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Keeping my chin up

Sunday, March 22, 2009

I really don't know whats wrong with me sometimes. Things are finally going great again and I feel super nervous about that. For one whole year, things were pretty bad. My husband didn't have a job. We ended up living apart so he could go elsewhere to find one and now he has one, I am going to end up moving back to where we started from. I really don't want to go. I have finally created a stable situation for myself that I like. I won't end up moving back for probably a couple of months but geesh. I got myself a gym membership, awesome motivational friends who love going as much as I do. I can finally afford to eat well and not whatever we get from food donations.

Oh well, I've got to be happy while it lasts.

  
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MSTELZER 3/23/2009 2:45AM

    Change is hard as it's the fear of the unkown that is so scary. When you have a few minutes read my sparkpage as my grandpa was a big one on accepting change.

"Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

Hang in there and just prepare yourself as best you can. I can relate to your feelings on this. I really dislike moving as well but I've found that it opens doors to new and wonderful possibilities if you let it.

Michelle


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MSSUNBUG 3/22/2009 10:48AM

    It can be really hard to trust "good times" when you've faced bad ones. For me, when I faced a similar struggle, I found what helped me was some good reflection about what my anxieties were, creating a space for them either in my mind or in a journal. And I really fought hard with letting myself be happy, being okay to be happy, even if happiness is tenuous, not premanent. It's a hard peace to get to or maintain, but I think it's well worth working on. Go easy on yourself and keep up the good reflection. Here's hoping your happiness has good staying power! :D

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Becoming my healthist self

Friday, March 20, 2009

I am realizing that I am loving life a whole lot more than I thought possible in the last six months. It's been hard but working out has helped me regain a sense of pride. A few months ago I was drinking at least three beers a night, if not more, and not leaving my room. It was horrible. I never want to go back. With sparkpeople and new friends I have the motivation I need to keep moving and if I can change my outlook of life on the inside, I should be able to change it on the outside too.


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