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Could it really be the breakthrough I've been searching for?

Monday, February 18, 2013

I have been a yo yo dieter for all of my adult life. I have come within 5 lbs of goal, but never got there. I am very good at losing weight but have never been successful at keeping it off. Tonight I was watching Biggest Loser. They were exploring the issue of self sabotage with one team member. I started thinking about my past and realized that is what
I have done. For some reason, I am afraid of being successful. I have recently realized that the times I have gained back weight were after changes in my life. I thought what I was doing was testing the new people in my life to see if they will still love me and accept me if I am overweight. I realize that it is more my fear of failure in that new situation. If I fail, I will be able to blame it on the weight and not on me as a person. The most interesting thing is that all in all I have been very successful in my life and my career. I suppose that is why I have been successful at losing. Now that I have this new insight, I need to work on what I need to do to change and break the cycle once and for all.

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SDJ098 2/18/2013 9:46PM

    good luck with your new journey. You will find lots of support and encouragment here. I hope you reach your goal.

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1EMMA2011 2/18/2013 9:44PM

    Congratulations on this insight!

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NORWOODGIRL 2/18/2013 9:43PM

    Self-discovery is the key to permanent success. You have it; you can do it! emoticon

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My 30 Day Challenge

Saturday, March 05, 2011

After struggling with getting back into a regular exercise regimen I decided I needed to come up with something creative yet something that would fit fairly easily into my life. I have decided to model my new challenge after a book titled A Complaint Free World. In the book a group of people are challenged to go 30 days without complaining about anything. If they complained about something they had to start over. I am challenging myself to do 30 minutes of any kind of exercise every day for 30 days straight. If I miss a day....I start over just like in the book. I will track my exercise and I will be honest about my time, I will post my number of days as my daily status update. If anyone would like to join me in the challenge I would welcome the company.

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    You can do it!

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Losses...How do I do this while dealing with the losses in my life?

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Last week I lost my job after 24 years of service. The next day I lost my aunt, my mother's twin sister who has been a second mother to me all my life. She was there to fill the huge gap in my heart when my mom died almost two years ago. With all this loss in my life right now, the hole in my heart and the pit in my stomach, how do I keep doing what I have been doing to get to a healthier place in my life? So far eating hasn't been a problem....I can barely swallow most of the time! I have been too busy to do much in the way of excercise, but I am going to go for a walk in the beautiful weather today. I have to believe that ultimately things will be better at some point, but it is pretty daunting and scary at the same time. I know I need to get on a schedule similar to when I was working and make sure that fitness and healthy eating are a part of that schedule. I also am calmed by the fact that had I not started this journey almost exactly one year ago I would be in a very different position mentally than I am right now. I have confidence that I did not have at that time. I have gained that confidence through healthy eating, exercise and persistence in using all the tools available to me. Those same strategies along with all the social tools here will help me get through this. I can't abandon what has helped me get this far!!

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TRACYANNE81 9/23/2010 11:31AM

    So sorry to hear about your tough times. My advice would be to keep your head up, and think that this too, shall pass. Now is the most important time to take care of yourself, and stay on track. Live your life for yourself & those you have lost, and keep striving to reach your goals. Reach out to other Sparkers for support & motivation, and you will reach & exceed your goals. Stay strong!!

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RITZYOGAGAL 9/23/2010 11:21AM

    I'm so sorry you're going through such a tough time. But it is a time and it will pass. I went through a number of really tough years with my husband having colon cancer and other health issues plus losing several close family members. Just remember to keep taking care of yourself because that is what Spark is teaching us all and doing that keeps us on track (or at least not too far off) when things get tough. A walk sounds like a great idea. Exercise, water, healthy food and bloging can help you get through anything. emoticon


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I Just Walked 100 Miles!!

Saturday, July 03, 2010

Well not all at once. I have been doing a lot of walking to prepare to do a 1/2 Marathon in the fall. I started tracking my miles on my tracker and noticed that so far I have logged 105 miles!! Yesterday was my highest mileage so far...7 miles. Now two years ago it was a struggle to drive 7 miles much less walk it! I didn't start with 7 miles, but I have gradually increased my mileage. I am now at a point where 3 miles seems too short! This whole transformation is a process. For some of us it is a slower process than for others. At this point I am ok with slow. I feel the longer I am in the learning and stabilization phase the more these habits will get ingrained in me. I will keep on my program and I can't wait to walk 200 miles!

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GREEKGAL1 7/3/2010 9:01AM

  It sounds like you are doing everything right. Congratulations on the 100 miles. Looking forward to hearing about the next 100. emoticon

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FRANNIEDID 7/3/2010 8:53AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I too built up my walking. Slow is good, you can always improve!!

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WEIGHTDIP 7/3/2010 8:49AM

    Congratulations. Your persistence and attitude have help you accomplish something important. Keep up the good work.

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OMG....What is Happening to Me??

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I had a REALLY stressful meeting this afternoon. I got handed yet another huge project, the meeting ran over so I missed my weekly golf league. I went back to the office and instead of hitting the candy jar and planning to stop for a big Blizzard on the way home, all I could think about was hurrying to get home so I could go for a nice long walk. How can it be that I turned to exercise instead of ice cream? When did this happen to me? It has been a process and it didn't happen one day. It happened over the last year and a half as I have transformed my life. It started about a month into my journey when my mom got sick and ended up in the nursing home. I turned to the structure of learning a new lifestyle to provide some structure and sanity to my life that had gone suddenly out of control. I continued it a month later when my mom died. Again I didn't turn to food. Not that I have not done that at times, but I am finding that I do it less often and with lesser amounts of food. I'm not 100% sure when it happened, but I am pretty clear on how it happened and I know I love it!!!..

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WEIZER12 6/18/2010 12:11PM

    CONGRATS! I've just been reading your blogs....you have had A LOT going on in your life. You are doing FANTASTIC all things considered!!!!! Keep up the good work! HUGS! emoticon

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SHERRYK5 6/17/2010 10:00PM

    Good for you it sounds like you have really made a life time change. I hope to be there some day.

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JANETK53 6/17/2010 9:52PM

  It does feel pretty awesome...doesn't it? And to know that it is happening and can continue makes it even more wonderful.....I feel the same way. Things do change and nothing is ever perfect, but we can be proud of what we feel & see. Congratulations! In staying away from the candy jar & big Blizzard....and to not really miss it in the end.

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CHRISTINEIH 6/17/2010 9:50PM

    Sounds like you have succeeded in making a lifestyle change. emoticon emoticon

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CHRISTINEIH 6/17/2010 9:49PM

    Sorry for the double post, the site seems to be having problems again.

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