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Saturday 7/17 Busy Family, Vacation Needs, Glorious BlessingsSunday, July 18, 2010
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MORTICIAADDAMS
7/19/2010 9:54AM
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I hope you can manage this. I know it's difficult with just the 3 of us to synchronize our schedules.
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JHADZHIA
7/18/2010 2:40PM
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WOW!! I sincerely hope find something your family can all do together and rest and have fun!!! You all soo need a break from your drudgery routines. I don't know how your husband works such long hours and still keeps his sanity!! Good luck with it! {{{gentle hugs}}} Linda Report Inappropriate Comment |


NPA4LOSS
7/18/2010 2:27PM
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Hi Everyone,
I have been having such a good time this past month, but I have known and avoided the fact that unpacking boxes would be coming. I have been teaching young children reading strategies at church and I've been having so much fun with them, but I know this big job is facing me. I have been walking around the heap of boxes on my porch and in both of our vans because I was given a limit on what I could take--then I found out that most of the teachers had well over 100 boxes--more like 180, 160, 140--and I was told that I could only have 50??? However, I have been having a pleasant summer and I have been avoiding these things. I have been having fun at the pool, with my family, at my church, and visiting with all of you.
We have taken a few things from my porch to the school during the summer--but it was only to drop them off and get out of there, because we weren't allowed to unpack yet. Now we can unpack, and I have had almost everyone of my kids in to help with some of this. I have a lot to do, but the unpacking is easier than packing. I labeled and organized things pretty well and that made this part of the job a lot easier. My porch looks ridiculous though and I spent about 6 hours today opening and moving boxes and organizing things so that they could be taken (back) to school where they belong. Marshall helped me and when Floyd got home from work, he helped me too. The guys will have no problem in knowing what they need to load into their trucks and bring to me now, yay. The downside is that my back is hurting like all get out tongiht.
My attitude issue is here and it is with myself. I am frustrated to have this body that won't let me work the way I'd like to. After church today, I played around here for a while and procrastinated, but I finally went out to my porch to organize the things that are piled all over. (It looks purely disgraceful out there, but I didn't have anywhere else to put those things. Our basement gets water and nobody should have to lift these heavy boxes of books and put them in our rafter attic.) Anyway, I have worked at moving, lifting, and unpacking boxes since Tuesday and I have found that it doesn't take much to get my back throbbing again. It is as if I have done nothing to try to become stronger and to manage this pain. I get the same reaction simply by bending over and trying to pick up items off of the floor. It hurts and that hurting is ALWAYS there. It doesn't go away and hangs out just waiting for me to do any little thing to make it scream at me. I don't like it and I don't want it. It interferes with what I need to do. It interferes with what I want to do. It won't let me walk very long (if I'm not in the pool.) It won't let me go to the mall and shop with my girls. It won't let me go to yard sales and thrift shops and look for bargains. It won't let me work in my garden. It won't let me go hiking. It won't let me play frisbee. It won't let me walk Lady. I know that it is wrong to dwell on this type of thing, but sometimes it just makes me darn irritated. As a matter of fact, I am going to write my back a note here:
Dear Back,
Hi there. I'd ask "How are you?" but I already know that. I know that when I moved boxes around and climbed on and off of the porch today that it really made you angry. I am a little bit sorry for that, but you need to understand a few things. I have a life and I have important things to do in my life and YOU interfere constantly. This past weekend has been all about you and that isn't right, it is time for you to understand that you aren't in charge of what I need or want. If I could, I would evict you from the premises for all of the disturbances you cause.
I know that a lot of this is my fault. If I hadn't lived most of my life as being very obese and if I hadn't did so many yoyo diets, maybe you wouldn't have gotten into the shape you are in now. Yet other people who are obese do not have a back meddling with their life constantly. You demand far too much attention from me and I cannot give you whatever it is you want or need to behave. If you were a child, you would be in time out constantly. However, whatever I did in the past is over and cannot be changed, so that brings us back to now.
Listen, I have to get my things moved into that beautiful new classroom. I do have a helper thanks to my friend Ken. My kids have been very good about helping as you well know. Yet, I cannot sit there like some kind of queen while everyone else is doing my work. That would be rude on my part--and besides that, they need my help to know what I want to have done. I would like to get this finished soon so that I can enjoy the last few weeks of my summer break with my family. I need that and I want that. I got the porch organized today with the help of my son and my husband and I took several sit down breaks because they made me. It isn't fair that you are making me pay for that with all of this pain--this work is my RESPONSIBILITY.
The reality is that you and I have to get along with each other. Neither of us can live or function without the other one. I want to make a deal with you and try to prevent this from being a constant problem this week. Here is how I am going to help you: I am going to make sure that I use my meds in a timely way and not wait until you are angry to remember them. I will stop and sit down every 5-7 minutes to keep you calm. I won't lift anything that weighs more than ten pounds again. I will ask for help and I will be patient and wait for the help to come, rather than doing things by myself. I will get to the pool everyday when it is open like I have been doing. I will also do a pain patch check each evening to make sure that I haven't lost it, so you get screaming upset. I am still losing weight and I will keep at this until I am at the healthy weight my doctor wants me at. I will eat healthy and take my vitamins as required.
All I ask of you is to be reasonable. I don't deserve it when you scream at me for hours and I don't deserve to be stuck in a chair all of the time. If I treat you with the respect you deserve, you need to let me do things that other people do. It is only fair if I give you everything that I am capable of that you give me a break and stop the spasms and the constant aching and burning pain. I am going to expect it and I will keep my part of the bargain in return.
So cheers to you, my back, as you and I work hard to live together in peace, while I continue living my life within reason. Thanks for hearing me out.
Gentle hugs, Sylvia
OK--it is going to take a lot of effort for me to hold up my end of this bargain, but I need to do exactly what I promised my back. I may need your continued reminders to take care of business. Please feel free, my SparkFriends. We started moving things at school on Tuesday and my back started acting up Tuesday evening. It was as if no time had passed and that pain was simply back. I must have a better quality of life--there will always be something for this mother, teacher, student, wife, Christian to do and I have to stay in the boundaries that my back has given me.
Do you think I'll be able to keep the promises I made to my back? I MUST or it will ruin me and my life. It is that simple to say and understand. However, why I don't make those choices without all of this self-direction is far beyond me. I wish it wasn't like this and I wish my back didn't hurt and act up all of the time. But it is what it is and it does what it does, so compromise is the way I have to function.
As always, I
for your support. Have a wonderful new week and together, we will reach for the stars without upsetting our backs. Take care everyone!!
Gentle hugs to you too,
Sylvia


DAWNWATERWOMAN
7/13/2010 8:55AM
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Excellent blog. I'm sorry that you're in so much pain.. but your spirit is strong, even if you body is not. You are on the right track. I'm here for you, one day at a time. Love ya, Dawn
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MORTICIAADDAMS
7/12/2010 7:13PM
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I'm sorry about your back but you are doing remarkably well, Sylvia, for what you have been through. Just take it a day at a time.
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DETERMINEDJANET
7/12/2010 7:05PM
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I'd sure listen to you if I was your back! Very good blog...great way to get it all out there for yourself. Hang in there!!!
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2RICKIE
7/12/2010 2:14PM
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Yes, stop beating yourself and your back--there must be a reason it needs special care. Great that you have the people to help, LET THEM! May you find time to relax and do stretches to relieve the back. Report Inappropriate Comment |


NPA4LOSS
7/12/2010 9:27AM
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I enjoyed your blog. I hope that your back will listen and straighten up it's act. Keep your end of the bargain and don't give it any excuses to not fulfill it's part. I hope that all is better soon and you begin to feel some relief. Report Inappropriate Comment |


SHELLPRO
7/12/2010 8:50AM
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I'm sorry your having such a hard time. It's probably like mine (yeah, the arm & hand again!) Weather and too much use. I blew a hard 60 min. Aerobic workout Sun. and now Storms moved in, I am in a lot of pain too. And no pain patches prescription med's on hand, so on with the ice packs and Tylenol. I'm sending a copy of your letter to MY arm! Comment edited on: 7/12/2010 8:52:00 AM Report Inappropriate Comment |


JHADZHIA
7/12/2010 2:20AM
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So sorry about your back Sylvia, here is hoping it stays within the boundaries of tolerance.. Is your classroom smaller then the other teachers or something? I find that mysterious how they are allowed to bring more (or perhaps they are ignoring what they were told?). And this idea of not being allowed to unpack until they give you the go ahead. It would have been so much easier (and less stressful for your back) if this could have been done slowly, over the summer instead of all at once just before school starts.. Just try to enjoy the rest of your summer and pleasant times in the pool. If I can refrain from lifting anything more than ten pounds with my elbow replacement, you should be able to do so also for your poor back. What say we push each other to take a little better care of ourselves, shall we? Mom sure isn't letting me carry anything heavy when she takes me grocery shopping. She calls herself my pack mule. It actually doesn't matter where or what we shop for, she is always caring it for me. I get a little frustrated with this as she has been having some bad trouble with pain in one of her hands thanks to a bad wrist break that later developed arthritis. We can do this! Gentle Hugs, Linda Report Inappropriate Comment |


SAHURE
7/12/2010 1:32AM
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Oh Sylvia! My heart goes out to you and your naughty back. I am sending you healing vibes and heat for the back, and gentle hugs and support for you. Most of all: stop beating yourself up. Report Inappropriate Comment |


CHYRL_C
7/12/2010 1:25AM
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