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Rheumatology worries...

Friday, August 17, 2012

So I'm headed out the door to the Rheumatologist... on one hand, excited to go and maybe figure out what's behind the flare ups of exhaustion, joint pain and swelling and fever. On the other, worried it's just going to end up being another case of, "you're fat and it's in your head." (Implying either depression or malingering.) And on the 3rd hand, worried that it might actually be something and that it might be A Very Bad Thing.

No more time to fret through, have to get going if I'm going to make it to Henrietta in time.

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BLOSSOM2344 8/17/2012 10:07AM

    (Fingers crossed) hopefully they can give you an answer. I'd rather know something bad than not know anything. emoticon

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Disgusted with myself

Friday, March 09, 2012

The one thing that forces me to acknowledge just how fat I've let myself get is shaving my legs. Every lump and bump, every bit I can't reach without major contortions or see reminds me that once upon a time, I did this 4-5x/week and it was a 15 minute ritual. The logical part of my brain tells me that I should use this as motivation, but at the moment I'm stuck on the disgusted part.

Gym, tomorrow. Right then.

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VLKSHA 3/15/2012 8:41PM

    The journey is long but there are many moments to see along the way. I noticed in this last year, my wedding rings fit, I can tie my shoes more comfortably, I have collar bones, eventually even the belly will give in a tiny bit, your toes can seem skinnier, and you can again shave your legs daily. You will randomly be surprised by what you may spot about yourself along the way. Enjoy the journey and know that we share it with you.

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183WANTS2B140 3/10/2012 7:17AM

    I had a bad habit of focusing on my fat middle. No matter how much weight I lose, it never seems to shrink. I know it does because my clothes fit better. This time around, I hope to be able to focus on the positive. Join me in celebrating our victories!!! emoticon

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BABIESTEPS 3/9/2012 10:55PM

    But that's why you're here! To make that change! So HURRAY FOR YOU! You're taking the right steps and things will get better and that's what you want-isn't it? Yes..

Comment edited on: 3/9/2012 10:56:16 PM

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IAJ1986 3/9/2012 10:19PM

    Once you get down a routine losing weight becomes much less complicated. Using your negative emotions can help in the beginning, however, they can also lead to feelings of guilt and shame. These feelings can then lead to depression and a breakdown of resolve. Be careful not to focus strictly on the negative.

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KVILLAVERDE75 3/9/2012 10:09PM

    don't give up. Let this feeling become your motivation to get your life on track. I used the disgusted feelings I had when I looked in the mirror as my motivation. It has really paid off and I know it will for you, too.

I'm here to help if you want to talk. :)

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Well that sucked...

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

So, I made it to the gym, sort of as planned. It was an awkward day, I couldn't go before work because I had an early visit scheduled. I couldn't go right after work because the day ran long and I needed to do some grocery shopping before I went home and made dinner. So I ended up going after dinner. 53 minutes of cardio on a "just had dinner" belly sucked. I took it easy on myself, didn't really push the intensity, focusing more on the "just do it" part of the day since it wasn't an ideal time to be exercising. Part two of the ick is that I'll likely be up until midnight after that much activity.

Well, just means I have to budget time to do the gym work in the mornings, before the day runs away from me. Since I just did cardio tonight, I'm going to aim to go tomorrow so that I can put in some strengthening time.

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BLOSSOM2344 12/29/2011 11:05AM

    But you WENT! emoticon
When you're getting started, (or recommitting or getting back on track after slacking off a little because of the holidays) showing up is half the battle.

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Time to get sparking

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Ok... so I kind of fell apart around Thanksgiving, and since then, have had pockets of good eating and drinking habits, and no freaking exercise at all. I've gained 4 pounds back (likely some of which is water weight from excess sodium). So tomorrow, (not today because it's 9pm), I get back in gear. Time to start logging my food, exercising, drinking water and giving up the diet coke habit. (I drink too much, and it increases the likelihood that I eat something unhealthy... notably, it also seems to raise my blood pressure.)

On the plus side, I did see my physician in December, and had a physical, and my weight was down 5lbs from my first visit. My cholesterol levels were "excellent", my thyroid is "normal" (I keep telling them that, every new doc checks it anyway), and my fasting blood glucose was low (just below normal). So, aside from the weight, everything is working as it should be. The low BG was probably due to the prolonged fasting, nearly 12 hours, typically speaking we use up our readily obtainable stored glucose between 8 and 10 hours. However, it does also explain the mornings that I wake up very thick headed, cranky and kinda dumb, ok, more than kinda. Putting off breakfast or skipping all together is highly not recommended for me. I did get the go ahead for the "trying to get pregnant" experiment planned for 2012, with the admonition to make sure I break out the vitamins before we begin pretending to be bunnies. I also got lots of encouragement for the healthy eating habits and exercise.

Ok, so on to the plans... I happened to get linked to a page about the 2012 Unity Health System Rochester Flower City Challenge, specifically the Wegmans Family 5K on April 29th. Now, I don't run, haven't run since high school. When I'm regular at the gym, I do use the elliptical and the treadmill, up to a fast walk. There is a Training Program starting in February, and it's essentially described as a "learn to run" program. There are 4 full months between now and the 5K, the training session starts the week of February 6th, which gives me about 5 weeks to "pre-train" myself back into regular exercise. It's only 3.1 miles. Worse case scenario, I walk it at a 19:30 pace, and finish in an hour. I think I can do this. I think having a deadline, and an commitment to something will be motivating. I'm terrified I'll fall flat on my face.

But then... sitting here on my butt doing nothing for myself is pretty much passively falling on my face, so what is there to lose?

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EMLYKATE 12/28/2011 11:23AM

    It would be awesome to do that together!

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BLOSSOM2344 12/28/2011 9:14AM

    I could do that 5K with you! emoticon emoticon

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Granola - The red headed step child of the diet world

Wednesday, November 09, 2011

Granola is the redheaded step child of the dieting world... calorie dense, a little heavy on the "fats" side of the equation, you'll hear a lot that it's not really health food. All that being said... I got more breakfast satisfaction out of my half cup of granola with raisins and half cup of 1% milk this morning than I do on days that I have a bigger breakfast. So what it had a total of 9 grams of fat, it also had 39 carbs and 8 protein, and contributed toward my iron, magnesium, niacin, phosphorus, riboflavin, thiamin and zinc for the day. It was a good start to the day.


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BLOSSOM2344 11/10/2011 1:56PM

    emoticon granola!
I eat the Kashi crunch cereals most days for breakfast 'cause they have a similar texture/taste.

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BD3269PM 11/9/2011 6:56AM

    If it keeps you satisfied and you can do with one serving, then it works for you. Everything in moderation. Enjoy your day emoticon

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DDOORN 11/9/2011 6:17AM

    LOVE granola...too MUCH! Way to difficult to limit myself on it so I mostly avoid it.


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ANADSEWIL 11/9/2011 12:44AM

I LOVE Trail Mix! I know when eating it in moderation, it is okay. Unfortunately I find myself eating a full cup or more of it, at one time! Sooo - I try and put it in a small dish, and close the bag up and PUT IT WAY OUT OF THE WAY before I sit down with my smaller amount. That way it is a little "harder" to get more! If I eat it straight from the bag, I'm a goner!

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