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Sunday, August 30--Not over the storm yet

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Hi there, dear friends,

I have had a tough week. It started out with me getting in trouble with my boss because I wanted to ask for something and she didn't have time to hear the entire story. It included a special visit to me from the HR guy and an email from the Curriculum guy too. The thing was, I wanted some help in the other building and one of the helpers was off for bereavement. The other gal told me that she would be glad to come and give me a hand to manage the stairs and things that are tough for me. Before I could explain all of this to my boss, she started the conversation with how she didn't have time to talk with me and then jumped in with how she couldn't pay for mileage. I just about cried because she didn't give me a chance and all I said was that "You know, I haven't asked for anything and I have had to come in and work every weekend which nobody else had to do." I went on and worked on my own, but it would have been so much easier if I could have had someone go talk to people upstairs instead of trying to wait for them to answer an email or catch them on the first floor hallway. Oh my.

After the slaps on the hand that I got on Tuesday by the Assistant or Associate Superintendents, I became progressively more ill all day long. I had physical therapy after school and could barely move, my therapist decided that I need my therapy in the pool so I'll start that on Friday. On Wednesday, I found out that there were no chairs for my students because they sent them to the other building and at the other building, there is no furniture for me because the custodian needs someone to help him carry things, but his schedule has been changed and he is the only one working during his hours. So my room in that building has no table and chairs for the students and the available bookcase can't be gotten. There is a leak in my ceiling that they have been looking at for weeks--and they made a big hole up there possibly 2 foot square. For almost two weeks, it has been dripping into a half full garbage can and an ionizer has been running. There is an odd smell in this room and I don't know if it is old wet garbage or the hole and the mold or whatever goes with that or the ionizer, but I became more and more nauseated. I had an after school appointment with my psychologist and when we got to his office, I vomited all over the car, myself and the parking lot, so I didn't get to go talk about how to manage this new stress.

I decided to stay home on Thursday and got in to see my doctor. He did lab work, made an appointment for me with a GI doc, and gave me a prescription for a strong anti-nausea medication. He also told me to take Friday off work too and gave me a "back to work note." I have to call them back on Monday for the appointment and the results to my lab work. All I did on Friday was sit in my chair and doze off and on all day. It was nice not to vomit.

Yesterday, I spent 6 hours working in my classrooms in both schools, I didn't finish in the primary building because I found a dozen boxes with art and desk supplies in them and since I didn't get any this year, these are important to me. My daughter is great at sorting things and she should be able to come and give me a hand with all of this. The guys reorganized the shower I have been given to store my things in and we accomplished a lot in both buildings. We just aren't done yet, and tomorrow, I am going to see students with or without furniture. I will find a way to make things work.

It has been a tough week and I am sure that this is not over. It is so good to have my big family and to have all of their help in working through my issues. I am emotionally drained with all of this and am ready for some relief. I have prayed and am counting on the answers to my prayers so that can have relief and get finished. Prayer is the best way to get what we need.

Hopefully, I'll have a positive follow up to this in a couple of days (after I worked with my kids).I'm looking forward to my real job.

In Christian love,
Sylvia

  
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14JESUSGIRL 8/31/2009 7:37PM

    Sylvia, I'm so sorry you had such a hard week. It's always makes a difficult situation even worse when people misunderstand what you are saying and then hold it against you. I feel your pain. I am very blessed to be at the school I'm at. There are so many positive things. I was lamenting my schedule this afternoon. It is awful! But then I read your blog and realize my schedule problem is NOTHING compared to what you have been facing. I pray that you get the things and helpers you need to do your job well and to protect your health. Be blessed, my fellow teacher and friend.
Love in Christ,
Lee
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JRSWHIMSY 8/31/2009 12:44PM

    It has been a rough week for you Sylvia - all I can say is I do hope things get better for you *hugs*

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 8/30/2009 3:15PM

    I am so sorry to hear about not enough furniture so you can teach your kids but I know that you will find a way to do this and with Gods help you will be very effective and reach the young minds that you have under your care.

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Sunday, August 16--Patiently waiting

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Hello,

It has been raining this morning and we are all disappointed. It seems to be slowing down and has not been a thunderstorm, so we are prayerful that our picnic/ swimming excursion. My daughter who works at a waterpark was sent home though, so we are all in limbo right now.

I did not attend to anything at school yesterday because we had so many things to do at home. We ran errands, dealt with school supplies and a few new clothes, and decided to do all of the laundry we could find at the laundromat (I still forgot a load of blankets). It was pretty unbelieveable, but we did 18 loads of clothes. I had to reteach all of my male family how to correctly sort and wash things, the use of bleach, laundry soap, and extras, and how to fold things. I cannot believe all of the shortcuts they were taking. I had to refold every pair of slacks that we had and they just all played a bit dumb. (My guess is that Mom may never be invited again to do laundry with the others.) It took us about 3 1/2 hours.

My son went to take one of his brothers to work, pick up another brother from work, and to get the ice. I think the picnic is on. (YAY) The guys planned this, and I am just here to support and enjoy. My daughter wants to use my computer before we go, but I really don't feel like sharing. I will do the right thing...

I have lots I should be doing, but I'm missing SparkPeople while things are so hectic, workwise. Things are better, but since I didn't get to boxes this weekend I will probably get some sass tomorrow. Maybe we can do some after school, or even during school if I have the right help. It's hard to tell.

My daughter keeps reminding me to "keep on typing your blog." I wanted to talk about church today. The service was short, but the message was strong. We have been taling about "Service to God" We sang a couple of my favorite songs.. Our praise music was fun to sing, we did 2 out of 3 of my "favorites' As always, it helped me a lot and "filled my spiritual cup" The place is almost beautiful enough to do that alone. The big stained glass windowd with Jesus at the door is gorgeous.

I keep hearing "Mom, are you done?" I will let her have this. Take care and have a wonderful first day of the week.

Take care and enjoy today that God has made!!
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9/18--Note...I cannot believe all of the typos there were in this blog. I think I fixed them all, sorry to everyone who got to read this. emoticon

  
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JRSWHIMSY 8/17/2009 12:20PM

    It's nice that you took some time to yourself - to heck with the boxes! You deserved a break :o)

I was a bad mom this weekend :o( The boys wanted me to ake them down to the pool which isn't so far but my SI joint had been hurting and I just didn't want to sit in those pool chairs and suffer (they require an adult or the kids are kicked out for the season). I was tempted to let them go sicne the season is only another 2 weeks! haha But no, we stayed home and they whined and I felt guilty. Oh well :oP

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It's Friday, 8/14 already

Friday, August 14, 2009

Hi there,

My Spark friends have been on my mind as I have worked and worked on the almost impossible the past two weeks. I try to blog weekly, and maybe if my job gets on schedule, so will I. I haven't tracked my food in several days, but I haven't eaten much in the same several days. I had an awful bug of some kind that kept me up all night Tuesday and the wee Wednesday hours. I tried to work, but went home at lunch. I was so weak and tired from that short lived bug that walking to the car was a big job. I actually woke up at 6:30 PM and thought it was AM, and when my husband came in the room, he startled me. (He leaves for work far before 6:30 and I wasn't expecting to see him.) Anyway, the icky bug seems to have left as fast as it came upon me. YAY!

I am still doing paperwork and not teaching. I have been chasing down test scores from other teachers and schools, one or two at a time because so much information has been unavailable. My older kids can tell me what school they went to and their teacher, my little ones cannot. The data was a mess, but I believe this is a learning experience for all of us and this shall be addressed to not happen again. My helpers, our two reading paraprofessionals have been awesome, working together and doing any little job that will help me out along with helping each of the kindergarten teachers so they can test as well.

I thought that our family might go camping this weekend, but it doesn't seem as if they will do the leg work while I am working and I couldn't do everything while I am at work, so I think that will get put off until next weekend, before my kids start school. That means this weekend will be another weekend to sort out my boxes. Yippee, that's not a lot of fun, but I need to finish the job.

I started physical therapy this week. My new physical therapist didn't give me much of a prognosis--there is little to no muscle tone or anything in my back and he is not surprised. His take on everything is that since my first surgery in March of 2005, I have not had any real way to strengthen my back or build endurance, so he knows that starting slow and building a foundation is what's best. I talked to this strong young man named Matt about everything including my plans to do weight loss surgery. He thinks that I need to do this strengthening first because otherwise both my abdomen will be weak while my back is incredibly weak and that healing will be very long, painful, and difficult. As far as the WLS, I am hoping to have a call from the surgeon's nurse tomorrow to see where things stand. If, along with half of my former PT notes, they do not have enough to convince the insurance company that I am a good candidate to follow a healthy plan...it really is time to rebuild my strength and get them the current paperwork that shows my time at the gym, the pool, and at PT.

I have new short term goals--1. I will develop my schedule and the schedule for the paras who have been working with me that is fair, considering the children's needs. 2. I will work on moving the remaining boxes of books, with completion by Labor Day weekend. 3. I will get back to tracking my eating on the nutrition tracker on Sunday, the start of next week. 4. I will get 3-4 days swimming each week, 2 days of physical therapy, 7 days of my PR exercises, and ,y regular walking--a few steps at a time do add up. 5. I will use my pain meds and ice to keep my pain level at a minimum each day. 6. (The most important) I will have time with my husband and each of my children who are around each day because when I don't stay close with them, I feel empty.

I think that I'm on the right track...This has been such an eventful couple of weeks that I am only sharing the main things. My weight is exactly the same as my ticker...but I am sure that I had a gain after I returned from my workshop, so I did my job and lost whatever I gained. YAY!

Hugs to you all,
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JRSWHIMSY 8/14/2009 2:43PM

    Hi Sylvia! I'm glad to hear you're feeling better, though I wish the news from the PT doc was better! Take things one day at a time and you'll get there :o)
You're goals sound wonderful but remember you're still human and might falter from time to time, don't let it get you down *husg*

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LOULOUBELLE2 8/14/2009 9:06AM

    emoticonYou had that nasty bug, emoticonyour better now and that it didn't last long.
As I read your blog, I sense that things are looking up a bit for you. PT fello seems to have your best interests at heart, your co workers cooperating, boxes almost done, even time for swimming and most important a family that loves you. OMG Sylvia that's great. As Lee said it's an answer to prayer. Keep the faith and keep on plugging away. It will all come together in God's time. Your a special and caring gal, We all know it, but most importantly the Good Lord knows it too.
Prayers are still with you.
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14JESUSGIRL 8/14/2009 7:09AM

    I am so thankful that your co workers are on your side. It's not much fun to have so much to do and have people around you that are negative and self-centered. They sound like an answer to prayer to come along beside you and be your helpers. God is so good! You are so right about family! They are the most important in life next to our relationship with Jesus.
You sound like such a dedicated teacher, Sylvia! So much work to do because you love children and want what's best for them. Your student's are blessed to have you. Keep up the good work, but be kind to yourself as well.
Love in Christ,
Lee

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TWINS_08 8/14/2009 1:41AM

    At least you didn't let the bug get you down. I am glad to hear it went away as quickly as it came up...now you can get back to your journey and I hope that you are feeling much better.

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August 2--IT really hurts!!

Monday, August 03, 2009

Hi there.

My husband is exhausted and if I sit still with ice on my back, I cannot feel the sharp pain cutting into the left side of my back and rolling around with a burning pain. (Does anybody know what you call a pain like that?) I think the way to explain this is to go into my last few days.

Thursday, I was under the assumption that I was going to have my classroom (former pantry, not big, no closets or cabinets) to myself. I got busy rearranging things since I was so miserable there last year/ (The window was on the other side of the room and the young lady that helped out and used that side of the room was one of those people who was generally cold--so no A/C or seasonal breezes for me in that ten pound back brace that I wore for 11 months--and may have to wear again. That left me with a lot of reorganization and I spent the morning moving some things I shouldn't have and lots of baskets of books, including the ones I had taken to church for the summer. My back was hurting and then in popped one of our Assistant Superintendents. He came to basically tell me that I was going to travel to another building and then to quiz me about my ability to climb stairs. (Five doctor notes from 3 different doctors over 6 years didn't clarify that nearly enough--and if I remember clearly, I had to have an evaluation from one of their doctors to confirm it as well.) He was blunt and a bit rude, waiting carefully to come into my room between the trips my son was making from his truck to deliver things. After he left, my boss who had refused to answer my question if I would be traveling told me that she felt that HE should be the one to tell me. (Why?) Then she proceeded to tell me that I had 2 aides that I would be in charge of and planning their assignments for--uh oh, I won't be in a room by myself.

So here I was, in a room that I had spent 4 hours arranging in a manner that was for me teaching in BY MYSELF. emoticon Now, it was possible that there could be 2 or 3 of us in there--it's a tiny room where I have been trying to house about 1/3 of my things. She also told me that my 50 some boxes of books on the stage had to be removed. I also received an email from my "big" boss, our Associate superintendent of curriculum telling me that I had until Monday's 2:00 meeting to have a schedule to show how I'd be teaching 50% of my day on Tuesday (for all of the reading teachers, not just me), Great trick since my boss doesn't seem to have the student test scores for me to select students from. OK, that means by Monday--after Friday being a day full of mandatory meetings, no time for working in our rooms--I had to rearrange my tiny room and have it ready for multiple people to teach in, clear 50 boxes off of the stage and unpack into 2 rooms, 1 room that I had never seen, set up a new classroom in another building of some unknown size and shape, and to create a schedule based on partial paperwork that turned out to be over half a year old and inappropriate.

With the help of 2 of my children, we did a lot of work this weekend--we sorted through at least half of the books on the stage and removed them. We also organized my room and it is almost finished. Then, I got my boss to come over and show me my "other" room in the other building and we moved appropriate boxes of leveled reading books there. That still leaves 1/3 to 1/2 of my boxes of teaching materials on the stage, my classroom ready to teach in with some things left to be done, things at my new room that I am currently sharing with the packed materials of the previous tenant, and 2 hours of wasted work on the wrong paperwork.

When I get to work today, I have to find the correct test scores and make decisions that affect 518 children in 21 classrooms, 2 reading aides and myself. I also have a second classroom to organize. Thirdly, I have to do the bulletin boards and wall displays--the environmental teaching in both rooms. Finally, I still have about 20 boxes that need to be removed from the stage and organized and possibly stored or sold or maybe I'll have a place for them. I JUST DON'T KNOW AND I DON'T KNOW HOW ANY HUMAN BEING CAN DO ALL OF THIS BEFORE THE 2:00 MEETING TO PROVE I AM READY TO TEACH ON TUESDAY (THE FIRST FULL DAY OF SCHOOL WHEN NONE OF THE CLASSROOM TEACHERS WILL WANT ME TO TAKE THEIR CHILDREN ANYWAY!!!) I really needed to say that, or shout that. It is not possible to do all of that, It isn't possible for anyone to do what I did over the weekend either.

Here's the rest of my story. On Thursday, I came home from work sometime after 7 and was in so much pain that I got in my chair and got an ice bag on my back, and was barely coherent. My husband waited on me hand and foot--brought me dinner that I don't remember eating but I did get it recorded. I woke up with a part of a bowl of ice cream, mostly melted in my lap and one hand in it around 2:30 AM. I hurt a lot, took my medicine and then, I suffered for about 2 hours and fell back asleep and almost didn't make it to work on time. I finally got to start on my classroom work at 3:30. but we had a parent night from 5:30 until 7:30/ I packed up and left and went to the pool at about 7:00. That helped a bit with my pain.

I slept off and on, using lots of pain control techniques until about 10 Saturday morning and ran errands and had a great, but sad lunch with my best friend. (She has some life changing things going on that make my life look easy right no and my love for her is struggling with having prayer to help and nothing that I can simply do to help out. It really is hard to watch a loved one suffer and her pain hurts me as much as the pain of my own children.) Anyway, I digress--I went to school after we had lunch and with the help of my 24 year old son and my 13 old daughter, we worked until about 8 PM--including over 2 hours of totally wasted work on the wrong paperwork.

I went back at it right after church on Sunday and about an hour and a half later, the same to of my kids joined me at 2:00. My pain level was growing by leaps and bounds so I took my meds. My kids brought me a shake and it was the first food that I had up until then. We went to the first classroom, then I called the principal and with a carload of things, we met her at the other building. I got the tour and my room and some keys--and we unloaded there. Then, we went back to the other school--and she was there then--and I called my husband and he brought the truck. They loaded it while I worked in the room. I was feeling so severely nauseated that I could barely stand. Every step I took with my left foot felt like I was stabbing myself in the back. The others came and helped me to put the remaining baskets away for the present time so we could go back to the new building and unload the truck full of books. It was weird because when we got there, she was there too--?? We unloaded things in an orderly fashion and by then, it was 6 PM. I promised the kids we would go swimming, but all of our regular haunts were closed by then. I was lousy miserable, but we went around and finally found a pool at a campground. I hobbled through the motions, but that pool was freezing. I got my exercises done and went to the spa. After that, i bought a soda and took more meds and went for a shower. As I left the shower, I found that I could barely walk and the pain was way beyond the Thursday level. I did the only thing I knew to do and cried and cried and we went home.

My husband had fixed one of our favorites for dinner--stir fry. I never ate a bite, I cried and considered an ER visit which still isn't out of the question. I cried and he got the ice and at about 10:30, I tried to walk again--I walked about 15 steps before the awful jabbing, cutting pain returned. My family was so tired that I got in my chair and have been here ever since. I had some soda and some cheese and crackers.

What happens next? Well, I still may be heading to a doc or the ER--but I have so much work to do and I can do this, if it is possible. I do believe that with God, all things are possible. I cannot live in this level of pain. so I guess that I am taking things one step at a time. I probably need to try to get up ad see if this rest has made a difference. Assuming it has, I need to make a plan that my work today will not involve anything physical--that can wait until Tuesday. I will find the correct student scores and start over in making decisions about student need so that I can get a picture of how to start a program for twice as many students in two buildings than I should be handling. I need to survive this week, including the rest of the boxes on the stage for next weekend most likely--or after school Tuesday or Wednesday--2 of my kids are going out of town this weekend in 2 different directions, 2 have special school events and a parade and it is one of their birthdays, This is a very busy week here.

If anyone can do all of this, I can. I am praying that my back will allow me to prove what I can do in spite of everything. I do, however, have some more praying to do. I almost prefer praying for others, but except for my dear friend who has made her tough decision, I may be the neediest person I know right at this second. That certainly doesn't feel very good.

I appreciate any support that my spark friends here give me. Thanks for listening to me whine as well. I am going to go, so take care of yourself and make sure to enjoy your blessings!

Hugs, Sylvia

  
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JENNYPOO45 8/9/2009 10:48AM

    That is alot on one person.take it easy and get that back better.I know the back pain thing it isnt good.dont try and do to much ,thanking of you

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ALUMLEY2 8/3/2009 7:11PM

  Working for public school is full of surprises, a lot of them not so good. We do it not for the money or the praise or the thank you. We do it because we love those little people. Hang in there.
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JRSWHIMSY 8/3/2009 2:55PM

    Boy, you're terrifying me! I'm studying to be a teacher, is the beginning of the school year always so bad??? I'm heading for my doc today since my pain is as bad as it ever was (though not nearly as bad as yours!). Here's hoping we can both find the relief we need! *hugs*

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14JESUSGIRL 8/3/2009 10:24AM

    Oh, Sylvia!
I'm a teacher also and I have 6 children and a very good husband as well.
I know you feel you HAVE to do all this work, but if you don't take care of yourself you won't be able to do anything! I found this out the hard way too and ended up with two knee surgeries. Please, please, please, go to the doctor! Our Lord does not want you in this pain, nor does He want us to try to do it all ourselves. Please, do go. Do this for you. I know personally how you feel. There are so many others to do for. But without a healthy body we can do nothing. I will be praying for you.
Love in Christ,
Lee
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LOULOUBELLE2 8/3/2009 9:32AM

    OMG Sylvia...What can I say??????? How can I help you?????? Prayers are all I can do. emoticonto relieve your pain. emoticonTo lighten your load at school, emoticonFor consideration from your fellow workers and boss. emoticonFor your wonderful family as they help you through all this emoticonFor you to relieve all your stress, both physical and mental emoticonAnd for you to take time to put yourself 1st by taking care of yourself. So you can teach those beautiful children.
emoticonThat today will be better!!!!!!!
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PCPKMANN 8/3/2009 9:25AM

    Geez.... no wonder your back is killing you, the stress alone would make my back hurt. My sister is a teacher too, and she often goes thru similar situations. She says a 1/2 a tranquilizer helps. :) But you probably will have to go to the doc to acquire it. I'll be praying that you find a solution soon. Sometimes you have to step back and take a breath, meet with the others in your room (they are probably stressing too) and develop an action plan to work together. Good luck - C.

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JOLOVESRUM 8/3/2009 8:39AM

    I can't imagine all you are going through. I wish I could pull out a magic wand and make things better. This thought does not help.

I would see a doctor though about your back. You can not help anyone else if you don't look after yourself. That means your 8 children, your wonderful husband and all those children that look up to you every day.

Look after self please. I hope you feel well very soon.

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AMIRIA661 8/3/2009 6:38AM

    Good grief! I really don't know how you do it! I commend you for your efforts - there isn't really anything I could say that will lighten your workload or relieve your back pain - thank goodness you have a caring and helpful husband.

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Wed. 7/29 One day left of summer vacation and yesterday went nuts!

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

emoticon emoticon Hi Everyone!

The end of summer vacation always used to be bittersweet, but now that we have broken the understood "not before August" rule, it just seems wrong. emoticon

I now have 3 main tasks to do before school starts. I have to pack up my materials that I took to church and bring them back to school, I have to set up my classroom which looks exactly the way it looked when I walked out in June down to the scratched up floor and my things that are all over because they took my table. And last but not least, I have to figure out how I am going to manage my pain so that I can be an effective and caring teacher. emoticon (I have always wanted to use that emoticon, lol)

I will be going to church tomorrow and getting things ready for my son to help move them back. I need to empty the children's baskets, sort the books, then box or stack things up to get things moved out. I also need to finish the reports that I am writing for their school too. My classroom is on hold until I find out if I have a roommate this year and if I am traveling. I haven't seen the principal face to face yet, so I may not know until Thursday because we are working together that day. (Note to self--I need to get fruit, yogurt, and water for my classroom frig by Thursday. This helps me to eat properly and not out of her bottomless candy dish.) emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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I had two doctor appointments today. The first is the one I made last week to talk to my neurosurgeon about my pain. He is out of town for a couple of more weeks, so I saw his PA. They x-rayed my back and then I got to see her. She told me that the upper part of my fusion has crumbled but that is the same way it looked in Oct. (My doc had never told me that, but it seems that this something I can live with.) Then she asked me about my pain and I told her about how it hurts greatly when I walk--and she had me walk and show her. She poked around and then determined that the major pain comes from my "SI" joint. She told me that the way to help that was to strengthen my back--and she suggested that I get physical therapy and call my pain management doc. Now, I had left the hospital from my surgery a year ago with an order for PT and after I went for an evaluation, my neuro-doc said that he didn't want me going because he wanted me to take it easy and slow. That NEVER made sense to me. Then she asked me if I took anything for pain and I told her that my pain management doc ordered my pain meds. Then she told me that since I was on narcotic and strong meds (Fentanyl and Hydrocodone for breakthrough pain), my back pain was never going to go away. That confused me so much that I asked her did she mean that because of my pain meds, I was condemned to a life of severe pain? I started to get teary-eyed and then her coarse tone with me dropped a bit. I told her that I wasn't sure which doc to call...and then she stopped me and told me that it was right to call them and for them to see me. (By now, I am getting really confused.) Then she told me that my back needs to be strengthened because first I became ill and my back became weaker, then I had surgery and it became weaker, then I had to heal and it became weaker, I wore my brace for along time and it became weaker and I am so overweight that it can't work and it is even more weak. Now the problem is my fault and I should have taken off the brace more and I need to lose weight. I KNOW THAT and she wouldn't let me tell her what I've been trying to do and she wouldn't acknowledge that the pain is making it hard for me to do anything to help. I told her about my plans to have WLS and how the insurance company is messing around. She told me that they always do that and they will come around--that may help me. So she ordered PT and I stopped to check on my paperwork for the surgeon and to schedule. They are in the middle of putting in a new system and they will not be able to schedule my first session, the evaluation, until sometime next week. So again, I have to wait. And apparently most of this is my fault because of my weight. And I have to see the PA again in a month. emoticon emoticon

My second appointment was with my rheumatologist. The first thing we talked about was how pleased he was with my weight loss since I saw him 6 months ago. We talked about what I have been doing and he said that it was hard work. He said if you are up to continuing what you are doing, to try for as long as I can. emoticon He also said that it was a bit of a surprise due to the medication he gave me last time (an injection of Kenalog which helped me to get through the last month of school without the strange all over pain assaulting me.) He gave me a physical and noted that my fibromyalgia was at an extreme point and he told me that he was very sorry to see me with all of this pain. I talked to him about my earlier appointment and he said that he thinks part of my problem with my lower back and the "SI" joint was the FMS attacking there as well. He didn't have anything else to offer me because I am taking one of the drugs for FMS and another has a side effect of weight gain and I had already refused that, so he ordered another injection of Kenalog and will see me in 6 months. He is such an awesome doctor and thank goodness that I saw him after that awful first appointment. emoticon emoticon emoticon

My week last week was very nice. I learned a lot and hope that I will be asked to mentor a new teacher, if we have any this year. We were in a lovely hotel in Bloomington, IL--the Parke Hotel and Conference Center, and they were all about service. The food all week was special, I had to pick carefully and I enjoyed the variety, theme menus they provided. I was in a room for the disabled and enjoyed the shower so much. It was actually made for me, with a chair and nothing to climb over. The big beautiful beds were a problem, but from what my kids told me they were totally comfortable, I tried to sleep on one with 6 pillows piled up to support my back, I also tried chairs with the bed as a footstool/ reclining position. None of it worked well. (Oh yeah, the PA blew off when I tried to tell her that I am now having major pain in my neck--so I guess that is unimportant. It may be, I am frightened after everything that went on with my back) I had to fight off some dozing each morning but got and stayed perky the rest of the day--yes, me perky, lol. I think it was because it was a lot of sitting at out table--we went from "lecture" "powerpoint" and then activities. My soon to be 14 year old daughter stayed with me to help me, and actually, my 24 year old son drove us and we got there late enough the first evening that he stayed on the other bed to sleep before he had to drive back. He stayed a couple of other days and then, I had him come back a day early with my youngest son. We went out to dinner together and I gave him a gift I had bought. On the last day, check out was at 11, vut we had training until after lunch--it turned out that they finished with us at 1 instead of 4 (yay). They went to a delightful zoo with many interesting animals in it. It was a small zoo, but it was very interesting--and I didn't get to see. I'll try to add in some photos they took, if I can figure out how to do that.






We shall see if I was able to do this and if I found some of the photos that were really nice. There is really nothing like a suny day at the zoo. I enjoyed my working vacation and am looking forward to teaching. There were some nice articles in the paper about out summer program at church and if I can good enough, I'll share one of those too. (I'm trying to lose my status of technodummy, ha ha)

I really will appreciate your comments on all of this from today. I think that it is my job to keep on working on a healthy lifestyle and I think PT is long overdue for me. I am grustrated with what seems to have been a few forgetful errors on the part of my back carefivers and pray that we can get past that now with a lot of hard work on my part. What do you think about calling for injections in my back? I'm sure my pain doc would give me some, but I am aftaid of this kind of stuff. )I can get past being aftaid, I've been through a lot.)

Thanks for sticking with this long blog so far and for being my friend.
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LOULOUBELLE2 8/2/2009 12:59PM

    Hope that tomorrow you'll have a good day to get somewhat organized at school.
You might even get some answers to your questions. Take care and try not to overdo. Know your in my thoughts and prayers.
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