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Tuesday, November 02, 2010

translation - don't take time you spend with your significant other for granted.

another story from my mad rambling mind...

My husband and I don't live together... much. Not in a bad way, not because we can't stand each other or anything like that, but life and work keep us apart probably 50% of the year. He works at the hospital, working 12 hour shifts, 10 days on, 4 days off. Sometimes he works day shift, sometimes night shift. I work two jobs. My desk job I work Monday through Friday. I leave about 6 and I get home around 6. We maintain two households, as my house sits on a piece of land that belongs to my family, so I can't really sell it (nor do he or I want to) and my house is too far away from his work. I also work part time on the weekends as a paramedic. I try to schedule my days the same weekend days that he's working. When I'm working that job and anytime he's on night shift, I stay at my house. The drive to my desk job is the same from either house.

Last night was the first time I had really seen him in a while. He said once when I got to his house, that he didn't want to do anything else, but hold me and "un-miss" me for a while. I don't realize how much I miss him until I'm home alone in my big empty house.

Every once in a while our jobs bring us together (I call for a helicopter for a patient and if he's on duty I get a quick kiss and we're off again). That is few and far between though.

I thanked him for making my bed the last time he was up visiting. He thanked me for cleaning the kitchen and folding the laundry. He is off work today, but he got up with me anyway to make sure I got off okay and had a nice hot cup of coffee to take with me. I love his coffee. He makes the best coffee. I tell him this every time I get a cup of coffee. We are going out on a date this week. Its been a while since we've had a date. I'm not a big fan of eating out, but its nice not to have the burden of getting home from work and having to turn the stove on.

Ok, ok, ok... I'm rambling. I have a run planned for lunch. I know I won't get any exercise after work as I have to drive back to my hometown to vote and then to his house. I have errands to run, but I'm hoping that if I give him the grocery list, he can do it since he's off. I don't know what he has planned for the day, so we'll play it by ear... We play it by ear a lot with our schedules. :)

The scale was up a little this morning. I'm not really sure why. Of course I'm using a different scale and I'm sure that's part of it. It's probably just that and I'm trying not to be paranoid.

Have a great Tuesday!

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APPLEADAY2010 11/2/2010 8:57AM

    Hiya, thanks for your lovely blog. I hope you and your husband enjoy your date - it sounds like you have a great releationship. It also sounds like you have got new scales so please don't worry about the extra pound - all scales are slightley different xx

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SUNNY238 11/2/2010 8:14AM

    I love this post!! From the sounds of it, you and your husband have a great relationship, and to be able to maintain it from 2 households and not seeing each other much shows the strength you both have! l That is amazing and I'm so happy for you! My husband is in the military, so he gets to travel for a year or more at a time. When he gets back next year I'll joke that we've spent 1/3 of our marriage apart...I think you have us beat! My husband makes great coffee too...but I honestly believe your husband makes it better...I can just tell from your writing :)

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KATHRYNLP 11/2/2010 8:10AM

    Sometimes absent makes the heart grow fonder... and coffee always tastes best when shared. Sounds like you two are making all that counts.. work! emoticon emoticon

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Monday, November 01, 2010

I figured the sudden drop in my weight was from dehydration from Saturday's call. I figured I would drink my 64oz yesterday and be back up on the scale. Not so. I gained a half pound. WOO HOO! I'm 7.5 pounds from goal. I'd really like to be there before Thanksgiving.

I have a run and a lifting session planned today. It is chilly out, with frost on the ground. I found my fleece headband, but my gloves are at my other home. Fingies will be popcicles, but it will be worth it I'm sure!

I downloaded one of the Couch to 5k week 8 pocasts off of Podrunner. I'm going to try running to their music today and see how I do. I listened to the first 20 or so minutes of it and it seems like I could get lost in the music and its tempo and maybe turn out a better time.

I'm redoing week 8 since last week was all hinky.

I am going to try to vote today, I have two mandatory meetings this evening and want to get to my other house tonight, so weight training may not happen. I told husby that I wanted a set of resistance bands to leave at his house since I have dumbells at mine. I wish I could get over to his place early enough to swim at the base, but that's definitely not going to happen since my last meeting starts at 7.

Ok, get out there and show Monday what you're made of Sparkpeople!


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VEACHXCL 11/1/2010 3:35PM

    I read you last blogs and your right, you definitely had a tough week at work. Here's hoping to a better week! Great job staying on track through it all though!!

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Sunday, October 31, 2010

First, thank you for all the comments, messages, goodies and general outpouring from the spark community. I am not used to being in the situation where I need support. It was nice to know that it was there when I needed it. Thank you again.

Yesterday, I had one of the most difficult calls of my EMS career. We had a helicopter crash in our county. There were 4 souls on board. 1 person was dead on scene, 2 others critical and 1 other patient.

To give you some background, my husband is an EMS helicopter pilot. When I heard the call, I knew it wasn't him, but I was terrified it was an aircraft from his outfit. As I was mentally preparing myself for what I was going to see, I had a small relief when I saw the color of the helicopter. I knew it wasn't one of my husband's crew.

I did my job. I did it to the best of my ability. I prayed for the survivors last night. I prayed for the family of the deceased. I prayed for the deceased.

I told myself I was going to go home, ride the bike trainer, have a cup of tea and go to bed. By the time shift change rolled around, I knew there was no way I was getting on the trainer last night. I then told myself, hell with it, I'm going to go home, watch TV and have a glass of wine. On my drive home, the more I thought about the second option, the more I realized I was setting myself up for a path of self destruction because more than likely, I would not have stopped with one glass of wine. I went home, picked up my dog from Mom's, got my food together for today, poured myself a big glass of ice water (I realized I hadn't had enough water yesterday), and curled up with a good crossword puzzle. I fell asleep around 10. I woke up at 10 til 1, unable to sleep anymore. My husband was online and we began to chat about the accident. He didn't say things like you did the best that you could. That's not what I was looking for. He and I talked about the technical/mechanical side of the accident. It gave me some comfort and I was able to sleep a little bit longer.

Writing all of this down is my closure. I should have done this last night, but I was so beat, both physically and mentally that I couldn't bring myself to do it.

Again, my sincerest thanks to all of you who reached out to me.

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MOMKAT4310 10/31/2010 10:00PM

    I will be thinking of you often. Both my sons have gone the EMT route, and the older was an Army Medic for 15 years. They would vent to me, so I have about heard it all. Very important to have ways to deal with bad situations, and they do happen. Glad you got to talk to your DH. I'm glad it helped.

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ELLDEE57 10/31/2010 8:41PM

    My prayers were with you last night and today. In your line of work, you do what your were trained to do to the best of your ability. But emotionally, I am sure, it is difficult to just turn it off. Be Proud of yourself! My thoughts will be with you.

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In the recliner...

Saturday, October 30, 2010

I'm at my paramedic job today. So far, so good... :) Hopefully everyone stays safe and healthy today.

I lost another half pound. Seriously, eat more, weigh less!! I'm starting to beileve it, especially since I love to eat!

My exercise will be a at a much lower intensity today since I can't change out of my uniform. If I get home at a reasonable hour, I may spin for a half hour on the bike. I won't be able to go on my long run tomorrow either since I work another 12 then too.

The nice thing about working 12s is that I have my breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks in my lunchbox and that's it. So other than the lack of intense exercise, my weekend should be very disciplined.

Have a safe weekend everyone.

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CATHY814 10/30/2010 9:24PM

    Thank you for doing what you do. emoticon

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PURPLESPEDCOW 10/30/2010 6:02PM

    Thank you for what you do. e sure to take care of yourself. Hope the rest of your shift was quieter.

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EMTFF376 10/30/2010 4:16PM

    thank you all. My husband is a helicopter pilot, so this hit me a little close to home and unfortunately, we are not spending the evening together due to both of our crazy work schedules.

As for destressing, I plan on hitting the bike trainer, curling up under a blanket with a cup of Sleepy Time tea and get ready to do it all again tomorrow.

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MOMKAT4310 10/30/2010 4:11PM

    Be sure to use your chosen way to de-stress after serious calls. Just reminding you. I know you know how important this is. And work goes on, so for now, use your team mates to vent, down load, unload, however you name it.


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ELLDEE57 10/30/2010 4:09PM

    Prayers are with you today. You have a job that is so important. But I'm sure can be so full of stress. Take care of yourself. WE NEED YOU! Thank you for the job you do.

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EMTFF376 10/30/2010 2:50PM

    Just an update... I wish I had not opened my blog mouth so soon. We had a helicopter crash around 1030 this morning. I had 4 patients, including 1 fatality. That was not a good way to start the day.

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HVMBRU 10/30/2010 1:00PM

    Looks like you are right on track. Good work!


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Eat more, weigh less? Eat more, weigh less!

Friday, October 29, 2010

I would never have believed it if you told me this 5 years ago. I am trying so hard to follow the prescribed number of calories, fat, etc on here, but my brain is so programmed for something different.

SO... I stepped on the scale this morning and finally the needle has DROPPED. I lost a pound. I'm now 10.5 pounds to goal. I started going through my yesterday to see what I did different. I ate plenty of calories, etc. all within my ranges. I didn't eat any bread yesterday... I had a little bit of brown rice at lunch, a nutrigrain waffle with breakfast, but good ol' white pasta for dinner. I did have berries instead of an apple with breakfast. I weight trained last night. I haven't weight trained in weeks. I guess little changes like that can spark changes in my body? Who knows, but I'll take it.

No good stories to tell today... other than the gym at the fire station is in disarray right now because of the construction going on. I buckled down and went home and did my workout with my 20 pound dumbbells and my balance ball. Chest press on the ball was tough! Balance and strength train! Whew!

Have a great weekend!


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