Saturday, May 01, 2010
I am surprised that I woke up as early as I did today. I got home from the pool shortly after ten last night. I had a couple of clementines and a half of a sandwich and settled down to spend time with SP--and that lasted maybe an hour before I was asleep. It has been like that most of the week since I returned to work full days. I know that I will get a rhythm going soon--schedule changes often take time to get adjusted to.
I have found that I have a great deal of work to do now that I am back at work. The sub who was there with my afternoon students ran a fairly loose ship, which is very different than what I do. I know that my students have to make accelerated progress in order to catch up to their peers. I have them for a half an hour to 45 minutes a day if I am lucky and there are no interruptions in the daily schedule. That is a lot on their backs and mine. I plan intense lessons that focus on what they need the most to make progress and increase their reading levels. The sub that was there for me allowed them to color pictures to "keep them from talking" while they were reading as well as having snack time. Those things might be okay in a regular classroom where the students are available all day, but just cannot fit into the kind of schedule I have. I had the opportunity to work with him on Wednesday and was pretty amazed at things I witnessed. He had his reasons for what was taking place, but I cannot understand coloring as opposed to focusing on the reading material. I guess it could go unsaid that some of these children are sorry to see me return. I did a poetry day on Thursday (April is national poetry month and April 29 is "Keep a Poem in Your Pocket Day." I helped them all to find a poem, copy it and keep it in their pocket to read to others. On Friday, I found a way to assess them over the material they were currently reading to prove tot hem that they weren't "getting" what they needed to out of the passages. On Monday, I will be starting over with some of them and re-reading with others. I have a lot to do with these children and although I cannot make up for the time they have lost, I can push for quality work in this last month of school.
I have my assignment for next year and it is with the same staff I have been working with in the new building. I heard a rumor that I will have a full-sized classroom rather than a food pantry, bathroom, or office to teach in--if that is so, it will be nice, especially if I get real furniture. I have a lot of work to do to get things packed for the move, which is work that my body will not handle well, so I have contacted the administration downtown. At meetings held earlier in this year, they promised me help and I definitely need it. The current rule is that we cannot put any boxes in the hallways though--and given how small my rooms are, I am wondering how we will manage this.
Things at home are the same and a bit different. I need to focus on a couple of my kids over this weekend and get them moving in a more positive direction. I have gotten some positive advice from my doctor on ways to help my 20 year old to get back on track--it seems that I must be the one at bat to get the game started. I am worried that he is going to just veg out rather than take any action, and that cannot be.
I get to go out to lunch with my best friend today--it's the first Saturday of the month. I always enjoy this peaceful time we have together. I will take my youngest son to the fitness center afterwards and then be home for the majority of the day. I have lots to do here as well. It's time to put my little plants into the garden--they seem to be pretty healthy and ready to go. I am so glad that things are green and blooming now. It's such a big difference from the cold, greyness of winter.
I leave you all with a wish for sunshine and joy in the weekend and coming days. Take care of yourselves, my friends!!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
As I wait for someone to take me to the pool, I thought I'd share my day. Things went reasonably well. Our school has an early dismissal on Wednesdays for different types of collaboration times. Today was the day for team meetings, so I was free to work in my other classroom. Wow, anytime a teacher has a sub, there is a lot of work to do to get things back in order. This was no exception, and I had a lot to do, especially given the fact that I had my son sub from October until December followed by another guy from January until today. My body has handled most of the physical demands on it at this point. I had a lot of cleaning up and organizing to do, whew. I'll know more after I get my workout in. I can't let the pool go, just because I am back to work because that is where my healing is coming from.
Things are continuing to move slowly on the homefront. I am going to have to push my kids a bit harder now than before, because I'll need them to hold things together for me. I decided to leave my wheel chair at my morning school because the halls are much longer there. Some of the issues have been changed at my afternoon school and I get tostay in my little room all day rather than traveling around, so I will use my walker there. It seems like a good plan as of now anyway.
Now, I've got to get to that pool. Take care of yourselves and do what it takes to be your best!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I am trying to get adjusted to the medication that I am taking--it sure makes me sleepy. That's a good/bad thing because the sleepiness takes over whenever it wants and sometimes it is at the wrong time. It is helping with some of my pain issues, and I am giving thanks for that.
I am waiting to talk to my doctor's office again about coming back to work full days. It will either be tomorrow or Thursday, depending on how we can make contact with each other. (The person I need to talk to is out of the office today, but if I understood the message correctly, it is saved on the computer and someone else can help me. I'll find out for sure when I call them back.
Yesterday was my really hungry day--I managed to stick with my plan, but it was sure a challenge. I wonder what caused that. It's probably another thing I can blame on the medication I'm now taking. It took all of my willpower to walk by the vending machine at the fitness center and stick with the grape tomatoes and watermelon chunks I brought with me. I did it though, yay for me.
I wish you all a perfect day--get in some extra activity, drink your water, and make healthy eating choices. You can do it!!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
I am giving thanks tonight. I am feeling better and a bit more in control again. I think that injection--Kenalog--took the bite off of what my fibro was doing to me. I am back on Neurontin (for neurological pain) and Cymbalta (for fibro). It will take a couple of weeks forthe meds to work completely, but part of the getting a nerontin level is dealing with the side effect of sleepiness. For me right now, that is a good thing and I had an awesome nap tonight. I had a couple of nights of good sleep when I was sick last week, but my sleep has been deteriorating rapidly and that is the fibro speaking. My rheumy was quite concerned about my present condition and told me that it was hard to define where the arthritis flare ended and the fibro flare took over. Most people don't have flares in both conditions at the same time, but welcome to my world. My rheumy is a man of some UK background, with a great brogue accent and he is the most thorough and kind gentleman ever. His face shows his distress when I am in such awful shape.
My pain doc is out of town for next week, but I have an appointment with him on his first clinic date, May 7. I don't know what he can do for me--I am fearful of increasing my narcotic pain relief, so it will need to be something else. I think that I have known all along that I needed to call out for help with htis and I knew where my help would come from, but it was necessary to make sure that the ugly stuff hadn't resurfaced. Having had one bone infection makes me vulnerable to a repeat episode and it is good news to know that that isn't my current problem.
I called my surgeon'soffice about returning to work full time today but they didnt return my call, so I have at least one more half-day to work. I spent some extra time today trying to work with the para in my building to resolve some issues that are surfacing. I have never witnessed the problem, but she needed a heads up that our boss and at least another person were complaining. I have witnessed really good work from this lady and I don't want her to end up in the tough work environment that I am in. All of our paras are in a state of limbo because with the budget issues, they don't know if they have a job next year, or if they have a job--where or what it may consist of. She doesn't need any other stress. On a related note, I think I am headed to more of the same that I have dealt with over and over this year. Grr-rr, at least I have the ability to retire on my side.
The things within our family have shown improvement. My husband has been talking to our lawyer all week and it seems as if the mortgage people problems are coming to an end, I won't rest until I see it in writing, but it looks like it is settling down. My son is coming around as well--he knows what he needs to do and is getting started on things, albeit slowly for my taste. He has a lot to do but has gotten started. Since he is without health insurance, heis going to have to jump through hoops to get service at our local mental health center--they won't even accept info from his previous doctors which I think is insulting since he has beent reated for his conditions since he was 3 years old. However, they offer a sliding fee scale and it is a way to get started. I plan to be involved in every step of this even if he is 20 years old and "an adult." I am fearful that he won't share the internet problem in the way I see it and I think they will have to know that it has interfered with his life. He has only asked to go online a couple of times recently and hasn't responded with anger. However, he rides his bike to the library while I am at work and uses the internet there--it is time restricted and content restricted, so I guess I have to accept this as something he can do (unfortunately.) Tomorrow, I have to let him go online to file for unemployment, that is how it is done now. He may need to use it tolook for a job too, and all I can do is look over his shoulder.
it is good to feel a bit more in control of things right now and it helps to know that my prayers are being answered. The thing withmy son's job was ugly and although I rallied to help get his job back, I am hoping that this helps to get things back in order for him. Working third shift for so long has probably added a great deal to his issues and I hope he can move on. I asked God to help me help him and I think this is what has went on. It won't be an easy journey, but it is necessary.
Now, if we could only get the cable TV fixed correctly, lol. One miracle at a time, I guess. It is good to feel better!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Today was my appointment with my back doctor and it was short and well, it was short. Good news is that there are no new issues in my back--no infections, stress fractures, etc...and it continues to be fusing after the big surgery. The bad news is that he offered nothing to help me with the pain and no explanation for it. His only suggestion was to see a pain management doc--hmm, I already do. I called for an appointment and got their voice mail.
I also called and made an emergency appointment with my rheumy--I'm getting in tomorrow. I am guessing that it is time to bite the billet and get back on some type of medication. I think part of the reason I am not feeling better after the bug that everyone had is my fibromyalgia. I used to take four prescriptions to help with it and although I never want to get back on as many things as I had before, I think it is reasonable to take something to get this back under some control. It is such a grungy condition when it is flaring and that just needs to be avoided. The lousy thing is that for the some ten years that I have had this diagnosis, it has never been at rest. The big new medication, Lyrica, has these perfectly awful cmmercials that make things look so delightful and easy to care for. The honest truth is that it may be more debilitating than conditions that destroy organs, bones, joints--because it is unrelenting in disturbing sleep, mood, all-over body feelings and general well-being. Now there are some idiots out there that want to make it a mental health condition instead of leaving it as a medical condition that needs study and treatment.
My other options will come from my pain doc. He is the best guy ever and if there is something that can be done to give me some relief. He has been a friend and a support for me for a very long time. He is the doc I ask for whenever I need any surgery for my anesthesiologist. He was my anest. for the birth of my youngest son and he has been with me for 2 of 3 knee replacements, my knee maniputalions, both of my back surgeries, my most recent surgeries, all of the treatment sessions I had for RSD, and my chiro appointments. He went with me and helped the chiro to work on my legs--he even took me into surgery and did a sympathetic nerve block before a major chiro appointment to relieve the faschia tissue (ART) and get the scar tissue building in my post-op knee to loosen up. Once, he treated me with a similar block and lifted me into our van because of the numbness in my legs. He has givenme his home phone number to call when I need something--but I have only done that twice (because of an uncooperative nurse in the pain clinic who messed up my prescriptions.) I trust him implicitly. And I need him now.
All of this needs attention really fast because I need to return to work full days asap--Monday is what I am hoping for. I have to get past whatever is upsetting my entire system right now. I know that stress owns a chunk of that, but I was ill before all of these big ugly new stresses came up. My back has been raging since February. I have made so many good, healthy changes in my way of life that I am out of tricks. I am calling out the calvary--and everything is going to get better, in every way and in every arena. There are no other choices.
I'd like to thank you for your prayers and support as I muddle through things. My faith is strong, but it really helps to have other people in my world to give me a boost. You have all been so wonderful. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I will keep you all posted as things improve.
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