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A GREAT BIG THANK YOU SPARK FRIENDS!!

Thursday, September 29, 2011

I am so fortunate to have found Spark People! The People on this site are so supportive. I feel I can come here and vent, discuss, cry and No judges!! We are here to support each other not just in the weight loss journey, but in life in general. We are here when someone loses a Love one, has had a fight with a significant other, has a kid who is in trouble. I have My co-workers but one is judgemental and one actually has more problems than I do. And You know I really do not have that many problems, but I still need support when one pops up!!! Spark Friends are there for Me!!! We are a fantastic group of people. emoticon for Spark!!!!!
I am doing better Your thoughts and comments helped a lot yesterday. But yesterday also let Me know I have a lot of issues I still need to work through!!! I know through Prayer, self talk and Friends like I have on Spark People I am going to be just fine. I just need to work on it, just like My weight!!
I truly Love You All!!! Thanks You again for being there!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon Susan (Rosie)

  
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FRESHSTART34 10/1/2011 12:10AM

    Spark Friends are the best. They are there when you need encouragement.

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QSULLIVAN 9/30/2011 11:53AM

    Glad you're feeling better! emoticon

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MOSTMOM1 9/30/2011 7:53AM

    Glad you're feeling more like yourself. SparkBuddies are the best buddies!
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A_NEW_JAN 9/30/2011 12:38AM

    You are a wonderful friend to so many of us here on SP, and you know what they say ... What goes around comes around!
We're all here for you!

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IMAGINGPRO 9/29/2011 6:11PM

    You are very welcome. I am very happy that you are doing better, but just know that I will always be here for you too. I know you do the same for me as well. That is what friends do, they help each other withour judgement.

I wish you all the best. Hope that you will have a great life,

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OLDERDANDRT 9/29/2011 5:49PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonThe feeling is very mutual, dear! emoticon emoticon

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PATTIE441 9/29/2011 4:41PM

    Woo Hoo! You're awesome girl!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MSLZZY 9/29/2011 3:59PM

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CAPECODLIGHT 9/29/2011 3:50PM

    YOU lift me up - so thank you. Spark Friends are the BEST!

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NANNER2121 9/29/2011 1:58PM

    I agree with Momma_little.
Give yourself a big pat on the back also.

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STRIPEDTIGER 9/29/2011 11:30AM

    We're the ones who are blessed to have met you.

DON'T ARGUE WITH ME. IT'S TRUE!!

We love you!

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1GR8FULGAL 9/29/2011 10:45AM

    Echo what the others have said; can't say it any better--so I won't try!! HUGS!

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 9/29/2011 10:36AM

    He, you know what? YOU are there for SO MANY others, too! So, thank you to YOU, for all that YOU do to support others! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JESS0107 9/29/2011 10:15AM

    You are more than welcome!! And a big thank you for all that you do as well!

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ZEESPARROW 9/29/2011 9:40AM

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MI-ELLKAYBEE 9/29/2011 9:30AM

    You always seem to show up to support me and help me find answers. You can count on me and so many of us - we're so all in this together. emoticon emoticon you are emoticon

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MRE1956 9/29/2011 9:15AM

    No problem, my friend!

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Not in a good place!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Yesterday was hard in many ways. The neighborhood last a very Important part! He helped My Sister and Mom out so many times. And His wife (who has had cancer and lost an arm) was there for us when Mom died! I had to go by My self. I did not know anyone there. And I thought I would get to see His Wife, but did not. It just opened up a lot of things. I am the oldest Daughter, I am a Sister, a Wife, a Mom and a GrandMa, a Friend. Who do I go to for help. I have My co-workers who try to support Me. But it is not the same. DH had had a really bad yesterday and I was happy to listen, but He did not want to listen to Me. I am tired of being the go to person, when I have no one to go to. I got out a T-shirt to wear today it has a beautiful bear with pink hat and pink flowers. It says Rosie Bear. Toward the last Mom did not really know me she called Me Rosie (why I may never know) but My sister made fun of Me and to this day now and then She calls Me Rosie. It hurts. I know in My heart She is not trying to be mean. I need to get back to doing My study work to get Myself in a better place. It is difficult to not be like Mom and take care of it and not complain. I am not a confrontational person. So I felt if I could write this to My Friends on Spark it might just help! I will get there I know because I am the Strong one. I just want to be weak now and then.
I did ride My exercise bike last night. And I am going to continue to do so. I need a healthy mind and a healthy body.
Thanks for listening!!!!!! I Love You All!!!!! emoticon emoticon Susan (Rosie)

  
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SAL1512 9/29/2011 12:45PM

    Just take a deep breath and forgive yourself. You are not weak. You are human.
So glad that you know the SparkPeople are out there listening to you.
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CATLADY52 9/29/2011 11:15AM

    I know what you are talking about. We are here to unload to. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FITNUT822 9/29/2011 11:12AM

    Susan, I think it is ok to be weak now and then as we are more humble. I love the name Rosie as it is my favorite nieces name and my middle name. Rosie fit you. You are up beat and comforting. I sorry you had a bad day. Sometimes when we have a bad day we remember all of the hard times in our life. We are just more vunerable. We are in this together so thanks for sharing your day. We love you.

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OPALMOON 9/29/2011 10:54AM

    Your Spark Friends are always here to 'listen, so you can vent any time you need to!

Sending lots of hugs and prayers your way, Susan...take care of yourself and know we are thinking of you.

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RSSSLHB 9/29/2011 8:03AM

    Susan if you know Jesus I emoticonthat you take it to Him He will help you emoticon

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PATTIE441 9/28/2011 8:29PM

    I'm sorry about all that. I know how hard it is. My father used to call me his psychiatrist, when all I wanted was for him to be my dad. And my husband can talk for hours about his work, but cuts me off when I want to vent a little. He really is supportive, but sometimes you just need them a little more. You have a lot of support here and we are all here for you. Just call our names, and we'll be there. Take care my friend, and thank you for being my friend. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AZURELITE 9/28/2011 8:28PM

    Glad you feel you can vent here, Susan. We're here for you, as much as we can be in this online way.
Sending love & a big hug,
Azurelite xo

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GYPSYROSEANN 9/28/2011 8:12PM

    Thanks for venting here. It means you trust us and deep down you knew you could count on us to be there for you. It IS painful to lose the people you loved and confided in. emoticon

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MADKAPKID 9/28/2011 7:50PM

    I think it is hard when you are "THE ONE" that everyone knows will be there for them. They see you as strong....often they fail to see that you also need a shoulder to lean on from time to time..even just someone to "VENT" to when needed.

This is a good place to share...cause there is never judgment. I think we all need to "let it out" once in awhile. IT is cleansing.

You are a strong and amazing woman. I am so blessed to be able to call you my friend. It is great that you did ride that exercise bike last night. Often exercise helps cleanse our minds of stress and sorrow too. I hope you have a truely joy filled tomorrow. Karen emoticon emoticon

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MRS-BLOBBY 9/28/2011 6:05PM

    it's hard having to be strong for everyone , but having no one to lean on when you feel down. I have felt it too somedays, when my whole family & even my cats have been demanding! Sending you hugs & hope you feel strong again soon. emoticon

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Hugs for your day. Sorry Susan.
We here on Spark would be at your door to give you a hug anytime you need us.

Love ya, Debbie

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MOSTMOM1 9/28/2011 4:13PM

    It's hard being "the one" all the time. Everybody needs support. Spark may be where you find it, for the moment. Thanks for being such a supportive SparkBuddy. You inspire and encourage so many people. Hang in there, Susan.
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BUTEAFULL 9/28/2011 3:44PM

    how does one go about cultivating friends to be the GO TO person in a time of need? IDK, but a club sounds like a first place to look for friendship if your family is unable to be your GO TO
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ANDREWS_MOM 9/28/2011 10:42AM

    Sending lots and lots of emoticon your way.
I so hope today is a better day for you.
Know we are all here for you anytime you need a shoulder to lean on or an ear to vent to you.
Love you lots!
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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 9/28/2011 10:40AM

    You are so upbeat so MUCH of the time! You deserve some time to lean on others and be the comforted, encouraged one! I sure hope you get the love and care you need in warm, tangible ways! I hope you have someone near you who will think to give you a big bear hug and tell you they love you! If I was there, I would do it! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ZEESPARROW 9/28/2011 10:40AM

    I am sorry you feel as if you have no one to turn to. I can relate, too. But my husband is becoming very good at recognizing when I need him to listen, and doing just that. I hope yours can be the shoulder you need, or you find a friend that can.

Until then, blog away. We will listen and pray for you anytime.

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GOOZLEBEAR 9/28/2011 10:38AM

    There is absolutely nothing wrong with not always wanting to be the strong one or the one who always takes the higher road. Sometime we need to be taken care of. I know exactly what you mean. Wish I were there to give you a big hug. You can always share with your Spark friends, we are here to support you in whatever you are going through.

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MRE1956 9/28/2011 10:22AM

    Oh, my......sigh.....BTDT.......when the caretakers need care themselves and don't get it, well, that truly s**ks (don't ask me how I know this).......

I give you great credit for hanging there and continuing your exercise despite it all! I am so sorry you're dealing with this, dear Susan.....

Funny thing about your "Rosie" name - somehow very early in life I developed the nickname of "Susie" by my dad - I could never, EVER get a straight story out of him as to how that happened - and that secret went to his grave with him......sometimes I can't help but ask myself why the h*ll didn't they just go ahead and name me Susan instead of the plain vanilla, boring name I was saddled with......go figure, eh?

Hang in there, my friend!

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JESS0107 9/28/2011 10:21AM

    There is nothing wrong with breaking down at times!! Sometimes, it helps us to grow stronger. But when I get like you do. I remember the devotional that I once read. It said that the reason people turn to you in their times of trouble is because they know that you are a reliable and caring person. And you are!!

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1GR8FULGAL 9/28/2011 10:13AM

    I/we are here for you, to listen any time! That's just one of the many, many wonderful things about SPARK!!! Pls always know and remember what an amazing person and friend you are!!!! You brighten my day, EVERY DAY!!! (THAT'S quite a feat, let me tell you!!) Take some deep breaths, do what you need to do for you. I will be here for you!! Blessings and bear hugs, Nancy

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Do You ever wonder? And other things.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I wonder about a lot of things. Over the weekend when a squirrel almost ran in front of our truck, I wonder what the life expectancy of him or her would be without cars. I looked it up it 12.6 for females and 8.6 for males. You would think I could find more constructive things to think about!
Yesterday My co-worker went to one the banks and they have a fund raiser going on they are selling candy bars for something. She got each of us one. Now the challenge is to see how long it can stay on my desk before I eat it. At least My bank is selling small stuffed animals, not something to eat!! emoticon
I hate going to funerals (I know no one likes going to a funeral) but I just do not handle it well. Since My Sister has been sick and off work She can not go today. So I have to go by Myself. I wish there was a way out of this. But these people were so good to My Mom (while she was alive) and to My Sister while she lived in that neighborhood with Mom. I sent flowers but it just does not seem like enough.
So much life to live and not enough time!!!!! Everyone in Spark Land please take good care of Yourself and do not take life for granted. Enjoy every moment! Tell everyone You love them, do not judge and be Happy!! I Love You All!!!!!!! emoticon Susan

  
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SAL1512 9/29/2011 12:41PM

    Funerals are hard but they are important for closure. Bless your heart for going.
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CIVIAV 9/28/2011 9:42AM

    I like this pondering Susan...
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STRIPEDTIGER 9/28/2011 9:36AM

    I learned a trick in Naturally Slim for making that chocolate bar last longer.
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Instead of taking a bite and chewing just let it sit in your mouth until it's completely dissolved. Move it around, switch sides. Make it your goal to slather the entire inside of your mouth with the chocolate. I've been amazed at how much less chocolate I eat WITHOUT even feeling deprived.

When you move it all over and let it dissolve slowly you can really get EVERY bit of flavor out of it so you eat a lot less.

Sorry about the funeral. It stinks!! I'll be thinking of you!!

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GOOZLEBEAR 9/27/2011 9:07PM

    Time is short for all of us and we just need to live each day to the fullest. I know it meant a lot to the family to have you there at the funeral. I don't like to go to those either but sometimes it is just the right thing to do.

Hope you have a good night's sleep!!!!

Many Hugs!

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CAPECODLIGHT 9/27/2011 5:02PM

    I'm sure your presence meant a lot to the family. It's a duty no one enjoys; so kudos to you for doing this.

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NATTY0488 9/27/2011 4:14PM

    Lol. Someone else obviously thought about it too if you were able to find the answer, lol.

I hope things start to get better soon.

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BUTEAFULL 9/27/2011 11:47AM

    you will probably feel 'I'm glad I came' afterwards
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YELLOW09RED 9/27/2011 11:29AM

    emoticon Blessings & Love ya too.
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GO-LOEW 9/27/2011 10:51AM

    Hopefully the candy bar is small! I have been known to pretend I ate something given to me and ditch it so I wouldn't.

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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 9/27/2011 10:22AM

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A_NEW_JAN 9/27/2011 10:01AM

    I'm sure you will be fine at the funeral. I think it is important to let the family know just how important their loved one was to you & your family. It does help ease their sadness.
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JESS0107 9/27/2011 10:00AM

    You are right. We never know when our time is up so we need to live eat day as it was our last. My prayers are with you going to the funeral. You will never know how much it will mean to them seeing you there!!

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ZEESPARROW 9/27/2011 9:46AM

    Good luck with that candy bar. Can you put it in a drawer so it's out of sight? I have one in mine... My husband bought it for me one evening, I took it to work and promptly stuck it in my snack drawer... under a napkin. When I go into my snack drawer, I sometimes forget it's there!

My sympathies for your family's loss. Bless you for showing up today. emoticon

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It's Really Monday!!!!!

Monday, September 26, 2011

Got to work and had been here a little while when a Wonderful Friend and Neighbor of My Mom (when She was alive) and My Sister (when She lived with Mom) called She wanted to let us know that last Friday Her found Her Husband (really great Guy) dead of a massive heart attack. So sad. They are great people. He will be missed! Since My Sister had been ill again and off work She cannot go to the funeral, so I will go to represent Our Family. So Sad!
I did not feel very good to start with. Back and intestinal. Probably to much junk food over the weekend!! But I will do what I always do put on My Big Girl Panties and deal with it.
I hope everyone in Spark Land had as good weekend as I did. Now back to reality. Let's all make every minute of every day the best we can make! Enjoy!!! Love Y'All!!! emoticon
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MOSTMOM1 9/26/2011 11:14PM

    So sorry. Glad you can be there for your friend. God bless.
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PATTIE441 9/26/2011 4:26PM

    I am very sorry. Very sad, and you are so very brave. I try to appreciate every moment and appreciate my blessings, because you never know if that will be your last moment. My heart goes out to you my friend. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CIVIAV 9/26/2011 4:08PM

    I like the expression big girl panties but think there's an image that comes along with it that needs to be put away. LOL.

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IMAGINGPRO 9/26/2011 1:18PM

    My feeling go out to you. I am so sorry for this sad situation. I hope that you are ok. I an sure that they will love to see you there as well.

Best wishes to you.

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    SO SAD! HOPE YOU ARE OK. emoticon

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JESS0107 9/26/2011 10:15AM

    That is so sad!! My prayers are with you and their family!!

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STRIPEDTIGER 9/26/2011 9:47AM

    I hope you feel better very soon and I'm sorry to about your friend.

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Good Sunday!!

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Got up and around, went to breakfast. Got back home and put the lake fall decorations. I will put some on my Saprk page. We got Home from the lake and I started cleaning in the guest bedroom! Took some empty boxes to the dumpster. Clean off the desk so I could put my Halloween stuff there. Then I went with DH He is looking for a Mustang convertible. He found one and we went to see it! It had a wrecked title, it started out life red and after the wreck they sort of fixed it and painted it bright yellow. It had a lot of dents and such and would need new tires and so on. So He is still looking. We ate a place called the Saltgrass Steak House not bad! We then went to the store to get food for DH's lunches. Got back home and now I am Sparking and doing laundry. I also water flowers and cleaned up the kitchen. No wonder I am tired! emoticon Everyone have a great Sunday evening and a great start to the week!!!!! Love Y'All emoticon Susan

  
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LITTLEFARMMOMMA 9/26/2011 9:11AM

    Susan, I love reading about your days! Have a great week! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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OPALMOON 9/26/2011 4:04AM

    Have a great week Susan!

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TOTHEFUTURE1 9/26/2011 2:53AM

    Seem like a nice way to spend a day, good luck with the car hunting.

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CAPECODLIGHT 9/25/2011 7:10PM

    You are always such a busy beaver - great lifestyle to maintain! Sounds like another good day for you.

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