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Interesting realization

Saturday, February 04, 2012

Yeah, I haven't been around here regularly for a long, long time. I stop in every now and then, hoping that somehow just signing in will give me the inspiration to "get back on the horse." So far that hasn't happened.

I started a new job at the first of this year, close to home, so my intention was to use my old commute time as exercise time. That hasn't really happened yet, because I just enjoy my extra sleep so much!

The interesting thing about my new job - it is very similar to positions I've held int he past, but didn't really like. I went into this job with a different attitude. I know that a person is not going to like every part of their job - there are always annoying things that have to be dealt with but done nonetheless. I've been making a conscious effort to have a positive rather than negative attitude about my job, focusing on the things that are fun and not obsessing about the negative. And so far I really, really like my job. Maybe it is the shorter commute, maybe it is the positive attitude, maybe it really is just a better job. Whatever the reason, I am thankful.

One of the programs in which my new firm participates is a "Wellness Program." They give monetary incentives for people who fill out health questionnaires, get regular check-ups, monitor their weight and exercise, and several other things. I had serious doubts about participating - it seemed a little "big brother" to me, collecting all of my information, someday presumably using it to deny me health insurance or any number of things. I started focusing on all of the negative ways that information could be used against me in the future. But the incentive for simply signing up and doing the first test was cold, hard cash and I just couldn't pass it up. I knew I was going to be disappointed in what some of my results were, especially knowing I had creeped back up into the obese weight category. But I did it.

When I looked at my results this morning, I realized something pretty important. Part of the reason I didn't want to do it is because it is just easier to ignore that I've stopped taking care of myself. If I didn't step on the scale, maybe I could pretend it didn't happen. If I didn't go to the doctor, nobody could tell me I needed to watch my blood pressure or exercise more often. I wanted to be able to justify my choices to only myself. All of my "big brother" fears were really just me trying to have a "valid" excuse for ignoring again what deep down I know to be true. I'm glad the cash pushed me through, because now I cannot ignore it any more. It is right there in black and white, along with ways to do a little each day to improve each thing.

I've always been good at keeping to a strict diet and losing weight in the short term. Crash and fad diets always suited me well, because I knew that when it was over, I could have that sugar, coffee, carb, whatever it might be again. But once the diet is over, I have absolutely no discipline to stick with a healthy lifestyle. My last loss cycle (because yes, it really is a true cycle for me) I thought I had figured it out. But even though I wasn't viewing it as a diet, and I really did try to think of it as a healthy lifestyle, the weight still came back. Not all of it, so at least that is a difference this time. Somehow, I HAVE to figure out how to break this cycle. And I'm hoping that today's realization about the wellness program will help in this - recognizing when I am making an excuse for something I don't want to deal with. Maybe if I can recognize that is what I am doing each time I do it, I can stop and reevaluate my thought process.

It simply has to start with ME.

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K8LYNNSIN 2/4/2012 10:51AM

  I don't know if I will make a difference but I too come and go. The fact that I come and go still puts the thought in my mind that the change is needed. And it is happening. There is so much info on these pages that it can be overwhelming.
If you want a lifestyle change start small..don't diet but change one thing you know will make a difference. Learn to drink coffee without sugar, cut soda intake by 2 a day..whatever you think but do it one thing at a time until it is a lifestyle change..takes about 21 days to create a habit, good or bad.
My other suggestion (and this is because I do have a commute) is to try another time for your exercise. I was successful with early morning workouts for a while but my schedule changed and let it stop me for a while. (damaging results yuk) I finally decided if I couldn't make myself do it in the morning for now I will do it in the afternoon. I also didn't make myself go back to a full hour workout..I started with making 10 min in my afternoon. Believe it or not I started getting stronger and having more energy. My goal is 7 days a week for at least 10 but I'm doing about 45 5 days so I'm getting there.
I just decided to start small and make some small changes. You can do it too. I'm the least motivated individual there is.

Good luck emoticon

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The start of boot camp

Sunday, May 03, 2009

I'm ready to begin!!

I am starting at 155 pounds (boo!) I'd like to be at 145 when boot camp is over, but I'm also going to try very hard not to let "numbers" control how I'm doing. The most important thing to me is that my clothes all fit me again :-)

I've taken two pictures so that hopefully I can see the change even if the numbers aren't quite what I want.

Off to do the Kickboxing Cardio!!


The Five-Year plan

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Wow, I haven't done a five-year plan since high school :) This is a good exercise to do every now and then, for many reasons. I distinctly remember when I first started practicing law, I ignored almost everything except for work. One day I looked in the mirror and realized 5 years had gone by. I had gained more than 50 pounds and hated my job. I felt like a bunch of time had been wasted. NEVER AGAIN!!

In the next five years, I will turn 40. Seems hard to believe, but it is true. I always thought that I might go back to school at some point, because I really do enjoy it. It is not about getting another degree; I certainly don't need that piece of paper. But I do enjoy the discourse and exercising my brain. I'm not sure that school is really in my five-year plan, but I do want to remember that it is out there on the horizon.

With that out there, my goal over the next five years is to find a job that is both intellectually satisfying, but also not all-consuming. As I have been doing for the last three years, I am struggling to find the balance between being a wife, a mother, and a professional. As part of this plan, I want to put as much money as reasonably possible towards retirement, so that I can comfortably go back to school when the time is right.

Steps to take for this plan:

1. By the end of 2008, read "Things you can do with a Law Degree" and take a few self-assessment tests. I have been saying I was going to this for years, and now I just need to do it!

2. Start putting at least $500 a month away for retirement NOW.

3. Send out resumes.

4. Go to bar association lunches. Go to my first one by October 1, 2008.

One more thing in my five-year plan -- another baby. I'm not 100% sure that we want another one, but this must be decided within the next five years (We're not getting any younger!)

The steps for this plan are pretty simple:

1. Decide if we want another baby (duh). Have this discussion with dh by January of 2009.

2. GET TO GOAL WEIGHT -- by February 2009.

3. Set out a plan for the best time to get pregnant is within the next five years.

4. Get pregnant emoticon !

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SEYSARAH 8/12/2008 12:12PM

    Jenn I love your five year plan!!!!! If nothing else it makes you think about real possibilities. I absolutely know what you mean by going back to school.......I love that and plan to do that myself. I agree, it is not so much the pieces of paper as the intellectual discussion etc.

One thing you might want to consider just for the fun of it is Babyfit.com which is a sister site of Spark. In the event that a pregnancy is in your future a great place to be while trying to conceive, during pregnancy and directly afterwards is that site. I have met many women who have come into this site after being over at Babyfit. Great site, free and full of info. Lots of professional women trying to juggle everything in there and plenty of exchanges regarding that particular subject.

I think you would have fun networking at the Bar and the functions.......matter of fact between that and maybe the Chamber you just might come up with new and different ways to use your education and experience!!!!!!!

I know whatever your decisions and however you decide to implement them you have a wonderful future ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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TRECECOOKS 7/25/2008 10:44AM

    Wow!1 You've clearly got that analytical mind thing goin'!!

Sounds like a sound plan. S.M.A.R.T. and all of that.

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Digestion challenge

Friday, May 16, 2008

Oops, somehow I was thinking this was due today -- I think we were supposed to do this yesterday emoticon

The first thing I learned, and learned early on, about this challenge is that 25 grams of fibre for the amount of calories I'm eating is TOO MUCH! My stomach hurt quite a bit those first few days. I discovered that about 20 grams is just about perfect.

Everything else I'm pretty used to doing, so I did not notice much else different.


Swimsuit Challenge Starting Stats

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Well, I did not take a picture, but I certainly can start with my weight and other measurements. Because I am also doing a similar challenge at the gym, this should work out nicely.

SW: 141.4 lbs

Neck: 14
Chest: 41.5
Shoulders: 40
Waist: 34.5
Hips: 40
Bicep (R): 12.25 Bicep (L): 12.75
Thigh (R): 23.25 Thigh (L): 23.25
Calf (R): 14 Calf (L): 13.75

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QUERIAN 5/5/2008 12:20PM

    I've never measured right and left sides, I only measure my right side! Maybe I should start, huh? Good luck with the challenge!

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