Friday, September 30, 2011
So, I got certified to teach Zumba in March of this year. This summer I had a terrible encounter that definitely left my pride hurting. I really, really didn't want to teach Zumba after that. In fact, I swore I would never do it again.
After the initial shock passed and I was able to look at things in a more realistic, less self-hating way, I realized that I needed to try again. I may still not like it, but I have to try. I've been thinking about becoming a trainer, and I feel like I need to do this first to get over my fears.
So, I set up a 6 week Zumba fitness challenge. I'm doing a mix of Zumba, strength, abs, and Yoga along with a short discussion of different aspects of nutrition. I figure this way, if I feel terrible about it, I only have to do it for 6 weeks. If it works, I can keep offering Zumba classes after the challenge is over.
I didn't expect anyone to be interested. The summer brought me one (rather nasty) person, and no one else, so I was not expecting a response. It's been surprisingly good.
Now, I am freaking out.
I have to do this. I have to actually go through with it, and I am terrified. It looks like I'll be working mostly with people new to exercise and weight loss, so the level of the class shouldn't be a problem. I'm just kind of scared to have other people listen to me and take my advice. I don't feel qualified.
I'm hoping this goes well. I hope that it helps me get over the issues I am having accepting my weight loss and new found abilities. Rationally, I know that I am fit and capable of doing this, but being rational has never been one of my strong qualities.
I know one thing. If this goes well, I'm getting my personal trainer certification.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
On Sunday I made 18 cupcakes - my favorite kind chocolate with chocolate frosting. Most of them went to school with my husband because he promised one of his students cupcakes. The remaining 4 sat in the fridge. Not a great idea for a stress eater with a serious sweet tooth.
But, it's now Wed. and they are still there. I'm proud of myself. I've definitely been tempted a few times, but I'm finding them less and less appealing. I know I could have thrown them out, but I hate wasting food and I thought my kids might like a treat one day. That's what I'm most proud of. My kids have seen them in the fridge every day, and they never ask for them. Yesterday, after inspecting the contents of the fridge, my three-year-old asked for cucumbers. Success!
I'm throwing out the cupcakes today. No one wants them, and we don't need them.
Monday, September 26, 2011
So, it seems like a lot of Sparkers are having a rough day today, and I am completely with them. I have been exhausted since I got up, and nothing has helped. Tea, exercise, nothing works. I've still got to do cardio for the LiveFit challenge and put the kids to bed. Then I get to work on the 2 blogs I've got going on now. I've decided to really start marketing my writing, and it is turning into a full time job. On top of errands, kids, and my part time job (working with middle schoolers - the most hyper of all school children) I'm just feeling run down. Going to bed as early as possible tonight. Hopefully, tomorrow will be better!
Sunday, September 25, 2011
I've completed Week 5 of the LiveFit Challenge, and despite being sick in the middle of the week, I did pretty well.
The workouts are getting tougher, and I couldn't always get in all of the cardio, mostly because I still felt kind of ill and didn't want to push it too far. But, my new favorite exercise is now the one leg barbell squat. That's a tough one! It made me feel really strong.
Eating clean is tough. I'm doing better than I usually do, but I still allow myself some sugar during the day. I don't feel bad about this. I could follow the clean eating plan to the T if I wanted to, but it would lead to some obsessive dieting behavior, and I spent a long time breaking out of that all or nothing mentality. I'm not going to beat myself up over a little sugar as long as I stay in my calorie range and eat all my veggies.
I'm also trying not to be too obsessed with numbers. I've been fluctuating up and down for a long, long time, and it is hard to not obsess too much. I lost 1.5 pounds this week, and I am happy about that, but I'm still about a pound away from getting out of that fluctuation zone. Hopefully next week I'll get out of it.
Here's the numbers this week:
Bust - 37
Chest - 29
Waist - 30
Hip - 39
No change in my measurements this week, but I'm seeing changes in my muscles. I think if I bump up my cardio this week, I'll see the results I'm looking for. Just need to stay focused and healthy this coming week.
Have a healthy week everyone!!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
I've been thinking about change today. I've been sick for a couple days, and while I always hate being sick, I hated the fact that I couldn't exercise the most. I had to skip a day of the JE challenge, and I was not happy. This is not how I used to be. Normally, any excuse would be perfect for lounging on the couch all day. A two day sickness would have been an excuse to take the whole week off. No longer.
I got a ton of sleep last night and feel mostly like my normal self today. So, I did the LiveFit exercises and my cardio. It was a little rough. I don't think I am quite 100% yet, but it still was great to lift and move again.
I'm at a pretty significant time of year for me. It's been 3 years since I started losing weight the healthy (and long lasting) way, and it's been a year since I started working with my trainer. A lot has changed in that time. I wrote a blog about it over at my other blog. You can read it here, if you're interested. ifimnotfatwhatami.blogspot.com/2011/
This week has been filled with reflection and working on promoting my writing, which is long overdue. So, maybe it was good that I got sick. It gave me time to think about how much I've changed and where I am going from here.
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