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Scared

Sunday, March 16, 2014

I've always had problems with eating. It wasn't until recently that I realized that some of the strange symptoms I have are just that, strange. I get really shaky and sweaty out of nowhere it seems. I become ravenous and stuff myself until the shaking stops. Now I'm starting to realize that I might have a real problem. I'm really worried and go in to see the doctor in a couple of days. I'm not sure how this will affect weight loss, but maybe it will be the push I need to get healthier.

  


Rejection

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Last night, I was told by a guy I was falling for that he was getting back together with his ex. I told him how I felt about him, but he's still in love with her. I was devastated. We are still friends though, which is a first for me. Throughout today, I've been analyzing the situation as best I can. What I've come to realize is that I didn't necessarily feel the way I did because of him, but because I wanted someone to love me. He knows all of my secrets and problems and is still my good friend. I've faced a lot of rejection, from boyfriends to just friends, and I suppose I'm quick to try and jump into relationships. I need to work on myself before I can be with anyone else. I'm not happy with myself or the way I am. The only way I will be happy is if I put all of my extra effort into achieving my goals. I've achieved weight loss before, but have since gained it all back. I struggle with depression and borderline personality disorder. I can't let my disorders hold me back anymore. I need to do things in my life that will make me happy instead of tearing me down. Tomorrow is a new day.

  
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MAMAKIFARU 9/18/2013 1:28AM

  from reading your blog it looks like you know the answers, listen to your gut.
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