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Adventures With Detox

Monday, November 12, 2012

It's been over a month since I wrote a blog here. I've been super busy and focused more on my daily fitness/health blog at : fitem.blogspot.com
If you want to stay up to date with my fitness adventures, go there. emoticon

My newest adventure is about gaining control over my diet. I've lost a lot of weight over the last few years and kept it off (92lbs), but I haven't lost any weight in over a year. While I am comfortable with my body and know I am incredibly strong, I would like to get rid of the extra fat that I still carry and really see the muscles I've been working so hard for.

My eating has been getting out of hand lately. Lots more sugar and processed snacks were sneaking in, and my weight started to creep up. That's not okay. Since I am not currently training for an event, this is the perfect time to do something about my diet, so I decided to do a detox.

*I would like to stop here and say that I am very, very skeptical of detoxes in general. This one is mostly comprised of cranberry juice and flax, and it is accompanied by eating 3 meals and snacks - super clean food, but plenty of food. This is not some crazy juice diet. I'm never going to back to those stupid diets again. They don't work.*

Anyway, whenever I change something, I always start on a Monday, and I usually use it as an excuse to overindulge all weekend before I start. I didn't want to do that this time, so I did something completely out of character and started on Saturday. I've been very successful at sticking with it so far, and I feel fantastic. I got up for my morning run this morning without any food hangover (which is common on Monday mornings). I feel great. I'm sleeping better. I'm a lot less stressed. And, I actually feel healthier. I weighed myself this morning, and I am down 2.6 pounds!

The detox is for 10 days, so I will be ending it just before Thanksgiving. I'm hoping that by breaking my addiction to sugar I will have an easier time resisting all of the holiday goodies. My current goal is to not gain (and hopefully continue to lose) weight during the holidays. Once the detox ends I plan to continue to eat clean and avoid sweets. If I eat clean on Thanksgiving, I will allow myself a small slice of pumpkin pie. I like this plan better than my usual free pass on the holiday. That always gets out of hand and makes it hard to go back to healthy eating the next day.

The one thing that has really surprised me about this detox is that I am even more addicted to dairy than I thought. I never realized how much of it I consume, and I don't buy non-fat (or low fat) dairy (except Greek yogurt, which I am still consuming). That's a lot of extra saturated fat! I've had a lot more temptation from dairy than from sweets, which is not something I would have expected. I'm really curious to see how my body changes during this detox. I already feel the difference.

I really feel like I am back on track with weight loss. I'm ready to drop the last 35 pounds and see how good I feel then - and how much faster I'll run! emoticon

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ILIKETOZUMBA 11/14/2012 12:19PM

    Interesting about the dairy vs. sugar temptation. But I do love dairy myself, so I can kind of understand that. :) Though I looooove skim milk and nonfat dairy! I can see how if you're used to the full fat stuff, nonfat versions definitely seem thin and watery, but I was raised on the nonfat stuff so I'm used to it. Anyways, I'm glad this detox thing is working for you! Keep up the fabulous work! :)

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CARLANNIE 11/12/2012 5:53PM

    High five to you!!! Sounds like your detox is working. I hate, hate, hate those food hangovers, and yet, I still don't recognize when I eat certain foods they are going to make me feel blah later. Have you checked your yogurt cups to see if there is any added sugars in them? If so, those hidden sugars may be urging you onward. Keep up the good work!

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GIANTMICROBE 11/12/2012 12:25PM

    I hear you on the dairy. I do not drink milk anymore. I love it so much, I'm like a milkaholic- one sip and I chug the whole gallon. I feel so much better since I have given it up. I eat (small amounts of) cheese, and still have a nonfat Greek yogurt for breakfast or after an especially tough workout, but I feel SO much better without milk.

Sometimes I wonder if I might feel even better without the cheese and yogurt... but I am not curious enough to give them up :)

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CHANGINGSAM 11/12/2012 9:50AM

    Way to go on this weekend!

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My Daughter Is Awesome

Tuesday, October 09, 2012

I just want to say how proud I am of my daughter. She is six and in her second year of tae kwon do. Today they did sumo wrestling, and she was partners with the biggest boy in the class (she's also the only girl in her group). She did not back down for a second. It was so amazing to see her determination. She's strong and confident, and I am so happy about that. I was painfully shy for most of my life, and I felt totally powerless. I feel that through tae kwon do my daughter is being taught to be powerful. I love that.

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GIANTMICROBE 10/10/2012 7:30AM

    When I was a little girl, I wanted to take martial arts classes. My mom said "No, that's for boys." I am still mad about it over 20 years later. I feel like my childhood could have been greatly, greatly enhanced if I had built confidence with martial arts training. Good for you and great for your daughter :)

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BAZOOKABOBCAT 10/9/2012 9:25PM

    Good for her! We need more young girls like her, to grow up feeling powerful and strong and fearless!

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Some Much Needed Change

Friday, October 05, 2012

It's been forever since I blogged here. Mostly because my life has become insanely busy, and I am trying to blog daily here: fitem.blogspot.com

I did have a bit of a break through the other day, and I wanted to share it here. Mainly because I know the people here can appreciate it, and also because I know I can write about it honestly here and not offend any one that I know in my real life.

I've been pretty stressed out lately. Our new schedule is hectic, and instead of trading off with my husband, I now have full kid duty until 8pm. We definitely need the income from his new job, so I don't resent this. I feel bad that he misses time with the kids, but we're making it work. The only problem has been that I have to bring the kids with me to all of my exercise classes. Not a huge issue, but it can turn into one when my kids are tired and cranky after a long day at school.

I feel bad that they're so exhausted, so I have stopped going to my trainer's kickboxing and yoga/Pilates classes. It gives me and the kids a couple of restful, early nights at home, and it has greatly improved everyone's mood.

My trainer has been guilting me about it a little, which I understand because it's her job to kick my butt. Still, it has not been helping my anxiety every time I miss a class. I've really been stressing out about it, and it got so bad earlier this week that I found myself grinding my teeth (which I haven't done in years), and I finally just forced myself to go for a run after I dropped my son off at school. It was a horrible run. Just terrible. But, I did a lot of thinking and had some realizations that really helped me calm down. (after a little reflecting post-run)

I have been attending these classes for over two years, and I am still reacting in the same way to missing class. I feel like a failure and like I am letting everyone down. This is craziness. I am not even close to the person I was 2 years ago. Back then I needed classes to ensure that I was working out every day. I don't need that anymore.

I work out 6 days a week, 2-3 hours a day. I am studying to be a trainer and now have very little difficulty making myself workout. In fact lately I think I have been overtraining a little bit and have been trying to reign that in.

I also don't enjoy the classes as much as I used to. It's always pretty much the same thing, and 2 years is a long time to do the same workouts. I have different goals now, and I don't feel like those classes really move me closer to them. I don't need to be doing extra, superfluous exercise right now. I want to focus on lifting and running.

I've started an amazing lifting routine with my trainer. It's twice a week, heavy ST, and I LOVE it. I have made huge gains in strength, and I feel totally amazing and strong when I'm done. She also kills my core, which is awesome because I very rarely feel core workouts. I've always had strong core muscles, but this routine kicks my butt. Love it.

I've also been training for a Half Marathon that is actually on Sunday. I've been getting in my long runs on the weekend and a couple short ones during the week. I need to add speed work back into my usual routine, but otherwise I feel like I have improved my running and want to continue to increase my weekly mileage.

With all of this plus teaching 3 Zumba classes a week and running with a client I am doing more than enough exercise every week. I'm going to throw in light yoga on my rest day to stay loose, but I don't think I need another 3 hours of classes every week. It's just not possible.

I enjoy the classes socially. It's fun to get out and workout with other people. They're fun, simple classes. I just need to cut something out, and they don't fit into the plan. I shouldn't feel guilty for this. I'm not exercising for anyone's benefit but my own, so I need to do what works for me. It was nice to finally figure out what that was.

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CARLANNIE 10/7/2012 10:11AM

    Sounds like you have talked yourself through this - WTG! You just need to find that place in your brain where you are comfortable and confident with your exercise routine and that it balances in with the other things that comprise your life. Those kids of yours will grow up faster than you can ever imagine. Let us know how your Marathon went!

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MNWILDCIN 10/5/2012 12:24PM

    No need for guilt! Change happens, we evolve and readjust. It sounds like you are very educated about your fitness routine.

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ILIKETOZUMBA 10/5/2012 9:28AM

    Lord have mercy! That is SO much exercise!! Even after you take out the classes, I don't understand how you can do all that, particularly on restricted calories. LOL you better not feel guilty about cutting some of that down a bit!! You're going to just fall over one of these days if you keep up that kind of grueling regimen! I'm glad you're getting more rest time and time with your kids though. :) And I'm very glad you've had a chance to think and find peace in your plans. Have fun with the half marathon!

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STRONGMOMMA2014 10/5/2012 9:10AM

    I think you have really figured it out! No need to feel guilty! You are not doing any disservice to yourself at all by changing your focus and routine! Best wishes to you as you work toward your goals! They are great ones!


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What I Did Instead Of Binge

Saturday, September 08, 2012

I've had a pretty rough morning. I'm still very sick, but I had to bring my darling daughter to soccer practice. While there I ran into the toxic friendship that I can never seem to escape, and we had a conversation that immediately brought up a lot of old, insecurity issues for me. I'm not sure why this one person affects me like this, but it's honestly not worth thinking about.

I want to talk about what I did.

I was pretty upset by the time practice was over and we were home. I had my usual out-of-control feelings, and I had the usual response of wanting to binge. It's a constant battle even now. But, today I chose to try something different. I sat down at my computer and opened Word. I don't share things like this on most blogs, so I intended it for my eyes only. I had no idea what I would write. I wanted to keep my hands busy. I wanted to vent and feel sorry for myself (while also beating myself up for being inadequate).

That's what I would normally write. But, today something different came out, and I feel like it's a true step in this journey. I decided to share it because it was so unexpected - and it actually made me feel better.

Talking Out The Crazy

Letís pretend for a moment that you are a rational person. Letís really think about what is actually happening in real life. Reality. Remember reality?

Honestly, you are in great shape Ė even with what remains of the belly. Remember what it used to look like? Ew. Get some confidence, girl. You do things other people donít. Now I am not saying get cocky and be a jerk. Leave that to other people Ė you know who I mean. Thatís not you. Youíre fairly humble, but be quietly confident, too. Youíve earned that right, and you will again Ė and again Ė and again. Because thatís how you are.

You have a good heart. No matter who you were, youíre pretty awesome right now. Youíve worked hard to get there. Youíve been through a lot. And, youíve fixed yourself. You worked through it, and once itís worked through, itís gone. Itís not coming back.

This is obviously a slow process. There are definitely still times that bits and pieces come back, but youíve made huge progress. Every day work toward what you want your future to be. Never give up. FIGURE IT OUT. Thatís how you improve. Thatís how you grow.

Lately things have been clicking. Falling into place and working. Keep it up. It pays off. Itís been 4 years of hard work and facing fears, but where is the old Em now? She may still lurk around the periphery on occasion, but she knows not to show her face. You make healthy choices now. Thatís normal. Thatís your normal.

You canít rush growth. Just know it is happening as long as you are trying. Keep learning. Keep dreaming and believing. It will come together.

And, thatís the other thing you have going for you. Youíve got time. 31 and youíve completely turned your life around. Think about how long you have to enjoy it.

So, ENJOY it already! Stop being stupid and trying to compare yourself to others. You are you. You can only be you. So, be yourself and love your life. Every moment.

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CARLANNIE 10/3/2012 8:17AM

    Big (((HUGS))) for you, my dear - you are awesome! Toxic friendships, or perhaps this one is a toxic acquaintanceship, don't do a person any good. Except in your case, it brought you to face your feelings and come out on top! Just push aside whatever feelings of inadequacy are lingering and tell them to get the heck outta Dodge - there's no room for them in your life. Why? Because you are beautiful, and you are worth it!

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SUNNIEMCPH 9/10/2012 2:57PM

  This is amazing! What insight you have! you have inspired me to face challenges! Way to go!

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CHANGINGSAM 9/10/2012 11:25AM

    Wow! I'm incredibly proud of you! Thank you for sharing this as I'm going to try write instead of binge. emoticon

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LYDDIECAT 9/9/2012 6:45PM

    What an amazing alternative to a binge. Thanks for sharing your strength with us.

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ILIKETOZUMBA 9/9/2012 5:53PM

    Wow, what a powerful blog. Beautifully written! I'm sorry you had that experience with the other person, but what a healthy way to work out the negative feelings. And those last words about stop comparing yourself to others, "you can only be you" - that's something I REALLY struggle with and really need to bear in mind myself, so that part was particularly powerful for me. Thank you for sharing.

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SOKKERNUT 9/8/2012 5:22PM

    Hope you feel better soon. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Thanks for sharing this with us.

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GIANTMICROBE 9/8/2012 12:09PM

    Wow... talk about a healthy alternative to bingeing... I hope everyone who emotionally eats reads this!

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ARIMIETTA 9/8/2012 11:53AM

    You're not being stupid, you're being human. We are all guilty of comparing ourselves to others. It's how we react that makes all of us different. I'm personally quite moved by how you've decided to react to this particular situation. It takes courage to openly share that voice in your head with the public.
You have a lot more going for you than you've already mentioned.

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ALICIA214 9/8/2012 11:39AM


emoticon I hope you are keeping that blog so that you can look back on it when
you feel that you are slipping back. emoticon emoticon

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Haven't Blogged In A While

Monday, September 03, 2012

It's been forever since I blogged here. I've been busy maintaining my blog fitem.blogspot.com

Here is part of my latest blog, which is about my long run yesterday. 9 miles turned into 12, and it was great!

Sunday, I went for my long run, and it was amazing. I left a little later than usual, but it was still cool outside. I was cold when I started running. Fall is on its way, and I am so excited. It is my favorite time of year for running. Bring on the long sleeved shirts! (aka comfiest running shirts)

The sun was shining, and everything was very peaceful. I decided to go without music again and really enjoyed the nature around me. I'm finding that I really enjoy running without distractions, and I tend to run faster when I am focused on the sound of my footfalls and my breathing. I never would have thought that I could run without music, but now I prefer it. My day-to-day life is pretty chaotic and loud (in a good way), so it is nice to have a couple hours of peace and quiet.

I had planned on going for a 9-mile run. I did 6 last weekend and knew I needed to increase my mileage. I didn't plan very well and realized mid-run that my route was a lot longer than I thought, but I could run into Enosburg and do one of my favorite 12-mile runs. I opted for the familiar route, and it was a great run. I felt good the whole way, and my legs felt fine at the end. No knee pain, no foot pain, no hip pain. Everything felt great. I think it has something to do with the shoes. Okay, I'm done talking about them now.

I also ran faster than I have ever done a 12 before. I finished in 2:40, which I know is slow for a lot of people, but great for me. I am psyched. I feel like I can definitely do the half marathon in under 3 hours. I have a little more time to increase my speed. I'm really getting into running. I want to go out and run every day, even though my schedule doesn't allow it. I'm definitely looking forward to tomorrow morning's run!

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APED7969 9/4/2012 6:32AM

    Yay for a great run! I'm excited to hear you're enjoying running without music. Most people seem to think I'm nuts for running without it. I think music can push you but not having it definitely helps you focus and enjoy the quiet too!

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ILIKETOZUMBA 9/3/2012 12:59PM

    That sounds awesome!! Great job! I agree, running is MUCH more fun in the cooler fall weather. And 2:40 sounds like a good time to me...lord knows when I was running that far, it took me at least that long. :)

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GIANTMICROBE 9/3/2012 12:58PM

    Aw, such a happy blog :) Love it :)

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