Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Crap. I forgot what exciting thing I was going to tell everyone...............
There was something worth it - I swear!
Um, I counted my steps today. Actually, I didn't do as horrible as I thought I would. Right now I'm at 4634 and I still have 3 or 4 hours left. Not too shabby considering I don't do anything. I know, I know. They say 10000 but, I'm just starting!! Give me some slack!!
I met my calorie range today, but REALLLLLY close. Way too close. Didn't get in all of my water.
Really good thing today: I re-organized my kitchen. MAN did it need it. After Josh and my mom finished off my kitchen all of my stuff was in the wrong spots! I've been going crazy!
OHHH, and I started playing piano again! WooHoo!! I haven't really played since I started college. It's been really nice and I've enjoyed it again. Now I just have to buy some better books!!
I've been ridiculously looking forward to going camping this weekend. Which means hours and hours of walks/hiking. Ohhh, I LOVE camping and was so excited. And I just looked at the weather. Isolated Thunderstorms the whole weekend. I think we have to cancel. I almost cried. I'm extremely disappointed. I was going to eat pretty unhealthy, but work my butt off! I'm sad.
Alright, going to enjoy my girlscout cookes (BRING IT ON NANCY!) and watch Americas Got Talent!
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
This morning I actually got up at a decent time. Yeah!
Then I got ready very quickly and headed out to the local farmers market. It's pretty bare right now (I live in NW PA and our crops aren't ready yet). Then walked my dog for awhile. Only 25 minutes, but believe me, you'd give up quickly w/ him too. We're in the training process and walks are just exhausting right now. It's a mini run/pull/drag/exhaustion!
When I got home I had recieved my pedometer in the mail! Woooohoooo. Except holy crap I'm a sedentary fatty-patty. Now, I didn't get my morning 2 hours in, but even so. I'm not walking NEARLY enough. HOLY CRAP. I'm actually too ashamed to tell you my step count.
I made a yummy dinner, and had left overs for lunch. These left me with enough calories to enjoy girlscout cookies tonight! Yeah! Andddd, I'm so awesome, I ate two after dinner. And then "hid" them again and I'll get two later when I'm watching my show: America's Got Talent!!
BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG NEWS FOR TODAY. BIG NEWS. BIG BIG NEWS.
I have a problem that I don't get rid of clothes. So, I have an extremely large tote of jeans/hoodies that I've kept that I haven't fit in in a long time. Today while attempting to keep my overly large jeans on my butt, I decided I was going to go try on my "halfway goal jeans." OHMIGOSH!! THEY FIT AWESOME!!!
So then I got into it, and got out ALL of the old jeans. Out of 17 pairs: 13 fit wonderful and the other 4 fit, just snug. HOLY CRAP. These jeans used to not even come up past my butt, and if they did the buttons were a foot apart! WOOHOOOO THEY ALL FIT!!!!!!! So, my "SUPER GOAL" jeans were one of the four that were snug, but I did button them! I can't wait to get there!! I'm soooooooooooo excited.
The only problem was, the jeans were ridiculously out of style. Haha. They're from highschool and middle school.
After all of my fun I sat down at the computer and saw online (facebook) another highschool classmate passed away. We just lost a girl about 6 weeks ago. Now Dustin. Rumor says it was suicide, but I don't know anything else. Although we weren't close it always upsets our little town greatly. Literally, in our town, everyone knows EVERYONE. So....this kind of thing is huge. Just so sad.
Wow, this blog is too long. I'm going to let you go rest your eyes!!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Today was a wonderful day. Breakfast I only had an activia yogurt.
Lunch I made my own little "tuna helper" - egg noodles, cream of mushroom, mixed veggies tunafish and cheese. Yummmmy.
Dinner was wheat spaghetti with some sauce, diced tomatoes, onions, mushrooms, and orange pepper. (Forgot the meat! haha).
And because I had such wonderful lunch and dinner
I WAS ABLE TO FINALLY HAVE MY BEN AND JERRY ICE CREAM
And holy crap did I enjoy it!! YUMMMM YUMMMMERS!!!! I waited a week until I had enough calories to enjoy it. And man I did!
What a great end to my day! And I got it in before 9:00 (which I don't eat past nine).
Now I'm going to go plan for my week meals. I REALLY struggle with lunches. So, I need to go think long and hard about what I'm going to eat.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
My emotional eating last night was because of Josh. No, we weren't fighting, but we weren't agreeing either.
Our friend was having a campfire/party. It had been BAD thunderstorming all day, the weather was crappy, there was supposed to be a lot of people there we're not really friends with, tent camping in the rain, and frankly I think "party parties" are stupid. I've never understood drinking solely for the purpose of getting wasted and blacking out. Sorry. It's dumb.
So, after a heated debate, Josh decided to go without me. Leave me and Jackson home. What did I do while he was home? Clean, clean clean, work my butt off.......and think about ice cream (as you read last night). He was supposed to text me three times. Once when he got there, once before bed, and once when he was leaving. Well...........I got my first text at 7 this morning. Awesome.
So, I'm already a little peeved that he's coming home so stinking early since I had gone to bed late and hadn't finished the dishes. Then when I told him I wasn't done yet, he said "he'll drive slow so I can finish." Excuse me?! How about you just deal with the fact there is a dirty pan. (by the way I finished everything before he got home).
THENNNNNNNNNNNN. Here's my main vent. The party was great (given it was a booze fest, again, which I hate.) But my best friend was out for the first time in over two years (she had a kid). It was the first time she's drank in two years, and she had a blast. I'm upset because I couldn't get her to go out for my 21st for the life of me (even though she was done breastfeeding and could have had a babysitter). So, that makes me pretty upset that I missed being out with her. On a positive, she's a ridiculous light weight and had to be carried into the house and put on the sofa. Thats pathetic and I probably wouldnt' have enjoyed much of her company. Topping that, most of the people we didn't know/like - didn't come. Quite a few did, but nearly 2 dozen didn't. So it was mostly our friends. Great.
Wait, wait, here is the kicker. Josh's ex was there. AWESOME. JUST AWESOME. I know it's been a long time. I still don't like her. I still don't like them talking. Yep, I'm that jealous crazy girl. (There is a little history here....).BUT I NEEDED TO BE THERE. First of all, I've lost 31+ pounds and I'm lookin' pretty good. I needed to rub that in her face. Yes, this is all vain, but true. Now that I wasn't there I look like a jerk. Great. GREAT. Wheres Emily? Oh, at home sulking. Awesome.
UGHGHGHGHGH. Can't go back in time. I just wish I could for a minute. I know I wouldn't have had that much fun, but at least I could have been present for all the stupid crap everyone else did. (Several pass outs, singing, dancing on people....etc). So, Josh just came home. BRIEFLY told me about the party, and went to bed. So I'm sitting here attempting to deal with my emotions.
Fourth: Accepting, thinking I'm over reacting
Oh, I hate dumb crap. This day is going to suck. Maybe I can convince possibly hung-over boyfriend to drive 90 minutes to my aunts cottage on the lake to take our dog for a walk on the beach and a dip in the pond. We'll see.
***UPDATE*** Since this blog I have gone outside and did some training with my dog. This really relieved some of the stress. I then filled his pool and we played in the water for quite a long time. Josh woke up and was in a good mood. We sat and talked about the party for awhile. He told me who all was there, whats new with them....etc. I'm far less upset, but still not pleased. I don't know. Just made a yummy 300 calorie lunch and thinking about what to do the rest of the day.
This'll likely be the last party like this for quite a long time. So, I'm just going to put it behind me right now, move on, and ENJOY my day!***
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