Sunday, September 08, 2013
I keep logging on here every few months and saying that I want to get back, and I do, but this time desperately.
I've been analyzing my life and figuring out what's been missing and writing in a journal/blogging has been missing. I have kept a journal through my schooling but also started one my freshman year in college and have written every year. The past two years I have neglected it though and I feel lost:-(.
I broke up with who I thought was "the one" over a year and a half ago and I have truly felt lost. Nothing has felt right, I've felt sick, I've been stressed out, I've gained weight, and I've stopped doing the things that I once did like clockwork.
Initially life went 100 miles an hour. I finished and graduated with my Master's, I got a new job, I moved, I bought a car, my family moved in temporarily, I moved my son to a new school, I went out like crazy, I dated, I did happy hour every single Friday, I tailgated and went to UT football games, shopped a whole lot, and above all, I cried...ALOT.
I didn't however journal, go to church, pursue hobbies, workout, focus on my health, plan my clothes and meals for the week, hike, run at town lake, or get counseling.
Now I'm a point that I feel I need to slow down and plan out the next few years in my life. Where do I see myself in two, three, maybe five years? I feel that I need to start journaling/blogging to rest my mind(it's always working overtime), I need to strengthen my faith(through him all things are possible), train to run races(because I truly love training and seeing the results over time), workout consistently because I hate being fat(it affects my every thought and mood), and seek counseling(because it makes me feel better).
I really should be writing this in my journal but writing takes so long and typing is so much more efficient.
I plan to do this nightly, in bed, and just before lights out. Hope I can find my way back.