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Trying to get back

Sunday, September 08, 2013

I keep logging on here every few months and saying that I want to get back, and I do, but this time desperately.

I've been analyzing my life and figuring out what's been missing and writing in a journal/blogging has been missing. I have kept a journal through my schooling but also started one my freshman year in college and have written every year. The past two years I have neglected it though and I feel lost:-(.

I broke up with who I thought was "the one" over a year and a half ago and I have truly felt lost. Nothing has felt right, I've felt sick, I've been stressed out, I've gained weight, and I've stopped doing the things that I once did like clockwork.

Initially life went 100 miles an hour. I finished and graduated with my Master's, I got a new job, I moved, I bought a car, my family moved in temporarily, I moved my son to a new school, I went out like crazy, I dated, I did happy hour every single Friday, I tailgated and went to UT football games, shopped a whole lot, and above all, I cried...ALOT.

I didn't however journal, go to church, pursue hobbies, workout, focus on my health, plan my clothes and meals for the week, hike, run at town lake, or get counseling.

Now I'm a point that I feel I need to slow down and plan out the next few years in my life. Where do I see myself in two, three, maybe five years? I feel that I need to start journaling/blogging to rest my mind(it's always working overtime), I need to strengthen my faith(through him all things are possible), train to run races(because I truly love training and seeing the results over time), workout consistently because I hate being fat(it affects my every thought and mood), and seek counseling(because it makes me feel better).

I really should be writing this in my journal but writing takes so long and typing is so much more efficient.

I plan to do this nightly, in bed, and just before lights out. Hope I can find my way back.

  
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JEWELS571 9/9/2013 2:32PM

    Putting things down in writing is a way to hash things out with yourself, it also helps find consistency and accountability. You might as well blog out a plan of action, set a workout schedule in motion! You can do this!

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LOVEAZ 9/8/2013 10:21PM

    Welcome back!

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HOTPINKCAMARO49 9/8/2013 9:54PM

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inaccurate

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

My sparkpage picture is inaccurate! I took the picture last Summer and I've definitely gained weight since then. Last night was my first day back to the site and I fell asleep shortly thereafter. I'm going to bed now so I plan to update my page as soon as I get a chance. Goodnight!

  
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SISTERPRETTY 3/26/2013 10:45PM

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Back

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Writing really quick to say that I'm back!

Over the past year I have been absent from the site and have gone through major life changes. My weight has steadily gone up and I'm back to square one. Back to the starting weight when I first joined Spark People years back. The truth is, I can't do it alone. I need support and motivation and figured out that I was highly successful when using this site.

Hope to see some familiar faces and meet new people on here.

  
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ASHWILLDOTHIS 4/2/2013 11:31AM

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RUNSGB122 3/30/2013 8:14AM

    I am with you! I have started back at square 1 also and its pretty frustrating. In the last few weeks, I started taking zumba classes with my sister and weighing in and that has started to help to motivate me. I'm gonna "fake it til I make it"! Good luck to you!

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BECCAR6 3/25/2013 3:00PM

    Welcome back. I sure helps to have the support!

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PATSYB7 3/25/2013 5:53AM

    Welcome back!
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Keep Sparking and you'll reach your goals.
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JANTWO 3/25/2013 1:16AM

    Welcome back!!!! I too have lost weight and gained a lot back. I have now lost some of the rebound weight, but have more to go. We can do this!!!! emoticon

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In a better place...

Monday, May 07, 2012

So my boyfriend and I broke up after 8 years and he moved out about a month ago. I've had my ups and downs but am starting to feel a lot better about it all. It's been really difficult to "share" our son though. We are both working full time and are going to school at night. I have gained a LOT of weight and am determined to lose it. I've stocked my fridge with good food and am going back to my old habits of packaging and freezing foods in serving sizes, planning my meals, staying away from carbs, eating in moderation, and working out everyday. I do not doubt that I will reach my goals this year. My birthday is in December and I turn 30 so I want to be at my best! A breakup has been good motivation for me in the past so I'm hoping to use it to my advantage this time around. Check out these pics which show me last summer and now wearing the same outfit!! I was shocked to see the changes but it is just what I needed to get moving and motivated again:









  
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RUNSGB122 5/26/2012 5:43PM

    I'm sorry :( But good for you in picking up and moving in a better direction. Good luck with your journey!!

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MISHAMW 5/8/2012 2:14PM

    Good luck girl! You seem like you know what has to be done! Hoping for the best for you!

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BABY_GIRL69 5/7/2012 10:26PM

    Almost looks like different people. Nothing like a change in life to make us want to change ourselves....God bless, Dee

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hurting

Saturday, February 18, 2012

For a few months now I've noticed that I've felt down and just not myself. I wasn't sure why and figured that it's because I was really stressed and busy. Recently, it's all started to make sense...

I think I'm nearing the end of an 8 year relationship to the father of my 5 year old son. There are many factors that contributed to this and I'm heartbroken. It's not due to abuse, alcohol, drugs, cheating, or anything of the like. We've just grown apart and it seems like neither one of us is at 100% or is the person they were supposed to be or was before. Another big factor is the fact that we haven't gotten married, or shall I say he hasn't proposed. We've talked about it, but he doesn't seem to give it much thought. I am turning 30 in December and I envisioned myself being married, with 2 kids, in a house and just being happy. None of that has happened and I'm not sure that I can have it with him. I've been crying for what seems like weeks and I can't stop thinking about a life without him. It sucks because I don't want it to happen, but then again I think it has to. I'm torn between fighting for it to work out or throwing in the towel. I'm so sad. I guess I shouldn't think too far ahead until I know that we're definitely going our separate ways.

I haven't really talked to anyone about it either...I don't want my family to judge him and I don't want friends to know. But I'm dying to get it off my chest and talk to someone. I just don't think the people in my life have the life experiences I have, or the maturity level, or the ability to give good advice. The person that I considered my best friend has been MIA for a few months and I'm soooo hurt about it too. This is the time that I need her more than ever and she's not there for me. I'm so mad at her!


  
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SAGE150 2/22/2012 4:07PM

    I think you have to talk directly to him about this and see where he is at in his feelings. Think about what you want you yourself and him to actually DO to go about changing the situation. The truth shall set you free, love. Just be open and honest and willing to listen for what is real and what is truly discardable.

Best of wishes,
Sage
Co-leader of Cultural Fusion

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KACOSTA42105 2/21/2012 9:53AM

    I'm so sorry sweetie! I hope things get better, moving on is hard, especially after 8 years. Sorry to also hear about your best friend, what a bummer when you need someone and they are not there for you. You are a strong woman, you will make it through this and better things will be waiting for you!
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