Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Recently I decided to experiment with zucchini. The more I have it, the more I like it. I also tried butternut squash fries. Followed the acorn squash fries recipe on SP, which hasn't worked out for me. Butternut was better, but still pretty complete failure. It gets nothing like the traditional french fry texture, which it should. It's all gooey. So that's no good.
While that was cooking, I heated up a little olive oil and breaded some zucchini. Then, smartly, I went to put in some laundry. That would've been fine, but the machine on this floor was broken, so I had to go to another floor, ended up taking a lot longer than I expected...
and when I got back, the oil was on fire. The flames were a good four feet, licking at the stove's fan.
I thought, "dammit, why did I have to learn about kitchen safety so early? Now I don't remember what puts out an oil fire because it was so long ago!" I grabbed the pan and lifted it off the burner. Step 1: remove from heat. But then what? I waved the pan over to the sink. Oil sloshed over the side and onto the floor. Remaining on fire while on the floor, for a brief and terrifying second. Similarly the pan sloshed liquid fire into the sink. Which was wet. The oil and the water sizzled, and it occurred to me that pouring the oil down the drain might not be healthy. I took the pan in one hand and went to the computer, where I had a window open talking to my boyfriend. With my left hand, I frantically typed something like "quickk how to putout oil fite". My boyfriend, bless him, decided to give the issue some thought so he could give me a well-reasoned, careful answer. I didn't have that much time, and certainly couldn't type anything more to him! I'm holding a pan with freaking four foot flames. So it occurs to me that I don't want to burn down the building. I look at the balcony. And run for it, none too carefully. I slosh a little more burning oil on the carpet. Lots more on the balcony, which seemed to catch fire for a second. Then threw the pan into the grill and shut it. It was still on fire, but no longer going to set anything else burning.
AND THEN I REMEMBER THE TWO EMBARRASSINGLY EASY WAYS TO PUT OUT AN OIL FIRE
1. Baking soda, flour, almost anything granular that would soak up the oil
2. Cover it up.
Really. That easy.
Please remember this if you almost set your home on fire!
And do your best not to spread the burning oil about your building.
I got out of it with a very minor burn on one toe and some carpet damage. So that's okay. Just somewhat terrified at how easily I lost my head. That's not like me!
Anyway, when I (gently) heated up more oil, the zucchini came out *wonderfully*. It may be the most underrated vegetable in this country.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
So I was riding in an elevator with an older lady. She was probably about my size, yeah. She turns to me and asks, "Where did you get those jeans?"
I think - hmm, these are my oldest pair. They're so old that they've had permanent stains that have since faded away. Do I look that good in them? I tell her that I have no idea where they're from, as they're so old.
Then she elaborates,
"It's just that I can't find any jeans that fit with all this enormous fat I have blubbing around now."
Oh. I muttered something about how jeans always fit weird around the waist. Then, leaving the elevator, I realized what just happened.
She compares her body to mine, calling them blubby. She meant it perfectly innocently, of course. I am, thankfully, amused and not irritated at this one.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Any simple motivational ideas for me?
For some reason I'm having a hard time lately with myself. I've done very well exercising, up to an hour some days. I've noticed that my lungs don't struggle as much as when I began, which is a good sign that it's become a habit. But nutrition is much harder right now. I'm just so tired of food generally. But rather than just eating something healthy, since I feel neutral about it anyway, I go for old standbys.
I was laid off from my job. Apparently my work product was far above expectations, but they pretty much had no more work for me to do. So now I'm a full-time housewife (looking for work). A very different lifestyle from just six months ago, when I working and lawschooling. Still, I'm thrilled that I was laid off, as it was getting hard to look busy with only about an hour of actual work each day and my coworkers secretly seething at me for eating up company resources. So this is a nice break right now.
But my self-confidence isn't great. I should say, it's horrible. I don't think it's any one thing, although I'm sure that my job loss is a subconscious contributor, as well as the fear of not being able to find another one. I also had a dream recently that I was looking at myself 8 years ago, and thinking how wonderful my legs looked (that was at my lowest weight). When I remembered I had that dream, obviously I recalled that my legs don't look that nice. And that sums up how I've been feeling. Every time I see some part of myself, I notice some little puff of fat that I hadn't seen before. Not to mention issues I have about my arthritis, skin, hair, etc. Frustration is normal, but these sort of feelings are definitely unhealthy. So I'm hoping I haven't suddenly lost control over my brain again and have to find new ways to deal with my depression....
Well, the good news is that right now I actually have ample time to handle all these things. My apartment has never been cleaner. I do like being a housewife!
Thursday, April 07, 2011
This is the problem I've been having for a couple weeks. Unfortunate, because it's following a really wonderful first success at weight loss (and no, I don't think it's rebound/bad celebratory behavior, just a coincidence).
On weekends and maybe two nights a week I get fresh (ie, made right then) food. Three nights a week plus lunches are reheated/carry along/cold pre-prepared food. I'm actually getting really good at this making meals ahead thing. I have a number of tasty recipes that keep well, can be carried in bags or tupperware, can fit into a healthy diet, don't take too much time to make, etc, etc. I make meals for both of us (me and the lovely boyfriend) the day before, meaning that I can usually whip together four meals in half an hour.
Quite an accomplishment for somebody who once kept a tally of housefires due to cooking, and even once lit water on fire. No joke.
But...it's getting old. The problem's not variety or lack of flavor. It's really good food. It's just plain and simple love for just-made food. I'm a little neurotic about food freshness, maybe. For example, my boyfriend likes to get take-out food, but I don't like letting food sit and cool even for long enough to get home. I like it right out of the pan! Piping hot!
So that explains my behavior lately, I think. What behavior? Well, I've been just utterly uninterested in any food I bring along. Even if it's something great, like fajitas - I'd rather have a freshly prepared chicken breast with plain brown rice. I have the same feeling/attitude towards pre-packed food as I do towards a rock or a telephone. It doesn't feel like food. Resultingly, I've skipped a few prepared lunches and then binged around dinner time. A couple times I've picked up a sandwich or some other fast food. And don't even mention my willpower to resist the call of Indian or Thai food lately...stupid tikka masala!
My plan must be to start following the plan again. It allows for going out to eat (to a real restaurant) every two weeks, when I get my paycheck. That's not a bad way to live at all! I must find my way back on track...there's no way to eat well calorie wise in this decline healthy food/pick up fast food/binge cycle!
Apart from my willpower though.....is there anything you think I might be able to do to alleviate the pre-made food blues??
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
The day after tomorrow's my first new goal day (since restarting SP this spring). I'm certain I haven't hit my goal, which was meant to be very ambitious. And that's totally cool! Having an ambitious goal has been encouraging me to lose weight, and that's the point. I'm also going to emphasize every THIRD goal, rather than the end of each month. That way there's a bit of flexibility for a bad month.
I also don't have access to a good scale. Mine broke! I'm going to get one at the end of May if I'm still sticking to my exercise goals, but until then it's all about the non-scale victories!
And here they are, the first and in some ways, most important victories.
1) Some of my clothes fit better! This (my health situation) got to emergency status in part because I was running out of things to wear. Even my trusty hoodie that I've had for eight years and a range of 100 pounds was suddenly not fitting. Since I'm way too poor to buy new clothes, the decision was to lose weight! I'm not sure I'm quite ready to try on my hoodie yet, but soon I will. And I already have a lot more clothes that I can wear each day again.
2) Specifically, undergarments are fitting better. This is crazy stuff, but a big motivator was also that my new, super-super large underwear were squeezing my upper thighs and, of course, leaving those delightful imprints on my belly. And I just can't stand undergarments that don't fit right. They should be something you only have to think about once a day! And that situation has definitely resolved as well.
3) Even though I'd estimate I'm down only about 8 pounds (on an over-250 frame, that's a tiny difference), I get a different feeling when I look in the mirror. I think my face has a *slight* difference. My chest area's definitely lost a few ounces.
4) My pants are loose! That's right, release the balloons. I love these pants, but I'll be thrilled to get rid of them when they fall off my hips. They have that lovely way of hanging too low that could be mistaken for bad tailoring. But I know what it's from. It's because I'm rocking the healthy lifestyle.
As soon as I get on a (reliable) scale, I'll let everybody know what the official determination is (I know you're all on the edge of your seat!). But for now, this is really enough to keep me going. I've barely gotten started, and I already feel this much better...imagine how awesome I'm going to feel in a few more months!
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