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Dear fake newscaster boyfriends:

Friday, March 13, 2009

First, know that I just adore you both. I think you're cute and brilliant and incredibly damn funny. You're also fun to hang out with, and you have a great group of friends. I've thoroughly enjoyed our nightly rendezvous from 11pm to 12am.

But they're really messing with my morning plans. Specifically, my weekday morning workout plans. I'm just not as young as I used to be, and I need my sleep. It's nearly impossible for me to stay up until midnight every night and get up by 5:30am to be at 6am spin class (as is evident from my absence from spin class the past few months). This just won't do any more--you see, I have a half Ironman to train for. It's only 18 weeks away. I need those morning hours.

Which means, as painful as this is to say: I'm breaking up with you, Jon Stewart. And yes, I'm breaking up with you, too, Stephen Colbert. It's not you, it's me. I need to be selfish and put myself first. I'm sure your ratings will be fine without me. And don't worry, I'll see you around in occasional reruns and maybe even online.

Take care of yourselves!


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MOJAVEMAMA 3/19/2009 2:04PM

    I think you broke their hearts, but it had to be done.

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Questioning my intentions

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

I'm training for a half marathon on Feb 22. I'm running another one two weeks later. Training has been going REALLY well. I ran my 10M long run Sunday at a 10:30 pace. For perspective, last May I ran a 10K in 10:30s.

So I'm much faster now than I was last May. I also weigh at least 15 pounds more than I did last May. I'm trying to decide if I care. If I can run this much faster at this weight, and just not obsess about what I'm eating or drinking, do I care?

Yes, I want to be pretty and thin, blah blah. But at this point, I think maybe just losing 5 or 10 pounds, getting back to a comfortable size 12, would be fine with me. Size 8 seems--not impossible, but not fun. If I can run 30 miles a week at this weight and keep getting faster, isn't that enough? I'm healthy, I'm pretty happy, and I'm doing more than a lot of people who are pretty and skinny can do. I regularly beat little skinny girls in races. Do I need to prove I'm better than them by looking like them?

I don't really know what I'm trying to say any more, I'm just struggling with the fact that I feel pretty great and I'm running well but the scale is up in the 190s. If I can't have it all, am I OK with having this?

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MOJAVEMAMA 2/19/2009 4:24PM

    I know what you mean. I want to lose another 10 pounds and I know what I need to do to get there, but is it really worth it? Over the past 1 1/2 years I have not lost any additional weight. However, I have lost inches. My point is the scale is not always the best indicator of progress. Your athleticism is probably a better indicator of progress, health, and beauty.

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SKINNYSOON13 2/4/2009 11:00PM

    You know - I kinda feel the same way. I'm soooooo much healthier than I was two years ago, I'm "fit, healthy and happy" and sometimes I just don't want to BOTHER with all this weight loss stuff. But then I'll catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and remember why I care. :-(

I guess what I'm saying is that we just have to be happy at whatever weight we are, and at various times we'll find that intense drive to move a little closer to that next goal. It's not making excuses, I think it's just reality. It's not giving up either.

I think you'll find size 8 IS fun, but it has to be on your terms.

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LANC92 2/3/2009 11:43AM

    How much does what the scale says matter? It's something that I too have been thinking about a lot lately as I struggle to come to terms with my own self image issues. You already know that being healthy does not equal being skinny so why not go for being healthy and happy instead. You are beautiful, athletic and vivacious. The world could use a lot more Em's as far as I'm concerned.

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CALYNN2 2/3/2009 11:25AM

    A reminder that being pretty and being skinny are not the same thing. Being 190 does not make you ugly and being a size 8 does not make you pretty. Acquiring a number on a scale or clothing tag does not make a person happy in and of its self, Just as acquiring a new home, new car or for that matter a new husband. It is leading a fulfilling life that makes us happy. If you are able to do the things you love, living a healthy active lifestyle, will acquiring a number make you any happier, maybe for a minute but not for a lifetime.

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Oh right, New Year's resolutions.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

I'm not big on resolutions, so I'm just writing down some goals for 2009.

1. Finish three half marathons, including one under 2:15.

2. Finish a half Ironman, preferably under 7 hours but I'll take what I can get.

3. Run a sub-27-minute 5K.

4. Complete a century ride.

5. Lose 20 pounds, putting me around 170. Do NOT gain it back!

6. Get a grip on my finances. Stop spending so much money. Start putting money into my IRA until I can get the new 401K going again. Save a down payment for a house.

Let the fun begin.

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MAMABEAN37 1/5/2009 10:24AM

    I think you should run a 5k in Las Vegas. Just a thought...

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LANC92 1/5/2009 9:09AM

    All very, very good goals. Goals are so much better than resolutions!

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Starbucks is evil

Wednesday, December 03, 2008

It all sounded so delicious.

"We’ve combined Starbucks espresso with our premium European-style cocoa blend used in our Signature Hot Chocolate and steamed milk, and topped it with whipped cream and a touch of chocolate powder. This sophisticated beverage delivers rich chocolate flavor with a velvety mouthfeel balanced with a smooth coffee flavor."

Yet it all went so, so wrong... Do NOT order this drink. This oh-so-delicious, oh-so-chocolatey, and oh-so-loaded with sweet, sweet caffeine drink. It's called the espresso truffle. I treated myself to one after my Thanksgiving Day race. I don't feel bad about that. I didn't track that day because, well, I was lazy and it was a holiday.

Today I went on a Starbucks run with a colleague and instead of my usual venti Awake black tea with two tea bags (0 calories), I caved in to the chocolate demon and ordered the espresso truffle. With no whipped cream, so I thought I was being "good." Ha!

I just took a moment to track it. Since it's a seasonal signature drink, I had to look it up on the Starbucks website. 510 calories! Curses! I need to sit my butt on the trainer for at LEAST and extra half hour tonight.

Sigh. Farewell, espresso truffle.

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SKINNYSOON13 1/12/2009 1:09AM

    I wish I would have read this back in October....

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NICOLE31898 12/19/2008 12:05PM

    I agree, they are evil. That crap sucks you in worse than a black hole. DO NOT go near the Cranberry Bliss bars or you will be taking that trainer home with you.

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MOJAVEMAMA 12/8/2008 2:12PM

    Good to know. I will need to stay away from that one.

Starbucks IS evil!!

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LANC92 12/3/2008 6:38PM

    See, I don't even like Starbucks regular coffee but the damn Peppermint Mocha gets me every single year!!

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KASSIANDORA 12/3/2008 2:47PM

    Oh man it sounds sooo gooood.

Curses to you Starbucks!

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Goal round up for week of 11/17-11/23

Monday, November 24, 2008

Tracking: Slacked. Tracked two days. It was Restaurant Week and I ate out a lot. I know, I know. Back in the saddle today.
Alcohol: Ha. Ha. Ha. Um, it was Restaurant Week... 4 days. Sigh.
Spin class 2x: Only once
Weights 2x: Done
Swim 2x: Done

Still feeling good about getting back on track workout-wise. It was a rough week food-wise, BUT even while eating out I tried to be as good as possible--ate vegetarian options twice, etc. That doesn't make up for the extra desserts this week. But I managed to somehow magically lose a pound! 1 down, 9 to go in this 10 pounds by Christmas challenge.

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MOJAVEMAMA 11/24/2008 5:02PM

    Congrats on the loss and getting back into the exercise groove!!!

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LANC92 11/24/2008 11:47AM

    See - perfect example of our 20 year age difference: if I did what you did (and I did on Saturday, didn't I?) I would have gained. Congrats on the lost lb. Important thing is to keep on keeping on.

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