trying to type capital letters one-handed, forgive me but enough of that is enough. i'm going to be one-handed for a while and i hope that you understand how this is a bit troublesome.
i went to work this morning--and with that and the little bit of walking i have done since i was discharged from the surgery center, i just crossed 10.000 steps for the day. tomorrow will look different and i am going to have yo accept that. i got to the surgery center just before 11:30 and they took me right back. my nurse was gentle and skilled. she wrapped my hand in a heated sheet and popped that iv in really quickly--i didn't feel anything. that is amazing. we did the obligatory paperwork and finally the docs and the very funny anesthesiologist came in to meet with us. the u r nurse came in with her sharpie and wrote "yes" on my right shoulder.
i went into the o r at 2pm. the doc gave me some medicine and then did a cervical block which still has my shoulder numbed. then, he gave me some sleepy medicine and i went to sleep missing the breathing tube and the procedure. my doc didn't find any big surprises, but the tear in my rotator cuff was too big to fix arthroscopically. so i understand that i have an incision. i'm not allowed to take the dressing off or shower until after i see him and start physical therapy on the 27th.
they were kind and gave me top notch treatment. the big part of repairing my shoulder is back in my hands--so i will follow all of the directions i was given. they increased my pain meds considerably and i am to take them round the clock for the nest 2 days. i'm needing a lot of popsicles right now for my throat, but things are going according to plan.
thank you all for your well-wishes and prayers. they make a difference. i'll be around sp because it is something i can do. albeit slowly, lol
Thursday, December 16, 2010
I'm not talking about a foot race, I'm talking about the race to get everything completed before my surgery that needs to be done for the holidays and the end of the term at school. Wow, I'm driving myself a bit crazy with all of this. I just don't want to be stuck with tasks that my shoulder will prevent me from doing like wrapping gifts and lifting baskets of books.
I have been "purging" the kids' book baskets at school to freshen them up with some different books that a bit more difficult and that are "new" to them. That is a big job when each of my students--over 50 of them have around 30 or more books that they select from. I have them select the ones that need to be changed--and it seems that the younger the student, the more books they remove from their baskets... Then I have to select a variety of replacements and put the others away. It has been an exhausting day trying to get that and some instruction done with each of my groups of kids.
I have most of the gifts that we have purchased wrapped. I bought a lot of things online and those things are trickling in, a couple of things at a time... Nothing has a tag on it yet--so tomorrow, I have to create tags and get that done sometime. I also have to pick up the items we put on layaway and get them wrapped. In my spare time, I am trying to get my report cards finished and I am waiting for test scores from the classroom teachers... On Friday, I'm going to photocopy what I have and they will have to fill that in for me.
I am really feeling scattered and nervous about all of this, but it will just have to work out. That is that. The kids will have to bake and organize things and I am just going to have to take a deep breath and let them do it. It is time for me to relinquish responsibility and let them handle everything.
Wish me luck!!
Thursday, December 09, 2010
I cannot squeeze another thing into my day, yet people keep asking and I keep trying. This is my worst bad habit and it is a nasty trap to fall into. I know what I need and I know how to take care of my less than cooperative body. I know that what I have committed to is not good for me and yet, I keep doing it. Let's go back in time and take a look at Tuesday...
I go to work about 45 minutes early because I am tutoring one of my students on my time. Why? The answer is because he needs some special attention and it is the only way that I can give it to him. That bogs me down in getting my day started because as he leaves, my first reading group comes in. I saw them and my second group--but I had to leave for a short period of time to go to the surgery center.
My shoulder surgery is late--at 11:30 on the 17th. I have all of my directions and I can handle most of them. I am supposed to wear a shirt that buttons down the front--and oops, I don't own such an item. I'm guessing that I am going to need a few of those for my post-surgical time. The nurse I spoke with wanted to know the cause of my injury. Hmm, I'm not sure--but my husband is convinced that the fall I had at work when I was packing boxes after school in May was the cause. I think I'll ask my surgeon his opinion before and after the surgery.
I got back in school within my 40 minutes and only missed one reading group. I saw that group, the next group and then my kindergarten group who I started seeing a few weeks ago during my lunch time. After that, I have 3 more reading groups and they are all back to back. (One group arrives while the previous group is getting ready to leave.) I also had a group of 10 children I am tutoring after school on Tuesday and Thursday. (This will end for the term this week...that might give me time for report cards...)
Before I got ready to leave, the kindergarten teachers asked me to help with their special parent education evening ("Go on a date with your kindergartener") I had told them I would help previously, but they had told me that they wouldn't need my help and that I should take a break from the extra stuff--however that was before they realized that they had 55 children signed up to be there and that not one other teacher in our building offered to help them. I recruited my husband and my son to come and give me a hand because the activity that the kids were going to do involved hearing a story and then coloring, cutting and creating puppets. (That is a lot for one person to do with that many 5 year olds!) I had time to reorganize a closet while the families were having dinner. I had multiple copies of the story that I needed to read, so I got the guys to be in stations around the room with the same book so that everyone could "see." We got an extra helper, our assistant principal. It went pretty well--the kids didn't quite get finished with everything, but they took it home to complete with their parents. It went quite well, and my help was so appreciated.
I went from school to the pool and got my work out in. By the time I got home, several of our kids were already in bed and I tried to get started working on SP. I fell asleep as I am apt to do these days and I woke up with the computer in my lap.
Wednesday was hectic as well. Our day started out with a flat tire ont he little car--grr. I convinced my husband to stay home from work and use one of his many leave days to attend to that and a few other things that just need to be done at home, but with the schedule we have, there isn't enough time.
My class schedule was more typical, but we have an early dismissal day on Wednesdays for staff meetings and the like. During the course of the day, I received two emails giving me some extra duties and I tried to squeeze them in before the grade level team meeting. I try and join the 1st and 2nd grade team because the majority of my students come from them. I tried to explain to this group that I need to give my schedule a big makeover to move all of my first grade lessons to the morning. My little children seem to be pretty worn out by the late afternoon, and I am trying to do some important work with them then. That was fairly well received. I also mentioned that I was "thinking" of letting go of the big tutoring group, because the group is too big and that there are too many disruptions for it to be the kind of instruction the kids need. I want to do some one on one tutoring with another child. This was not so well received, and I found myself being unable to hold my ground with the dissension. I have the next couple of weeks to get my point across. When I volunteered to help them out, I wasn't expecting such a big group and I feel like I've been taken advantage of. Our meeting ended around 4:00 and my husband came to get me.
We picked our son up from his school and came home o prepare dinner. It wasn't quite ready when we needed to take our youngest son to Confirmation, so I just passed and went along to go to the fitness center (pool). I got home around 10:00 and sat down to work online. I started my blog--and, well, it is now 6AM. Falling asleep with the laptop has gotten to be something I am doing more and more often these days. Hmm, at least I slept two nights this week!!
Today, two of my kids are going to join me at school and help me with some videotaping for my National Boards renewal. It's Thursday, so I have the final long tutoring day after school. It will be followed by our youngest son's choir and band concert. I don't know if I will make it to the pool or not with all of this going on. I can tell that I am pretty sore today, which will need some attention if I am going ot do anything well. I don't know what else might come up, it has seemed like a lot of the people who I work with have needed some sort of help from me this past couple of weeks--I have spent a good deal of time with at least 6 different teachers on top of my regular work with children and families. I am so pleased that people are talking to me about the things they need help with and I am glad to be able to do it. In the big picture though, I am feeling a bit overwhelmed trying to maintain the schedule that I have been keeping. I think there is a balance and I just have to find it. This may be my new goal to work on as I move from weight loss into maintenance in the coming weeks.
That's my story, in any case.
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
After all of my plans, I slipped up and forgot that Marissa's choir program was yesterday afternoon. Micah's band and choir concert is Thursday evening and Marissa;s band concert is next week. I love the holiday programs and our kids' schools don't seem to have to follow the rules that other school districts have to follow, leaving religion out of the season. I am so glad--I understand the rules and why they exist, but it bothers me that I am not allowed to have my faith be part of the world around me because somebody might file a lawsuit. I think lawsuits have done a lot of evil in our world. (End of that comment... I guess Christmas is Christmas to me and even if you aren't a Christian, it is a very important and widely celebrated holiday. If you don't choose to celebrate this day, just leave those of us who do alone.)
Marissa's concert was beautiful. The music was outstanding, some traditional, some fun, some new. Their little school was one of 12 schools from junior high to college in Illinois selected to perform for the IL Music Educators. Our big surprise was when Marissa received a medal and was honored at this concert for being selected by the state to attend all-state as a future music educator, based on a paper that she submitted and the recommendations of her choir and band instructors. She is a sophomore and usually those types of honors are given to juniors and seniors. It made her mother cry. She is part of the more exclusive Madrigal Choir and their Jazz Choir and she had a lovely solo at the program as well. Her voice has grown and matured so much that whenever I hear her sing, it almost takes my breath away.
I took a lot of photos and I'll share some of them here. Maybe you can get a feel for how awesome it was!!
The stage was lovely--the light made it seem so special.
The musicians entered through the audience serenading us as they climbed on stage--the young lady in the center is Marissa.
The Madrigal Choir added a touch of fun with a PDQ Bach song and some kazoos that had the audience giggling.
I'm sorry the photos of Marissa receiving her medal didn't come out better, but we are so proud of her that this moment won't fade away in spite of that!!
Here she is during her solo with the Madrigal Choir.
As has been true with all of our kids, Marissa is so tall that she is on the back riser during the program. My tall children (except for Megan) are always easy to find.
We had a wonderful time--it changed my plans for Sunday and I missed out on going to the pool. I got my exercise in by walking, working at school, and household chores, and even if I couldn't have, this event was so wonderful that I wouldn't have missed it for anything. The last two songs are always "The Hallelujah Chorus" from Handel's Messiah and "Silent Night." All of those beautiful voices of the young people at the high school make it an important part of my Christmas season.
Thanks for letting this proud mother do a bit of bragging and sharing!!
Sunday, December 05, 2010
Today, when I was in the sauna, I was reading the October issue of Reader's Digest (I catch up on some things in my own time ) and after I read a rather chilling article about medical mistakes made in America, I turned to the front of the magazine and there was a little half page blurb on "How to Stay Optimistic" with several suggestions from their reader panel. It caught me a bit off guard because I read so many good ideas here at SP as well as quality information from the SP staff on the same topic. The suggestions included things like humming a tune, taking a deep breath, looking at the night sky, and smiling to things requiring more thought such as giving thanks and counting your blessings. The interesting part of this was the answers that might have come right from SP. They included: working towards a goal, helping others, and "Don't sweat the small stuff." I am sure that I have read versions of all three of these things on this site before.
This lead me to think about my Spark Friends. I think you do more to help me be positive than sometimes I do for myself. You give me smiles--and goodies and flash emoticons around in your comments that are precious or cute or sweet or funny. You bring those smiles to my face. You constantly remind me of what I am doing right and gently help me to do some things better. You confirm my efforts and take time out of your own busy days to talk to me--often when I haven't returned the favor because of my hectic, crazy schedule. You provide me with "food for thought" that helps me to find my way down the path I should be on. You help me to remember my goals. Your encouragement is invaluable.
It is funny how the most trivial little thing can help me to stick with my plan here. The past couple of days haven't been my best as far as eating and sparking. I think exhaustion from the week I have had kicked in and every time I got to sit down, I found myself napping. I ate my healthy foods but added in some junk in ways that I don't typically do. However, except for the fact that tomorrow is my weekly weigh-in and that I might have to deal with a number that I might not care for for this week, I realize that no real harm was done and that maybe, something valuable came out of some of my mistakes this past week. I know that it isn't good to put in a work schedule like I did. It is hard on me physically and emotionally, and it makes it hard for me to stay focused on the real reason I do the best job I can one day after another, my students. With so much on my plate, my thoughts were pretty scattered this week, and there is truth in the saying that there is "only so much" that one can do. As I was getting around to some fairly nasty self-talk, along came this little piece in a magazine that brought my thinking and behavior back on track. Actually, it brought my thinking and behavior back to you.
And I am good now. I needed to get redirected. You all did that--and you didn't even know it at that time.
See how good you are?
Thanks for your help and support once again!!
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